夢と現実の間
Between dreams and reality
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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
 : Loves pink, food, ice-cream.
Summer is my eternal love.
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written on Wednesday, October 30, 2013 @ 11:20 PM ✈
Wow guys, I have completed a year of uni! Well minus exams of course... but whatever, today was my last day of class! ＼( ^o^)／ Technically I still had class tomorrow but since two of my lectures aren't running because we've actually finished all the material already, the only classes I would have would be a chem lecture at 9, and a bio lecture at 4. That six hour break in between? No thanks.
Well today was an up and down day. I don't want to go into it too much because my head kind of hurts right now :/ There have been quite a few things I wanted to write about but since I was busy and it takes a long time to type up I've pushed it aside and then you forget some of it...
Anyway highlight of today was when I got to the station and all trains were delayed on my line but I didn't really care since the delayed train got to the platform when I did so I just hopped on (so let's say it was the 4:30 train but it ended up arriving at 5 and that was okay cause I only got there at 5). Turns out it was an express and mine was the second stop, hurray! But then in the middle of the train ride the announcer said they were making 4 extra stops. Stupid bloody cityrail strikes again. And those stops don't benefit anyone on the train since they all thought it was express and wouldn't be getting off anyway so obviously they just wanted to pick up people from other stops. NO wait for your own train like I always have to ==
Okay before I start on happier and fluffier things why is it that after the past two weeks of assignments and the like, I'm crashing? That's normal after exams but I can't afford to crash now because exams are soon... But my head hurts, and feels cloudy and my stomach is not being nice to me right now sigh. So I'm taking tonight off and I'm going to buckle down for some awful studying as of tomorrow. Hurray :/
OKAY! Good stuff now. So today after my jap tutoring at parra, I went over to see the MKR truck because Bitter told me about it. Nothing exciting though just people filming them and telling the public to move to the side and all that jazz. There were chairs set up which I'm guessing is for people to choose which team they want to order from. We couldn't stay long enough to see though because uni.
And then Bitter had a crazy craving for french toast.... from Circa.... It was already at least 11 and our usual train was at 11:07. Instead we opted for the 11:22 and we ran like crazy to the other side of the station to get it. Thankfully the guy was quite nice about it and pushed our order forward when he saw Bitter's face fall when she realised we probably couldn't get it and make it for the train. I'm still laughing like crazy when I think about how he asked us "but how are you going to eat it?" Bitter: "On the train! I've done it before." He looked like he was in genuine shock and disbelief. Haha but it's not that uncommon is it?
We ran like mad back to the train but this was the result of our efforts:
Hehe it feels so dodgy eating this on a train but it seems like most people couldn't care less. This is my first time having french toast outside and it was quite good! The use of greek yoghurt instead of cream is quite interesting and I actually quite like it. OH it's also my first time having rhubarb. Don't judge, it's just something my parents never cooked for me. I don't know, rhubarb seems like the kind of thing I wouldn't like because it just seems funny and the taste doesn't seem like something I'd like (they use it all the time on masterchef). But nope, it's quite good! But I still don't think we'll be seeing any in the house lol.
The other day I saw this and so it seems El Jannah is actually opening here! Everyone didn't believe me == And yeah I admit the colour scheme makes it look like some other random restaurant (I thought so too at first glance) but a newspaper article of the owner standing right outside this one confirms it's just another restaurant like the one in Granville. Who knew?
And now for some random lols that voltage makes pop up on my screen randomly which makes me laugh:
Okay my screen looks scary when you put it together like that.
And now can we all just take a minute to cry about how all this came out and I didn't even have time to play it? ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡
Yamatoooooo I really want to play (ಥ＿ಥ）
soon soon soon
written on Tuesday, October 29, 2013 @ 11:03 PM ✈
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand another night spent staying up until 12. Unfortunately with all this work I've kind of neglected my japanese homework... again x_x Particles will seriously be the death of me. I know I used to make some mistakes every now and then back in HSC but I feel like I completely don't understand them anymore. I miss the old days of year seven when everything was "blah blah wa lalala desu" LOL
Hmm got to leave uni at 1pm for once! Earliest I've been able to leave all semester seriously == Usually my timetable goes 4, 5, 5, 5, 5. Gross. I miss last semester where I had two days a week where I finished at 2 sigh. So yeah getting on my train to go back home and it was dead empty except three other people. I haven't seen that sight since last semester T_T
Super windy today and I came out of my chem tutorial and as I was walking down the stairs I could see some blue and white "tape" so I asked my classmate "what are they roping off out there?" And it turns out a big tree fell over while I was in my tutorial... Hope no one got hurt. No pictures though because I didn't want to be the retard standing there trying to take a picture :/
It's embarrassing when the winds are so strong and they blow you 2 metres to the right while you're walking on the bridge and you almost end up crashing into someone :S It makes it look like I'm walking drunk or something even though I've never experienced drunkenness. Everyone else was walking fine though so why me D;
ugh excel ugh
written on Monday, October 28, 2013 @ 10:53 PM ✈
Writting up bio pracs takes at least one hour for each prac and I'm up to my last one now but can I rejoice? NO. It's 11 right now and I'm no where near done with this last one because I spent a good one hour+ doing excel graphs. Stupid bio seriously why do I waste all this time when it's only worth 5% (ﾉಥ益ಥ）ﾉ 彡┻━┻
It's not that I don't get excel. I mean I've had to use it for statistics and biology for at least 20+ times now but it's all the stupid tedious calculations because Simpson's Index of Diversity. Ugh we did that last semester too but they were kind and set the formula automatically in the excel cell for us but nope not this time.
I hate you bio.
written on Saturday, October 26, 2013 @ 11:37 PM ✈
Wahh
it's been a busy week and I've kind of been AWOL for the past few days
(my last super short post doesn't count). I'm now up to the annoying
writing up of all the bio labs and I tooooootally appreciate looking at
our dissection pictures again of dead rats, fish and locusts and having
to label their parts （￣□￣；）It's also just as bad that my google
search is now full of things like "fish heart", "rat dissection
pictures" etc because I needed help labelling.
3
days left of uni but everyone else is finished already ugh it's always me isn't
it x_x Since it's late (11:30) I'll just do this survey I found on
tumblr where you bold things that apply and even though I want to write a
comment next to some of them to clarify, I think it's meant to be a
minimalistic thing so I won't D:
Bold what’s
true about you:
I am
under 18.
I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my “pajamas”.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
l am right handed.
I am ambidextrous.
I am a little shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy folk music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I like Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop. ----> Okay I'm sorry but I can't let this go, I only like grocery shopping thanks.
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and
scar-free.
I am wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.
I
have/had:
Finished college.
Smoked cigarettes.
Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been broken up with.
Taken a college level course. (LOL)
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swum with dolphins.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery. (what!! this was already asked above > >)
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.
Gotten straight A’s.
Been handcuffed.
My hair
is naturally the colour:
Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blonde
Black
Dirty blond
Strawberry blond
Multicoloured
Red
My eyes
are:
Brown
Dark Brown
Blue
Green
Hazel
Light brown
Black
Gray
People
sometimes label me as:
Slut
Boyish
Colorful
Ugly
Nerd
Other
Some of
my biggest fears are:
Spiders/ insects
Slimy things
Dying
Doctor/Dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
sub spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Large animals
sub animals
Open spaces
Lightning
Thunder
Tornadoes
Clustered holes (EWW JUST READING IT GIVEES ME THE CREEPS AND SHIVERS FUARR)
Bodily fluids
Corpses
I have:
A friend with benefits
A laptop in my room
A television in my room
Good grades (HAD)
My own
car
Parents who are still married
A dog
A cat
A game console
did you really just
written on Thursday, October 24, 2013 @ 11:35 PM ✈
~Late last night~
Sister: Ooooh is your skin getting better? It looks good!
Me: -about to fall off chair- LOLOLOLOLOL
Seriously wasn't sure if she was serious or not because if anything, my skin is getting WORSE because exams, assignments, bad weather and yeah. I made her feel my gross dry forehead and she was like "eww!" LOLOL well that just made my night
short post because too much work
written on Tuesday, October 22, 2013 @ 11:00 PM ✈
~Doing any multiple choice exam and I don't know the answer~
Me: hmm well it's definitely not these two... so there's two options left. I'll have to guess then.
*Gets it wrong*
Me doing bio pre lab quiz: I honestly don't even know I can't even cross any of these out because I know nothing. Oh well I'll just guess so there's 25% chance.
*Gets them all right*
WHERE IS THE LOGIC
tab problems
written on Monday, October 21, 2013 @ 11:09 PM ✈
Man how does this happen. Before I nicely had 4 windows with about 6 tabs each and now I have 8 windows with at least 20 tabs in each. And all of them I need so I can't "clean up" and it makes it very difficult to find some things.
Ugh and this is another night before chem quiz. You'd think that because it's not organic chemistry it would be better but nope nope NOPE. Don't know why but even though I felt I understood this section more, when I did the sample quizzes I was still like "what why don't I know any of this." Quizzes are always deceiving and actually test you on so much of the course content ==
Too hard to explain but ugh I feel worn out already and it was only Monday. How to survive the week of deadlines?
this state
written on Sunday, October 20, 2013 @ 10:15 PM ✈
Spent most of today just feeling frustrated, helpless and even more down than normal. I know it sounds petty and ridiculous especially since this is a life of a student but I'm just sick of all the work already and just want to rage quit. I think I've just burned out doing all the assignments and tests throughout this semester and so now that this week has almost something everyday I just don't want to do anything anymore. Ugh there's nothing I want more than for the break to come already.
I just really don't seem to be in the right frame of mind anymore and it doesn't help that there are other things I need to sort out so juggling uni stuff and that is probably too much and too hard. Doesn't help that certain people are the biggest flakes and liars ever. Sick of dealing with this. I can imagine in the next few weeks I'll be getting a lot of headaches, bad stomach aches and probably bad things appearing on my skin sigh.
Well let's just write what has to be done for my own reference:
Week 12 (this week)
Monday: working on vets group speech (goodness knows how long it'll take I want to do other things)
Tuesday: chem quiz (10%)
Wednesday: bio lab summary yet another one (10%)
Friday: avbs animal handling showcase -- it's a group assignment (30%? I don't even remember anymore)
^ Doesn't seem like much but considering you want to give more than one day to each thing and it's sunday already then some juggling is in order.
Week 13 (next week)
Monday: the actual vets group speech presentation (15%)
Wednesday: bio lab books to be handed in (15%) --> THIS IS THE WORST THING EVER. Since I haven't been writing it up properly throughout semester that means I will have to go through 12 labs drawing pictures, putting in tables, writing up titles, answering questions, and all that muck. This takes at least a good one hour each prac so there goes at least 12 hours (I'm not even joking, it probably took at least 15 hours last semester).
Ugh that list makes me depressed.
swirls
written on Thursday, October 17, 2013 @ 9:48 PM ✈
That moment when you realise that nice clear patch of skin you were scratching has progressed into an angry red spotty rash. Gross. Which is the same word I'd use to describe the weather. I seriously hate windy weather it makes hot days and rainy days just that much worse. Had to wait 15 minutes at the train station for someone to pick me up and got all this stuff in my eyes and it was itchy as. And I don't know why but I'm fine all day but every time I come home I've just been itching my back and I don't know why and yeah today it has become an angry rash ugh...
I also have this weird stupid rash on my leg that looks like lots of little mosquito bites clustered together. It is so gross so please go away soon.
Tomorrow I'll be spending a grand total of 1.5 hours of waiting for, and sitting on trains to get to Campbelltown. And that's only one way (and I have to do that all again on the way back). Really not looking forward to that and I should probably sleep earlier since I need to get up before 6 but something tells me I'm still going to go to sleep at 12 or something. Oh well I can probably catch up on sleep on that train ride.
I should probably use that time more productively though == Like study some japanese since the test is in one and a half months and I actually don't even know that much which is really bad. I think HSC japanese was way easier since we had lessons almost everyday so you constantly used what you just learned so you wouldn't forget but this isn't the case anymore.
I'm getting so sick of being bossed around by people and I have to just "go with it" because it's "all been decided." Piss off seriously. And just now I was reading old emails to my jap tutor because I was trying to find something I wrote in particular (that she marked for me) and I'm just cringing at the old things I wrote and thinking "oh gosh why did I wrote something like that" (ㆀ˘･_･˘) Perhaps I was getting down from all the stuff people have shoved onto me without giving me any say and then I was reading the old emails post-HSC from my jap tutor when she was encouraging me and saying things like 頑張って (good luck) for it and I'm legit just drowning in a pool of emotions right now because ughhh she's so kind and she used to tell me all her random stories and sigh good times.
I'm so going to miss her lessons come end of next month because then I'll be doing my test and nothing left to learn (ಥ＿ಥ）She is honestly the nicest teacher I have ever had. Man I better not fail JLPT or I'll be the biggest disappointment ever (╥﹏╥) 60% doesn't sound hard but you underestimate how hard the test can actually be. It may be multiple choice but I find that each answer is actually possibly correct it's not so easy to eliminate any as you might think. JLPT is so full of traps it's not funny.
Oh and yesterday I didn't even end up sleeping until 1. Oops. Had 6 hours of sleep and I only got about 10 minutes worth on the train and thought I'd die in the chem lecture (first one up) but I didn't which was really strange.
written on Wednesday, October 16, 2013 @ 10:58 PM ✈
Ah I had things I wanted to post but now it's already 11 which means I won't go to bed until 12 which equals a very tired me tomorrow. I think I'm starting to lose it. I used to sleep at 12 or even 1 and get up for uni/ baulko (it's the same time) and I'd be fine but nope I'm crashing so early now I can't even stay awake longer even if I wanted to.
In all honesty, after I got home at 6 I haven't even done any meaningful work x_x Trying to sort stupid situations and figure out our group task assignment.
And after all that I almost forgot about the new naruto that came out today. I can't believe it that's just ridiculous. This shows I have really lost my mind == But the chapter was good but felt kind of sad for some reason D:
why I don't like spring
written on Tuesday, October 15, 2013 @ 11:19 PM ✈
A random exchange I overheard during chem prac:
Boy: Does anyone have a sharpener?
Girl: Who owns sharpeners these days?
Boy: People that own pencils?
Girl: Well the only sharpener I have is an eyeliner pencil sharpener.
Me: ......... o_o
I don't understand how people have time to apply make-up for uni days. Most of the time I hardly have time for breakfast so if I had time for make-up than I'd rather just sleep.
Having grief with the bio pre-lab quiz again because none of the answers are ever in the manual and I seriously can't be stuffed thinking about these questions anymore (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ This time I legit just went "screw this" and picked what I thought was most correct even though I really didn't know anything and usually put in more effort to find the right answer. Thought I'd get 2/5 but actually got 5/5 what the hell （￣□￣；） Obviously I'll do well with just guessing multiple choice in the finals. Jokes I really can't do multiple choice. But seriously I don't even know how I got those questions right because I really didn't know and now I can't learn from it since when the results come up they don't even display the answer you picked ==
I guess my stress levels must be going up again because I'm itching like crazy these days. Ugh whenever my body is in poor health I get so depressed which just makes it worse. Not sure if it is to do with the weather but before when I was scratching again my mum said it was probably because it was too dry because it's been too windy lately. Why didn't I think of that? Why is it after all this time I still suck at picking up on the problem and solving it T_T
It's either the weather or the fact that assignments + situations getting out of hand which makes me worry which equals bad skin. I don't know if I mentioned this before but I have a tendency to scratch when I get stressed :/ Don't know if I can call it a habit because that's weird but I guess it's because I had really bad skin problems when I was young (and still do sometimes) so it might just be a "thing" I do when I'm not thinking I don't know how to explain this.
Anyway here's another rant on seasons by me lol. To all those weird people that say spring is their favourite because it's "not as hot as summer" these are my arguments against spring:
* pollen pollen everywhere which makes my already bad nose go even more crazy (but it's not hayfever)
* the constant cold then hot weather drives me crazy. Pick one spring == Pair that with wind which makes all types of weather worse then ultimate eww. Wind + pollen? DOUBLE EWW
* due to the weather never making up its mind, I swear everyday of the week is spent alternating between wearing shorts or pajama pants to bed. This annoys me because that means extra washing, waste of water, waste of time folding them.
* Similar to the point above, every night is spent alternating having my blanket on fully and not, depending on if the day was hot or not
In conclusion I like summer because I can wear shorts everyday at home (for some reason I really don't like wearing pajama pants) and I love those hot nights where it's just too warm to wear blankets and I just put on enough blanket to cover up my tummy - just a thing my parents told me to do since I was little because otherwise you'd get a stomach ache(?).
You know what sucks? Those days of spring where the day was cold so you put on your blankets fully and then the next day is super warm and I wake up in a sweat from being under the blankets the whole night. Those mornings are gross o_o
written on Monday, October 14, 2013 @ 11:04 PM ✈
welp I'm totally going to regret staying up til 12 tomorrow morning but I need to do research x_x
so much chocolate
written on Sunday, October 13, 2013 @ 10:54 PM ✈
This is Friday's recap.
Well first was the bio quiz and this semester we only have 2 as opposed to last semester where we had 3. To be honest, I prefer having three quizzes like last semester instead of what we have this semester which is 2 quizzes and three lab summaries where only one is marked. I prefer to study for a test which we'll actually do and not do three lab summaries and waste time because two of them won't end up being marked > > Obviously they don't tell us which one they are marking so you can gamble and try to put effort into only one but that's up to you.
Thought I'd do pretty bad because every question I was just thinking "what is this I don't even" and as I said before, when it comes to animals or plants, I definitely know a lot more about animals. The cover of the exam said "plant test" and I was like wow that makes what we learn sound even lamer... :/ Quiz finished at 2 and 4:50 we got the results. 17/24 which is only 70% but average was 13 so I'm pretty satisfied especially since that's only one less than what I got for first quiz. Standards are dropping T_T
Okay so now on to the more interesting part! Went to the night noodle market and I was actually the first one there and had to wait for the others. Got to see Elisa and shirls :D Although I see Shirley 3 times a week lol.
I wasn't that hungry so this was my dinner:
Thanks for the dumplings Shirls!
And then we basically headed over to Shangri-la Hotel Lobby Lounge and I won't say much about it since Elisa has already covered it and I'm sure Shirley will soon too. The websites described the sweet sampler as "The decadent selection includes milk chocolate delice, passion fruit curd, grue cacao crunch, salted caramel, roast hazelnut, honey thyme pear and a strawberries 'n' cream lolli-pop, all accompanied by a glass of Brown Brothers dessert wine."
And here are the pictures, top is normal and bottom is with instagram filter haha:
Sorry it's blurry, another badly taken photo by me :/ Anyway I'm not a big fan of chocolate and each of the dessert components had chocolate :S It's because I grew up without chocolate since I was allergic so the taste is "foreign" to me and I can't say I like/love it. I mean, I'd take a bag of lollies over chocolate any day.
Nevertheless it was quite enjoyable! My favourite part is of course the passionfruit hemisphere thing on the middle one :D I think we all died from the sweetness of the lollipop though T_T
I know it's not appetising to look at something half eaten but I just wanted to show you what was on the inside of the lollipop. None of my pictures had the dessert wine included in it but it was a small glass and after we finished my face was that red-pink colour already sigh D; Asian flush man. I'm so weak with alcohol my face burns up so easily (no I don't get drunk because I only ever have one of something).
Oh! Also on Friday I went to happy lab and I joined instagram just to have the $5 box promotion but they didn't end up checking. I should really delete my account now since I don't need it plus I'm not into instagram as I find it pointless. I'm not really the kind of person who likes putting up pictures (project 365 was enough for me thanks) and I don't really want to see pictures of other people's food/landscapes blah. But then 7 friends followed me when I hadn't even posted anything :/
Yeah I also dislike instagram because for some reason it's so laggy on my phone, even more so than any other apps or sites. I've also spent at least a good hour exploring that app trying to figure how exactly it works so I should probably delete before I waste even more time on it @_@
So thanks to SB being pedantic about stuffing the happy lab box as much as we could, I have a lot of the meetoo's (the chocolate bits) as they were small and would fill in the gaps. To me they just taste like smarties which brings back bad memories of me in primary school trying one when I was allergic and it was horrible in my throat x_x I told SB that the box felt like it was at least 500g and he's like "no way!" (he always has to disagree ==) but to me it felt really dense and 500g is actually quite light as I should know since I mailed tash a present last month and the weight limit for a satchel was 500g (so I couldn't pack much).
I came home and weighed it :D
620g of candy!!
Sorry I can't flip the picture, the file is flipped already on my computer so I don't know
what blogger has done. This is me sorting out the candy, so many meetoo's in the middle!
Due to the new pokemon X and Y that was released, there are all these pokemon food collab videos on youtube and I thought these pokemon pancakes were really cool:
oh dear
written on Saturday, October 12, 2013 @ 11:51 PM ✈
Backlog... backlogs everywhere. Woke up and my wall clock said it was 7:30 so I went back to sleep but then a short while later my phone alarm which I set for 10am rang and made my half-asleep self go "huh?" Turns out during the night my clock battery must have died so my clock which said it was 7:30 was lying to me > > And it feels like I got cheated of 2.5 hours because suddenly it was 10am and I had to get up.
You know, in my family everyone usually has their phones for 3+ years before they switch to a new one (except my sister who just had to get the iphone ==). Usually we don't buy them and we just get a phone for free when my mum needs to renew her contract every year. However this year when we got the new phone which was the samsung galaxy express, we asked dad if he wanted it since everyone else had gotten a new phone already but he said his was alright (it was an older nokia).
He wanted to give it to my cousin in China but I was doubtful his phone would be okay until next year so I asked to make sure he didn't want it (he said no). Funnily enough, a couple months later and his phone is now well and truly dead. I have no idea what happened but it won't even turn on anymore and according to mum it's because he downloaded an app onto it which was too large so the phone went crazy but I don't know.
So now for the first time in a long time we actually had to buy a phone (if we disregard the iphones we bought). He bought a samsung galaxy S4 mini which cost almost $400 because he wasn't fussed on what phone to get. I know you won't believe me when I say this but the main reason I asked for an iphone is actually because I'm lousy with technology and I thought that I would have difficulty operating anything else. This is also because I've had to use my boss' samsung galaxy S2 countless times and I still suck at it. I really wasn't joking about not being able to use it because now my dad is having issues doing certain things on his phone and asks me for help and I'm just like what on earth is this I don't understand O_O Although my old phone was a samsung (not galaxy) they really have changed it a lot.
I feel kind of sad because although I can still understand japanese when it comes to reading it or listening to it, if I have to speak anything or construct sentences I suck so much. It's pretty sad when after all this time I can't even come up with basic sentences anymore and to think I actually did speaking and writing in the HSC sigh. And when it comes to human interaction it's speaking that's the most important but that's my weakest point. It's easier to understand words and understand what others have already written but composing and linking things yourself is another story...
I guess this is beccause JLPT doesn't test speaking and my tutor and I were both like YESSS (because she knows I dislike it and get nervous) but now I'm thinking this is my doom :/ Anyway I found some interesting accounts on twitter that do english and japanese tweets in one to teach people some japanese. I found this one user's tweet in particular funny but I have to admit they are odd because they all seem random and out of context. I think the japanese sounds more funny than in english because they have different *feels* to it. Sorry I can't explain :S
Anyway I found another account who posts both japanese and english and I was replying to their question which was "do I have any chinese followers?" and then it started a conversation :D It's actually kind of fun because even though my conversational japanese sucks because I don't really remember my sentence structures too well I think this will be a good way to practice again yay ^^
written on Friday, October 11, 2013 @ 10:23 PM ✈
Sorry that my blog has been so substance-less lately I guess I'm too lazy to actually post what goes on during the day D; In any case I'm soooooo glad beyond belief that it's Friday because I can internet binge yessss (*´ω｀*) But it's sad because it was a short week with only two full days of uni and the third day was a test so why am I this tired OTL
Only just came home and had a shower and it was already 10:15 so I guess I won't be sleeping til at least midnight or so (¬‿¬) Which means I'll be getting up super late tomorrow haha. But yeah have to enjoy the rest of tonight while it lasts because once the weekend starts I must do this week's lecture notes and probably try and fix up my bio prac book which I haven't touched since the semester began oops...
Also the start of every spring/ summer is marked by me having to dig around in my closet for my pajama shorts which are usually right at the bottom since when you don't wear something for a while they gradually move towards the bottom. So I end up having to take out all my clothes just to find those shorts and then I'm too lazy to fold it back properly so there's just a giant pile of unfolded clothes in my closet OTL
EDIT: Lol I joined instagram for happylab and was going to delete but then 6 people followed me (friends + one random which I have no idea why). Sorry to disappoint guys but I'm not uploading anything... I think (；´Д｀)
LOL Shirley and I at 9 at night on the train on the way back from the city after having already eaten a heap of dessert: "I want ice-cream..." hehe my love for ice cream will never die ❤
OHMYGOD
written on Thursday, October 10, 2013 @ 10:59 PM ✈
Short post but I am seriously frustrated with how in the break nothing happens then as soon as it's back to uni and exams BAM everything good comes out UGH (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ Not even joking. Legit the night before my bio quiz (tomorrow) and all these updates for games and broadcasts and MVs came out and needless to say I haven't done any work since dinner finished partly also because our printer screwed up. Whew it's a good thing I did 3 hours of studying at uni.
Ugh but internet why do you always do this to me. Can't you wait until AFTER my exam before you bring this stuff out?? Probably going to fail or just scrap a pass tomorrow since if I got *just* above average on last time's bio quiz (actually I can't remember) and it was on animals then tomorrow's plant one is going to be so bad since I hate plants.
Also today's weather was AWESOME yes days like today make me go "yesss this is truly summer." Obviously it feels hot if you stand in the sun for a while but if you're walking around uni then it didn't even feel like 37, it felt more like 30 :D
Sorry for all the caps!
written on Wednesday, October 9, 2013 @ 10:46 PM ✈
I extremely regret ever thinking going back to uni was a semi-good thing because it's been two days and I'm already tired. Right now, I feel like how I felt back in those days of staying up until 12 doing work/wasting time and going to uni everyday for 9 weeks (all that uni before the mid sem break). Man I was seriously beat after that. And yeah it's been only 2 days and I even got to sleep until 8 today but I'm so tired I couldn't even study properly for bio just now what happened to me (╥﹏╥)
break is over
written on Monday, October 7, 2013 @ 10:10 PM ✈
I think I'm a little crazy because technically I could just not go tomorrow morning as I have a meaningless gap where I can't do anything useful in and just go in the afternoon for my tutorial and practical but nope, still going to go for my 9am lecture. I guess it would be good to "shock" myself back into the uni routine by getting up at 6:45 to get there?
Probably won't even get to sleep until midnight orz. To be honest I don't know how I feel about going back to uni. Normally you'd be sad right? Getting up early, coming home late and not to mention ugly work to do :/ But even this long weekend that just went by made me a little insane because I think I spent too much time with my family which can get annoying sometimes. So I think no matter how tiring uni is, it's good too because it allows me to get out of the house and do something?
And since I finished my uni revision (as mentioned previously) that I set for this mid semester break I decided to let today be my "rest day" where I could do anything on the internet and I think I spent so much time catching up on those 60 links I saved a while back that my brain is now kind of fried...
So in conclusion, I think I need to go back to uni and do some work! Not that I like it but it has to be done (╥﹏╥)
written on @ 12:56 AM ✈
being kept awake because my stupid asshole of a sister is still using the bathroom (which is directly opposite my bedroom so when someone's in there light comes into my room and I can't sleep) and she's freaking straightening her hair at 1am in the morning how freaking vain can you get
There is a time and place for everything and 1am isn't it geez. And you're the one who sleeps in until 11 in the morning and even if I sleep later than you I can still get up earlier. So if you want to be straightening hair at 1am get up at 8am or earlier or even BETTER, if you're going to stay up do some bloody work for once because you have done absolutely NOTHING these holidays
ugh I'm cranky
oh and
written on Saturday, October 5, 2013 @ 11:13 PM ✈
This makes me so happy:
It shows I didn't slack off in the mid semester break yay! Now I'm wondering what I did last mid sem break but I probably didn't do that much since that time it was after week 4 and we probably didn't have that much work to do...
Oh and I just remembered this morning my parents did the usual "do you want to go out and have x or y for lunch?" And so I ask what they want but they tell me I can choose so I'd say "okay let's go have x" and then on the drive there my mum would always say "Aww I really wanted to eat y today..."
Honestly WHAT THE HELL (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ you guys always tell me to choose and I ask you what you want because I KNOW there is one option you want and yet you still insist I choose and then you always end up complaining about what I picked! God why even ask in the first place. This has happened countless times it's not funny anymore.
weekends ==
written on @ 11:01 PM ✈
Ugh I really dislike weekends. Got up, wanted to finish my work then my dad comes over and tells me I should do my tax return already which I was going to do tomorrow because I wanted to finish my uni work today so I could complete that before returning to uni (because then I might get busy again). And so this happened:
Me: "Yeah I'm going to do it tomorrow because I wanted to finish my uni work today so you don't have to tell me since it's already on my plan."
Dad: "Don't be rude I'm telling you because I know when you go back to uni you'll say you're 'too busy' to do it and then the deadline will be gone and me talking to you about this for 5 minutes now is not going to slow you down on your uni work."
Me: (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME
Yeah I don't know if I ever mentioned this but I swear uni has made me much more crabby == Even though in primary school I made a routine for myself ie. what time I would do work, shower and practice piano everyday, I swear I get even more grumpy now when people interrupt my routine. I mean now I tend to make a schedule for myself what work should be done each day, what time of the day and such and such and things that piss me off are: unexpected guests (too much noise), randomly being told we are going out the morning of the "event", people talking so loud that I can't hear my lectures even though both my headphones and the actual window are on 100% volume, and especially people asking me to do stuff for them at this very moment when I'm sitting here doing work!!
Yeah I sound very mean T_T But there are days when I just want to get stuff done. Oh and this conversation also happened this morning:
Dad: "Hey we're going to DFO in the afternoon, you coming?"
Me: "I've been there three times before and never bought anything so no thanks I'd rather stay at home and finish my work."
Dad: "It's not good to always stay at home you need to go out sometimes."
And he said it like he thought I just stay at home to play games and waste time x_x Ugh and when I go out then I get told off for not doing enough work. Which is it?! And seriously DFO is a big waste of time I hate going there because I never get anything.
On a lighter note, TOMORROW'S DAYLIGHT SAVINGS. So happy because it means sunshine and summer ＼( ^o^)／ But I have to wake up at 8am or so tomorrow which is technically 7am if you're still stuck on today's "timezone"(ㆀ˘･_･˘)
And now for some stuff to light things up:
All I can say is HAHAHA I seriously can't believe
they put something like this in there xD
And then this part was next and I was seriously just sitting here going
LOOOOOOOOOOOOL
Yep so I was playing a side story where MC is asked by her friend to go to a mixer (though she's reluctant). In Takuto's route, he gets pissed that MC is getting hit on by her detective childhood friend (yeah that guy again) and so Takuto puts tabasco sauce in his cocktail and since he didn't know about it and downed it in one go his mouth is on fire xD And MC sniffs her own cocktail thinking Takuto also put something in hers but since her cocktail was yellow (and tabasco is red) and it didn't smell funny, she figured it was safe and takes a sip. Then she's like PFFTTTTT what the hell is this stuff?! And turns out Takuto put spicy mustard in it because otherwise it would stand out in her yellow cocktail lolololol xD
Yeah my retelling makes it less funny but I was too ceebs to take screenshots sorry!
progress
written on Friday, October 4, 2013 @ 10:57 PM ✈
I've made good headway on catching up on my lectures ^^ Actually I go to all of them but for some reason I like rewatching them all just to catch everything... Yeah sounds silly huh? Well according to my notepad this is all I have left:
chem 3
vets 1
bio 0
avbs 1
And I originally started out with 21 before the mid semester break so I'd say I've done a lot!
I know I never ended up writing about lltfx but perhaps these will still be entertaining nonetheless:
!!
Well that was a big change considering MC didn't want to be a thief
when they first forced her to join the Black Foxes...
Haha did he really just do that? I want to see!
Ooh that looks like one epic playground. And speaking of
inarizushi (tofu sushi) I'm totally craving some right now (╥﹏╥)
Unrelated to lltfx (it's another game) but I would totally come
if you gave me food (☆^ー^☆)
Last but not least, classic Takuto! I've missed the llftx gang (ಥ＿ಥ）
He's so harsh but he's actually a big softy plus his comments
just make me laugh ^^
As a side note that last picture is because in the side story the MC screwed up in a mission and the Black Foxes (thieves, but good thieves) almost got caught so they force her to do training and she has to pick one of them as her teacher. But, if you pick her childhood friend (who's a detective), then she refuses to do the training since she can't as her detective friend isn't part of the Black Foxes (for obvious reasons). And then I feel bad for the llftx gang because they're all basically like "well you almost got us arrested and you're not going to train?" and MC is just like "yeah bye!" And then we get Takuto's lovely scene xD
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wow
written on Wednesday, October 30, 2013 @ 11:20 PM ✈
Wow guys, I have completed a year of uni! Well minus exams of course... but whatever, today was my last day of class! ＼( ^o^)／ Technically I still had class tomorrow but since two of my lectures aren't running because we've actually finished all the material already, the only classes I would have would be a chem lecture at 9, and a bio lecture at 4. That six hour break in between? No thanks.
Well today was an up and down day. I don't want to go into it too much because my head kind of hurts right now :/ There have been quite a few things I wanted to write about but since I was busy and it takes a long time to type up I've pushed it aside and then you forget some of it...
Anyway highlight of today was when I got to the station and all trains were delayed on my line but I didn't really care since the delayed train got to the platform when I did so I just hopped on (so let's say it was the 4:30 train but it ended up arriving at 5 and that was okay cause I only got there at 5). Turns out it was an express and mine was the second stop, hurray! But then in the middle of the train ride the announcer said they were making 4 extra stops. Stupid bloody cityrail strikes again. And those stops don't benefit anyone on the train since they all thought it was express and wouldn't be getting off anyway so obviously they just wanted to pick up people from other stops. NO wait for your own train like I always have to ==
Okay before I start on happier and fluffier things why is it that after the past two weeks of assignments and the like, I'm crashing? That's normal after exams but I can't afford to crash now because exams are soon... But my head hurts, and feels cloudy and my stomach is not being nice to me right now sigh. So I'm taking tonight off and I'm going to buckle down for some awful studying as of tomorrow. Hurray :/
OKAY! Good stuff now. So today after my jap tutoring at parra, I went over to see the MKR truck because Bitter told me about it. Nothing exciting though just people filming them and telling the public to move to the side and all that jazz. There were chairs set up which I'm guessing is for people to choose which team they want to order from. We couldn't stay long enough to see though because uni.
And then Bitter had a crazy craving for french toast.... from Circa.... It was already at least 11 and our usual train was at 11:07. Instead we opted for the 11:22 and we ran like crazy to the other side of the station to get it. Thankfully the guy was quite nice about it and pushed our order forward when he saw Bitter's face fall when she realised we probably couldn't get it and make it for the train. I'm still laughing like crazy when I think about how he asked us "but how are you going to eat it?" Bitter: "On the train! I've done it before." He looked like he was in genuine shock and disbelief. Haha but it's not that uncommon is it?
We ran like mad back to the train but this was the result of our efforts:
Hehe it feels so dodgy eating this on a train but it seems like most people couldn't care less. This is my first time having french toast outside and it was quite good! The use of greek yoghurt instead of cream is quite interesting and I actually quite like it. OH it's also my first time having rhubarb. Don't judge, it's just something my parents never cooked for me. I don't know, rhubarb seems like the kind of thing I wouldn't like because it just seems funny and the taste doesn't seem like something I'd like (they use it all the time on masterchef). But nope, it's quite good! But I still don't think we'll be seeing any in the house lol.
The other day I saw this and so it seems El Jannah is actually opening here! Everyone didn't believe me == And yeah I admit the colour scheme makes it look like some other random restaurant (I thought so too at first glance) but a newspaper article of the owner standing right outside this one confirms it's just another restaurant like the one in Granville. Who knew?
And now for some random lols that voltage makes pop up on my screen randomly which makes me laugh:
Okay my screen looks scary when you put it together like that.
And now can we all just take a minute to cry about how all this came out and I didn't even have time to play it? ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡
Yamatoooooo I really want to play (ಥ＿ಥ）
soon soon soon
written on Tuesday, October 29, 2013 @ 11:03 PM ✈
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaand another night spent staying up until 12. Unfortunately with all this work I've kind of neglected my japanese homework... again x_x Particles will seriously be the death of me. I know I used to make some mistakes every now and then back in HSC but I feel like I completely don't understand them anymore. I miss the old days of year seven when everything was "blah blah wa lalala desu" LOL
Hmm got to leave uni at 1pm for once! Earliest I've been able to leave all semester seriously == Usually my timetable goes 4, 5, 5, 5, 5. Gross. I miss last semester where I had two days a week where I finished at 2 sigh. So yeah getting on my train to go back home and it was dead empty except three other people. I haven't seen that sight since last semester T_T
Super windy today and I came out of my chem tutorial and as I was walking down the stairs I could see some blue and white "tape" so I asked my classmate "what are they roping off out there?" And it turns out a big tree fell over while I was in my tutorial... Hope no one got hurt. No pictures though because I didn't want to be the retard standing there trying to take a picture :/
It's embarrassing when the winds are so strong and they blow you 2 metres to the right while you're walking on the bridge and you almost end up crashing into someone :S It makes it look like I'm walking drunk or something even though I've never experienced drunkenness. Everyone else was walking fine though so why me D;
ugh excel ugh
written on Monday, October 28, 2013 @ 10:53 PM ✈
Writting up bio pracs takes at least one hour for each prac and I'm up to my last one now but can I rejoice? NO. It's 11 right now and I'm no where near done with this last one because I spent a good one hour+ doing excel graphs. Stupid bio seriously why do I waste all this time when it's only worth 5% (ﾉಥ益ಥ）ﾉ 彡┻━┻
It's not that I don't get excel. I mean I've had to use it for statistics and biology for at least 20+ times now but it's all the stupid tedious calculations because Simpson's Index of Diversity. Ugh we did that last semester too but they were kind and set the formula automatically in the excel cell for us but nope not this time.
I hate you bio.
written on Saturday, October 26, 2013 @ 11:37 PM ✈
Wahh
it's been a busy week and I've kind of been AWOL for the past few days
(my last super short post doesn't count). I'm now up to the annoying
writing up of all the bio labs and I tooooootally appreciate looking at
our dissection pictures again of dead rats, fish and locusts and having
to label their parts （￣□￣；）It's also just as bad that my google
search is now full of things like "fish heart", "rat dissection
pictures" etc because I needed help labelling.
3
days left of uni but everyone else is finished already ugh it's always me isn't
it x_x Since it's late (11:30) I'll just do this survey I found on
tumblr where you bold things that apply and even though I want to write a
comment next to some of them to clarify, I think it's meant to be a
minimalistic thing so I won't D:
Bold what’s
true about you:
I am
under 18.
I am a cuddler.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my “pajamas”.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
l am right handed.
I am ambidextrous.
I am a little shy around the opposite sex.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy folk music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have caller I.D. on my phone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I like Michael Jackson.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop. ----> Okay I'm sorry but I can't let this go, I only like grocery shopping thanks.
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card.
I read books for pleasure in my spare time.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and
scar-free.
I am wearing socks.
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt.
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month.
I
have/had:
Finished college.
Smoked cigarettes.
Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night.
Been broken up with.
Taken a college level course. (LOL)
Been in a car accident.
Been in a tornado.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Burned yourself.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day.
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Fired a gun.
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swum with dolphins.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you couldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery. (what!! this was already asked above > >)
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced.
Gotten straight A’s.
Been handcuffed.
My hair
is naturally the colour:
Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blonde
Black
Dirty blond
Strawberry blond
Multicoloured
Red
My eyes
are:
Brown
Dark Brown
Blue
Green
Hazel
Light brown
Black
Gray
People
sometimes label me as:
Slut
Boyish
Colorful
Ugly
Nerd
Other
Some of
my biggest fears are:
Spiders/ insects
Slimy things
Dying
Doctor/Dentist appointments
Hospitals
Needles
Disease
Being alone in the dark
Heights
sub spaces
Oceans/large bodies of water
Large animals
sub animals
Open spaces
Lightning
Thunder
Tornadoes
Clustered holes (EWW JUST READING IT GIVEES ME THE CREEPS AND SHIVERS FUARR)
Bodily fluids
Corpses
I have:
A friend with benefits
A laptop in my room
A television in my room
Good grades (HAD)
My own
car
Parents who are still married
A dog
A cat
A game console
did you really just
written on Thursday, October 24, 2013 @ 11:35 PM ✈
~Late last night~
Sister: Ooooh is your skin getting better? It looks good!
Me: -about to fall off chair- LOLOLOLOLOL
Seriously wasn't sure if she was serious or not because if anything, my skin is getting WORSE because exams, assignments, bad weather and yeah. I made her feel my gross dry forehead and she was like "eww!" LOLOL well that just made my night
short post because too much work
written on Tuesday, October 22, 2013 @ 11:00 PM ✈
~Doing any multiple choice exam and I don't know the answer~
Me: hmm well it's definitely not these two... so there's two options left. I'll have to guess then.
*Gets it wrong*
Me doing bio pre lab quiz: I honestly don't even know I can't even cross any of these out because I know nothing. Oh well I'll just guess so there's 25% chance.
*Gets them all right*
WHERE IS THE LOGIC
tab problems
written on Monday, October 21, 2013 @ 11:09 PM ✈
Man how does this happen. Before I nicely had 4 windows with about 6 tabs each and now I have 8 windows with at least 20 tabs in each. And all of them I need so I can't "clean up" and it makes it very difficult to find some things.
Ugh and this is another night before chem quiz. You'd think that because it's not organic chemistry it would be better but nope nope NOPE. Don't know why but even though I felt I understood this section more, when I did the sample quizzes I was still like "what why don't I know any of this." Quizzes are always deceiving and actually test you on so much of the course content ==
Too hard to explain but ugh I feel worn out already and it was only Monday. How to survive the week of deadlines?
this state
written on Sunday, October 20, 2013 @ 10:15 PM ✈
Spent most of today just feeling frustrated, helpless and even more down than normal. I know it sounds petty and ridiculous especially since this is a life of a student but I'm just sick of all the work already and just want to rage quit. I think I've just burned out doing all the assignments and tests throughout this semester and so now that this week has almost something everyday I just don't want to do anything anymore. Ugh there's nothing I want more than for the break to come already.
I just really don't seem to be in the right frame of mind anymore and it doesn't help that there are other things I need to sort out so juggling uni stuff and that is probably too much and too hard. Doesn't help that certain people are the biggest flakes and liars ever. Sick of dealing with this. I can imagine in the next few weeks I'll be getting a lot of headaches, bad stomach aches and probably bad things appearing on my skin sigh.
Well let's just write what has to be done for my own reference:
Week 12 (this week)
Monday: working on vets group speech (goodness knows how long it'll take I want to do other things)
Tuesday: chem quiz (10%)
Wednesday: bio lab summary yet another one (10%)
Friday: avbs animal handling showcase -- it's a group assignment (30%? I don't even remember anymore)
^ Doesn't seem like much but considering you want to give more than one day to each thing and it's sunday already then some juggling is in order.
Week 13 (next week)
Monday: the actual vets group speech presentation (15%)
Wednesday: bio lab books to be handed in (15%) --> THIS IS THE WORST THING EVER. Since I haven't been writing it up properly throughout semester that means I will have to go through 12 labs drawing pictures, putting in tables, writing up titles, answering questions, and all that muck. This takes at least a good one hour each prac so there goes at least 12 hours (I'm not even joking, it probably took at least 15 hours last semester).
Ugh that list makes me depressed.
swirls
written on Thursday, October 17, 2013 @ 9:48 PM ✈
That moment when you realise that nice clear patch of skin you were scratching has progressed into an angry red spotty rash. Gross. Which is the same word I'd use to describe the weather. I seriously hate windy weather it makes hot days and rainy days just that much worse. Had to wait 15 minutes at the train station for someone to pick me up and got all this stuff in my eyes and it was itchy as. And I don't know why but I'm fine all day but every time I come home I've just been itching my back and I don't know why and yeah today it has become an angry rash ugh...
I also have this weird stupid rash on my leg that looks like lots of little mosquito bites clustered together. It is so gross so please go away soon.
Tomorrow I'll be spending a grand total of 1.5 hours of waiting for, and sitting on trains to get to Campbelltown. And that's only one way (and I have to do that all again on the way back). Really not looking forward to that and I should probably sleep earlier since I need to get up before 6 but something tells me I'm still going to go to sleep at 12 or something. Oh well I can probably catch up on sleep on that train ride.
I should probably use that time more productively though == Like study some japanese since the test is in one and a half months and I actually don't even know that much which is really bad. I think HSC japanese was way easier since we had lessons almost everyday so you constantly used what you just learned so you wouldn't forget but this isn't the case anymore.
I'm getting so sick of being bossed around by people and I have to just "go with it" because it's "all been decided." Piss off seriously. And just now I was reading old emails to my jap tutor because I was trying to find something I wrote in particular (that she marked for me) and I'm just cringing at the old things I wrote and thinking "oh gosh why did I wrote something like that" (ㆀ˘･_･˘) Perhaps I was getting down from all the stuff people have shoved onto me without giving me any say and then I was reading the old emails post-HSC from my jap tutor when she was encouraging me and saying things like 頑張って (good luck) for it and I'm legit just drowning in a pool of emotions right now because ughhh she's so kind and she used to tell me all her random stories and sigh good times.
I'm so going to miss her lessons come end of next month because then I'll be doing my test and nothing left to learn (ಥ＿ಥ）She is honestly the nicest teacher I have ever had. Man I better not fail JLPT or I'll be the biggest disappointment ever (╥﹏╥) 60% doesn't sound hard but you underestimate how hard the test can actually be. It may be multiple choice but I find that each answer is actually possibly correct it's not so easy to eliminate any as you might think. JLPT is so full of traps it's not funny.
Oh and yesterday I didn't even end up sleeping until 1. Oops. Had 6 hours of sleep and I only got about 10 minutes worth on the train and thought I'd die in the chem lecture (first one up) but I didn't which was really strange.
written on Wednesday, October 16, 2013 @ 10:58 PM ✈
Ah I had things I wanted to post but now it's already 11 which means I won't go to bed until 12 which equals a very tired me tomorrow. I think I'm starting to lose it. I used to sleep at 12 or even 1 and get up for uni/ baulko (it's the same time) and I'd be fine but nope I'm crashing so early now I can't even stay awake longer even if I wanted to.
In all honesty, after I got home at 6 I haven't even done any meaningful work x_x Trying to sort stupid situations and figure out our group task assignment.
And after all that I almost forgot about the new naruto that came out today. I can't believe it that's just ridiculous. This shows I have really lost my mind == But the chapter was good but felt kind of sad for some reason D:
why I don't like spring
written on Tuesday, October 15, 2013 @ 11:19 PM ✈
A random exchange I overheard during chem prac:
Boy: Does anyone have a sharpener?
Girl: Who owns sharpeners these days?
Boy: People that own pencils?
Girl: Well the only sharpener I have is an eyeliner pencil sharpener.
Me: ......... o_o
I don't understand how people have time to apply make-up for uni days. Most of the time I hardly have time for breakfast so if I had time for make-up than I'd rather just sleep.
Having grief with the bio pre-lab quiz again because none of the answers are ever in the manual and I seriously can't be stuffed thinking about these questions anymore (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ This time I legit just went "screw this" and picked what I thought was most correct even though I really didn't know anything and usually put in more effort to find the right answer. Thought I'd get 2/5 but actually got 5/5 what the hell （￣□￣；） Obviously I'll do well with just guessing multiple choice in the finals. Jokes I really can't do multiple choice. But seriously I don't even know how I got those questions right because I really didn't know and now I can't learn from it since when the results come up they don't even display the answer you picked ==
I guess my stress levels must be going up again because I'm itching like crazy these days. Ugh whenever my body is in poor health I get so depressed which just makes it worse. Not sure if it is to do with the weather but before when I was scratching again my mum said it was probably because it was too dry because it's been too windy lately. Why didn't I think of that? Why is it after all this time I still suck at picking up on the problem and solving it T_T
It's either the weather or the fact that assignments + situations getting out of hand which makes me worry which equals bad skin. I don't know if I mentioned this before but I have a tendency to scratch when I get stressed :/ Don't know if I can call it a habit because that's weird but I guess it's because I had really bad skin problems when I was young (and still do sometimes) so it might just be a "thing" I do when I'm not thinking I don't know how to explain this.
Anyway here's another rant on seasons by me lol. To all those weird people that say spring is their favourite because it's "not as hot as summer" these are my arguments against spring:
* pollen pollen everywhere which makes my already bad nose go even more crazy (but it's not hayfever)
* the constant cold then hot weather drives me crazy. Pick one spring == Pair that with wind which makes all types of weather worse then ultimate eww. Wind + pollen? DOUBLE EWW
* due to the weather never making up its mind, I swear everyday of the week is spent alternating between wearing shorts or pajama pants to bed. This annoys me because that means extra washing, waste of water, waste of time folding them.
* Similar to the point above, every night is spent alternating having my blanket on fully and not, depending on if the day was hot or not
In conclusion I like summer because I can wear shorts everyday at home (for some reason I really don't like wearing pajama pants) and I love those hot nights where it's just too warm to wear blankets and I just put on enough blanket to cover up my tummy - just a thing my parents told me to do since I was little because otherwise you'd get a stomach ache(?).
You know what sucks? Those days of spring where the day was cold so you put on your blankets fully and then the next day is super warm and I wake up in a sweat from being under the blankets the whole night. Those mornings are gross o_o
written on Monday, October 14, 2013 @ 11:04 PM ✈
welp I'm totally going to regret staying up til 12 tomorrow morning but I need to do research x_x
so much chocolate
written on Sunday, October 13, 2013 @ 10:54 PM ✈
This is Friday's recap.
Well first was the bio quiz and this semester we only have 2 as opposed to last semester where we had 3. To be honest, I prefer having three quizzes like last semester instead of what we have this semester which is 2 quizzes and three lab summaries where only one is marked. I prefer to study for a test which we'll actually do and not do three lab summaries and waste time because two of them won't end up being marked > > Obviously they don't tell us which one they are marking so you can gamble and try to put effort into only one but that's up to you.
Thought I'd do pretty bad because every question I was just thinking "what is this I don't even" and as I said before, when it comes to animals or plants, I definitely know a lot more about animals. The cover of the exam said "plant test" and I was like wow that makes what we learn sound even lamer... :/ Quiz finished at 2 and 4:50 we got the results. 17/24 which is only 70% but average was 13 so I'm pretty satisfied especially since that's only one less than what I got for first quiz. Standards are dropping T_T
Okay so now on to the more interesting part! Went to the night noodle market and I was actually the first one there and had to wait for the others. Got to see Elisa and shirls :D Although I see Shirley 3 times a week lol.
I wasn't that hungry so this was my dinner:
Thanks for the dumplings Shirls!
And then we basically headed over to Shangri-la Hotel Lobby Lounge and I won't say much about it since Elisa has already covered it and I'm sure Shirley will soon too. The websites described the sweet sampler as "The decadent selection includes milk chocolate delice, passion fruit curd, grue cacao crunch, salted caramel, roast hazelnut, honey thyme pear and a strawberries 'n' cream lolli-pop, all accompanied by a glass of Brown Brothers dessert wine."
And here are the pictures, top is normal and bottom is with instagram filter haha:
Sorry it's blurry, another badly taken photo by me :/ Anyway I'm not a big fan of chocolate and each of the dessert components had chocolate :S It's because I grew up without chocolate since I was allergic so the taste is "foreign" to me and I can't say I like/love it. I mean, I'd take a bag of lollies over chocolate any day.
Nevertheless it was quite enjoyable! My favourite part is of course the passionfruit hemisphere thing on the middle one :D I think we all died from the sweetness of the lollipop though T_T
I know it's not appetising to look at something half eaten but I just wanted to show you what was on the inside of the lollipop. None of my pictures had the dessert wine included in it but it was a small glass and after we finished my face was that red-pink colour already sigh D; Asian flush man. I'm so weak with alcohol my face burns up so easily (no I don't get drunk because I only ever have one of something).
Oh! Also on Friday I went to happy lab and I joined instagram just to have the $5 box promotion but they didn't end up checking. I should really delete my account now since I don't need it plus I'm not into instagram as I find it pointless. I'm not really the kind of person who likes putting up pictures (project 365 was enough for me thanks) and I don't really want to see pictures of other people's food/landscapes blah. But then 7 friends followed me when I hadn't even posted anything :/
Yeah I also dislike instagram because for some reason it's so laggy on my phone, even more so than any other apps or sites. I've also spent at least a good hour exploring that app trying to figure how exactly it works so I should probably delete before I waste even more time on it @_@
So thanks to SB being pedantic about stuffing the happy lab box as much as we could, I have a lot of the meetoo's (the chocolate bits) as they were small and would fill in the gaps. To me they just taste like smarties which brings back bad memories of me in primary school trying one when I was allergic and it was horrible in my throat x_x I told SB that the box felt like it was at least 500g and he's like "no way!" (he always has to disagree ==) but to me it felt really dense and 500g is actually quite light as I should know since I mailed tash a present last month and the weight limit for a satchel was 500g (so I couldn't pack much).
I came home and weighed it :D
620g of candy!!
Sorry I can't flip the picture, the file is flipped already on my computer so I don't know
what blogger has done. This is me sorting out the candy, so many meetoo's in the middle!
Due to the new pokemon X and Y that was released, there are all these pokemon food collab videos on youtube and I thought these pokemon pancakes were really cool:
oh dear
written on Saturday, October 12, 2013 @ 11:51 PM ✈
Backlog... backlogs everywhere. Woke up and my wall clock said it was 7:30 so I went back to sleep but then a short while later my phone alarm which I set for 10am rang and made my half-asleep self go "huh?" Turns out during the night my clock battery must have died so my clock which said it was 7:30 was lying to me > > And it feels like I got cheated of 2.5 hours because suddenly it was 10am and I had to get up.
You know, in my family everyone usually has their phones for 3+ years before they switch to a new one (except my sister who just had to get the iphone ==). Usually we don't buy them and we just get a phone for free when my mum needs to renew her contract every year. However this year when we got the new phone which was the samsung galaxy express, we asked dad if he wanted it since everyone else had gotten a new phone already but he said his was alright (it was an older nokia).
He wanted to give it to my cousin in China but I was doubtful his phone would be okay until next year so I asked to make sure he didn't want it (he said no). Funnily enough, a couple months later and his phone is now well and truly dead. I have no idea what happened but it won't even turn on anymore and according to mum it's because he downloaded an app onto it which was too large so the phone went crazy but I don't know.
So now for the first time in a long time we actually had to buy a phone (if we disregard the iphones we bought). He bought a samsung galaxy S4 mini which cost almost $400 because he wasn't fussed on what phone to get. I know you won't believe me when I say this but the main reason I asked for an iphone is actually because I'm lousy with technology and I thought that I would have difficulty operating anything else. This is also because I've had to use my boss' samsung galaxy S2 countless times and I still suck at it. I really wasn't joking about not being able to use it because now my dad is having issues doing certain things on his phone and asks me for help and I'm just like what on earth is this I don't understand O_O Although my old phone was a samsung (not galaxy) they really have changed it a lot.
I feel kind of sad because although I can still understand japanese when it comes to reading it or listening to it, if I have to speak anything or construct sentences I suck so much. It's pretty sad when after all this time I can't even come up with basic sentences anymore and to think I actually did speaking and writing in the HSC sigh. And when it comes to human interaction it's speaking that's the most important but that's my weakest point. It's easier to understand words and understand what others have already written but composing and linking things yourself is another story...
I guess this is beccause JLPT doesn't test speaking and my tutor and I were both like YESSS (because she knows I dislike it and get nervous) but now I'm thinking this is my doom :/ Anyway I found some interesting accounts on twitter that do english and japanese tweets in one to teach people some japanese. I found this one user's tweet in particular funny but I have to admit they are odd because they all seem random and out of context. I think the japanese sounds more funny than in english because they have different *feels* to it. Sorry I can't explain :S
Anyway I found another account who posts both japanese and english and I was replying to their question which was "do I have any chinese followers?" and then it started a conversation :D It's actually kind of fun because even though my conversational japanese sucks because I don't really remember my sentence structures too well I think this will be a good way to practice again yay ^^
written on Friday, October 11, 2013 @ 10:23 PM ✈
Sorry that my blog has been so substance-less lately I guess I'm too lazy to actually post what goes on during the day D; In any case I'm soooooo glad beyond belief that it's Friday because I can internet binge yessss (*´ω｀*) But it's sad because it was a short week with only two full days of uni and the third day was a test so why am I this tired OTL
Only just came home and had a shower and it was already 10:15 so I guess I won't be sleeping til at least midnight or so (¬‿¬) Which means I'll be getting up super late tomorrow haha. But yeah have to enjoy the rest of tonight while it lasts because once the weekend starts I must do this week's lecture notes and probably try and fix up my bio prac book which I haven't touched since the semester began oops...
Also the start of every spring/ summer is marked by me having to dig around in my closet for my pajama shorts which are usually right at the bottom since when you don't wear something for a while they gradually move towards the bottom. So I end up having to take out all my clothes just to find those shorts and then I'm too lazy to fold it back properly so there's just a giant pile of unfolded clothes in my closet OTL
EDIT: Lol I joined instagram for happylab and was going to delete but then 6 people followed me (friends + one random which I have no idea why). Sorry to disappoint guys but I'm not uploading anything... I think (；´Д｀)
LOL Shirley and I at 9 at night on the train on the way back from the city after having already eaten a heap of dessert: "I want ice-cream..." hehe my love for ice cream will never die ❤
OHMYGOD
written on Thursday, October 10, 2013 @ 10:59 PM ✈
Short post but I am seriously frustrated with how in the break nothing happens then as soon as it's back to uni and exams BAM everything good comes out UGH (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ Not even joking. Legit the night before my bio quiz (tomorrow) and all these updates for games and broadcasts and MVs came out and needless to say I haven't done any work since dinner finished partly also because our printer screwed up. Whew it's a good thing I did 3 hours of studying at uni.
Ugh but internet why do you always do this to me. Can't you wait until AFTER my exam before you bring this stuff out?? Probably going to fail or just scrap a pass tomorrow since if I got *just* above average on last time's bio quiz (actually I can't remember) and it was on animals then tomorrow's plant one is going to be so bad since I hate plants.
Also today's weather was AWESOME yes days like today make me go "yesss this is truly summer." Obviously it feels hot if you stand in the sun for a while but if you're walking around uni then it didn't even feel like 37, it felt more like 30 :D
Sorry for all the caps!
written on Wednesday, October 9, 2013 @ 10:46 PM ✈
I extremely regret ever thinking going back to uni was a semi-good thing because it's been two days and I'm already tired. Right now, I feel like how I felt back in those days of staying up until 12 doing work/wasting time and going to uni everyday for 9 weeks (all that uni before the mid sem break). Man I was seriously beat after that. And yeah it's been only 2 days and I even got to sleep until 8 today but I'm so tired I couldn't even study properly for bio just now what happened to me (╥﹏╥)
break is over
written on Monday, October 7, 2013 @ 10:10 PM ✈
I think I'm a little crazy because technically I could just not go tomorrow morning as I have a meaningless gap where I can't do anything useful in and just go in the afternoon for my tutorial and practical but nope, still going to go for my 9am lecture. I guess it would be good to "shock" myself back into the uni routine by getting up at 6:45 to get there?
Probably won't even get to sleep until midnight orz. To be honest I don't know how I feel about going back to uni. Normally you'd be sad right? Getting up early, coming home late and not to mention ugly work to do :/ But even this long weekend that just went by made me a little insane because I think I spent too much time with my family which can get annoying sometimes. So I think no matter how tiring uni is, it's good too because it allows me to get out of the house and do something?
And since I finished my uni revision (as mentioned previously) that I set for this mid semester break I decided to let today be my "rest day" where I could do anything on the internet and I think I spent so much time catching up on those 60 links I saved a while back that my brain is now kind of fried...
So in conclusion, I think I need to go back to uni and do some work! Not that I like it but it has to be done (╥﹏╥)
written on @ 12:56 AM ✈
being kept awake because my stupid asshole of a sister is still using the bathroom (which is directly opposite my bedroom so when someone's in there light comes into my room and I can't sleep) and she's freaking straightening her hair at 1am in the morning how freaking vain can you get
There is a time and place for everything and 1am isn't it geez. And you're the one who sleeps in until 11 in the morning and even if I sleep later than you I can still get up earlier. So if you want to be straightening hair at 1am get up at 8am or earlier or even BETTER, if you're going to stay up do some bloody work for once because you have done absolutely NOTHING these holidays
ugh I'm cranky
oh and
written on Saturday, October 5, 2013 @ 11:13 PM ✈
This makes me so happy:
It shows I didn't slack off in the mid semester break yay! Now I'm wondering what I did last mid sem break but I probably didn't do that much since that time it was after week 4 and we probably didn't have that much work to do...
Oh and I just remembered this morning my parents did the usual "do you want to go out and have x or y for lunch?" And so I ask what they want but they tell me I can choose so I'd say "okay let's go have x" and then on the drive there my mum would always say "Aww I really wanted to eat y today..."
Honestly WHAT THE HELL (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ you guys always tell me to choose and I ask you what you want because I KNOW there is one option you want and yet you still insist I choose and then you always end up complaining about what I picked! God why even ask in the first place. This has happened countless times it's not funny anymore.
weekends ==
written on @ 11:01 PM ✈
Ugh I really dislike weekends. Got up, wanted to finish my work then my dad comes over and tells me I should do my tax return already which I was going to do tomorrow because I wanted to finish my uni work today so I could complete that before returning to uni (because then I might get busy again). And so this happened:
Me: "Yeah I'm going to do it tomorrow because I wanted to finish my uni work today so you don't have to tell me since it's already on my plan."
Dad: "Don't be rude I'm telling you because I know when you go back to uni you'll say you're 'too busy' to do it and then the deadline will be gone and me talking to you about this for 5 minutes now is not going to slow you down on your uni work."
Me: (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME
Yeah I don't know if I ever mentioned this but I swear uni has made me much more crabby == Even though in primary school I made a routine for myself ie. what time I would do work, shower and practice piano everyday, I swear I get even more grumpy now when people interrupt my routine. I mean now I tend to make a schedule for myself what work should be done each day, what time of the day and such and such and things that piss me off are: unexpected guests (too much noise), randomly being told we are going out the morning of the "event", people talking so loud that I can't hear my lectures even though both my headphones and the actual window are on 100% volume, and especially people asking me to do stuff for them at this very moment when I'm sitting here doing work!!
Yeah I sound very mean T_T But there are days when I just want to get stuff done. Oh and this conversation also happened this morning:
Dad: "Hey we're going to DFO in the afternoon, you coming?"
Me: "I've been there three times before and never bought anything so no thanks I'd rather stay at home and finish my work."
Dad: "It's not good to always stay at home you need to go out sometimes."
And he said it like he thought I just stay at home to play games and waste time x_x Ugh and when I go out then I get told off for not doing enough work. Which is it?! And seriously DFO is a big waste of time I hate going there because I never get anything.
On a lighter note, TOMORROW'S DAYLIGHT SAVINGS. So happy because it means sunshine and summer ＼( ^o^)／ But I have to wake up at 8am or so tomorrow which is technically 7am if you're still stuck on today's "timezone"(ㆀ˘･_･˘)
And now for some stuff to light things up:
All I can say is HAHAHA I seriously can't believe
they put something like this in there xD
And then this part was next and I was seriously just sitting here going
LOOOOOOOOOOOOL
Yep so I was playing a side story where MC is asked by her friend to go to a mixer (though she's reluctant). In Takuto's route, he gets pissed that MC is getting hit on by her detective childhood friend (yeah that guy again) and so Takuto puts tabasco sauce in his cocktail and since he didn't know about it and downed it in one go his mouth is on fire xD And MC sniffs her own cocktail thinking Takuto also put something in hers but since her cocktail was yellow (and tabasco is red) and it didn't smell funny, she figured it was safe and takes a sip. Then she's like PFFTTTTT what the hell is this stuff?! And turns out Takuto put spicy mustard in it because otherwise it would stand out in her yellow cocktail lolololol xD
Yeah my retelling makes it less funny but I was too ceebs to take screenshots sorry!
progress
written on Friday, October 4, 2013 @ 10:57 PM ✈
I've made good headway on catching up on my lectures ^^ Actually I go to all of them but for some reason I like rewatching them all just to catch everything... Yeah sounds silly huh? Well according to my notepad this is all I have left:
chem 3
vets 1
bio 0
avbs 1
And I originally started out with 21 before the mid semester break so I'd say I've done a lot!
I know I never ended up writing about lltfx but perhaps these will still be entertaining nonetheless:
!!
Well that was a big change considering MC didn't want to be a thief
when they first forced her to join the Black Foxes...
Haha did he really just do that? I want to see!
Ooh that looks like one epic playground. And speaking of
inarizushi (tofu sushi) I'm totally craving some right now (╥﹏╥)
Unrelated to lltfx (it's another game) but I would totally come
if you gave me food (☆^ー^☆)
Last but not least, classic Takuto! I've missed the llftx gang (ಥ＿ಥ）
He's so harsh but he's actually a big softy plus his comments
just make me laugh ^^
As a side note that last picture is because in the side story the MC screwed up in a mission and the Black Foxes (thieves, but good thieves) almost got caught so they force her to do training and she has to pick one of them as her teacher. But, if you pick her childhood friend (who's a detective), then she refuses to do the training since she can't as her detective friend isn't part of the Black Foxes (for obvious reasons). And then I feel bad for the llftx gang because they're all basically like "well you almost got us arrested and you're not going to train?" and MC is just like "yeah bye!" And then we get Takuto's lovely scene xD
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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my sunshine
links exchanged opened! just tag me but link me first
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