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it's 11:30 and surprisingly I'm not that tired even though yesterday I got just under six hours of sleep and woke up at 4:30 today.

Maybe it's because of the sheer amount of work to do that's keeping me up and alive.

Hmm.

I don't know if I talked about this earlier but I kept my old phone for 4 years and only this year did I "upgrade" (though sometimes it feels like a downgrade). My sister's phone on the other hand, is only 1.5 years younger and guess who the hell wants an upgrade?

And on top of that it's ANOTHER iphone coming into this family. This is getting ridiculous. I only just got mine a few months ago and her phone isn't even that old but oh nooo step back, if she wants something she gets it. Like before she even got her current phone, her old phone was a "brick" nokia phone and she barely had it for even a year and always complained about wanting a new phone. I, on the other hand, had that same phone (different colour) for at least 2 years and I never complained.

But no, kids these days just want everything new and always take what they have for granted. Especially how she just conveniently "lost" that brick phone and then obviously had to get a new one to replace it. To this day I still highly doubt it actually got lost. And don't tell me off for being a pessimistic non-believer (sorry couldn't find better words) because you don't really know her like I do. 

And what on earth are my parents thinking? She spends pretty much every spare moment on her stupid ipod touch including the times she's "watching tv" (yeah right, it's one or the other geez) and if it's not that then it's facebook on the computer. If my parents think that getting her an iphone will not effect her chances of actually doing well in the HSC then I'm sorry, but they're delusional. In fact they know it's a bad idea (talked to them about it before) but hey, she's still getting one.

It's not like I'm some evil stepmother that you see in children's stories but I don't see why it can't wait until next year or at least the end of this year. She's suck a slacker as it is and having a portable distraction is not the answer. Oh well, I guess in the end it doesn't even effect me so hurray and meh.

And to back the slacker comment, this was my generic rant to SB today. If people have not had a part-time job before and they are looking for work, don't be so picky about where you work for your first job. You have no experience and like the popular complaint of "they won't hire me because they said I need experience but then how am I supposed to get experience?!" Well then the answer is take what you can get. Apply anywhere (within reason) and if an offer comes up, accept it. Of course you can always quit after a while after you've gained some experience.

Now that's not really the rant part yet but my point is that my sister, and many other people out there only want "cool" jobs like at hype DC, frozen yoghurt places, popular clothing stores, etc. (sorry, that's my take on what I think kids these days find cool). My point is if they don't accept you then shouldn't you look somewhere else because sometimes those jobs are hardly ever given to first time part-timers (not saying that's the case always). So my biggest beef is my retarded sister going "no I won't apply at McDonald's (etc) because it's yucky blah blah blah" well look, if you want to sit around and wait for someone to magically hand you a job then you do that. 

Ugh I just really hate people who think they are above something. Just take a job and work it out from there GEEZ. And I think a job could seriously put things into perspective. For example if you earn $20 an hour then something that costs YOU (and not your parents) $20 it makes you think "wow it takes me an hour to earn enough for this" and then you'd appreciate money a whole lot more. Or rather, what it takes to get that money. That was certainly the case for me, not that I was spending money frivolously before or anything. I think that would seriously help my sister since I swear she spends at least $50+ a week and it's not even hers, nor does she ask for that money she just takes it from our house as she sees fit and is dishonest about our "missing money" which pisses me off.

Liars and unappreciative people seriously piss me off.

Sorry for the rant guys.

Sorry, but no decent post today. I was going to go to bed at 8:30 because I thought my parents would tell me to do so as tomorrow I have to get up at 4:30 to get to Flemington. Yep. No, it's not because I want to (though I guess it will be an interesting first experience) but because tomorrow is another "farm" day... though just not at the farm.

However, like I said before I have a lot of work to do and it kind of feels wrong going to bed so early when I could use that time better and I probably won't be able to fall asleep anyway. Luckily at dinner, dad told me going to bed at 8:30 is too ridiculous and I'll just end up waking up at midnight and won't be able to go back to sleep (according to him). So he said go to bed at 10:30 which I think is much more reasonable although I wonder if less than 6 hours is enough (taking into account the time it takes to fall asleep). Well I survive on 6 normally but waking up at 4:30 will probably screw that up.

My dad's point was that if I'm tired tomorrow, go to bed earlier tomorrow instead of sleeping earlier today. Which never occurred to me and that's a pretty good idea. Although 10:30 is early for me anyway lol. I feel bad because I asked my friends who have already done the Flemington activity and they told me I should sleep early or I'll regret it and I feel like I'm betraying them by not listening to their advice properly D;

Ugh there are days when I can go without as much sleep (what is the meaning of 8 hours of sleep) and then there are days when that hits me so hard and today would be one of those days. Humans are so inefficient. I have so much work to do but my brain just fizzles after a few hours and then I get tired and nooo I'm getting no where.

So another chem quiz tomorrow. It may "only" be worth 5% but it's still better to get the marks where you can, especially if I fail the semester exam worth 60% == So tomorrow's is the last one and for the previous two, I mainly only "studied" and made sure I could do the questions on the sample quiz the night before. I looked at it a few times leading up to the quiz but pretty much only the day before I'd look at it and make sure I got every detail.

Yeah that paragraph is making very little sense as my brain is too frazzled. Anyway what I'm saying is this time I pretty much only started yesterday because I had no choice cause I was busy doing things for my other subjects. So I have the least confidence in this quiz and I wouldn't be surprised if I got 5/10 T_T I understood the questions in the sample but you know how sometimes if they change it just a little you don't get it anymore? Maybe that's just me. But yeah if that happens tomorrow then I'm doomed.

So I really hate chem and everything I hated learning in it back in year 11 and 12 is coming back and we're doing that stuff now (and obviously more) and ugh there's just no escaping it. It's a shame we HAVE TO do chemistry because I think for me, even if I study hard for it, there's just a limit for me.

Take the classic example of maths vs. English. Of course there's some that like both but in the HSC, some picked more maths than English because they knew they'd do better and for those people, English probably just doesn't sit well with them and so it's probably not a good idea to take more units of English (and vice versa if you like English more than maths). So yes, chemistry is just one of those subjects I don't think I'll ever truly understand or like.

And I just wasted all that just to make one point. Late hours make me spout rubbish.

There's so much cake my mum has resorted to freezing them...

So today was our last chem prac of the semester (though I bet we're still doing it next semester cause I still have to do chem). My partner and I call ourselves the "unlucky pair" because something always seems to go wrong during our prac such as putting in the wrong chemicals and having to start a section over, or that time she broke a conical flask and everyone just looked at us... (as people usually do when they hear glass shattering).

So I have succeeded in never forgetting my lab coat or safety glasses the whole semester and I SWEAR I packed my safety glasses into my bag and yet today of all days (I say this because this is the last one) it wasn't in my bag when it was prac time! UGH but I always always ALWAYS check that I bring them. And I did bring them because when I got home it wasn't on my desk either which is where they usually reside. Which just means they fell out of my bag somehow during the day which is weird because you would hear if something like that drops to the floor ==

Ugh so there was our bad luck for today's prac, at least it started before we started our prac. The prac was relatively okay but I got my lab coat dirty cause we were using dyes in this prac :( Also I'm sad because I had to pay two dollars to borrow safety glasses. You're not allowed to do experiments without them so you are forced to borrow from the chem office which is mean and makes you pay. Bio doesn't do that so here's another point to bio (they're so nice and just give it to you and then you return them afterwards).

Our demonstrator was nice and I felt bad because our partner and I took the longest in writing up everything into our books and of course the demonstrator can't leave until we finish and he signs us off (unlike that weird guy we had like three weeks ago). So yeah we were holding him back because we were so slow D: So the thing is my partner and I always call ourselves "dead last" because we do always seem to finish dead last and be the last or close to last people left in the labs. It's not like we even do the pracs slow so I don't get it T_T

So yes in true fashion, we finished our last prac together and were dead last. K., thanks for being an awesome lab partner and hopefully I'll see you around next semester though I doubt we'll be partners again cause we'll probably be in different groups.

It's 11:20 and I'm hungry T_T

Also I forgot to mention yesterday that FML seriously cause so much work to do for next week and masterchef is starting this sunday and last year I promised that this year I would watch every episode cause  I couldn't do that last year (stupid HSC). Noooo I want to watch masterchef (and probably will) but then less studying ugh.

I find it funny how before when I was carrying my work to the other room I realised that my pencil case is pink, the notepad paper things are pink, my chem lab notebook is pink (you get assigned one and different groups have different colours). I pointed this out to my dad that it's ridiculous everything I was carrying was pink and he's like "the pajamas you're wearing are pink too." Haha I didn't realise.

You can now roll your eyes over how silly this post is. Bye!

So this week our family has had two cakes all for my sister's birthday. The one we had on her actual birthday was black forest because that's what she wanted and I'm alright with that flavour but it's not the best. Well at least I always thought that if I didn't eat the cherry part then it would be okay but after eating some slices over the week I realised that even avoiding the cherry parts isn't enough and black forest does nothing for me and the cake itself isn't that nice :/

And then yesterday she brought home 1/4 of this massive mudcake leftover from her party and I only just had a tiny piece and it was soooo sweet (especially the icing) and so rich it's just too hard to eat. So yes, I'm guessing I don't really like mudcake either (even though I already knew that, I think). That cake cost $120 which is crazy ==

I have two mosquito bites on that patch of skin between your thumb and forefinger. So red it looks gross. Stupid greedy mosquito.

So next week is pretty horrible. You'd think that on the last week of semester things would die down so you can study for the exams. Okay, maybe no one thinks that but me. But no, so much work to do still it makes me sad. Things to do for next week: 

- Tuesday: submit another 2000 word thing for stupid agen (10%)
- Tuesday: complete all old practicals (this will take forever) and hand in lab book for bio (5%) and go collect some leaves and creepy bugs for our prac
- Thursday: STATS PRAC OMG which apparently has had a 20% pass rate for the last couple of years. Fuarrrr I am so screwed (worth 25% omg)
- Friday: another bio quiz which I haven't started studying for and doesn't look like I'll have time to do so any time soon T_T (10%)

Argh and needless to say I am probably going to fail the stupid agen semester exam worth 40% because I feel like I have learnt nothing all year. It's probably going to be like legal studies again where no matter how much you study, I still enter the exam feeling like I know nothing and each question takes me a buttload of time which I have because the ratio of amount of questions to time given is a bit ridiculous (but thank god anyway).

I mean I went over some lecture recordings for agen this afternoon and if you know me, then you know that I can't take naps ever. Well I seriously hate this one lecturer we have for agen because she is so monotone but not only that, every sentence she says seems to start with "umm" which is extremely annoying. On top of this, she seems extremely bored by her own lecture and always sighs. Look lady, if you are bored by your own stuff why are you even teaching this course. I hate it too but not like I can drop it.

And thanks to her being boring and seemingly annoyed with having to do the lectures I almost ended up falling asleep at the computer and ended up going and taking a nap. That is so sad.

Tired. So tired.

Yesterday, we were sent a copy of the end of semester biology exam's front page which tells us what's on the paper. It says:

"In SECTION A, there are 43 multiple-choice questions. For each question, choose ONLY ONE of the options. The most appropriate option for each question is worth 1 mark. However, some of the less appropriate options attract partial marks. For some (less than 10) of the questions, one of the options will attract a partial negative mark."

Wow just wow. Negative marking and partial marks? I've never seen this before. I'm totally looking forward to this exam (sarcasm).

Before this I was stressing out a little about our chem prac books. Every week when we do our prac we have to write down our results and answers to the questions in the lab manual and stuff. Sadly, my book is poorly organised and there are things missing here and there so I was worried about the fact that they are getting marked in week 13 because I'd have to go back and answer all the stuff I missed and I'm sure you understand how hard it is to fill in gaps from 10+ weeks ago.

In any case, our books are always signed off after the prac by the demonstrator who checks it and if it's satisfactory they sign and let us go. Of course there are some times when they don't care and just go "you can go" so I was worried about if I was missing something.

But fear not! Apparently that's it. Which I didn't expect. I emailed the first year chem co-ordinator and he said: 
"Your log books have been marked every week. They will be marked for the last time in your last lab in week 12 and then you will take them home."

That's awesome! Cause seriously all this time I thought they'd collect our books and read through what we actually wrote and deduct marks for missing or wrong info but thank god it's just the demonstrators signing off our books because of course they check it but they're just skimming over it quickly rather than looking carefully at everything.

Whew that's a lot off my mind. Unfortunately biology doesn't follow this and I will have to write up all old pracs before week 13 T_T 

What a day. I came this close to having my foot squashed by the car because mum just drove off even though I was still getting out of the car and then the open door whacked my side and it hurts.

For the record, that F in the title stands for "freaking" and not the other alternative.

So today I sincerely had the intention of doing some catch up posts but for some reason I got home quite late and ever since then I haven't really sat down on the computer to do anything meaningful. Plus, today is my sister's birthday so I think you understand my drift.

I'll just take this time to say that yesterday I was doing my usual blog readings and then I found out that the long awaited UPDATE is here:






omg Yamato I've waited for you for so long ﾌﾟｯ(※థэథ)∵.*.∵. I waited since the holidays before uni which was like 2 and a half months ago and now you decide to come out when exams are almost upon us?! Argh so mean. Luckily you're the first one out of the six characters to come out for season 2 otherwise I'd be pretty upset (hurray for the creators for liking him). 

However this costs $4.50 which is pretty decent for 15 chapters but nevertheless it is a heavy hit to my wallet and my money is declining at a really rapid pace (╥﹏╥) Oh well, I waited for it for so long so I have to do what I have to do. Now I only have like $7 left of my itunes card D:

So looking forward to it. Too bad I won't be able to pace myself and will probably finish by tomorrow. And then I'll have no more new material to read :(

My stomach is now extremely upset with me because at 8:30 or so I had the not-so-genius idea of making pearl milk tea and then drinking it, thinking that I could take it. But nope, my body can't handle milk plus that was the worst tasting thing ever. Not because I made it badly, but because I just don't like it. I'm glad I've never ordered milk teas from easyway - fruit teas for life thanks. However, the pearls will taste super awesome with passionfruit black ice tea when I make it again.

The irony of having pink eye is that it requires you to constantly wash your hands whenever you deal with the infected eye or else you might pass it on or it might spread to the other eye. The problem? Remember that time when I got retarded eczema on my fingers cause I was washing my hands too much and that plus retarded sensitive skin = not good? Well guess what I have again. Yep, stupid eczema on my fingers and it sucks. I was so enjoying my life after having gotten rid of it. 

It just sucks because it was either don't wash your hands and infect the other eye, or wash your hands but have lovely eczema again. Oh life, I love the choices you give me. Also, the last four days spent being blind was... interesting to say the least. Okay, not completely blind but my vision just sucks. I can't believe how bad my vision was (actually I can, it's just that I've forgotten). I was supposed to put on my glasses but I guess they're too strong now because every time I tried to put them on, I experienced what I like to term "fishbowl vision" which basically just makes my vision warped and all curvy and weird. Just imagine looking at stuff through a fishbowl...

I'm actually not sure if my glasses are actually too strong for me or if I'm just not accustomed to looking through them anymore. Everything just looks really weird through it and I get dizzy so it was either be blind or be dizzy. In any case, I'm glad that as of today, my vision is restored though since it has only been one day since the return of my contacts I think my vision is only 75% back so hopefully I'll be a-okay tomorrow. 

It's only autumn but I have been complaining about winter for ages. Why does it feel like autumn and spring are always quite cold, which makes 75% of the year cold, with only 25% nice and summery? GROSS. Anyway I have probably already said this but I'll do it again, the argument that goes "winter is good because if you're cold, you can put on more clothes but in summer if you're hot you can't take off your clothes" simply does NOT stand. 

Why? Well in winter, no matter how many layers I put on, I don't feel any better. Summer is bearable and I don't even care. Also, nothing is worse (exaggerating here) than the feeling of crawling into a freezing cold bed in winter. It doesn't matter how many blankets you pile on, or how many layers you are wearing but the minute you crawl in, it is so damn cold and it stays like that for the rest of the night. I get cramps from night til morning because I'm curled up in a ball because it's so cold. I can't even move and roll around to fall asleep.

So yes, the past two weeks has been dreadful because the bed is just too cold and that feeling is yucky but hurray! Today marks the day when my parents put in my electric blanket (this is the only highlight of every winter) so that shall not be a problem anymore. Unless I forget to turn it on before I go to bed. Which happens at least 3 times every year. Those days are the worst ugh. Anyway, my point is this never happens in summer and I crawl into bed happily and move freely without being cold or feeling uncomfortable so that is one of the many reasons why I love summer.

biology shall be the death of me tomorrow. No matter how much I study I think there's a limit to what I can possibly know and understand. In any case, the only good part about biology is the occasional amusing parts. One such part is when today our lecturer was talking about evolution (our topic for now) and he showed us this video:

I'm too tired to do these practice quiz questions properly so I've just been making "educated guesses" and I got 11/15 when I wasn't even putting in much effort. When I put in effort I got 12/15.

What does that mean. Does that prove what I said three weeks ago when I said  that perhaps I would have done better/just as well if I went into the bio quiz completely blind and just guessed?

Hmm...

Sometimes at the end of the day I feel happy because I think I've done enough work and then I think about all the other stuff I have left to do, especially studying my weak points for the upcoming exams and then I freak out because so much stuff to revise but so little time. Why is this always happening T_T

I am so sad today. So extremely sad. I was looking forward to going to uni because it was only two hours but no, when I woke up, out of all the things that could happen I freaking got stupid pink eye. I have no idea how that happened and I never had it before so I thought a couple of allergy drops would solve it but nope. I also tried those lubricant eye drops (for dry eyes) but that didn't work either. In the end I didn't end up going to uni because my eye was so gross (it's just one eye, not both) and I felt extremely guilty because it's not like I was "sick" it's just that I had a disgustingly gross red eye that would have creeped everyone out. Ugh. And it's also contagious. Double ugh.

And right now of course it's still freaking red. I look so retarded, one normal eye and one super red eye. And the problem is that pink eye has a high chance of spreading to the other eye so great, tomorrow I'll probably have two disgustingly red eyes. I don't know what to do, can I really go to uni like that? Sounds pretty petty to stay at home because of it but I really don't want to walk around with two super red eyes. What would you guys do? 

I don't want to skip tomorrow because it's such a long day and so much to catch up on if I do. I thought I'd be okay for bio quiz on Friday but I think I'll do even worse than last time because all the online revision things were so hard though I did get 12/15 for one of them so maybe there's hope yet (that mark doesn't go towards anything cause it's practice).

Looks like stupid agen finally got it together and they FINALLY released the second journal entry even though it was "due" two weeks ago. Now it's due next Monday and it looks so bloody painful because it's a whole page of survey like questions once again which I HATE because I hate justifying reasons for what I "think" about stuff. Geez, why can't it be like science or maths where I don't have to think and put my thoughts into words you like sdlkjfaslkfjsaflksf

And just like Bitter, stats will be the end of me. Everything in the tutorials and lectures is extremely fine and understandable and then you get to the prac stuff and BAM it seems completely unrelated and on a completely different level of hardness compared to what we've been learning. That is so not okay because the prac exam in three weeks is worth 25%. ARGH WHAT TO DO

Life is hard T_T

Wow 10:20 and I'm so tired I'm basically sitting here re-listening to a bio lecture for revision and my eyes just keep closing.

My nose is getting worse and is extremely blocked and is always runny. Ugh. You know how if you carry a bag for a long time it gets annoying? It's like that, but with my nose. Okay that sounded weird but I just meant it feels like my nose is "heavy" all the time cause it's always stupidly blocked.

Today I listened to music on my phone for 40 minutes and the battery went from 20% to 11%. Then, I tried draining the battery by leaving the music to play (but I wasn't listening to it) and after 3 hours it only went down from 11% to 5%. Wow apple you are weird.

After rewatching bio lectures for the bio quiz this week I realised that the bio lecturer isn't that bad and he does say some entertaining things now and then such as "this is where the pen and paper beats the ipad every time." And how he talks about occasional stupidity in males account for why at birth the ratio for males to females is 1.06 to 1 and then at around 20 it's 1:1.

I have no idea why I wrote "bio lightening it up" in my notes for this post. Oh well. You know, as I said before,  I don't really like some of the chem demonstrators. Most are alright. However I seriously like the bio demonstrators (exception of one though) cause they are quite entertaining, funny and helpful. I quite like Kate because last time we had her we had to make a risk assessment thing as part of the prac and she told us we should totally write this risk this other group did which was that "people might drink the ethanol that we need to use to clean the tables" and I was just like lol that's original and she said "well, you know how poor uni students are" which is totally true. And then she told us about how this other uni has a big ice machine no one uses and students use it to make slushies and yeah she's pretty cool.

Anyway, I'm super happy because my craptastic mark that I got for stats assessable exercise 2 got upgraded from 24/30 (which is really bad, only 80%) to 28/30! I didn't scab those marks or pester for them. Two of the marks that I "lost" was not writing down the p-value even though my method doesn't require it and if you add it then it's kind of redundant and has no point. The other two was not having a "biological and statistical conclusion" which I DID because I knew it had to be there.

So yup, got my marks so I'm happy. Still that loss of the last two sucks cause it wasn't normal and we can't assume normality blehhhh T_T At least I did better than my first exercise :D

of things that piss me off. Ugh Mondays are long and I always think "damn this will suck" but actually the mornings and most of the day is quite good. Then we get to the afternoon and things just turn sour really quickly and I feel like I get into a foul mood so easily now.

Reasons why I feel agitated and pissed right now:

1. stupid chem demonstrators 

Seriously, some of them just really suck and I'm glad we get a different one every week because if we got the crappy ones again I'd be seriously pissed. One example: two or three weeks ago we had this guy and he NEVER helped my partner and I when we were well behind and needed help and he only stuck with the pairs who knew what they were doing and I seriously felt like he just had nice unrelated chats with them when you are supposed to be there to HELP. Ugh. Hope I never see you again.

And then today we had this guy and he was alright, but then he came around checking on where people were up to then he got to us and I told him we were up to part B and he was all like "PART B?! You know you guys are so behind. No, stop what you are doing and move on. HURRY UP move to the next part!" 

Ugh the thing is, my partner and I weren't EVEN behind and we were answering the questions in the book which you have to do before you move onto the next part (they really stress recording results as you do the experiment, not going home and doing it). And the questions were SUPER lengthy but even so, we weren't even behind, I swear we were only 45 minutes in and had a perfectly good 2 hours 15 minutes to finish the prac. His stupid overreaction and him making us not do it properly and sound super slow pissed me off. 

In the end we finished the earliest we ever had, at 4:20 or so instead of 5:00 but that's because most people didn't even do the last part of the experiment and left. What's more, people didn't answer the questions and left because he said he wasn't going to check even though every week our books are supposed to get marked off by a demonstrator. I seriously put it down to him just wanting to get the hell out of there as early as possible and rushing us so he could do so. Screw you mister. And you know, my partner and I were the last to leave at 4:20 and the demo guy was already long gone. Hmph, better not see you again.

2. stupid people with stupid standards

I hate this one person who is always like "meet me at 2" and then doesn't even show up until 2:10 or later. That's fine and all until when you tell them to meet you at 4 and then you get there at 4 instead of being early and then they complain that they've been waiting there for 10 minutes or so.  Pick ONE expectation and freaking stick to it geez. If you want people to be on time or early for you then you better do the same in return.

3. people who don't respect personal space... or just take up TOO much space

Ugh crappy train ride back because I sat down and then this lady sat next to me and totally took up half of MY seat. As in you know those trains that have sort of like three "grooves" in the top of the seat and you know three people are meant to sit there? Yeah well she took up one of those and encroached onto half of my seat. God. And then she proceeded to take out a book and read it, while sticking her stupid elbows pretty much into my side. I really dislike people like you.

My complaints seem really superficial but ugh can't help it.

Oh goodness, that extremely satisfying feeling you get when you realise everything is DONE for this week and I actually have TIME to just sit and do nothing. It has seriously been a long and hard week but it is over. You have no idea how good it is to not be rushing about doing stuff but instead, being able to enjoy a book or something.

However there are unfortunately a couple of bad things (isn't there always). Firstly, it sucks that today isn't Friday even though my brain keeps tricking me into thinking it is. If it was it would be so chill tomorrow because it would be Saturday but no, tomorrow is Friday which is the farm. Yes, the farm is better than stupid agen lectures but if it was a choice of farm or no farm tomorrow, I'd pick no farm because I'm really tired and it's so far away and so it takes a lot of hours of my day.

Secondly, I'm only allowing myself a break today, tomorrow (I can't do work after such a long day) and Saturday and then Sunday to Friday shall be spent cramming for bio quiz (ugh again!) which is on Friday. And THEN after that I guess it's time to do the stupid agen 2000 word thing except last time was a "draft" and then this is the "final."

I was feeling good before but now since I got on the computer just for a bit (it's been like half an hour) to check up on uni stuff and announcements, my insanely painful headache has returned. I think my body is rejecting the computer since I've spent so much time on it this week doing assignments and research. Can't wait until after the farm tomorrow cause then I can officially relax.

It's been a long time since I got an email asking for people to take in "unwanted" pets (my uni email). Ugh I hate the word unwanted but I don't know what else to say. This time it was 3 kittens and they are so damn cute I wish I could just take one but I can't T_T

Goodness it's only 12 and I'm feeling so damn beat. I feel so bad right now and so so tired and all I did was go to bed at like 1:30 for the past two days because of stupid assignments. Today was awful because when I woke up I had the worst stomach pains ever (even worse than my usual daily stomach aches) and ugh, not a good start to my day.

Went for two hours of lectures, felt extremely dead and tired. Caught a train back and fell asleep and only just managed to wake up the stop before mine. Seriously almost missed it because I was weirdly in a deepish sleep for once but something in my subconscious was like "you better wake up dude" and when I blearily looked outside I was like "oh crap this is the stop before mine." To top it all off, dad couldn't pick me up from the station because today of all days he accidentally managed to lock both the house key AND the car key inside so I had to walk home. First world problems, I know. It's just that it was really sunny plus like I said, I was really tired mentally and I had no desire to tire myself out physically either. But oh well, had no choice but to walk home.

Oh yeah, I wasn't mad at dad about that or anything and I was just sad I had to walk because it takes quite a bit of time compared to if you get driven (obviously) and I wanted to get home earlier so I could finish stupid agen and study for chem. 

So to add on to this miserable day, even though I finished agen yesterday, the stupid stupid referencing took me 3 hours because it's in this stupid stupid style that NO ONE uses and is as confusing as hell. Had to google it since it's so unpopular and every website told me something different == Just stick to Harvard style, stupid agen. Why do you have to be different.

Because of that I didn't really study much for chem. I studied earlier, when the sample quiz first came out two weeks ago but when I looked at it earlier tonight I was suddenly like "oh god I don't remember this stuff." I'll probably get 7/10 tomorrow sigh. Chem is the only subject I have 100% for cause we haven't had anything major tested yet. 

And now I should sleep. After naruto. Why did they go on break last week, they didn't even tell us == HURRAY TOMORROW IT'S OVER. We originally had something due Friday too but don't forget how I mentioned agen is stupid and never even gave us the assignment and it's Wednesday now so it better be extended because how dare you assume that you can release it on Friday and make it due that day too. 

Quiz finishes at 12 and then I'm done for this week. Must CELEBRATE the end of this awful week.

FUARRRRRR finally succeeded in writing 1500 words of pure and utter bullcrap for this damn agen assignment. I wasn't even doing this last minute, it's just hard trying to write about things that you don't even know and trying to answer questions which are specific and gross and hard to research for. I should stop abusing the word "and" but I'm too tired. Everyone else had/is having just as much trouble as I did and a lot of people are starting late (the day before even).

This isn't even due until tomorrow midnight but I wanted it done today because I wanted to use tomorrow to study for chem quiz on Thursday. I'm done but I know that I'll still be doing it tomorrow because whenever I finish things early I look at it and feel like it's not satisfactory and then I end up changing stuff == Sigh I can't wait until after chem quiz cause then stupid agen will be done and submitted and I won't be going "oh I want to change this and this and this cause it's not good enough."

That SUPER GOOD feeling you get when you're finally done with two assignments (stats and bio) and you can close all the crap load of relevant windows you had open such as word, notepads, LMS (blackboard) pages with the criteria that has to be covered by your assignment etc.

That BAD feeling where you read the wrong experiment in the lab manual and had to do the pre-lab quiz while going "what the hell? The answers aren't even in the lab manual for this experiment." So then you answer it with your basic knowledge of DNA you learnt from year 10 science. And then you get 5/5 :D But then you realise that the stuff was in the lab manual all along but you just read the wrong pages. D'oh.

And last but not least, that AWFUL realisation that I haven't really done much for that stupid agen report thing (I don't even know what it is) and so tomorrow will be a late night spent trying to scrounge 1500 more words for that stupid 2000 word thing.

One day down, four more to go.

Oh god I really can't wait until this week is over because this week feels just as bad as when our exam week will feel like. So many things to do and as usual, so little time and you can't understand enough how badly I want this week to just disappear because after this, there isn't really anything that major until the exams (aside from little "quiz" and "exercise" things here and there).

So in short, here is the week of doom that's coming:

- Monday: stats assessable exercise 3 due (5%)
- Tuesday: bio lab report due (the one I was always complaining about) - 7 pages, 15%
- Wednesday: stupid stupid agen 2000 word draft due and god knows how I'll be writing that, 10%
- Thursday: chem tutorial quiz 5%
- Friday: another stupid stupid agen journal entry, 4%? (well 10% divided by 3)

So yes. That might not sound like much but the first three take a very long time to actually get done, even with no procrastination. Not to mention that everyday I have to juggle and it's not as simple as "a task per day." I have no idea where I'll fit in studying for the chem quiz. Probably stay up the night before? Oh hurray x_x 

And you have no idea how much I dislike not only the agen subject, but the people who run it/teach it/are in charge of it. Seriously. That stupid journal entry was supposed to be due tomorrow but guess what? On Friday the task wasn't even out and you know what? It's not even out right now. It got postponed and is due this Friday yet we still don't have the task. Good organisation right there.

Not only that, for every other subject I do, if there are questions on the discussion board posted by the students, they're answered quite quickly. Well guess what? Out of the at least 20+ questions on the agen discussion board since the start of this semester, they have only answered about TWO. They really don't care about us and I wouldn't be surprised if we all had to repeat it next year because of failing.



^ Here's a recent post on the board and this guy should get applause from everyone because he sums up all our frustration well. 

God what's the point in trying to get distinction or even credit in my other subjects when I'm pretty sure failing agen will just undo all that work.

Ugh so so so super duper tired. Also freaking hell we did stats assignment wrong again so it's going to be fun fixing that up (sarcasm). Stats is too misleading.

Wowcow salted caramel is disgusting. I like caramel but salted caramel should not be a froyo flavour. I only like werther's but I'd never make salted caramel flavoured food (cakes, ice-cream etc).

That's all I have for today.

Oh goodness I got trolled by my timetable. I forgot about the chem tutorial quiz that's happening next week so I haven't really been "studying" for it per se because I thought it was in two week's time. Damn. Everyone kept telling me it was next week and I thought that it was next week for them but not for me cause they do the other chem but nope, mine's next week too T_T I thought it was on the same weeks we have bio quizzes that's why I thought it was in 2 week's time not next week sigh. My timetable only tells me which weeks I have bio quizzes and not chem quizzes D;

So aside from assignments due next week (including stupid 2000 word report for agen that I haven't started because too much work to do just for agen tutes), there's studying for chem quiz and then bio quiz the week after. Fun. It's sad because in the lectures and tutorials I feel like I understand chem but just then I did the sample quiz and suddenly, even though the questions seemed familiar I wasn't the least bit confident in figuring out the answers. Oh god, I have a lot of work to do if I want to pass :/ I hate multiple choice.

At least I finished stats assignment! Though whether I did it correctly or not is another question... inb4 I have to re-do it due to stupid mistakes T_T Not quite sure what I'm doing tomorrow afternoon... To wait for the lecture or to go home, hmm..

Yesterday I got more sleep than the two days before and I yet I fell asleep on the train. Yet when I don't get much sleep, I can't fall asleep on the train. That logic, body, that logic.

it's 11:30 and surprisingly I'm not that tired even though yesterday I got just under six hours of sleep and woke up at 4:30 today.

Maybe it's because of the sheer amount of work to do that's keeping me up and alive.

Hmm.

I don't know if I talked about this earlier but I kept my old phone for 4 years and only this year did I "upgrade" (though sometimes it feels like a downgrade). My sister's phone on the other hand, is only 1.5 years younger and guess who the hell wants an upgrade?

And on top of that it's ANOTHER iphone coming into this family. This is getting ridiculous. I only just got mine a few months ago and her phone isn't even that old but oh nooo step back, if she wants something she gets it. Like before she even got her current phone, her old phone was a "brick" nokia phone and she barely had it for even a year and always complained about wanting a new phone. I, on the other hand, had that same phone (different colour) for at least 2 years and I never complained.

But no, kids these days just want everything new and always take what they have for granted. Especially how she just conveniently "lost" that brick phone and then obviously had to get a new one to replace it. To this day I still highly doubt it actually got lost. And don't tell me off for being a pessimistic non-believer (sorry couldn't find better words) because you don't really know her like I do. 

And what on earth are my parents thinking? She spends pretty much every spare moment on her stupid ipod touch including the times she's "watching tv" (yeah right, it's one or the other geez) and if it's not that then it's facebook on the computer. If my parents think that getting her an iphone will not effect her chances of actually doing well in the HSC then I'm sorry, but they're delusional. In fact they know it's a bad idea (talked to them about it before) but hey, she's still getting one.

It's not like I'm some evil stepmother that you see in children's stories but I don't see why it can't wait until next year or at least the end of this year. She's suck a slacker as it is and having a portable distraction is not the answer. Oh well, I guess in the end it doesn't even effect me so hurray and meh.

And to back the slacker comment, this was my generic rant to SB today. If people have not had a part-time job before and they are looking for work, don't be so picky about where you work for your first job. You have no experience and like the popular complaint of "they won't hire me because they said I need experience but then how am I supposed to get experience?!" Well then the answer is take what you can get. Apply anywhere (within reason) and if an offer comes up, accept it. Of course you can always quit after a while after you've gained some experience.

Now that's not really the rant part yet but my point is that my sister, and many other people out there only want "cool" jobs like at hype DC, frozen yoghurt places, popular clothing stores, etc. (sorry, that's my take on what I think kids these days find cool). My point is if they don't accept you then shouldn't you look somewhere else because sometimes those jobs are hardly ever given to first time part-timers (not saying that's the case always). So my biggest beef is my retarded sister going "no I won't apply at McDonald's (etc) because it's yucky blah blah blah" well look, if you want to sit around and wait for someone to magically hand you a job then you do that. 

Ugh I just really hate people who think they are above something. Just take a job and work it out from there GEEZ. And I think a job could seriously put things into perspective. For example if you earn $20 an hour then something that costs YOU (and not your parents) $20 it makes you think "wow it takes me an hour to earn enough for this" and then you'd appreciate money a whole lot more. Or rather, what it takes to get that money. That was certainly the case for me, not that I was spending money frivolously before or anything. I think that would seriously help my sister since I swear she spends at least $50+ a week and it's not even hers, nor does she ask for that money she just takes it from our house as she sees fit and is dishonest about our "missing money" which pisses me off.

Liars and unappreciative people seriously piss me off.

Sorry for the rant guys.

Sorry, but no decent post today. I was going to go to bed at 8:30 because I thought my parents would tell me to do so as tomorrow I have to get up at 4:30 to get to Flemington. Yep. No, it's not because I want to (though I guess it will be an interesting first experience) but because tomorrow is another "farm" day... though just not at the farm.

However, like I said before I have a lot of work to do and it kind of feels wrong going to bed so early when I could use that time better and I probably won't be able to fall asleep anyway. Luckily at dinner, dad told me going to bed at 8:30 is too ridiculous and I'll just end up waking up at midnight and won't be able to go back to sleep (according to him). So he said go to bed at 10:30 which I think is much more reasonable although I wonder if less than 6 hours is enough (taking into account the time it takes to fall asleep). Well I survive on 6 normally but waking up at 4:30 will probably screw that up.

My dad's point was that if I'm tired tomorrow, go to bed earlier tomorrow instead of sleeping earlier today. Which never occurred to me and that's a pretty good idea. Although 10:30 is early for me anyway lol. I feel bad because I asked my friends who have already done the Flemington activity and they told me I should sleep early or I'll regret it and I feel like I'm betraying them by not listening to their advice properly D;

Ugh there are days when I can go without as much sleep (what is the meaning of 8 hours of sleep) and then there are days when that hits me so hard and today would be one of those days. Humans are so inefficient. I have so much work to do but my brain just fizzles after a few hours and then I get tired and nooo I'm getting no where.

So another chem quiz tomorrow. It may "only" be worth 5% but it's still better to get the marks where you can, especially if I fail the semester exam worth 60% == So tomorrow's is the last one and for the previous two, I mainly only "studied" and made sure I could do the questions on the sample quiz the night before. I looked at it a few times leading up to the quiz but pretty much only the day before I'd look at it and make sure I got every detail.

Yeah that paragraph is making very little sense as my brain is too frazzled. Anyway what I'm saying is this time I pretty much only started yesterday because I had no choice cause I was busy doing things for my other subjects. So I have the least confidence in this quiz and I wouldn't be surprised if I got 5/10 T_T I understood the questions in the sample but you know how sometimes if they change it just a little you don't get it anymore? Maybe that's just me. But yeah if that happens tomorrow then I'm doomed.

So I really hate chem and everything I hated learning in it back in year 11 and 12 is coming back and we're doing that stuff now (and obviously more) and ugh there's just no escaping it. It's a shame we HAVE TO do chemistry because I think for me, even if I study hard for it, there's just a limit for me.

Take the classic example of maths vs. English. Of course there's some that like both but in the HSC, some picked more maths than English because they knew they'd do better and for those people, English probably just doesn't sit well with them and so it's probably not a good idea to take more units of English (and vice versa if you like English more than maths). So yes, chemistry is just one of those subjects I don't think I'll ever truly understand or like.

And I just wasted all that just to make one point. Late hours make me spout rubbish.

There's so much cake my mum has resorted to freezing them...

So today was our last chem prac of the semester (though I bet we're still doing it next semester cause I still have to do chem). My partner and I call ourselves the "unlucky pair" because something always seems to go wrong during our prac such as putting in the wrong chemicals and having to start a section over, or that time she broke a conical flask and everyone just looked at us... (as people usually do when they hear glass shattering).

So I have succeeded in never forgetting my lab coat or safety glasses the whole semester and I SWEAR I packed my safety glasses into my bag and yet today of all days (I say this because this is the last one) it wasn't in my bag when it was prac time! UGH but I always always ALWAYS check that I bring them. And I did bring them because when I got home it wasn't on my desk either which is where they usually reside. Which just means they fell out of my bag somehow during the day which is weird because you would hear if something like that drops to the floor ==

Ugh so there was our bad luck for today's prac, at least it started before we started our prac. The prac was relatively okay but I got my lab coat dirty cause we were using dyes in this prac :( Also I'm sad because I had to pay two dollars to borrow safety glasses. You're not allowed to do experiments without them so you are forced to borrow from the chem office which is mean and makes you pay. Bio doesn't do that so here's another point to bio (they're so nice and just give it to you and then you return them afterwards).

Our demonstrator was nice and I felt bad because our partner and I took the longest in writing up everything into our books and of course the demonstrator can't leave until we finish and he signs us off (unlike that weird guy we had like three weeks ago). So yeah we were holding him back because we were so slow D: So the thing is my partner and I always call ourselves "dead last" because we do always seem to finish dead last and be the last or close to last people left in the labs. It's not like we even do the pracs slow so I don't get it T_T

So yes in true fashion, we finished our last prac together and were dead last. K., thanks for being an awesome lab partner and hopefully I'll see you around next semester though I doubt we'll be partners again cause we'll probably be in different groups.

It's 11:20 and I'm hungry T_T

Also I forgot to mention yesterday that FML seriously cause so much work to do for next week and masterchef is starting this sunday and last year I promised that this year I would watch every episode cause  I couldn't do that last year (stupid HSC). Noooo I want to watch masterchef (and probably will) but then less studying ugh.

I find it funny how before when I was carrying my work to the other room I realised that my pencil case is pink, the notepad paper things are pink, my chem lab notebook is pink (you get assigned one and different groups have different colours). I pointed this out to my dad that it's ridiculous everything I was carrying was pink and he's like "the pajamas you're wearing are pink too." Haha I didn't realise.

You can now roll your eyes over how silly this post is. Bye!

So this week our family has had two cakes all for my sister's birthday. The one we had on her actual birthday was black forest because that's what she wanted and I'm alright with that flavour but it's not the best. Well at least I always thought that if I didn't eat the cherry part then it would be okay but after eating some slices over the week I realised that even avoiding the cherry parts isn't enough and black forest does nothing for me and the cake itself isn't that nice :/

And then yesterday she brought home 1/4 of this massive mudcake leftover from her party and I only just had a tiny piece and it was soooo sweet (especially the icing) and so rich it's just too hard to eat. So yes, I'm guessing I don't really like mudcake either (even though I already knew that, I think). That cake cost $120 which is crazy ==

I have two mosquito bites on that patch of skin between your thumb and forefinger. So red it looks gross. Stupid greedy mosquito.

So next week is pretty horrible. You'd think that on the last week of semester things would die down so you can study for the exams. Okay, maybe no one thinks that but me. But no, so much work to do still it makes me sad. Things to do for next week: 

- Tuesday: submit another 2000 word thing for stupid agen (10%)
- Tuesday: complete all old practicals (this will take forever) and hand in lab book for bio (5%) and go collect some leaves and creepy bugs for our prac
- Thursday: STATS PRAC OMG which apparently has had a 20% pass rate for the last couple of years. Fuarrrr I am so screwed (worth 25% omg)
- Friday: another bio quiz which I haven't started studying for and doesn't look like I'll have time to do so any time soon T_T (10%)

Argh and needless to say I am probably going to fail the stupid agen semester exam worth 40% because I feel like I have learnt nothing all year. It's probably going to be like legal studies again where no matter how much you study, I still enter the exam feeling like I know nothing and each question takes me a buttload of time which I have because the ratio of amount of questions to time given is a bit ridiculous (but thank god anyway).

I mean I went over some lecture recordings for agen this afternoon and if you know me, then you know that I can't take naps ever. Well I seriously hate this one lecturer we have for agen because she is so monotone but not only that, every sentence she says seems to start with "umm" which is extremely annoying. On top of this, she seems extremely bored by her own lecture and always sighs. Look lady, if you are bored by your own stuff why are you even teaching this course. I hate it too but not like I can drop it.

And thanks to her being boring and seemingly annoyed with having to do the lectures I almost ended up falling asleep at the computer and ended up going and taking a nap. That is so sad.

Tired. So tired.

Yesterday, we were sent a copy of the end of semester biology exam's front page which tells us what's on the paper. It says:

"In SECTION A, there are 43 multiple-choice questions. For each question, choose ONLY ONE of the options. The most appropriate option for each question is worth 1 mark. However, some of the less appropriate options attract partial marks. For some (less than 10) of the questions, one of the options will attract a partial negative mark."

Wow just wow. Negative marking and partial marks? I've never seen this before. I'm totally looking forward to this exam (sarcasm).

Before this I was stressing out a little about our chem prac books. Every week when we do our prac we have to write down our results and answers to the questions in the lab manual and stuff. Sadly, my book is poorly organised and there are things missing here and there so I was worried about the fact that they are getting marked in week 13 because I'd have to go back and answer all the stuff I missed and I'm sure you understand how hard it is to fill in gaps from 10+ weeks ago.

In any case, our books are always signed off after the prac by the demonstrator who checks it and if it's satisfactory they sign and let us go. Of course there are some times when they don't care and just go "you can go" so I was worried about if I was missing something.

But fear not! Apparently that's it. Which I didn't expect. I emailed the first year chem co-ordinator and he said: 
"Your log books have been marked every week. They will be marked for the last time in your last lab in week 12 and then you will take them home."

That's awesome! Cause seriously all this time I thought they'd collect our books and read through what we actually wrote and deduct marks for missing or wrong info but thank god it's just the demonstrators signing off our books because of course they check it but they're just skimming over it quickly rather than looking carefully at everything.

Whew that's a lot off my mind. Unfortunately biology doesn't follow this and I will have to write up all old pracs before week 13 T_T 

What a day. I came this close to having my foot squashed by the car because mum just drove off even though I was still getting out of the car and then the open door whacked my side and it hurts.

For the record, that F in the title stands for "freaking" and not the other alternative.

So today I sincerely had the intention of doing some catch up posts but for some reason I got home quite late and ever since then I haven't really sat down on the computer to do anything meaningful. Plus, today is my sister's birthday so I think you understand my drift.

I'll just take this time to say that yesterday I was doing my usual blog readings and then I found out that the long awaited UPDATE is here:






omg Yamato I've waited for you for so long ﾌﾟｯ(※థэథ)∵.*.∵. I waited since the holidays before uni which was like 2 and a half months ago and now you decide to come out when exams are almost upon us?! Argh so mean. Luckily you're the first one out of the six characters to come out for season 2 otherwise I'd be pretty upset (hurray for the creators for liking him). 

However this costs $4.50 which is pretty decent for 15 chapters but nevertheless it is a heavy hit to my wallet and my money is declining at a really rapid pace (╥﹏╥) Oh well, I waited for it for so long so I have to do what I have to do. Now I only have like $7 left of my itunes card D:

So looking forward to it. Too bad I won't be able to pace myself and will probably finish by tomorrow. And then I'll have no more new material to read :(

My stomach is now extremely upset with me because at 8:30 or so I had the not-so-genius idea of making pearl milk tea and then drinking it, thinking that I could take it. But nope, my body can't handle milk plus that was the worst tasting thing ever. Not because I made it badly, but because I just don't like it. I'm glad I've never ordered milk teas from easyway - fruit teas for life thanks. However, the pearls will taste super awesome with passionfruit black ice tea when I make it again.

The irony of having pink eye is that it requires you to constantly wash your hands whenever you deal with the infected eye or else you might pass it on or it might spread to the other eye. The problem? Remember that time when I got retarded eczema on my fingers cause I was washing my hands too much and that plus retarded sensitive skin = not good? Well guess what I have again. Yep, stupid eczema on my fingers and it sucks. I was so enjoying my life after having gotten rid of it. 

It just sucks because it was either don't wash your hands and infect the other eye, or wash your hands but have lovely eczema again. Oh life, I love the choices you give me. Also, the last four days spent being blind was... interesting to say the least. Okay, not completely blind but my vision just sucks. I can't believe how bad my vision was (actually I can, it's just that I've forgotten). I was supposed to put on my glasses but I guess they're too strong now because every time I tried to put them on, I experienced what I like to term "fishbowl vision" which basically just makes my vision warped and all curvy and weird. Just imagine looking at stuff through a fishbowl...

I'm actually not sure if my glasses are actually too strong for me or if I'm just not accustomed to looking through them anymore. Everything just looks really weird through it and I get dizzy so it was either be blind or be dizzy. In any case, I'm glad that as of today, my vision is restored though since it has only been one day since the return of my contacts I think my vision is only 75% back so hopefully I'll be a-okay tomorrow. 

It's only autumn but I have been complaining about winter for ages. Why does it feel like autumn and spring are always quite cold, which makes 75% of the year cold, with only 25% nice and summery? GROSS. Anyway I have probably already said this but I'll do it again, the argument that goes "winter is good because if you're cold, you can put on more clothes but in summer if you're hot you can't take off your clothes" simply does NOT stand. 

Why? Well in winter, no matter how many layers I put on, I don't feel any better. Summer is bearable and I don't even care. Also, nothing is worse (exaggerating here) than the feeling of crawling into a freezing cold bed in winter. It doesn't matter how many blankets you pile on, or how many layers you are wearing but the minute you crawl in, it is so damn cold and it stays like that for the rest of the night. I get cramps from night til morning because I'm curled up in a ball because it's so cold. I can't even move and roll around to fall asleep.

So yes, the past two weeks has been dreadful because the bed is just too cold and that feeling is yucky but hurray! Today marks the day when my parents put in my electric blanket (this is the only highlight of every winter) so that shall not be a problem anymore. Unless I forget to turn it on before I go to bed. Which happens at least 3 times every year. Those days are the worst ugh. Anyway, my point is this never happens in summer and I crawl into bed happily and move freely without being cold or feeling uncomfortable so that is one of the many reasons why I love summer.

biology shall be the death of me tomorrow. No matter how much I study I think there's a limit to what I can possibly know and understand. In any case, the only good part about biology is the occasional amusing parts. One such part is when today our lecturer was talking about evolution (our topic for now) and he showed us this video:

I'm too tired to do these practice quiz questions properly so I've just been making "educated guesses" and I got 11/15 when I wasn't even putting in much effort. When I put in effort I got 12/15.

What does that mean. Does that prove what I said three weeks ago when I said  that perhaps I would have done better/just as well if I went into the bio quiz completely blind and just guessed?

Hmm...

Sometimes at the end of the day I feel happy because I think I've done enough work and then I think about all the other stuff I have left to do, especially studying my weak points for the upcoming exams and then I freak out because so much stuff to revise but so little time. Why is this always happening T_T

I am so sad today. So extremely sad. I was looking forward to going to uni because it was only two hours but no, when I woke up, out of all the things that could happen I freaking got stupid pink eye. I have no idea how that happened and I never had it before so I thought a couple of allergy drops would solve it but nope. I also tried those lubricant eye drops (for dry eyes) but that didn't work either. In the end I didn't end up going to uni because my eye was so gross (it's just one eye, not both) and I felt extremely guilty because it's not like I was "sick" it's just that I had a disgustingly gross red eye that would have creeped everyone out. Ugh. And it's also contagious. Double ugh.

And right now of course it's still freaking red. I look so retarded, one normal eye and one super red eye. And the problem is that pink eye has a high chance of spreading to the other eye so great, tomorrow I'll probably have two disgustingly red eyes. I don't know what to do, can I really go to uni like that? Sounds pretty petty to stay at home because of it but I really don't want to walk around with two super red eyes. What would you guys do? 

I don't want to skip tomorrow because it's such a long day and so much to catch up on if I do. I thought I'd be okay for bio quiz on Friday but I think I'll do even worse than last time because all the online revision things were so hard though I did get 12/15 for one of them so maybe there's hope yet (that mark doesn't go towards anything cause it's practice).

Looks like stupid agen finally got it together and they FINALLY released the second journal entry even though it was "due" two weeks ago. Now it's due next Monday and it looks so bloody painful because it's a whole page of survey like questions once again which I HATE because I hate justifying reasons for what I "think" about stuff. Geez, why can't it be like science or maths where I don't have to think and put my thoughts into words you like sdlkjfaslkfjsaflksf

And just like Bitter, stats will be the end of me. Everything in the tutorials and lectures is extremely fine and understandable and then you get to the prac stuff and BAM it seems completely unrelated and on a completely different level of hardness compared to what we've been learning. That is so not okay because the prac exam in three weeks is worth 25%. ARGH WHAT TO DO

Life is hard T_T

Wow 10:20 and I'm so tired I'm basically sitting here re-listening to a bio lecture for revision and my eyes just keep closing.

My nose is getting worse and is extremely blocked and is always runny. Ugh. You know how if you carry a bag for a long time it gets annoying? It's like that, but with my nose. Okay that sounded weird but I just meant it feels like my nose is "heavy" all the time cause it's always stupidly blocked.

Today I listened to music on my phone for 40 minutes and the battery went from 20% to 11%. Then, I tried draining the battery by leaving the music to play (but I wasn't listening to it) and after 3 hours it only went down from 11% to 5%. Wow apple you are weird.

After rewatching bio lectures for the bio quiz this week I realised that the bio lecturer isn't that bad and he does say some entertaining things now and then such as "this is where the pen and paper beats the ipad every time." And how he talks about occasional stupidity in males account for why at birth the ratio for males to females is 1.06 to 1 and then at around 20 it's 1:1.

I have no idea why I wrote "bio lightening it up" in my notes for this post. Oh well. You know, as I said before,  I don't really like some of the chem demonstrators. Most are alright. However I seriously like the bio demonstrators (exception of one though) cause they are quite entertaining, funny and helpful. I quite like Kate because last time we had her we had to make a risk assessment thing as part of the prac and she told us we should totally write this risk this other group did which was that "people might drink the ethanol that we need to use to clean the tables" and I was just like lol that's original and she said "well, you know how poor uni students are" which is totally true. And then she told us about how this other uni has a big ice machine no one uses and students use it to make slushies and yeah she's pretty cool.

Anyway, I'm super happy because my craptastic mark that I got for stats assessable exercise 2 got upgraded from 24/30 (which is really bad, only 80%) to 28/30! I didn't scab those marks or pester for them. Two of the marks that I "lost" was not writing down the p-value even though my method doesn't require it and if you add it then it's kind of redundant and has no point. The other two was not having a "biological and statistical conclusion" which I DID because I knew it had to be there.

So yup, got my marks so I'm happy. Still that loss of the last two sucks cause it wasn't normal and we can't assume normality blehhhh T_T At least I did better than my first exercise :D

of things that piss me off. Ugh Mondays are long and I always think "damn this will suck" but actually the mornings and most of the day is quite good. Then we get to the afternoon and things just turn sour really quickly and I feel like I get into a foul mood so easily now.

Reasons why I feel agitated and pissed right now:

1. stupid chem demonstrators 

Seriously, some of them just really suck and I'm glad we get a different one every week because if we got the crappy ones again I'd be seriously pissed. One example: two or three weeks ago we had this guy and he NEVER helped my partner and I when we were well behind and needed help and he only stuck with the pairs who knew what they were doing and I seriously felt like he just had nice unrelated chats with them when you are supposed to be there to HELP. Ugh. Hope I never see you again.

And then today we had this guy and he was alright, but then he came around checking on where people were up to then he got to us and I told him we were up to part B and he was all like "PART B?! You know you guys are so behind. No, stop what you are doing and move on. HURRY UP move to the next part!" 

Ugh the thing is, my partner and I weren't EVEN behind and we were answering the questions in the book which you have to do before you move onto the next part (they really stress recording results as you do the experiment, not going home and doing it). And the questions were SUPER lengthy but even so, we weren't even behind, I swear we were only 45 minutes in and had a perfectly good 2 hours 15 minutes to finish the prac. His stupid overreaction and him making us not do it properly and sound super slow pissed me off. 

In the end we finished the earliest we ever had, at 4:20 or so instead of 5:00 but that's because most people didn't even do the last part of the experiment and left. What's more, people didn't answer the questions and left because he said he wasn't going to check even though every week our books are supposed to get marked off by a demonstrator. I seriously put it down to him just wanting to get the hell out of there as early as possible and rushing us so he could do so. Screw you mister. And you know, my partner and I were the last to leave at 4:20 and the demo guy was already long gone. Hmph, better not see you again.

2. stupid people with stupid standards

I hate this one person who is always like "meet me at 2" and then doesn't even show up until 2:10 or later. That's fine and all until when you tell them to meet you at 4 and then you get there at 4 instead of being early and then they complain that they've been waiting there for 10 minutes or so.  Pick ONE expectation and freaking stick to it geez. If you want people to be on time or early for you then you better do the same in return.

3. people who don't respect personal space... or just take up TOO much space

Ugh crappy train ride back because I sat down and then this lady sat next to me and totally took up half of MY seat. As in you know those trains that have sort of like three "grooves" in the top of the seat and you know three people are meant to sit there? Yeah well she took up one of those and encroached onto half of my seat. God. And then she proceeded to take out a book and read it, while sticking her stupid elbows pretty much into my side. I really dislike people like you.

My complaints seem really superficial but ugh can't help it.

Oh goodness, that extremely satisfying feeling you get when you realise everything is DONE for this week and I actually have TIME to just sit and do nothing. It has seriously been a long and hard week but it is over. You have no idea how good it is to not be rushing about doing stuff but instead, being able to enjoy a book or something.

However there are unfortunately a couple of bad things (isn't there always). Firstly, it sucks that today isn't Friday even though my brain keeps tricking me into thinking it is. If it was it would be so chill tomorrow because it would be Saturday but no, tomorrow is Friday which is the farm. Yes, the farm is better than stupid agen lectures but if it was a choice of farm or no farm tomorrow, I'd pick no farm because I'm really tired and it's so far away and so it takes a lot of hours of my day.

Secondly, I'm only allowing myself a break today, tomorrow (I can't do work after such a long day) and Saturday and then Sunday to Friday shall be spent cramming for bio quiz (ugh again!) which is on Friday. And THEN after that I guess it's time to do the stupid agen 2000 word thing except last time was a "draft" and then this is the "final."

I was feeling good before but now since I got on the computer just for a bit (it's been like half an hour) to check up on uni stuff and announcements, my insanely painful headache has returned. I think my body is rejecting the computer since I've spent so much time on it this week doing assignments and research. Can't wait until after the farm tomorrow cause then I can officially relax.

It's been a long time since I got an email asking for people to take in "unwanted" pets (my uni email). Ugh I hate the word unwanted but I don't know what else to say. This time it was 3 kittens and they are so damn cute I wish I could just take one but I can't T_T

Goodness it's only 12 and I'm feeling so damn beat. I feel so bad right now and so so tired and all I did was go to bed at like 1:30 for the past two days because of stupid assignments. Today was awful because when I woke up I had the worst stomach pains ever (even worse than my usual daily stomach aches) and ugh, not a good start to my day.

Went for two hours of lectures, felt extremely dead and tired. Caught a train back and fell asleep and only just managed to wake up the stop before mine. Seriously almost missed it because I was weirdly in a deepish sleep for once but something in my subconscious was like "you better wake up dude" and when I blearily looked outside I was like "oh crap this is the stop before mine." To top it all off, dad couldn't pick me up from the station because today of all days he accidentally managed to lock both the house key AND the car key inside so I had to walk home. First world problems, I know. It's just that it was really sunny plus like I said, I was really tired mentally and I had no desire to tire myself out physically either. But oh well, had no choice but to walk home.

Oh yeah, I wasn't mad at dad about that or anything and I was just sad I had to walk because it takes quite a bit of time compared to if you get driven (obviously) and I wanted to get home earlier so I could finish stupid agen and study for chem. 

So to add on to this miserable day, even though I finished agen yesterday, the stupid stupid referencing took me 3 hours because it's in this stupid stupid style that NO ONE uses and is as confusing as hell. Had to google it since it's so unpopular and every website told me something different == Just stick to Harvard style, stupid agen. Why do you have to be different.

Because of that I didn't really study much for chem. I studied earlier, when the sample quiz first came out two weeks ago but when I looked at it earlier tonight I was suddenly like "oh god I don't remember this stuff." I'll probably get 7/10 tomorrow sigh. Chem is the only subject I have 100% for cause we haven't had anything major tested yet. 

And now I should sleep. After naruto. Why did they go on break last week, they didn't even tell us == HURRAY TOMORROW IT'S OVER. We originally had something due Friday too but don't forget how I mentioned agen is stupid and never even gave us the assignment and it's Wednesday now so it better be extended because how dare you assume that you can release it on Friday and make it due that day too. 

Quiz finishes at 12 and then I'm done for this week. Must CELEBRATE the end of this awful week.

FUARRRRRR finally succeeded in writing 1500 words of pure and utter bullcrap for this damn agen assignment. I wasn't even doing this last minute, it's just hard trying to write about things that you don't even know and trying to answer questions which are specific and gross and hard to research for. I should stop abusing the word "and" but I'm too tired. Everyone else had/is having just as much trouble as I did and a lot of people are starting late (the day before even).

This isn't even due until tomorrow midnight but I wanted it done today because I wanted to use tomorrow to study for chem quiz on Thursday. I'm done but I know that I'll still be doing it tomorrow because whenever I finish things early I look at it and feel like it's not satisfactory and then I end up changing stuff == Sigh I can't wait until after chem quiz cause then stupid agen will be done and submitted and I won't be going "oh I want to change this and this and this cause it's not good enough."

That SUPER GOOD feeling you get when you're finally done with two assignments (stats and bio) and you can close all the crap load of relevant windows you had open such as word, notepads, LMS (blackboard) pages with the criteria that has to be covered by your assignment etc.

That BAD feeling where you read the wrong experiment in the lab manual and had to do the pre-lab quiz while going "what the hell? The answers aren't even in the lab manual for this experiment." So then you answer it with your basic knowledge of DNA you learnt from year 10 science. And then you get 5/5 :D But then you realise that the stuff was in the lab manual all along but you just read the wrong pages. D'oh.

And last but not least, that AWFUL realisation that I haven't really done much for that stupid agen report thing (I don't even know what it is) and so tomorrow will be a late night spent trying to scrounge 1500 more words for that stupid 2000 word thing.

One day down, four more to go.

Oh god I really can't wait until this week is over because this week feels just as bad as when our exam week will feel like. So many things to do and as usual, so little time and you can't understand enough how badly I want this week to just disappear because after this, there isn't really anything that major until the exams (aside from little "quiz" and "exercise" things here and there).

So in short, here is the week of doom that's coming:

- Monday: stats assessable exercise 3 due (5%)
- Tuesday: bio lab report due (the one I was always complaining about) - 7 pages, 15%
- Wednesday: stupid stupid agen 2000 word draft due and god knows how I'll be writing that, 10%
- Thursday: chem tutorial quiz 5%
- Friday: another stupid stupid agen journal entry, 4%? (well 10% divided by 3)

So yes. That might not sound like much but the first three take a very long time to actually get done, even with no procrastination. Not to mention that everyday I have to juggle and it's not as simple as "a task per day." I have no idea where I'll fit in studying for the chem quiz. Probably stay up the night before? Oh hurray x_x 

And you have no idea how much I dislike not only the agen subject, but the people who run it/teach it/are in charge of it. Seriously. That stupid journal entry was supposed to be due tomorrow but guess what? On Friday the task wasn't even out and you know what? It's not even out right now. It got postponed and is due this Friday yet we still don't have the task. Good organisation right there.

Not only that, for every other subject I do, if there are questions on the discussion board posted by the students, they're answered quite quickly. Well guess what? Out of the at least 20+ questions on the agen discussion board since the start of this semester, they have only answered about TWO. They really don't care about us and I wouldn't be surprised if we all had to repeat it next year because of failing.



^ Here's a recent post on the board and this guy should get applause from everyone because he sums up all our frustration well. 

God what's the point in trying to get distinction or even credit in my other subjects when I'm pretty sure failing agen will just undo all that work.

Ugh so so so super duper tired. Also freaking hell we did stats assignment wrong again so it's going to be fun fixing that up (sarcasm). Stats is too misleading.

Wowcow salted caramel is disgusting. I like caramel but salted caramel should not be a froyo flavour. I only like werther's but I'd never make salted caramel flavoured food (cakes, ice-cream etc).

That's all I have for today.

Oh goodness I got trolled by my timetable. I forgot about the chem tutorial quiz that's happening next week so I haven't really been "studying" for it per se because I thought it was in two week's time. Damn. Everyone kept telling me it was next week and I thought that it was next week for them but not for me cause they do the other chem but nope, mine's next week too T_T I thought it was on the same weeks we have bio quizzes that's why I thought it was in 2 week's time not next week sigh. My timetable only tells me which weeks I have bio quizzes and not chem quizzes D;

So aside from assignments due next week (including stupid 2000 word report for agen that I haven't started because too much work to do just for agen tutes), there's studying for chem quiz and then bio quiz the week after. Fun. It's sad because in the lectures and tutorials I feel like I understand chem but just then I did the sample quiz and suddenly, even though the questions seemed familiar I wasn't the least bit confident in figuring out the answers. Oh god, I have a lot of work to do if I want to pass :/ I hate multiple choice.

At least I finished stats assignment! Though whether I did it correctly or not is another question... inb4 I have to re-do it due to stupid mistakes T_T Not quite sure what I'm doing tomorrow afternoon... To wait for the lecture or to go home, hmm..

Yesterday I got more sleep than the two days before and I yet I fell asleep on the train. Yet when I don't get much sleep, I can't fall asleep on the train. That logic, body, that logic.

 Mini Guide and Tips for Japan (and Korea) - 500th post! 
 June 29th - Sydney to Seoul 
 June 30th - Myeong-dong and Jung-gu 
 July 1st - Itaewon and Jung-gu (again) 
 July 2nd - Apgujeong Rodeo, Gangnam, Yongsan 
 July 3rd - Hongdae, D-Cube City and Yongsan 
 July 4th - last day in Korea. Dongdaemun Markets, Doota and back to our beloved Myeongdong 
 /post break/ What to buy from each Korean brand 
 July 5th - Leaving Seoul for Tokyo (Akihabara) 
 July 6th - Harajuku 
 July 7th - Ginza, Tokyo Station and Marunouchi 
 July 8th – Shinjuku 
 July 9th - Ikebukuro (Sunshine City) and Shinjuku 
 July 10th - Shibuya and Asakusa 
 July 11th - Shinjuku and Odaiba 
 July 12th - Akihabara and Roppongi/Minato 
 July 13th - Mt. Fuji and Kawaguchi 
 July 14th - Kawaguchiko and Harajuku 
 July 15th - Osaka and Tempozan 
 July 16th - Universal Studios Japan 
 July 17th - Namba (Dōtonbori), Shinsaibashi, Tennōji Park then all the way to Kyoto (Gion) 
 July 18th (last day in Osaka) - Osaka Castle, Spa World, Umeda 
 July 19th - Hiroshima and Miyajima 
 July 20th - Hiroshima --> Kyoto 
 July 21st - Arashiyama Area and North-west Kyoto (Ryōan-ji and Kinkaku-ji) 
 July 22nd - Kyoto -> Nara and Osaka (NARUTO EXHIBITION!!) 
 July 23rd - Kyoto back to Tokyo 
 July 24th - Yokohama (Minato Mirai 21)  
 July 25th and 26th (END) - Tokyo -> Seoul -> HOME 

✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)

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