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Where should I begin... Well I went to bed at around 2 last night which isn't too bad considering the fact that I know someone who only got one hour of sleep because of the report o_o I was thinking about the whole "staying up late finishing assignment vs. sleep early, wake up early to do assignment" methods and I think it comes down to if you're a morning or night person.

I can work into the night and not feel tired but I feel so groggy in the morning. So obviously I do it the first way and if I did it the second way, well for one, I can't think well in the morning so it would take me forever to get something done. And secondly, I hate going to bed knowing I still have things to do because then sleep just isn't as peaceful so I prefer to get it done then sleep soundly (even if I only get a few hours of sleep).

What's weird is that for the past two days I've had less sleep than usual and yet on the train to uni on Monday and today I couldn't fall asleep... What does that mean?! Usually it happens without even trying but this time even though I tried hard to get some extra sleep it didn't work... 

Oh and on the train this morning, there was this middle-aged man who got on a stop after me and sat opposite me and then... he freaking started cutting his nails on the train. GROSS. God, how are people that stupid. There is a time and place for that and it's definitely NOT on the train. Ugh. As if the fact that when he got on the train he was on the phone talking loudly and obnoxiously wasn't bad enough (and he did that the whole train ride). That's probably another reason why I couldn't sleep since I was afraid one of his stupid nail cuttings would fly in my face.

I remember awhile back there was some asian lady who sat three rows in front of me on the train and she was cutting her nails == That was the first time I encountered such retardedness (not a word but oh well) and I remember everyone else on the carriage was just giving each other "are you freaking kidding me" looks.

Hmm looking forward to tomorrow since it's a pretty chill day with just chem, stats, break, stats tutorial and DONE. Plus it's subjects that I'm pretty okay with unlike stupid agen. Oh first time having the other chem lecturer and I miss our old one T_T Usually, our class would have a medium level of noise as the lecturer comes in as everyone is just talking to their friends but when the lecturer starts talking, we of course quieten down and then he can start.

Well you know what happened today? Well the new lecturer just yelled at the class and said that "the noise level was unacceptable" and did the whole "if you're late it's your fault for being noisy and making this lecture slow down" speech. WOW dude, it wasn't even that noisy and if you just started on the lecture already (might I add that you were LATE) everyone would have shut up and listened to you. The problem was that it was "noisy" as you didn't even look ready, nor did you start talking so we didn't know it was "listening time." Maybe that sounded rude but I just don't like the way he yelled at us unreasonably.

Randomly went to strathfield today after class for lunch and moochi! It's been at least a few months since I've been to moochi (not including last week's grand opening). Anyway, you know what's weird? I only feel super bad when I wake up after having not much sleep. But then, when I'm at uni I feel perfectly fine like I've had a good amount of sleep.

If my level of "awakeness" or "energy" or something could be measured after a night of little sleep, I would say it would be at about 60 or 70. And then I go to uni and it stays at 60 or 70 and I feel completely fine but what sucks is as soon as I get home and walk through the door BAM I swear it drops to 10 or even 5. I just suddenly feel so dead tired like I just want to do nothing and sleep there and then and not get up for two days.

So I always say "okay, I'll go to bed soon" but then I never do. I guess it's cause I shower, eat and then I feel a bit better and I still end up sleeping at like 11 or 12... I was so looking forward to doing nothing tonight as I always crash after an assignment but stupid stuff for agen due Friday and I was going to do it tomorrow and Thursday but I had to organise stuff for our tutorial group so I just wasted 2 hours of my "free time/ down time." Oh well. It's kind of sad because now I feel so free but I have nothing I want to do and I just feel kind of empty. 

Herpderp was there anything else to be said? I don't remember but goodnight. Oh right. Even though I couldn't sleep on the train, agen still managed to put me to sleep for a solid 5 minutes before someone's phone went off and woke me up.

The first three letters of the title is how I feel. Nah, more like tired and over it, if that can even be a feeling. So much I want to say but no time. Guess it'll have to wait til tomorrow when this BIO REPORT WILL BE OVER HURRAY. And then time to do more assignments but I think I'll give myself a break tomorrow and even if I don't, I'll crash and be unable to do work anyway.

So I have decided that for you guys to fully appreciate how much of a headache this assignment has been (not to mention that I've had a massive headache the whole of today but due to something else), you should look at our marking criteria. Click to enlarge:



Fuarrrr why is there 510 possible marks like really, what the hell. I'm going to give up soon. I only ended up writing about 3.2 pages out of the possible 4 and now all that's left to do is reference list and thinking up a suitable title. That'll take me only about... oh I'd say an hour or two T_T

See you guys tomorrow.

inb4 my bio report gives a 100% similarity score on stupid turnitin because freaking unavoidable scientific terms everywhere in my report such as photosynthesis, chloroplasts, chlorophyll, radiation, absorption blah blah you get the deal.

Turnitin, I hate you because I WRITE THIS MYSELF. Excuse me.

Sleep. HAHA what is that I don't even. I'm not necessarily going to pull an all-nighter today but I have no idea when I'll be able to go to sleep. Aside from doing stupid agen all morning I spent three hours or more just going through all the references we need to use in our bio report. Let's not even get started on how much I've actually written.

Actually let's talk about that. I put this at the top of my word document so that it'll encourage me as I get things done:
Sure, you might say "hey you're almost halfway there" but that's so not true. The introduction and discussion are about two pages together and it includes the need to talk about all sorts of background information and other experiments blah blah. Fun. NOT. And don't get me started on having to find references to use cite ugh eww (it's like finding quotes for English all over again).

So yes, this is nothing compared to that one page report we did last time where the results were pretty much black and white, it was either this or that. But this time there's so much to talk about I'll never get this done T_T I'm so tempted to skip my whole morning of uni tomorrow because I can easily catch up on it (I rewatch bio lectures when I come home anyway) and then only show up for my 2 to 5 chem prac which would give me the whole morning to do my report too (it's due Tuesday).

Buuuut I'm not going to do that. I'll prove I can do extensive hours of uni (tomorrow is 9 to 5) AND finish my assignment. Besides, I'll probably be working on my stats assignment due next Monday with my friends during our break. Yeah, don't know if I already mentioned it (remember, my memory is poor) but right after handing in assignment 2, number 3 came out for stats ugh great T_T

So yes. Once again I shall reiterate my hate for law and art kids who have only 10 hours or so and say it's because they have a tonne of readings. Screw you guys I swear I just went through like 300 page or more of journal articles today for this report and I have to have my super filled timetable. 

Ah well, so many assignments due so I think the next time I will be able to get any decent sleep will be in two weeks time unless some more assignments pop up and hit me in the face after today. Can't wait until Tuesday so this report will be due and gone and I can work on the next task. Minimal sleep until then and all-nighter it if necessary.

In closing, I swear that last night I had a dream where I became a cat lady. Don't ask.

EDIT: Oh hell, late night syndrome has come again and that means everything I type sounds like utter rubbish but you think "oh well, I'll just change it tomorrow." Only thing is, usually when you come back to change it you think "oh my gosh, how did I write this, it's actually pretty decent and I don't think I could write it any better even if I try." I think it's a case of my standards are lowering as the assignment due date/time reaches. 

FML I hate researching for freaking agen because I feel like every site I go to, they never give me what I need. Everything is so long-winded and it just makes me feel that all these so-called "agencies" set up to do things don't even really do anything so they make up for it by writing up these long ass reports that say the same thing over and over again. And then I'm like, that's great but what have you actually done.

Science is so much better because when I look up journals and articles for my report, at least I can find some where the people actually did something so their findings are actually useful in my report.

Sigh.

After 40 excruciating minutes of following the video and what was at least an hour and a half of battling with excel (it never does anything right for me), I have finally finished all my graphs and "tables."

At the end of the video, he said "thanks for watching this very long and convoluted video." Haha thanks Danny (y) Thanks for understanding our pain, and I'm sure our lives would have been a lot harder if we had to figure all that out ourselves.

FML seriously. So pissed with the stupid internet because every damn time I need it to do my work it never works. You'll be lucky to be online for a straight two minutes.

You know you're screwed when the supposedly simplest part of your report is tabulating/graphing results and yet the video that tells you how they want you to graph your results takes 40 minutes. If this already takes that long, I don't even want to know about the rest of the report.

Also the average for the bio quiz was 14/24 which is quite low so I'm guessing quite a few people had trouble with it.

Let me just say that no amount of studying would have saved me from failing bio today. I find it funny how even though the test may have been "do-able", every time I looked around the room everyone seemed just as confused as I did and they were all staring at their papers quite blankly. There wasn't really anyone who was shading in their bubbles confidently.

What's worse is that not only were the questions really weird and roundabout and not straightforward in the least, but they were multiple choice. Now, that may sound great but let me tell you, I probably would have done better if I went in blindly with no knowledge and circled randomly. I had such trouble with the multiple choice in this paper cause I would read the question, then read answers A and B first and usually by then you'd be like "oh A looks right" (or B but you know what I mean). So you continue reading C and D just to see what else is a possible answer and then that's when trouble happens cause now C or D looks like a good answer too == 

So yeah everyone else that I talked to had that problem too. Ugh bio is just too hard because my memory is so bad. So after that was my usual agen tutorial and they told us about this program that does your references for you... Maybe everyone already knew about it but gosh it will save me a lot of time. In high school, my bibliographies took me an hour+ so you can only imagine how long referencing in reports for uni take. Ah yes speaking of which, today marks the end of my 100% streak in bio because up until now it was just pre-lab quizzes and that mark we got for our report.

Sigh after cramming bio until today I just wanted a break and so I decided to watch the naruto movie I was talking about but as luck would have it, they still don't have english subs for the japanese. I just tried watching it in japanese with jap subs but wow does google/youtube fail because those subs weren't japanese, they were CHINESE. Geez get your languages right. I watched it for a bit and I'm surprised I still understand about 50% of what they're talking about (okay yes that sucks) but I'm giving up until english subs come out otherwise I can't fully appreciate the movie and I don't really want to watch it twice (unless there's like a gap of a few months between).

So sad I can't watch the movie today because I wanted to unwind for at least tonight before I start doing my bio report the whole weekend (it's due Tuesday). The work for bio is never ending. Oh yes and after the tutorial I randomly went to the city and our bus just happened to stop outside the newly opened moochi which had $2.50 regulars. It was so unexpected but who doesn't want cheap froyo so I got lychee and watermelon. I kind of regret getting watermelon because I've had it before and I should have tried something new but I didn't want to stare at the menu for too long.



^ Trying to take a picture on the go ain't easy. Lychee was pretty good, I'd like to have that again. I haven't been to moochi in so long. I think the last I had it was when Areeya and I shared the "massive" which was back in the days when we had tutoring in strathfield. I miss those days D; Toppings are kiwi fruit, strawberries and strawberry pearls (which you can't see). I think kiwi fruits and strawberries are my go-to topping.

Anyway on the train ride back my friend texted me asking what I got in bio and I was like "what?! The results are out already?!" o_o Wow, the bio faculty is insane. Only four hours had passed since the end of the quiz and they marked all 600 of ours already. Sure, they just scan multiple choice sheets but chem took at least 2 days and I can't believe bio not only marked them but also gave each of us our own pdf of what we got wrong and how many people got which question wrong etc. 

So yes, I failed T_T I got less than 80% so I better study harder next time orz. I'm sad because even though we just finished assessable exercise 2 for stats, number 3 is up already T_T The work never ends.

I was just reading a random blog post then I saw this (the first line):



And the rest is my reaction. Oh stats, the reaction I give you is the same as the one I give when I hear the dread word "belonging." What's with PSY's new song, it doesn't even sound like a song and I agree with Bitter when she says that move is exactly the same as the one in Brown Eyed Girls' Abracadabra.

Oh goodness I think I will definitely fail bio tomorrow. It could be really hard or just okay but I don't even do well when it's okay. 

I was doing the online practice questions thing and for the first one I got 13/15 so I was thinking:



And I was thinking maybe I'll be alright but then I did the second one and got 10/14 == Still a long way to go. When you're doing the questions you realise just how different bio is to say, physics or chem. Like for me, physics and chemistry is more about calculations or understanding the material but bio is so hard for me as it's more about remembering stuff. Like it's not so much understanding things, it's like "oh this works like this and this works like that, so you need to remember that." 

I can't really explain it but you can't really "understand" anything because there's no reasoning behind why it's like that so for me it's more about remembering. And I hate that because I find it easier to understand than to remember since my memory is very poor. So yes bio is hard because I never had to deal with just remembering (rather than understanding) in high school. My knowledge of bio is still so poor because every time I answer a question, I'm never confident with my choice and I'm like "oh I think that one's right but I don't really know."

Oh this sucks.

Today marks the day that one of my dearest friends leaves this world. RIP msn, I'll miss you. Now that you've officially left me I'm really sad because you've always been here for me. Skype shall never replace you and I won't be getting it just yet since it's too lame and it would just be a distraction as I must continue cramming bio today for tomorrow.

Bye bye msn :(

Going off topic, you know something that really pisses me off? People. Of course that sounds really stupid and pessimistic and blah blah blah but sometimes it's just too frustrating and then that makes me even more grateful that I chose to do this course. At times like this it just reminds me that there really isn't any other course out there for me.

To argue or not to argue. When you know someone who does stupid things, all you want to do is tell them to stop. But of course if it was that easy, they wouldn't be doing that in the first place if they really wanted to stop. So then obviously you argue about it because you can't see eye to eye.

So what to do? Continue arguing and give myself a big ass headache (which I did today) or leave them be and save myself the time and the trouble. I really feel that some people just cannot be helped.

Well I wasted my time today.

This quote I just saw on tumblr is probably really relevant to how I feel right now:

“But eventually you learn that you just can’t save anyone no matter how hard you try. People have to want to change, they have to want to do better, and to be better. All you can do is love people and pray for them and be present when they need you. But you can’t save them; at the end of the day, we all have to save ourselves.” - Kovie Biakolo

Though I'm not sure about the part where it says "be present when they need you" because frankly I think I can't be bothered anymore and besides, if they did need me then they'd listen to me in the first place.

Sigh.

Sorry, I forgot to write yesterday that I apologise in advance for the upcoming short and disjointed posts for this week. Too many things due/to do/to study for so yeah :( Why is the stupid bio quiz on friday called a quiz anyway, it makes you think it will be easy but it's not (I've seen the practice one). And why is it worth 10% == That might not sound like much but if you don't do well then that's that gone.

In other news, this makes me so happy!



Hell to the yes. You know why? No practicals means no walking to stupid ATP on other side of redfern and back! YES! Which means I might skip bio since I don't fancy waiting three hours for it but depends on what I feel like.

But besides that, since there's no stats tutorial tomorrow that means I only have two hours of lectures and DONE! I could totally skip since it's chem and stats but I'll just go. I get to finish at 11 instead of two hour break then tutorial which finishes at 2. Hurray! :D

And that's all for today.

And yes, our lecturer's name is Floris. Quite the strange name (to me at least).

That moment when you find a suitable journal to use in your stats assignment question since it has a t-test in it and you're so happy you're over the moon and then you realise that's kind of sad. And that moment you realise there are like four t-tests in that journal and you don't know which one you have to summarise so you probably have to do them all and then it'll go over the 100 word limit.

What to do.

Okay, you definitely start admitting to yourself that you're sick when you're wearing like 3 or 4 layers and you go out (shopping) and see everyone else wearing only one layer like shirts, singlets or thin long sleeves. Sigh. You don't really appreciate how lucky you are to not be coughing, having a runny nose, or not having the pains or tiredness that typically come with sickness until you get sick :(

In other news, crudely chopping an avocado to make nachos is fun. Why bother chopping it nicely when it's soft and it'll break off anyhow anyway xD 

I've been doing my stats assignment which consists of mainly just re-typing my working out except I haven't found a journal yet for the last question. Been partly procrastinating as well as I've been watching some simpsons eps on youtube :D

oh my god yesterday when I woke up I had a slight cough (I coughed about three times) and it wasn't just the normal cough, I could definitely feel something in my chest. And then came the horrible realisation that I might be sick ==

You see, when I get sick, it's almost always (like 99.9% of the time) characterised by coughing rather than a runny nose for me. Damn it, is this seriously all because I sat next to H. on the way back from the farm? Cause she told me she was sick only AFTER I sat down and I was like "oh my god please no". That was Friday. And Saturday I saw SB and no matter how much he denies it, he was definitely sick because his nose was running so much it almost came out like water (gross, I know). Sorry that I had to share that.

So yes. Now I've come into contact with two sick people. The first stage of sickness is always denial where you just spend all your time going "no, this isn't happening, I'm not sick, I can't be sick." And aside from those three coughs yesterday I felt fine. But today I woke up and ever since then my nose hasn't stopped running. It's completely blocked and I can't breathe and I'm going through a tissue like every five minutes. This is horrible.

But I'm still in denial. All I have is a stupid runny nose but no coughs, and that's not the way I get sick. The thing is, my nose is always bad (something my mum gave me) so it isn't unusual for it to be blocked or runny. It's just that it's worse today and I don't know if it's just acting up or if it's actual sickness T_T Please, I'm begging you, please let me not be sick. This week I have to do 3 assignments (including one due next week) and study for the bio quiz which I know absolutely NOTHING about and is worth 10%. So please please let me not be sick because then my work will suffer and be super slow!

And as a side note, wow Bitter so rude! (Half joking here). Yesterday I told her I might be sick and she stepped back and was like "you better not get me sick! I have a test this week!" Dude, you got sick so many times in high school and I still sat next to you and I always just hoped my body could fight whatever you might possibly give me (and surprisingly I think I only ever caught something from her once or twice). Now it's your turn to feel what I had to go through D;

some people are just so stupid and they just really keep pushing you without understanding that people have limits.

Sadly because of that this awesome honey butter bread doesn't taste as good anymore.

argh forget it, my mind is too frazzled to do anything tonight.

World, goodnight for tonight.

Oh and I'm still sad about the fact that I saw that guy wearing thongs to uni on Wednesday.

Before I talk about the farm let me just say that you know you are completely screwed when you have a bio report due in two week's time (but now it's one and a half because I've been procrastinating) and it has to be four pages in length not including references, tables, and graphs and the instructions alone for how to write your report are six pages long. Yep. Oh god what am I going to do.

Last one's was quite easy compared to this because the results was just one graph and we were only allowed to write one page (results and discussion only). This time it's introduction, methods, results, discussion and a non compulsory appendix. What on earth do we need an appendix for in this report anyway x_x Ugh I just hate labs so much because I'm lazy and report writing is seriously the worst. You never feel like you're on the right track because they are really nit-picky about what they want to see in your report sigh. If last time's one page report took me 10 hours (including time spent researching and procrastinating) then that means this time's will take 40 hours oh my god T_T

I forgot to mention it before but the other day my stats lecturer said "blue-haired, blond-eyed" and then went "whoops, I meant blond-haired, blue-eyed" and straight away I thought of Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf which makes me cringe, because I'm remembering days of english. But actually that play was one of my favourite texts studied during high school english (one of the very few).

I'm going to miss our chem lecturer and next week is his last week with us because we're changing lecturers after that :( I don't even know why that happens, it's like how we changed lecturers in bio. He's cool and he makes chem less painful and today he was making balloon animals which grabbed everyone's attention and then he was like "oh since you guys are looking, let's start the lecture" lol. He said he was "practising for Saturday" but I'm not sure if he's serious. 

And continuing on with his weird experiments that have no relevance to what we're learning, today he mixed some sulfuric acid with what I think was some yellow salt (sorry I didn't catch what it was) and then he put it over a bunsen burner and nothing happened and he basically spent 3 minutes going "hmm it should happen soon" while the class was just watching and wondering what was supposed to happen. And after a while the stuff just quickly expanded and became what look like a long brown foam-y (though solid) looking thing coming out of the beaker. To me it looked like a giant poo LOL. Probably doesn't sound that exciting but it's just something that's more entertaining when watched.

Oh and he connected the other lecturer's ipad up to the projector to show us something and then he was typing in the passcode and it came up on screen too and everyone laughed at him and he was like "shhh don't tell him you guys saw the passcode" haha. After that I spent my hour break doing my chem tutorial sheet (before the tutorial) which I didn't bother doing the night before and I really have to say that taking the effort to actually do the work really helps you understand it better (yeah I know, such a basic concept and yet I still don't really do all my work sigh).

Then it was tutorial time and the sheets are getting longer and longer T_T But I still finished hurray (y) Then I went to Fisher which I don't really like (but I guess it's alright) to get help from D. and J. with my stats assignment. Pretty sure we were the noisiest kids there and people were probably hating on us D; It's not like we were really loud, it's just that talking in our normal voice (though a bit quieter) is probably quite noticeable considering that the rest of the level is mostly filled with dead silence.

Anyway I felt bad cause my answers were different to theirs and then that made them check their work many many times and then they had to change their answers cause they did some things wrong and I felt bad cause they were like "ugh noooo why do I have to re-do this T_T" and when I kept apologising about it they kept thanking me for telling them it was wrong cause "otherwise we'd have lost marks for wrong answers when we hand it in." Yeah but still I felt bad cause typing those things up and changing it is a massive pain.

So yep, doing all the assignment answers by hand on paper takes like 10 minutes if you actually understand what needs to be done, no joke. But we have to type it up in word and submit it online and I'm not joking when I say that typing it up takes an hour plus (they told me it took them 1.5 hours to type everything up T_T). I haven't started typing it up yet, it's all in my book and I was going to do it tonight but ever since I got home and got on the computer to do work I've had a massive headache sigh. Guess I'll do it tomorrow.

Need to find another journal article for last question of assignment which will be fun fun fun (not). Finding a suitable article that makes sense to me is so hard. Anyway YESSS finally the weather does what I wanted it to. It said it was going to be 23 today so I wore stockings but later regretted it because it was sunny and I was like "damn, I should've worn shorts." But then I got out of fisher and it was SO cold and windy and was starting to sprinkle and I was like HELL YEAH I feel better for overdressing. And finally the umbrella that I always carry came in use (y)

Ewwwww farm tomorrow and I'm going to have to catch a 7:37 train which is sooo early T_T I guess that's not too bad because that was the train I used to catch to get to high school but it's much earlier than the trains I catch for uni. Cityfail, you better not screw up tomorrow or I won't make it to the farm and attendance is compulsory so I will come after you if something happens. Also, don't tell me to catch an earlier train because that one should be early enough unless cityrail fails super hard (which it probably will, just to troll me).

Oh my god I've been procrastinating hard because my brain is too frazzled to function. Also I don't like question two of this assessable exercise 2 for stats because I've read it a billion times over and I still don't even see the question that's being asked:



Anyone want to help me out and tell me what the actual question is? 

Hmm, why does everyone I know or meet do normal chem T_T I have like no one in my chem but oh well it just means I can focus on the work. Yay only two hours tomorrow since I'm blowing off stats prac (it's just too far) and bio because I don't want to wait 3 hours for it. I won't go home early though, I'll be asking my friends for help with the stats assignment. Hmm maybe I can go to bio after all, if I end up taking a long time with my assignment I might as well just go (beats trying to catch up at home).

Also eww why did we have to walk to bosch today. I'm glad it's just for a once off meeting for the people in our course (or at least I hope it's just this once) because it's so far away and it's a pain to get to. I think I prefer walking to the vet sci conference centre which is pretty far as well, it's in the far back corner of the uni. 

On the way to bosch I saw some guy with really unevenly dyed red hair (you know who you are). Coincidences are so amazing and funny. Seriously.

Oh hell no the freaking live stream started and I can't leave my seat and I really need to go to the toilet now of all times x_x

I just thought I should share that with everyone. Yep.

LOL GG I accidentally put my contacts the wrong way around so my vision has been screwed up for the last few days. The thing is you can't tell which is which because they look exactly the same so I had to go give them in to the optometrist and she told me I mixed them up x_x I thought so because my right eye was hurting and my vision was slightly retarded except I kind of dismissed it because it wasn't that bad and it does that sometimes when I don't sleep "enough." 

I miss my old contacts cause the right one was green and the left one was blue so it was impossible to mix up. I remember which is which because blue is left since it has an L and green is right since it has an R. Ingenious :)

I wish my body would stop being retarded. Today I was so dead tired even though I got a solid six hours of sleep. I was falling asleep everywhere - on the train and even in classes I was drifting off :( But the thing is, as soon as I come home, I am completely awake and don't feel tired until it hits 1am or so x_x Ah I finally realised why it seems slightly less crowded on trains in the morning, high school kids are in their holidays. Boy am I slow at connecting the dots. And then today after uni I had to buy a few things and I was like "why are there kids here at this time shouldn't they be at school o.O" and then I had to remind myself that it's the holidays for them (but not us sigh). 

So it looks like chem has now reached the point where the stuff is new to me which means I have to concentrate more and now I'm already finding it hard nooo :( You know what I don't get? Why am I learning about sigma and pi bonds, resonance and blah when that's what the "normal" chem class is learning? I thought our stuff was supposed to be easier than theirs? I'm so confused.

Today must have been the one and only agen lecture I'll ever find interesting because some woolworths guy came in to talk to us. It's not that I'm a big fan of woolworths but I do buy things from there and hey it's more interesting than whatever the hell we're normally learning. So he was saying that grocery shopping was a "grudge" thing (I don't know what he means by that) because no one wants to do it, they only do it because they HAVE to. And I'm like, excuse me, are you out of your mind?! I LOVE grocery shopping. I love thinking about food, eating food, and making food (and obviously shopping for the ingredients necessary to do that). Wow, who doesn't like grocery shopping seriously. It's the only form of shopping I like, clothes shopping is so boring and I get tired after about 5 minutes. Maybe only one person will agree with me about all of that (Keely) :(

So today in the food court I saw this girl in about year four or five(?) who was sitting with her parents and she was trying to set up the toy she got from her happy meal. It wasn't even that hard and after like 5 minutes she couldn't do it and kind of threw a tantrum x_x Sometimes I look at little kids and their behaviour and I just think "oh god, please tell me I wasn't like that at that age" or "please tell me I was smarter than that when I was that age." And then she kept bashing this piece into the toy because it didn't fit (you have to join it up, I don't know if that makes sense) and she didn't realise that it didn't fit because she was putting it in wrong! I got frustrated watching so I told her "uh you need to flip it over then connect it" and she must have thought I was a weirdo watching her fail with her toy T_T I only knew how that toy worked because Ruby came over a few weeks ago and had trouble with the same toy but hey, Ruby's only three so that's understandable.

This weather makes me sad, it's warm/hot at uni but then when I come home it's suddenly really cold and I need to add like two layers ==

And fuarrrrrr our agen group assignment is about salinity and I could totally rip off whatever I wrote in the year 10 geo test (it was a killer report okay) except I packed that book away ages ago when I was cleaning out my room. NOOOOO I don't want to start from scratch why

Uwah I never put up my summary of last week orz. You know what's great? How I can't watch the naruto movie when it comes out with english subs because I'll be too busy doing my three assignments due next week fun fun fun x_x Anyway Mondays are so hard for me since I don't finish until 5 and like I said last week, thanks to no more daylight savings it's already dark by the time I get home T_T

Oh before I start, I was already super tired and brain dead at 9pm which is ridiculous but then again it was expected considering the fact I stayed up until 2am the night before thanks to a certain someone x_x Which meant I only got four and a half hours of sleep. Really intended to go to bed early tonight but there was just so much to do and now it's already approaching 11. Sigh. 

So bio was normal, we have a different lecturer now (since last week) and he's not as cool as Danny, our old lecturer who brought us the "press a button and answer the question and it comes up on the board" thing and now we don't have that anymore :( The new lecturer (gosh I forgot his name) is sometimes funny, I guess, though his sense of humour is different to Danny's. 

Oh gosh stats. I'm just so lost now and after last week's tutorial I had the "oh yay I think I'm getting it now" feeling but whenever a new week starts nope, kiss that goodbye because the new stuff will always befuddle your mind like hell. After that was two hour break and I saw Connie and Joanna who came to visit us usyd people :O 

God then it was stupid agen. Apparently they did listen to our feedback and they're now trying to "mix it up" a bit so that it's more interesting but I'm sorry, the subject is boring and none of us would do it if it wasn't compulsory. I'm pretty sure the agen lectures could cure insomnia. It really is the most boring thing you've ever seen. I guarantee that if you sit in it for five minutes you'll be falling asleep. To be honest I would skip all agen lectures but I only go because D. and J. tell me to (even though they end up being just as bored as I am). 

I seriously doubt that anyone in our course will pass it. Out of the original 300, I swear only about 60 or so come to the lectures now. And none of us take down many notes or seem to be actively listening so if we can't pass, I don't think the people who skip will pass either. Oh goodness, can't wait til this semester is done and then agen, never again! (Unless I fail -cries-)

Oh my god oh my god then we get to the best part of my day. I head over to chem building and near the door there was a sign saying all CHEM1 labs were cancelled due to a power outage in the morning. Even though my hopes were soaring, I decided to check it out in case it was a troll (hey, you don't want to just leave then find out the labs really were running cause then you'd be screwed). But the teacher confirmed that this morning there was a power outage and that the demonstrators went home so there was no one to help us with our experiments plus if the morning classes were cancelled you'd have to cancel ours too just to make sure everyone is "on the same level" if that makes sense.

Soooooo happy because that means I got to finish at 2 instead of 5! But unfortunately it means our lab has to be "made up for" next week when apparently we didn't have one next week (due to ANZAC day on Thursday no labs for the whole week to make everyone up to the same place). But you know what? I'm not even sad about that because I thought we had labs anyway (as my timetable says lab weeks 2 to 13) so it's not like a "holiday" (early break) was taken away from me since I didn't even know about its existence in the first place :)

So I saw my lab partner on the way out and I told her it was cancelled and she was like "wow you must be super happy considering how you're happy even if we get to leave lab just 20 minutes early" and damn right I was happy :D There's nothing like being able to leave early. Anyway I also saw Carol's friend A. and they both have lab at the same time as me (though in a different group and room). A. was asking me if I had seen Carol (probably to tell her about cancelled labs) and then she was like "wait do you even know Carol?" xD I guess she doesn't know we went to the same high school...

But then this guy showed up and was strolling towards the closed labs and I was like "oh you don't have go in, labs are cancelled. Aren't you happy?" and he probably thought that I was trolling so I showed him the sign. He then suddenly said "damn" so I asked him what was wrong (who wouldn't be happy about cancelled labs?) and he said he ran all the way from Wallace for nothing xD Not only that, he was wearing his lab coat already which he must have ran in xD I kind of feel sorry because I only have to walk 20 metres or so to get to the labs but if you go to usyd, you know Wallace is forever away. Can't believe how he got there so early from Wallace, he must have ran or left super early. He then asked me "hey have you seen ____?" (sorry I couldn't catch the name) and basically I was just like 



because I didn't even know who he was so how would I know the person he was looking for? o.O Maybe he just assumed I was in his class or something since I was talking to A. (and I'm guessing he knows A.) but still, you guys know the people in your own class right? Like even if you don't know their names you know faces so I was just thinking "umm dude I'm not even in your class and how could you not know that I don't know you and you don't know me D: " but not in a rude way, I just found it interesting. So I was about to tell him that we weren't even in the same class and that I didn't even know who he was and then out of the blue he asks for my number "just in case, for situations like this." O_O I'm sorry but I found that weird because like I said, we weren't even in the same class? Plus I didn't even know his name o.O And then Carol showed up and interrupted xD

And then the rest of my time was spent watching the baulko people play pool. I was kind of surprised at how many of us gathered there. Wasted time there as if I left early to go home no one would pick me up and I'd have to walk home in the sun D; Got home and was happy to be home early but everyone else seemed to be "down" (probably cause they were tired from work) T_T

Oh yes and while we were at pool SB and I went and got 1L easyway like retards for no reason:


Guess who owns which one. First time I bought a 1L one and I probably gained 1kg from that. They don't look that big in the picture though.

Let me just go cry in the corner about the fact that I have uni tomorrow (a long day too, no less) and that my sister has no care in the world right now and can spend time however she wishes because it's the holidays for her.

I'm sad D;

Yay got my chem tutorial quiz back:



I don't even know how the average was 7.3 since it's fundamentals and everyone seemed really prepared? o.O Also so far I have 100% in bio, chem and agen since in bio and chem there hasn't really been any "tests" yet and it's just been pre-lab quizzes (which do count towards our marks). Only "test" we had was that ^ chem tutorial quiz (bio one coming in week 7). Agen only had that journal entry so far.

So please tell me why the subject I like most (or I think I like most?) so far which is stats, is the one I do the worst in T_T Finally got that "assessable exercise" back which is the one where one of the questions was to summarise statistics in a journal and I only got 22/25 which is 88% ಥ＿ಥ There goes 0.6 of my report. That might not sound bad but if I can't even do well in my assessable exercises where you have time to fix things before handing it in, what does that mean for the theory test which is worth 50% D;

My mistakes were retarded. Well actually the question was dodgy and I answered them but the marker was like "no you don't do it like that, you do this" but what? I did what the question told me to do which is not what you just said... But there's no point dwelling on it. Can't believe I screwed up the "easy questions" yet got full marks on the summarising of the abstract which was the part I found hardest. What is this. 


Please tell me how even though when I submit my assessment it has my name attached and yet when I get it back you spell my name like that ^. Obviously you named the marked pdf after my name which you saw when you looked at my file name so how do people copy it wrong?! I will never understand that sort of thing.

I can only think of one word that sums up today - "fml." Okay, I don't really mean it (but you understand my feelings right?) and I just realised that that isn't one word but oh well.

So what exactly went down today? First off, background story is today I got to sleep in as I just have one tutorial in the afternoon. I woke up, saw dad had put some cheques by my computer which was his way of saying "please go deposit these for me today."

Now here's just a few of the many things that went wrong (I know it won't seem like that much to you guys though):

- I was going to be late thanks to a certain SOMEONE so I had to run out of my house for my 2pm tutorial
- due to this, I forgot to bring the printout of our group speech for the tutorial which I left on the kitchen table beside my book (I grabbed the book but not the printout ==)
- also forgot to bring a copy of last week's tutorial minutes which I needed because I was note taker this week
- thought I packed the cheques into my bag but upon further inspection of my bag when I got to the bank to deposit them, that wasn't the case T_T
- last but not least (because right now I can't remember the other things), I forgot my PHONE which I needed so I could tell my parents when I was getting home!!! The one time I was going to come home late and then I don't even bring it which means parents can't contact me = lost trust in me = unhappy parents = never going out again FML
- missed my train anyway so I had to catch the later one which I thought would make me late (though thankfully more than 50% of the class was later than me)

Sigh so I got to my tute and I really needed my phone so SB went to go get it for me... Those aren't the person's real initials, it's the initials for my nickname for them and I suspect only Bitter and SB will know who I'm talking about. Anyway on the walk to uni I realised that my phone wasn't actually where I told SB it would be... I thought I was charging it then I realised I didn't and so they'd never find it... Problem was I had no way of contacting them to tell them that so then it would have been wasted effort T_T

Thankfully I was able to borrow a classmate's phone (though isn't that sort of thing awkward) but the problem is I never memorised SB's number... So I had to text my sister asking her for the number that just texted her (texted my sister about my phone problem using SB's phone while on the train) and then texted SB. Whew I should really memorise numbers otherwise this might happen again T_T I only remember my parents and sister's numbers because I thought those were the only ones I would need.

After that I guess everything ended up okay but the worst part of my night was when dad came to the station to pick me up. He actually came up to the station instead of waiting for me at the pick up place which meant he saw something bad :( Not going to explain and maybe you'll think of something really bad but it's not that bad because you guys already know. Okay I'm not making sense.

But argh because he and I are the kind of people we are we're both not going to bring it up and then my dad was just silent and I didn't know what to say and arghhhh T_T Now I feel bad that it had to be like this and now he's probably like "sigh my daughter's become a liar" and I've probably lost all the trust of my parents and now when I go out they'll be like "who knows what she's really doing" and what do I do, how do I clear the air?!?! If I ignore it then that's rude but if I tell them they'll be like "..." 

Dad's probably like -facepalm- "why did I let her go out today." I envy you people who have easygoing parents because there are some things I can't do without feeling guilty. On another note, my sister tends to go out to a lot of parties and my parents kind of dislike that (they think she should study more) and just now she asked my dad if she could go out to another one tomorrow and I know it's kind of hard to ask him because he did his usual "...." of disapproval and unwillingness but of course he always says yes in the end because my dad is not an unreasonable man.

I probably just painted my parents in a bad light but it's nothing really, I really do get along with them (mostly). In any case, the icing of the cake was when I got home my sister was like "so did you sort out your phone problem?" Oh goodness, everything about today was just sus. 

In any case, this has been my 100th post and it's sad that the 100th post is completely retarded (but then again my blog is filled with posts like that). Another post to come shortly, to break up this big chunk.

Oh right here's more:

- came home late so I missed my mum putting in our weekly load of laundry which means no clean clothes for next week. Nah hopefully she puts in another load tomorrow T_T
- unrelated to today, but the skin of my fingertips have been peeling like there's no tomorrow lately and it's gross and awful and before it was just two of my fingers and now it's slowly happening to more of them T_T It looks like there are "holes" in the uppermost layer of my skin it's so disgusting can it please just stop what do I do

- Me: "hey dad guess what? I just remembered we have a bank at uni so I can deposit your cheques any day now :D" 
Dad: "then why didn't you do it for me today?" 
Me: "T_T I was going to..." -damn it he found out I forgot to bring them, I was just going to do it on Monday argh why am I so unreliable :( - 

Where should I begin... Well I went to bed at around 2 last night which isn't too bad considering the fact that I know someone who only got one hour of sleep because of the report o_o I was thinking about the whole "staying up late finishing assignment vs. sleep early, wake up early to do assignment" methods and I think it comes down to if you're a morning or night person.

I can work into the night and not feel tired but I feel so groggy in the morning. So obviously I do it the first way and if I did it the second way, well for one, I can't think well in the morning so it would take me forever to get something done. And secondly, I hate going to bed knowing I still have things to do because then sleep just isn't as peaceful so I prefer to get it done then sleep soundly (even if I only get a few hours of sleep).

What's weird is that for the past two days I've had less sleep than usual and yet on the train to uni on Monday and today I couldn't fall asleep... What does that mean?! Usually it happens without even trying but this time even though I tried hard to get some extra sleep it didn't work... 

Oh and on the train this morning, there was this middle-aged man who got on a stop after me and sat opposite me and then... he freaking started cutting his nails on the train. GROSS. God, how are people that stupid. There is a time and place for that and it's definitely NOT on the train. Ugh. As if the fact that when he got on the train he was on the phone talking loudly and obnoxiously wasn't bad enough (and he did that the whole train ride). That's probably another reason why I couldn't sleep since I was afraid one of his stupid nail cuttings would fly in my face.

I remember awhile back there was some asian lady who sat three rows in front of me on the train and she was cutting her nails == That was the first time I encountered such retardedness (not a word but oh well) and I remember everyone else on the carriage was just giving each other "are you freaking kidding me" looks.

Hmm looking forward to tomorrow since it's a pretty chill day with just chem, stats, break, stats tutorial and DONE. Plus it's subjects that I'm pretty okay with unlike stupid agen. Oh first time having the other chem lecturer and I miss our old one T_T Usually, our class would have a medium level of noise as the lecturer comes in as everyone is just talking to their friends but when the lecturer starts talking, we of course quieten down and then he can start.

Well you know what happened today? Well the new lecturer just yelled at the class and said that "the noise level was unacceptable" and did the whole "if you're late it's your fault for being noisy and making this lecture slow down" speech. WOW dude, it wasn't even that noisy and if you just started on the lecture already (might I add that you were LATE) everyone would have shut up and listened to you. The problem was that it was "noisy" as you didn't even look ready, nor did you start talking so we didn't know it was "listening time." Maybe that sounded rude but I just don't like the way he yelled at us unreasonably.

Randomly went to strathfield today after class for lunch and moochi! It's been at least a few months since I've been to moochi (not including last week's grand opening). Anyway, you know what's weird? I only feel super bad when I wake up after having not much sleep. But then, when I'm at uni I feel perfectly fine like I've had a good amount of sleep.

If my level of "awakeness" or "energy" or something could be measured after a night of little sleep, I would say it would be at about 60 or 70. And then I go to uni and it stays at 60 or 70 and I feel completely fine but what sucks is as soon as I get home and walk through the door BAM I swear it drops to 10 or even 5. I just suddenly feel so dead tired like I just want to do nothing and sleep there and then and not get up for two days.

So I always say "okay, I'll go to bed soon" but then I never do. I guess it's cause I shower, eat and then I feel a bit better and I still end up sleeping at like 11 or 12... I was so looking forward to doing nothing tonight as I always crash after an assignment but stupid stuff for agen due Friday and I was going to do it tomorrow and Thursday but I had to organise stuff for our tutorial group so I just wasted 2 hours of my "free time/ down time." Oh well. It's kind of sad because now I feel so free but I have nothing I want to do and I just feel kind of empty. 

Herpderp was there anything else to be said? I don't remember but goodnight. Oh right. Even though I couldn't sleep on the train, agen still managed to put me to sleep for a solid 5 minutes before someone's phone went off and woke me up.

The first three letters of the title is how I feel. Nah, more like tired and over it, if that can even be a feeling. So much I want to say but no time. Guess it'll have to wait til tomorrow when this BIO REPORT WILL BE OVER HURRAY. And then time to do more assignments but I think I'll give myself a break tomorrow and even if I don't, I'll crash and be unable to do work anyway.

So I have decided that for you guys to fully appreciate how much of a headache this assignment has been (not to mention that I've had a massive headache the whole of today but due to something else), you should look at our marking criteria. Click to enlarge:



Fuarrrr why is there 510 possible marks like really, what the hell. I'm going to give up soon. I only ended up writing about 3.2 pages out of the possible 4 and now all that's left to do is reference list and thinking up a suitable title. That'll take me only about... oh I'd say an hour or two T_T

See you guys tomorrow.

inb4 my bio report gives a 100% similarity score on stupid turnitin because freaking unavoidable scientific terms everywhere in my report such as photosynthesis, chloroplasts, chlorophyll, radiation, absorption blah blah you get the deal.

Turnitin, I hate you because I WRITE THIS MYSELF. Excuse me.

Sleep. HAHA what is that I don't even. I'm not necessarily going to pull an all-nighter today but I have no idea when I'll be able to go to sleep. Aside from doing stupid agen all morning I spent three hours or more just going through all the references we need to use in our bio report. Let's not even get started on how much I've actually written.

Actually let's talk about that. I put this at the top of my word document so that it'll encourage me as I get things done:
Sure, you might say "hey you're almost halfway there" but that's so not true. The introduction and discussion are about two pages together and it includes the need to talk about all sorts of background information and other experiments blah blah. Fun. NOT. And don't get me started on having to find references to use cite ugh eww (it's like finding quotes for English all over again).

So yes, this is nothing compared to that one page report we did last time where the results were pretty much black and white, it was either this or that. But this time there's so much to talk about I'll never get this done T_T I'm so tempted to skip my whole morning of uni tomorrow because I can easily catch up on it (I rewatch bio lectures when I come home anyway) and then only show up for my 2 to 5 chem prac which would give me the whole morning to do my report too (it's due Tuesday).

Buuuut I'm not going to do that. I'll prove I can do extensive hours of uni (tomorrow is 9 to 5) AND finish my assignment. Besides, I'll probably be working on my stats assignment due next Monday with my friends during our break. Yeah, don't know if I already mentioned it (remember, my memory is poor) but right after handing in assignment 2, number 3 came out for stats ugh great T_T

So yes. Once again I shall reiterate my hate for law and art kids who have only 10 hours or so and say it's because they have a tonne of readings. Screw you guys I swear I just went through like 300 page or more of journal articles today for this report and I have to have my super filled timetable. 

Ah well, so many assignments due so I think the next time I will be able to get any decent sleep will be in two weeks time unless some more assignments pop up and hit me in the face after today. Can't wait until Tuesday so this report will be due and gone and I can work on the next task. Minimal sleep until then and all-nighter it if necessary.

In closing, I swear that last night I had a dream where I became a cat lady. Don't ask.

EDIT: Oh hell, late night syndrome has come again and that means everything I type sounds like utter rubbish but you think "oh well, I'll just change it tomorrow." Only thing is, usually when you come back to change it you think "oh my gosh, how did I write this, it's actually pretty decent and I don't think I could write it any better even if I try." I think it's a case of my standards are lowering as the assignment due date/time reaches. 

FML I hate researching for freaking agen because I feel like every site I go to, they never give me what I need. Everything is so long-winded and it just makes me feel that all these so-called "agencies" set up to do things don't even really do anything so they make up for it by writing up these long ass reports that say the same thing over and over again. And then I'm like, that's great but what have you actually done.

Science is so much better because when I look up journals and articles for my report, at least I can find some where the people actually did something so their findings are actually useful in my report.

Sigh.

After 40 excruciating minutes of following the video and what was at least an hour and a half of battling with excel (it never does anything right for me), I have finally finished all my graphs and "tables."

At the end of the video, he said "thanks for watching this very long and convoluted video." Haha thanks Danny (y) Thanks for understanding our pain, and I'm sure our lives would have been a lot harder if we had to figure all that out ourselves.

FML seriously. So pissed with the stupid internet because every damn time I need it to do my work it never works. You'll be lucky to be online for a straight two minutes.

You know you're screwed when the supposedly simplest part of your report is tabulating/graphing results and yet the video that tells you how they want you to graph your results takes 40 minutes. If this already takes that long, I don't even want to know about the rest of the report.

Also the average for the bio quiz was 14/24 which is quite low so I'm guessing quite a few people had trouble with it.

Let me just say that no amount of studying would have saved me from failing bio today. I find it funny how even though the test may have been "do-able", every time I looked around the room everyone seemed just as confused as I did and they were all staring at their papers quite blankly. There wasn't really anyone who was shading in their bubbles confidently.

What's worse is that not only were the questions really weird and roundabout and not straightforward in the least, but they were multiple choice. Now, that may sound great but let me tell you, I probably would have done better if I went in blindly with no knowledge and circled randomly. I had such trouble with the multiple choice in this paper cause I would read the question, then read answers A and B first and usually by then you'd be like "oh A looks right" (or B but you know what I mean). So you continue reading C and D just to see what else is a possible answer and then that's when trouble happens cause now C or D looks like a good answer too == 

So yeah everyone else that I talked to had that problem too. Ugh bio is just too hard because my memory is so bad. So after that was my usual agen tutorial and they told us about this program that does your references for you... Maybe everyone already knew about it but gosh it will save me a lot of time. In high school, my bibliographies took me an hour+ so you can only imagine how long referencing in reports for uni take. Ah yes speaking of which, today marks the end of my 100% streak in bio because up until now it was just pre-lab quizzes and that mark we got for our report.

Sigh after cramming bio until today I just wanted a break and so I decided to watch the naruto movie I was talking about but as luck would have it, they still don't have english subs for the japanese. I just tried watching it in japanese with jap subs but wow does google/youtube fail because those subs weren't japanese, they were CHINESE. Geez get your languages right. I watched it for a bit and I'm surprised I still understand about 50% of what they're talking about (okay yes that sucks) but I'm giving up until english subs come out otherwise I can't fully appreciate the movie and I don't really want to watch it twice (unless there's like a gap of a few months between).

So sad I can't watch the movie today because I wanted to unwind for at least tonight before I start doing my bio report the whole weekend (it's due Tuesday). The work for bio is never ending. Oh yes and after the tutorial I randomly went to the city and our bus just happened to stop outside the newly opened moochi which had $2.50 regulars. It was so unexpected but who doesn't want cheap froyo so I got lychee and watermelon. I kind of regret getting watermelon because I've had it before and I should have tried something new but I didn't want to stare at the menu for too long.



^ Trying to take a picture on the go ain't easy. Lychee was pretty good, I'd like to have that again. I haven't been to moochi in so long. I think the last I had it was when Areeya and I shared the "massive" which was back in the days when we had tutoring in strathfield. I miss those days D; Toppings are kiwi fruit, strawberries and strawberry pearls (which you can't see). I think kiwi fruits and strawberries are my go-to topping.

Anyway on the train ride back my friend texted me asking what I got in bio and I was like "what?! The results are out already?!" o_o Wow, the bio faculty is insane. Only four hours had passed since the end of the quiz and they marked all 600 of ours already. Sure, they just scan multiple choice sheets but chem took at least 2 days and I can't believe bio not only marked them but also gave each of us our own pdf of what we got wrong and how many people got which question wrong etc. 

So yes, I failed T_T I got less than 80% so I better study harder next time orz. I'm sad because even though we just finished assessable exercise 2 for stats, number 3 is up already T_T The work never ends.

I was just reading a random blog post then I saw this (the first line):



And the rest is my reaction. Oh stats, the reaction I give you is the same as the one I give when I hear the dread word "belonging." What's with PSY's new song, it doesn't even sound like a song and I agree with Bitter when she says that move is exactly the same as the one in Brown Eyed Girls' Abracadabra.

Oh goodness I think I will definitely fail bio tomorrow. It could be really hard or just okay but I don't even do well when it's okay. 

I was doing the online practice questions thing and for the first one I got 13/15 so I was thinking:



And I was thinking maybe I'll be alright but then I did the second one and got 10/14 == Still a long way to go. When you're doing the questions you realise just how different bio is to say, physics or chem. Like for me, physics and chemistry is more about calculations or understanding the material but bio is so hard for me as it's more about remembering stuff. Like it's not so much understanding things, it's like "oh this works like this and this works like that, so you need to remember that." 

I can't really explain it but you can't really "understand" anything because there's no reasoning behind why it's like that so for me it's more about remembering. And I hate that because I find it easier to understand than to remember since my memory is very poor. So yes bio is hard because I never had to deal with just remembering (rather than understanding) in high school. My knowledge of bio is still so poor because every time I answer a question, I'm never confident with my choice and I'm like "oh I think that one's right but I don't really know."

Oh this sucks.

Today marks the day that one of my dearest friends leaves this world. RIP msn, I'll miss you. Now that you've officially left me I'm really sad because you've always been here for me. Skype shall never replace you and I won't be getting it just yet since it's too lame and it would just be a distraction as I must continue cramming bio today for tomorrow.

Bye bye msn :(

Going off topic, you know something that really pisses me off? People. Of course that sounds really stupid and pessimistic and blah blah blah but sometimes it's just too frustrating and then that makes me even more grateful that I chose to do this course. At times like this it just reminds me that there really isn't any other course out there for me.

To argue or not to argue. When you know someone who does stupid things, all you want to do is tell them to stop. But of course if it was that easy, they wouldn't be doing that in the first place if they really wanted to stop. So then obviously you argue about it because you can't see eye to eye.

So what to do? Continue arguing and give myself a big ass headache (which I did today) or leave them be and save myself the time and the trouble. I really feel that some people just cannot be helped.

Well I wasted my time today.

This quote I just saw on tumblr is probably really relevant to how I feel right now:

“But eventually you learn that you just can’t save anyone no matter how hard you try. People have to want to change, they have to want to do better, and to be better. All you can do is love people and pray for them and be present when they need you. But you can’t save them; at the end of the day, we all have to save ourselves.” - Kovie Biakolo

Though I'm not sure about the part where it says "be present when they need you" because frankly I think I can't be bothered anymore and besides, if they did need me then they'd listen to me in the first place.

Sigh.

Sorry, I forgot to write yesterday that I apologise in advance for the upcoming short and disjointed posts for this week. Too many things due/to do/to study for so yeah :( Why is the stupid bio quiz on friday called a quiz anyway, it makes you think it will be easy but it's not (I've seen the practice one). And why is it worth 10% == That might not sound like much but if you don't do well then that's that gone.

In other news, this makes me so happy!



Hell to the yes. You know why? No practicals means no walking to stupid ATP on other side of redfern and back! YES! Which means I might skip bio since I don't fancy waiting three hours for it but depends on what I feel like.

But besides that, since there's no stats tutorial tomorrow that means I only have two hours of lectures and DONE! I could totally skip since it's chem and stats but I'll just go. I get to finish at 11 instead of two hour break then tutorial which finishes at 2. Hurray! :D

And that's all for today.

And yes, our lecturer's name is Floris. Quite the strange name (to me at least).

That moment when you find a suitable journal to use in your stats assignment question since it has a t-test in it and you're so happy you're over the moon and then you realise that's kind of sad. And that moment you realise there are like four t-tests in that journal and you don't know which one you have to summarise so you probably have to do them all and then it'll go over the 100 word limit.

What to do.

Okay, you definitely start admitting to yourself that you're sick when you're wearing like 3 or 4 layers and you go out (shopping) and see everyone else wearing only one layer like shirts, singlets or thin long sleeves. Sigh. You don't really appreciate how lucky you are to not be coughing, having a runny nose, or not having the pains or tiredness that typically come with sickness until you get sick :(

In other news, crudely chopping an avocado to make nachos is fun. Why bother chopping it nicely when it's soft and it'll break off anyhow anyway xD 

I've been doing my stats assignment which consists of mainly just re-typing my working out except I haven't found a journal yet for the last question. Been partly procrastinating as well as I've been watching some simpsons eps on youtube :D

oh my god yesterday when I woke up I had a slight cough (I coughed about three times) and it wasn't just the normal cough, I could definitely feel something in my chest. And then came the horrible realisation that I might be sick ==

You see, when I get sick, it's almost always (like 99.9% of the time) characterised by coughing rather than a runny nose for me. Damn it, is this seriously all because I sat next to H. on the way back from the farm? Cause she told me she was sick only AFTER I sat down and I was like "oh my god please no". That was Friday. And Saturday I saw SB and no matter how much he denies it, he was definitely sick because his nose was running so much it almost came out like water (gross, I know). Sorry that I had to share that.

So yes. Now I've come into contact with two sick people. The first stage of sickness is always denial where you just spend all your time going "no, this isn't happening, I'm not sick, I can't be sick." And aside from those three coughs yesterday I felt fine. But today I woke up and ever since then my nose hasn't stopped running. It's completely blocked and I can't breathe and I'm going through a tissue like every five minutes. This is horrible.

But I'm still in denial. All I have is a stupid runny nose but no coughs, and that's not the way I get sick. The thing is, my nose is always bad (something my mum gave me) so it isn't unusual for it to be blocked or runny. It's just that it's worse today and I don't know if it's just acting up or if it's actual sickness T_T Please, I'm begging you, please let me not be sick. This week I have to do 3 assignments (including one due next week) and study for the bio quiz which I know absolutely NOTHING about and is worth 10%. So please please let me not be sick because then my work will suffer and be super slow!

And as a side note, wow Bitter so rude! (Half joking here). Yesterday I told her I might be sick and she stepped back and was like "you better not get me sick! I have a test this week!" Dude, you got sick so many times in high school and I still sat next to you and I always just hoped my body could fight whatever you might possibly give me (and surprisingly I think I only ever caught something from her once or twice). Now it's your turn to feel what I had to go through D;

some people are just so stupid and they just really keep pushing you without understanding that people have limits.

Sadly because of that this awesome honey butter bread doesn't taste as good anymore.

argh forget it, my mind is too frazzled to do anything tonight.

World, goodnight for tonight.

Oh and I'm still sad about the fact that I saw that guy wearing thongs to uni on Wednesday.

Before I talk about the farm let me just say that you know you are completely screwed when you have a bio report due in two week's time (but now it's one and a half because I've been procrastinating) and it has to be four pages in length not including references, tables, and graphs and the instructions alone for how to write your report are six pages long. Yep. Oh god what am I going to do.

Last one's was quite easy compared to this because the results was just one graph and we were only allowed to write one page (results and discussion only). This time it's introduction, methods, results, discussion and a non compulsory appendix. What on earth do we need an appendix for in this report anyway x_x Ugh I just hate labs so much because I'm lazy and report writing is seriously the worst. You never feel like you're on the right track because they are really nit-picky about what they want to see in your report sigh. If last time's one page report took me 10 hours (including time spent researching and procrastinating) then that means this time's will take 40 hours oh my god T_T

I forgot to mention it before but the other day my stats lecturer said "blue-haired, blond-eyed" and then went "whoops, I meant blond-haired, blue-eyed" and straight away I thought of Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf which makes me cringe, because I'm remembering days of english. But actually that play was one of my favourite texts studied during high school english (one of the very few).

I'm going to miss our chem lecturer and next week is his last week with us because we're changing lecturers after that :( I don't even know why that happens, it's like how we changed lecturers in bio. He's cool and he makes chem less painful and today he was making balloon animals which grabbed everyone's attention and then he was like "oh since you guys are looking, let's start the lecture" lol. He said he was "practising for Saturday" but I'm not sure if he's serious. 

And continuing on with his weird experiments that have no relevance to what we're learning, today he mixed some sulfuric acid with what I think was some yellow salt (sorry I didn't catch what it was) and then he put it over a bunsen burner and nothing happened and he basically spent 3 minutes going "hmm it should happen soon" while the class was just watching and wondering what was supposed to happen. And after a while the stuff just quickly expanded and became what look like a long brown foam-y (though solid) looking thing coming out of the beaker. To me it looked like a giant poo LOL. Probably doesn't sound that exciting but it's just something that's more entertaining when watched.

Oh and he connected the other lecturer's ipad up to the projector to show us something and then he was typing in the passcode and it came up on screen too and everyone laughed at him and he was like "shhh don't tell him you guys saw the passcode" haha. After that I spent my hour break doing my chem tutorial sheet (before the tutorial) which I didn't bother doing the night before and I really have to say that taking the effort to actually do the work really helps you understand it better (yeah I know, such a basic concept and yet I still don't really do all my work sigh).

Then it was tutorial time and the sheets are getting longer and longer T_T But I still finished hurray (y) Then I went to Fisher which I don't really like (but I guess it's alright) to get help from D. and J. with my stats assignment. Pretty sure we were the noisiest kids there and people were probably hating on us D; It's not like we were really loud, it's just that talking in our normal voice (though a bit quieter) is probably quite noticeable considering that the rest of the level is mostly filled with dead silence.

Anyway I felt bad cause my answers were different to theirs and then that made them check their work many many times and then they had to change their answers cause they did some things wrong and I felt bad cause they were like "ugh noooo why do I have to re-do this T_T" and when I kept apologising about it they kept thanking me for telling them it was wrong cause "otherwise we'd have lost marks for wrong answers when we hand it in." Yeah but still I felt bad cause typing those things up and changing it is a massive pain.

So yep, doing all the assignment answers by hand on paper takes like 10 minutes if you actually understand what needs to be done, no joke. But we have to type it up in word and submit it online and I'm not joking when I say that typing it up takes an hour plus (they told me it took them 1.5 hours to type everything up T_T). I haven't started typing it up yet, it's all in my book and I was going to do it tonight but ever since I got home and got on the computer to do work I've had a massive headache sigh. Guess I'll do it tomorrow.

Need to find another journal article for last question of assignment which will be fun fun fun (not). Finding a suitable article that makes sense to me is so hard. Anyway YESSS finally the weather does what I wanted it to. It said it was going to be 23 today so I wore stockings but later regretted it because it was sunny and I was like "damn, I should've worn shorts." But then I got out of fisher and it was SO cold and windy and was starting to sprinkle and I was like HELL YEAH I feel better for overdressing. And finally the umbrella that I always carry came in use (y)

Ewwwww farm tomorrow and I'm going to have to catch a 7:37 train which is sooo early T_T I guess that's not too bad because that was the train I used to catch to get to high school but it's much earlier than the trains I catch for uni. Cityfail, you better not screw up tomorrow or I won't make it to the farm and attendance is compulsory so I will come after you if something happens. Also, don't tell me to catch an earlier train because that one should be early enough unless cityrail fails super hard (which it probably will, just to troll me).

Oh my god I've been procrastinating hard because my brain is too frazzled to function. Also I don't like question two of this assessable exercise 2 for stats because I've read it a billion times over and I still don't even see the question that's being asked:



Anyone want to help me out and tell me what the actual question is? 

Hmm, why does everyone I know or meet do normal chem T_T I have like no one in my chem but oh well it just means I can focus on the work. Yay only two hours tomorrow since I'm blowing off stats prac (it's just too far) and bio because I don't want to wait 3 hours for it. I won't go home early though, I'll be asking my friends for help with the stats assignment. Hmm maybe I can go to bio after all, if I end up taking a long time with my assignment I might as well just go (beats trying to catch up at home).

Also eww why did we have to walk to bosch today. I'm glad it's just for a once off meeting for the people in our course (or at least I hope it's just this once) because it's so far away and it's a pain to get to. I think I prefer walking to the vet sci conference centre which is pretty far as well, it's in the far back corner of the uni. 

On the way to bosch I saw some guy with really unevenly dyed red hair (you know who you are). Coincidences are so amazing and funny. Seriously.

Oh hell no the freaking live stream started and I can't leave my seat and I really need to go to the toilet now of all times x_x

I just thought I should share that with everyone. Yep.

LOL GG I accidentally put my contacts the wrong way around so my vision has been screwed up for the last few days. The thing is you can't tell which is which because they look exactly the same so I had to go give them in to the optometrist and she told me I mixed them up x_x I thought so because my right eye was hurting and my vision was slightly retarded except I kind of dismissed it because it wasn't that bad and it does that sometimes when I don't sleep "enough." 

I miss my old contacts cause the right one was green and the left one was blue so it was impossible to mix up. I remember which is which because blue is left since it has an L and green is right since it has an R. Ingenious :)

I wish my body would stop being retarded. Today I was so dead tired even though I got a solid six hours of sleep. I was falling asleep everywhere - on the train and even in classes I was drifting off :( But the thing is, as soon as I come home, I am completely awake and don't feel tired until it hits 1am or so x_x Ah I finally realised why it seems slightly less crowded on trains in the morning, high school kids are in their holidays. Boy am I slow at connecting the dots. And then today after uni I had to buy a few things and I was like "why are there kids here at this time shouldn't they be at school o.O" and then I had to remind myself that it's the holidays for them (but not us sigh). 

So it looks like chem has now reached the point where the stuff is new to me which means I have to concentrate more and now I'm already finding it hard nooo :( You know what I don't get? Why am I learning about sigma and pi bonds, resonance and blah when that's what the "normal" chem class is learning? I thought our stuff was supposed to be easier than theirs? I'm so confused.

Today must have been the one and only agen lecture I'll ever find interesting because some woolworths guy came in to talk to us. It's not that I'm a big fan of woolworths but I do buy things from there and hey it's more interesting than whatever the hell we're normally learning. So he was saying that grocery shopping was a "grudge" thing (I don't know what he means by that) because no one wants to do it, they only do it because they HAVE to. And I'm like, excuse me, are you out of your mind?! I LOVE grocery shopping. I love thinking about food, eating food, and making food (and obviously shopping for the ingredients necessary to do that). Wow, who doesn't like grocery shopping seriously. It's the only form of shopping I like, clothes shopping is so boring and I get tired after about 5 minutes. Maybe only one person will agree with me about all of that (Keely) :(

So today in the food court I saw this girl in about year four or five(?) who was sitting with her parents and she was trying to set up the toy she got from her happy meal. It wasn't even that hard and after like 5 minutes she couldn't do it and kind of threw a tantrum x_x Sometimes I look at little kids and their behaviour and I just think "oh god, please tell me I wasn't like that at that age" or "please tell me I was smarter than that when I was that age." And then she kept bashing this piece into the toy because it didn't fit (you have to join it up, I don't know if that makes sense) and she didn't realise that it didn't fit because she was putting it in wrong! I got frustrated watching so I told her "uh you need to flip it over then connect it" and she must have thought I was a weirdo watching her fail with her toy T_T I only knew how that toy worked because Ruby came over a few weeks ago and had trouble with the same toy but hey, Ruby's only three so that's understandable.

This weather makes me sad, it's warm/hot at uni but then when I come home it's suddenly really cold and I need to add like two layers ==

And fuarrrrrr our agen group assignment is about salinity and I could totally rip off whatever I wrote in the year 10 geo test (it was a killer report okay) except I packed that book away ages ago when I was cleaning out my room. NOOOOO I don't want to start from scratch why

Uwah I never put up my summary of last week orz. You know what's great? How I can't watch the naruto movie when it comes out with english subs because I'll be too busy doing my three assignments due next week fun fun fun x_x Anyway Mondays are so hard for me since I don't finish until 5 and like I said last week, thanks to no more daylight savings it's already dark by the time I get home T_T

Oh before I start, I was already super tired and brain dead at 9pm which is ridiculous but then again it was expected considering the fact I stayed up until 2am the night before thanks to a certain someone x_x Which meant I only got four and a half hours of sleep. Really intended to go to bed early tonight but there was just so much to do and now it's already approaching 11. Sigh. 

So bio was normal, we have a different lecturer now (since last week) and he's not as cool as Danny, our old lecturer who brought us the "press a button and answer the question and it comes up on the board" thing and now we don't have that anymore :( The new lecturer (gosh I forgot his name) is sometimes funny, I guess, though his sense of humour is different to Danny's. 

Oh gosh stats. I'm just so lost now and after last week's tutorial I had the "oh yay I think I'm getting it now" feeling but whenever a new week starts nope, kiss that goodbye because the new stuff will always befuddle your mind like hell. After that was two hour break and I saw Connie and Joanna who came to visit us usyd people :O 

God then it was stupid agen. Apparently they did listen to our feedback and they're now trying to "mix it up" a bit so that it's more interesting but I'm sorry, the subject is boring and none of us would do it if it wasn't compulsory. I'm pretty sure the agen lectures could cure insomnia. It really is the most boring thing you've ever seen. I guarantee that if you sit in it for five minutes you'll be falling asleep. To be honest I would skip all agen lectures but I only go because D. and J. tell me to (even though they end up being just as bored as I am). 

I seriously doubt that anyone in our course will pass it. Out of the original 300, I swear only about 60 or so come to the lectures now. And none of us take down many notes or seem to be actively listening so if we can't pass, I don't think the people who skip will pass either. Oh goodness, can't wait til this semester is done and then agen, never again! (Unless I fail -cries-)

Oh my god oh my god then we get to the best part of my day. I head over to chem building and near the door there was a sign saying all CHEM1 labs were cancelled due to a power outage in the morning. Even though my hopes were soaring, I decided to check it out in case it was a troll (hey, you don't want to just leave then find out the labs really were running cause then you'd be screwed). But the teacher confirmed that this morning there was a power outage and that the demonstrators went home so there was no one to help us with our experiments plus if the morning classes were cancelled you'd have to cancel ours too just to make sure everyone is "on the same level" if that makes sense.

Soooooo happy because that means I got to finish at 2 instead of 5! But unfortunately it means our lab has to be "made up for" next week when apparently we didn't have one next week (due to ANZAC day on Thursday no labs for the whole week to make everyone up to the same place). But you know what? I'm not even sad about that because I thought we had labs anyway (as my timetable says lab weeks 2 to 13) so it's not like a "holiday" (early break) was taken away from me since I didn't even know about its existence in the first place :)

So I saw my lab partner on the way out and I told her it was cancelled and she was like "wow you must be super happy considering how you're happy even if we get to leave lab just 20 minutes early" and damn right I was happy :D There's nothing like being able to leave early. Anyway I also saw Carol's friend A. and they both have lab at the same time as me (though in a different group and room). A. was asking me if I had seen Carol (probably to tell her about cancelled labs) and then she was like "wait do you even know Carol?" xD I guess she doesn't know we went to the same high school...

But then this guy showed up and was strolling towards the closed labs and I was like "oh you don't have go in, labs are cancelled. Aren't you happy?" and he probably thought that I was trolling so I showed him the sign. He then suddenly said "damn" so I asked him what was wrong (who wouldn't be happy about cancelled labs?) and he said he ran all the way from Wallace for nothing xD Not only that, he was wearing his lab coat already which he must have ran in xD I kind of feel sorry because I only have to walk 20 metres or so to get to the labs but if you go to usyd, you know Wallace is forever away. Can't believe how he got there so early from Wallace, he must have ran or left super early. He then asked me "hey have you seen ____?" (sorry I couldn't catch the name) and basically I was just like 



because I didn't even know who he was so how would I know the person he was looking for? o.O Maybe he just assumed I was in his class or something since I was talking to A. (and I'm guessing he knows A.) but still, you guys know the people in your own class right? Like even if you don't know their names you know faces so I was just thinking "umm dude I'm not even in your class and how could you not know that I don't know you and you don't know me D: " but not in a rude way, I just found it interesting. So I was about to tell him that we weren't even in the same class and that I didn't even know who he was and then out of the blue he asks for my number "just in case, for situations like this." O_O I'm sorry but I found that weird because like I said, we weren't even in the same class? Plus I didn't even know his name o.O And then Carol showed up and interrupted xD

And then the rest of my time was spent watching the baulko people play pool. I was kind of surprised at how many of us gathered there. Wasted time there as if I left early to go home no one would pick me up and I'd have to walk home in the sun D; Got home and was happy to be home early but everyone else seemed to be "down" (probably cause they were tired from work) T_T

Oh yes and while we were at pool SB and I went and got 1L easyway like retards for no reason:


Guess who owns which one. First time I bought a 1L one and I probably gained 1kg from that. They don't look that big in the picture though.

Let me just go cry in the corner about the fact that I have uni tomorrow (a long day too, no less) and that my sister has no care in the world right now and can spend time however she wishes because it's the holidays for her.

I'm sad D;

Yay got my chem tutorial quiz back:



I don't even know how the average was 7.3 since it's fundamentals and everyone seemed really prepared? o.O Also so far I have 100% in bio, chem and agen since in bio and chem there hasn't really been any "tests" yet and it's just been pre-lab quizzes (which do count towards our marks). Only "test" we had was that ^ chem tutorial quiz (bio one coming in week 7). Agen only had that journal entry so far.

So please tell me why the subject I like most (or I think I like most?) so far which is stats, is the one I do the worst in T_T Finally got that "assessable exercise" back which is the one where one of the questions was to summarise statistics in a journal and I only got 22/25 which is 88% ಥ＿ಥ There goes 0.6 of my report. That might not sound bad but if I can't even do well in my assessable exercises where you have time to fix things before handing it in, what does that mean for the theory test which is worth 50% D;

My mistakes were retarded. Well actually the question was dodgy and I answered them but the marker was like "no you don't do it like that, you do this" but what? I did what the question told me to do which is not what you just said... But there's no point dwelling on it. Can't believe I screwed up the "easy questions" yet got full marks on the summarising of the abstract which was the part I found hardest. What is this. 


Please tell me how even though when I submit my assessment it has my name attached and yet when I get it back you spell my name like that ^. Obviously you named the marked pdf after my name which you saw when you looked at my file name so how do people copy it wrong?! I will never understand that sort of thing.

I can only think of one word that sums up today - "fml." Okay, I don't really mean it (but you understand my feelings right?) and I just realised that that isn't one word but oh well.

So what exactly went down today? First off, background story is today I got to sleep in as I just have one tutorial in the afternoon. I woke up, saw dad had put some cheques by my computer which was his way of saying "please go deposit these for me today."

Now here's just a few of the many things that went wrong (I know it won't seem like that much to you guys though):

- I was going to be late thanks to a certain SOMEONE so I had to run out of my house for my 2pm tutorial
- due to this, I forgot to bring the printout of our group speech for the tutorial which I left on the kitchen table beside my book (I grabbed the book but not the printout ==)
- also forgot to bring a copy of last week's tutorial minutes which I needed because I was note taker this week
- thought I packed the cheques into my bag but upon further inspection of my bag when I got to the bank to deposit them, that wasn't the case T_T
- last but not least (because right now I can't remember the other things), I forgot my PHONE which I needed so I could tell my parents when I was getting home!!! The one time I was going to come home late and then I don't even bring it which means parents can't contact me = lost trust in me = unhappy parents = never going out again FML
- missed my train anyway so I had to catch the later one which I thought would make me late (though thankfully more than 50% of the class was later than me)

Sigh so I got to my tute and I really needed my phone so SB went to go get it for me... Those aren't the person's real initials, it's the initials for my nickname for them and I suspect only Bitter and SB will know who I'm talking about. Anyway on the walk to uni I realised that my phone wasn't actually where I told SB it would be... I thought I was charging it then I realised I didn't and so they'd never find it... Problem was I had no way of contacting them to tell them that so then it would have been wasted effort T_T

Thankfully I was able to borrow a classmate's phone (though isn't that sort of thing awkward) but the problem is I never memorised SB's number... So I had to text my sister asking her for the number that just texted her (texted my sister about my phone problem using SB's phone while on the train) and then texted SB. Whew I should really memorise numbers otherwise this might happen again T_T I only remember my parents and sister's numbers because I thought those were the only ones I would need.

After that I guess everything ended up okay but the worst part of my night was when dad came to the station to pick me up. He actually came up to the station instead of waiting for me at the pick up place which meant he saw something bad :( Not going to explain and maybe you'll think of something really bad but it's not that bad because you guys already know. Okay I'm not making sense.

But argh because he and I are the kind of people we are we're both not going to bring it up and then my dad was just silent and I didn't know what to say and arghhhh T_T Now I feel bad that it had to be like this and now he's probably like "sigh my daughter's become a liar" and I've probably lost all the trust of my parents and now when I go out they'll be like "who knows what she's really doing" and what do I do, how do I clear the air?!?! If I ignore it then that's rude but if I tell them they'll be like "..." 

Dad's probably like -facepalm- "why did I let her go out today." I envy you people who have easygoing parents because there are some things I can't do without feeling guilty. On another note, my sister tends to go out to a lot of parties and my parents kind of dislike that (they think she should study more) and just now she asked my dad if she could go out to another one tomorrow and I know it's kind of hard to ask him because he did his usual "...." of disapproval and unwillingness but of course he always says yes in the end because my dad is not an unreasonable man.

I probably just painted my parents in a bad light but it's nothing really, I really do get along with them (mostly). In any case, the icing of the cake was when I got home my sister was like "so did you sort out your phone problem?" Oh goodness, everything about today was just sus. 

In any case, this has been my 100th post and it's sad that the 100th post is completely retarded (but then again my blog is filled with posts like that). Another post to come shortly, to break up this big chunk.

Oh right here's more:

- came home late so I missed my mum putting in our weekly load of laundry which means no clean clothes for next week. Nah hopefully she puts in another load tomorrow T_T
- unrelated to today, but the skin of my fingertips have been peeling like there's no tomorrow lately and it's gross and awful and before it was just two of my fingers and now it's slowly happening to more of them T_T It looks like there are "holes" in the uppermost layer of my skin it's so disgusting can it please just stop what do I do

- Me: "hey dad guess what? I just remembered we have a bank at uni so I can deposit your cheques any day now :D" 
Dad: "then why didn't you do it for me today?" 
Me: "T_T I was going to..." -damn it he found out I forgot to bring them, I was just going to do it on Monday argh why am I so unreliable :( - 

 Mini Guide and Tips for Japan (and Korea) - 500th post! 
 June 29th - Sydney to Seoul 
 June 30th - Myeong-dong and Jung-gu 
 July 1st - Itaewon and Jung-gu (again) 
 July 2nd - Apgujeong Rodeo, Gangnam, Yongsan 
 July 3rd - Hongdae, D-Cube City and Yongsan 
 July 4th - last day in Korea. Dongdaemun Markets, Doota and back to our beloved Myeongdong 
 /post break/ What to buy from each Korean brand 
 July 5th - Leaving Seoul for Tokyo (Akihabara) 
 July 6th - Harajuku 
 July 7th - Ginza, Tokyo Station and Marunouchi 
 July 8th – Shinjuku 
 July 9th - Ikebukuro (Sunshine City) and Shinjuku 
 July 10th - Shibuya and Asakusa 
 July 11th - Shinjuku and Odaiba 
 July 12th - Akihabara and Roppongi/Minato 
 July 13th - Mt. Fuji and Kawaguchi 
 July 14th - Kawaguchiko and Harajuku 
 July 15th - Osaka and Tempozan 
 July 16th - Universal Studios Japan 
 July 17th - Namba (Dōtonbori), Shinsaibashi, Tennōji Park then all the way to Kyoto (Gion) 
 July 18th (last day in Osaka) - Osaka Castle, Spa World, Umeda 
 July 19th - Hiroshima and Miyajima 
 July 20th - Hiroshima --> Kyoto 
 July 21st - Arashiyama Area and North-west Kyoto (Ryōan-ji and Kinkaku-ji) 
 July 22nd - Kyoto -> Nara and Osaka (NARUTO EXHIBITION!!) 
 July 23rd - Kyoto back to Tokyo 
 July 24th - Yokohama (Minato Mirai 21)  
 July 25th and 26th (END) - Tokyo -> Seoul -> HOME 

✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)

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