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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
Watching the Fourth Shinobi World War arc is so incredibly taxing both mentally and emotionally. I had no idea watching it would be like this T_T If you want to feel an unbelievable amount of despair you know where to look
written on Thursday, February 27, 2014 @ 2:20 PM ✈
Before I get started, I'll mention that since we're doing renovations on our house we have a completely blank wall which we're willing to paint a giant picture/scenery/background/whatever on so any suggestions?
Anyway, I was thinking back to last year when they said naruto was going to end soon so I googled it and found this click here. Basically it says Masashi Kishimoto said "The Naruto Manga Will End in 2014" which is quite sad if that's actually true (╥﹏╥) The article also says that Kishimoto still doesn't know how he'll have Madara defeated and “From the beginning of the series I always thought
about Sasuke becoming Hokage” which is just（ಠ_ಠ）I mean if Sasuke becomes Hokage then poor Naruto O_O especially since we've been following his journey this whole time.
Buuuuut all over the internet there is debate about whether it will really finish in 2014 seeing as that would mean only about another 40 chapters or so which personally I'm not sure is enough to tie up all the loose ends (there are still MANY questions left unanswered). Oh by the way you know what I found shocking? Last week I found out that on naruto wikia Sasuke's status is "Presumed Deceased" holy hell.
Also to all those people who said that Naruto has dragged on too long that's just so >:( And for those that complained about how the war should have ended already I don't really agree with that becomes war is not something that ends in one day == Anyway I just passed the episodes where Naruto meets his mum a few days ago though I have actually watched it when it first came out (because it's a good episode!). One of my favourites is episode 246 but the absolute tearjerker is 249 and never NEVER fails to make me cry omg :(
Time to put up some short clips! Some are crappy quality because that's all there is on youtube sorry (I think some of the voices have their pitch altered too to avoid being deleted from youtube).
I will never not cry on that last one but you really have to watch the whole thing to get the feel :'( It's too bad it got cut though, it's missing the part where she says "arigato" again and Naruto standing there crying as she disappears. Anyway I'm now up to the very last super long arc, the Fourth Great Ninja War which has a more serious tone because come on, it's war.
Japanese time! Here are some of my favourite words or phrases used a lot in Naruto (but pretty much in any anime as well) or commonly used words(◍•ᴗ•◍)Though probably no one's interested OTL
邪魔するな/jama suru na = don't interfere
まっすぐ自分のことはいけない/massugu jibun no koto wa ikenai = I will never go back on my word
許せない/yurusenai = unforgiveable or I won't forgive you
しつこい/shitsukoi = persistent
手前/temee = you (impolite), used by males (though some females say it)
貴様/kisama = you, also impolite. Often translated as you bastard, or you son of a b****
仲間/nakama = comrade
くそ/kuso = literally poo, but often translated to damn it, s*** or even f*** just for emphasis
甘い/amai = naive or weak, often said after an enemy's attack to taunt them
憎しみ/nikushimi = hatred
復讐/fukushuu = revenge
台詞/serifu = one's lines. Often said like こっちの台詞だ！(kocchi no serifu da!) to mean "That's my line!!"
落ち着け/ochitsuke = calm down
まさか/masaka = has a meaning like "don't tell me..." in response to realising something
偽者/nisemono = imposter
ふざけない/fuzakenai = don't joke with me, but usually translated to "don't f*** with me" for emphasis
面倒くさい/mendokusai = troublesome. Shikamaru's favourite word and I actually say this sometimes too lol
written on Tuesday, February 25, 2014 @ 10:30 PM ✈
I guess mostly my close friends would know this but I started working in year 9 since that's when I turned 14 (and that was when you could get a job). I worked there for about 6 months and then found a new job and worked there even until year 12 (though I didn't work there as much in year 12 because lousy HSC). Then when 2013 hit I stopped working all together after about March because my boss found some new people and I also wanted to see how uni would play out. So 2013 was quite the weird year for me, it was the first time after 4 years where I for once was jobless. I didn't go out and find a new job either since I guess I just wanted to take a "break" but MAN I felt so lazy being at home while my sister went out to her job (did I mention she found a job late last year?). Last year was also weird as that was when most of our grade from baulko went out and got their first jobs so it literally felt like everyone was working but me... Also one of my friends asked me for my resume so she could use it as an example to write her own and wow, when I looked at mine it was full of old achievements and was so outdated because I never rewrote it after I got my job in 2010 OTL Buuuuut I've started working again since last Saturday! My boss needed more people so he's called me back haha. I don't know about you guys but I thought I'd get tired of working when I go back, because after a while it just becomes something you "do" and kind of becomes less "exciting" after a while? I don't know how to put it. But never underestimate how satisfying working is! Ah that's right, it seems my boss' son (who calls himself DJ) isn't going to be working there anymore that's why my boss is looking for some more people. I actually quite like my boss' son cause he just has that kind and warm personality and he's always the one to say hi to me when he comes in through the door. He also got 99 point something UAI, did commerce/law and apart from that I have no idea what he actually does for a living (his day job) because I never asked lol (yep that's why they call me unsociable). I'm guessing he graduated a few years back but not sure when exactly. So today I went in to work as from now on I'll be taking over his class on Tuesday afternoons. Today I didn't do too much but just watched how he conducts his classes and you could tell the kids were kind of bummed this was their last lesson with him D; The lesson was quite fun and reminded me of that time in year 11 and 12 where I spent lunch times at baulko tutoring maths to Marcella (a girl who was 2 years younger than us) except the only difference is there are more kids in this class lol. Kind of glad I get to teach maths since that means it will help me to remember it instead of just throwing away everything we learnt even if it is only year 8 and 9 maths lol. I don't know, even though I don't need maths anymore it's too sad throwing it away. At the end of the class DJ told me I'd be fine looking after his class from now on and that I'll be great. Nooo can't believe I won't see him around at work anymore T_T Btw I love how the kids call me "miss" even though I told them my name haha. And how when I came in through the door one kid asked me "miss, what year are you in?" They probably didn't believe it when I said I was in uni OTL but it's not like a year 12 student would be allowed to teach them. Best part of today was when one of the kids said "miss, I like your hair" :')
written on Saturday, February 22, 2014 @ 11:54 PM ✈
Oh my god today it just really hit me that there is only one week left before I become sad for two reasons. The first, only one more week until horrible uni starts T_T I'm so not ready to part with my nice sleep ins and the lack of need to actually do any work. Secondly, I'm sad THAT SUMMER IS ENDING. Oh my god every other season is just inferior and they all feel like winter no joke so I can't believe I have to wait another 9 months until my beloved summer :'( When summer and daylight savings is gone I just get so sad. Ever since my placement at the alpaca farm where we had no internet (yep that's right) I've gotten back into watching Naruto. Can you believe I haven't watched it since 2010? Neither can I. I know because when I started watching again from where I left off, the clips in the openings of the episodes were from the Naruto movie released in 2010. Can't believe I haven't watched in so long. But since then I've taken to just reading the manga as it's ahead of the anime (obviously) and takes less time to go through so when I watch "old" eps it's sad but the truth is it loses a bit of impact since I know what will happen D: Another reason I've started watching it again is because I'm actually running out of games/routes to play and must now wait for some more updates OTL Don't know if I ever mentioned this but doing the kind of course I do means we get really interesting emails sometimes. I'll just show you:
written on Tuesday, February 18, 2014 @ 10:31 PM ✈
Oops I forgot to translate the parts in the clip. I won't upload it again because blogger is anti-videos and uploads it twice even though I only put it up once? So refer to previous post if you want to see it again cause I'll just post the screencaps here ^^
Okay time to write about a new game! I'll try to keep it short so please read it? (⌒-⌒; )
Anyway once again I shall talk about how I wished I was fluent in Japanese then I'd be able to play these games much faster and it would be interesting to see how the characters sound "originally." You can always tell if I'm really excited or anticipate a game if I download it in Japanese just to play the free prologue (and I can only understand about 70% at my level OTL). I don't usually buy any routes as I just wait for the english to come out so I can understand (ಥ＿ಥ）
In any case yes I downloaded this in Japanese and I played a bit because I was kind of excited for this one! I have to say I'm liking how they are rolling out some games with slightly darker themes (like KOR which I never talked about). So this game is called スイートルームで悪戯なキス (suito ru-mu de itazurana kisu) which translates literally to "mischievous kiss in the suite room" but the name given to the English game is "Kissed by the Baddest Bidder" which er, sounds quite lame. Who on earth gives the English games the name seriously o_o Also this game came out last year October 9th in Japanese but only came out last week exactly (February 10) in English so another reason why I wish I could play in Japanese T_T
Also they must have a thing for naming games with "kiss" (キス kisu) in the title cause there was My Forged Wedding which was 誓いのキス (chikai no kisu - kiss of vows), this game and also Kiss of Revenge or KOR 復讐のキス (fukushuu no kisu). Anyway for those that don't wish to continue reading (thanks for getting this far?) here's the clip of the game though bad quality because blogger just doesn't like uploading videos for some reason sorry. Also I apologise for the video appearing twice, it's only there once when I type the post so I can't fix it, please ignore:
Soooooo I'll try to be quick and basically the game starts with MC (I'll just say "you" from now on) who works at Hotel Très Spades which is Japan's first hotel and casino and if that wasn't interesting enough I really love the art for it:
Day view and night view. Damn I'd love to work for a place like that! Anyway they've really put more effort into this game I think as they've drawn in more characters (usually minor characters don't get a sprite), the workers have lovely uniforms (sorry forgot to take screenshot), and they draw in props like the masks and phones. I find it interesting that the hotel workers like MC actually live in a dorm within the hotel. MC's room:
Game starts off with this scary scene:
Oh my god everyone is so creepy D; But okay basically the prologue is you work as a maid (cleaning and tidying rooms, checking in guests, etc) at Hotel Très Spades which is owned by Ichinomiya Group and today they are holding a special event called the IVC (forgot what it stood for but I'm guessing International VIP Conference or something) where lots of celebrities and rich people and stuff are gathering at the hotel.
And then while you are in the lobby welcoming the guests you get bumped around and get pushed into this guy who couldn't care less and leaves you on the group LOL. And for the first time in the history of voltage (otome game maker) they now draw characters' backs LOL:
Btw I was playing this at midnight in bed as I always do and I was just trying so hard not to freaking laugh. Okay yeah then you basically meet the other important characters in and around the IVC (ceebs going into detail, it's not too important). But the MAIN point of the game is that MC accidentally breaks a super expensive statue of Venus and then when these mysterious bad men find out, MC is put up for auction. Yep, that's right. And that's why we started with this scene:
And just as you are about to be sold off for 5 million to this super sleazy guy you met earlier, an unknown bidder puts up 20 million for you. You are then taken away in your cage to your buyer who turns out to be the group of guys who are the main characters for this story (you meet them all in the prologue prior to breaking the statue):
誰に買われる？dare ni kawareru? Who do you want to be bought by?
And since together they bought you for 20 million, they give you the choice of who you want to be bought by and thus, the story of your chosen character's route starts. So why did I look forward to this game? I guess because the "sold at auction" concept was interesting as that's completely immoral in real life so I wanted to see what would happen to MC. Btw the IVC party where the rich and famous are invited to the hotel is just a cover up for the auction which is secretly held underground where literally anything can be sold. The motto is "if there is a buyer, it will be sold." Things like political secrets, donors (people giving up organs!!), stolen/rare artworks can be sold there however a human being sold is a first (MC). All people attending the auction wear a mask though for obvious reasons and when they come out, they take them off so you don't know who was at the IVC (the actual party) and who went to the auction.
Oh and remember how I once complained that sometimes I don't like the MC's of some games as they seem weak and if it was me I'd probably say a lot more? Well MC is actually quite gutsy in this one as she still manages to say some things back to these people who bought her whereas if you were in this situation, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't say or do much other than obey them because this situation is actually pretty scary (if you don't find being sold at auction and being bought by strangers who are completely dangerous scary than you're weird).
Anyway character introductions next time! If anyone wants to play this game, I'll give you my transfer code so you can play for free~ Hope you enjoyed my not-so-brief summary-ish D;
いいか、お前は俺が買った。お前をどうしょうが、俺の自由だ 。
It's fine, I bought you. What you do, is something I get to decide.
Even the auctioneer who hardly appears gets a sprite! Cool outfit btw.
Oh my god am I??? Does playing this kind of gamemake me a masochist??? Σ（ﾟдﾟlll）
Nice mask you got there. Btw it totally hides your identity and I totally don't know who you are just like how no one knew who Usagi was in Sailor Moon even though the hairstyle made it obvious she WAS Sailor Moon?
written on Saturday, February 15, 2014 @ 10:44 PM ✈
First time watching Bondi Vet in a long time. Somehow I get the feeling not a lot of people like the show or think it's too different from real life or something but I quite like it. Tonight's episode featured a prematurely born alpaca who was really weak and wouldn't even get up and I was kind of inwardly laughing when another alpaca was spitting because it was getting blood taken out of it for a transfusion. Hehe after spending 10 days at the llama and alpaca farm I'm totally familiar with the whole spitting thing xD Hmm there was also a labrador who "injured" her spinal disc and was paralysed in her back legs. Then there was also Patricia the possum who had third degree burns on her ears, paws and tail due to the bushfires at Blue Mountains (you guys recall that right?). God those burns looked painful and not to mention her whiskers got burnt off too T_T One part I do like about the show is how concerned all the owners get over their pets, it seriously touches me how much they care about them and how worried they get when their animals are unwell. I mean, there are just so many people out their who couldn't care less so yeah. And honestly I think vets are amazing people because treating animals is not an easy task, especially since unlike doctors, an animal can't tell you what's wrong so the vet has to work it all out (not saying a doctor's job is easy though). Vets also have to know all sorts of things about a wide range of animals whereas doctors just need to worry about people... I don't know if I ever mentioned this but I've always known I've wanted to be a vet since year 4. So when in year 12 people were still saying they weren't sure what they wanted to do in uni, I've always wondered, wasn't that scary? Like my sister who is in year 12 right now but if you ask what she wants to do next year she still says she doesn't know. Since I've always known what I wanted to do, when I imagine myself in her position it seems a little scary? I don't know, I just wonder what it's like having no idea. But alas, I'm sure you guys already knew but I was too dumb to get into vet (lol). I guess I was kind of disappointed since that's all I ever wanted to be but the truth is I've been troubled ever since I started uni. The question I've been asking since then was "do I still want to be a vet?" And the answer is, I don't know. And that thought is kind of scary, not knowing. So I don't know how people aren't afraid when people ask you what you want to do and your answer is "I don't know." The course I'm doing now is still animal related, but at the end of it I can't practise as a vet. And that's not too bad because maybe after all, I didn't want to be a vet. In truth, I just wanted to do something related to animals and perhaps my younger self just thought of vet and nothing else. I guess I kind of changed my mind when I realised that being a vet is super hard. In reality, vets have one of the lowest paying jobs, highest suicide rates (yeah sorry), and a lot of people out there aren't willing enough to pay for treatments so you have to put down a lot of animals. I know my parents are totally going "I told you so" but they aren't doing it in a mean way. I hope you don't think I'm giving up just because the pay is potentially crap, or that it's "too hard" as I have really always known these things and really I'm fine with it even now, as long as I get to do something I love. Oh btw it totally doesn't help that the year after I entered uni, usyd decides to make the vet course one year longer because they're changing it from bachelor to a doctor of veterinary medicine. Not cool usyd, not cool. But you know what I like? I liked that one lecturer we had who said this to the people in our course: "A vet's job is to fix an animal when it's sick, but it's your job to make sure vets are out of a job (ie. keep the animal healthy)." And you know what? I really liked how he put it. So now I don't really know which way to swing, because being on the other side keeping them healthy sounds good too. I guess for now I'll stay in mine but like I said, as long as it's animal related I'm happy. Oh by the way I won't deny that there aren't any vets out there who just see it as a "job" and probably don't care about the animal as much as others. Here's a parting thought though - what sucks is when people hear the treatment/surgery cost and they think it's utterly ridiculous? Sometimes saving a life is actually quite expensive in terms of the operation, medicine, and time and to be honest, it's not like a vet is trying to overcharge you thousands and scam you so yeah I wish people would stop being so mean about this.
written on Thursday, February 13, 2014 @ 10:17 PM ✈
So
for some random reason I decided to go on the JLPT website late
yesterday night (around 11:50) because something inside me was telling
me that there was something to see (weird I know). And lo and behold,
turns out the results were already out == I already knew that
certificates for those who passed only get sent out in March but they
sent out emails saying results could be obtained online from late
February onwards. And
yet turns out the results are available online from January 30 to March
sometime. And I was like EXCUSE ME?!?!?! It means I could have found
out my results before going away for farm but noooo no one told me
>:( Well
anyway better late than never. Checked it yesterday and all I saw was
all the 30's out of 60 and me panicking about whether I passed or not
until I saw 118/180 and I was desperately trying to remember what the
pass mark is until I saw the best words you could ever see - PASSED. HELL
YES. Words can not describe how happy and relieved I was. Admittedly I
didn't study as much as I wanted to throughout the year due to uni but
I'm glad I still managed to pass and didn't disappoint my teacher or my
parents. Only sad thing is that now my journey with Japanese ends here,
and I bet my knowledge in it will deteriorate like crazy :(
Though
dad was like why not just do the next level up? And I just laughed like
crazy because that's not doable. N2 is pretty much native speaker level
and people who have lived in Japan for a few years still have trouble
passing so if I attempted it, it would probably take me a few years of
studying OTL Anyway,
to all those that wished me a "congrats", thank you so much it honestly
made me really happy. Oh btw I couldn't get to sleep last night because
I was too happy after getting my results. And since it was midnight
already I couldn't even tell my parents since they were asleep so I left
a piece of paper on my mum's bag saying "I PASSED MY JAPANESE TEST,
TELL DAD TOO" hoping she'd see it in the morning lol. Do you guys ever
write notes and leave it somewhere, hoping a person will see it? I seem
to do it a lot. Oh also I told my teacher that it was thanks to her that I could pass but she said:
"Tracyは本当に努力家（どりょくか＝がんばりや）ですね。
私はほんの少しだけおてつだいしただけですよ。
トレイシーががんばったから合格したんですよ！！" which
translates to something like "you're a hardworker and all I did was help
you a little. It was because you worked hard that you were able to pass!!"
Sounds infinitely better in Japanese btw. But ugh when she says stuff like that
I can't help but be like ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡
Also
I played so many routes today, the main story, epilogue and sequel. I still
have so much to play and so excited adfjkadsfljsadklfs. Also Valentine's Day
tomorrow which is awesome because I shall "celebrate" by playing the
valentine's day sub stories that came out for the games kekeke.
For
anyone that's interested, here's my JLPT results (click to see bigger):
95/180
is the pass mark and don't be like "only 38/60??" because please
remember that these aren't marks, but some retarded scale was used for it where
the more people who got a question right, the less it was worth and vice versa
OTL
Also
I think you had to get 20/60 at least in each section or it was an automatic
fail so yeah. Super surprised I did almost exactly evenly in all the sections??
I thought listening was going to be my strongest point based on my performance in
practice papers but I know I completely died in the actual test if you recall
my recount.
written on Wednesday, February 12, 2014 @ 11:08 PM ✈
FREAKING NARUTO IS SO INTENSE RIGHT NOW I wish they could hurry and put up the next few chapters T_T Ugh both Naruto and Sasuke pretty much actually dying and the bad guys just keep popping up in the war it just seems too depressing for the other characters!! I only got to read last week's chapter yesterday when I got back and got to read this week's today, but now it's a long wait until next week for the next one :( Also I didn't achieve much catching up on internet today due to meeting up with my boss and going out for dinner with family. Where did all the hours go anyway? I got up at 9 as well... Also I had a very bad headache at about 11am, probably because my body was used to the "sleep at 10, get up at 5:30am" farm routine and rejected what I did last night which was sleep at 12:30 and get up at 9. Last night I had the most tiring fight trying to stay awake to finish my internet reading :/ Never underestimate how hard it is to try and stay awake. Hopefully tonight I will succeed in staying up longer as I haven't even touched any of the new app updates yesterday or today and I have 3 new game routes to play. SO EXCITED. Except something tells me I'm going to fall asleep after a measly 2 chapters out of 15 for the one route OTL For some reason I don't really play apps during the day as I use that time for computer, and then I play the apps during bed time. But at this rate I might have to dedicate some day time to playing them as I might not finish before uni otherwise D; Also spent a good 1 hour today catching up on everyone's blogs so if you have extra views, they're from me ^^
♪ So I miss you (I think of you) and I need you (every day) ♪
written on Tuesday, February 11, 2014 @ 10:45 PM ✈
That sad moment when you go on the computer after not having internet for 10 days and you have no idea which websites you used to spend your time on. Yep that's me. In other news, so many game updates and I don't know where to begin!!! Will I finish them before uni? Also it's sad that I'm getting sleepy at 10 thanks to sleeping early because of farm.
Watching the Fourth Shinobi World War arc is so incredibly taxing both mentally and emotionally. I had no idea watching it would be like this T_T If you want to feel an unbelievable amount of despair you know where to look
written on Thursday, February 27, 2014 @ 2:20 PM ✈
Before I get started, I'll mention that since we're doing renovations on our house we have a completely blank wall which we're willing to paint a giant picture/scenery/background/whatever on so any suggestions?
Anyway, I was thinking back to last year when they said naruto was going to end soon so I googled it and found this click here. Basically it says Masashi Kishimoto said "The Naruto Manga Will End in 2014" which is quite sad if that's actually true (╥﹏╥) The article also says that Kishimoto still doesn't know how he'll have Madara defeated and “From the beginning of the series I always thought
about Sasuke becoming Hokage” which is just（ಠ_ಠ）I mean if Sasuke becomes Hokage then poor Naruto O_O especially since we've been following his journey this whole time.
Buuuuut all over the internet there is debate about whether it will really finish in 2014 seeing as that would mean only about another 40 chapters or so which personally I'm not sure is enough to tie up all the loose ends (there are still MANY questions left unanswered). Oh by the way you know what I found shocking? Last week I found out that on naruto wikia Sasuke's status is "Presumed Deceased" holy hell.
Also to all those people who said that Naruto has dragged on too long that's just so >:( And for those that complained about how the war should have ended already I don't really agree with that becomes war is not something that ends in one day == Anyway I just passed the episodes where Naruto meets his mum a few days ago though I have actually watched it when it first came out (because it's a good episode!). One of my favourites is episode 246 but the absolute tearjerker is 249 and never NEVER fails to make me cry omg :(
Time to put up some short clips! Some are crappy quality because that's all there is on youtube sorry (I think some of the voices have their pitch altered too to avoid being deleted from youtube).
I will never not cry on that last one but you really have to watch the whole thing to get the feel :'( It's too bad it got cut though, it's missing the part where she says "arigato" again and Naruto standing there crying as she disappears. Anyway I'm now up to the very last super long arc, the Fourth Great Ninja War which has a more serious tone because come on, it's war.
Japanese time! Here are some of my favourite words or phrases used a lot in Naruto (but pretty much in any anime as well) or commonly used words(◍•ᴗ•◍)Though probably no one's interested OTL
邪魔するな/jama suru na = don't interfere
まっすぐ自分のことはいけない/massugu jibun no koto wa ikenai = I will never go back on my word
許せない/yurusenai = unforgiveable or I won't forgive you
しつこい/shitsukoi = persistent
手前/temee = you (impolite), used by males (though some females say it)
貴様/kisama = you, also impolite. Often translated as you bastard, or you son of a b****
仲間/nakama = comrade
くそ/kuso = literally poo, but often translated to damn it, s*** or even f*** just for emphasis
甘い/amai = naive or weak, often said after an enemy's attack to taunt them
憎しみ/nikushimi = hatred
復讐/fukushuu = revenge
台詞/serifu = one's lines. Often said like こっちの台詞だ！(kocchi no serifu da!) to mean "That's my line!!"
落ち着け/ochitsuke = calm down
まさか/masaka = has a meaning like "don't tell me..." in response to realising something
偽者/nisemono = imposter
ふざけない/fuzakenai = don't joke with me, but usually translated to "don't f*** with me" for emphasis
面倒くさい/mendokusai = troublesome. Shikamaru's favourite word and I actually say this sometimes too lol
written on Tuesday, February 25, 2014 @ 10:30 PM ✈
I guess mostly my close friends would know this but I started working in year 9 since that's when I turned 14 (and that was when you could get a job). I worked there for about 6 months and then found a new job and worked there even until year 12 (though I didn't work there as much in year 12 because lousy HSC). Then when 2013 hit I stopped working all together after about March because my boss found some new people and I also wanted to see how uni would play out. So 2013 was quite the weird year for me, it was the first time after 4 years where I for once was jobless. I didn't go out and find a new job either since I guess I just wanted to take a "break" but MAN I felt so lazy being at home while my sister went out to her job (did I mention she found a job late last year?). Last year was also weird as that was when most of our grade from baulko went out and got their first jobs so it literally felt like everyone was working but me... Also one of my friends asked me for my resume so she could use it as an example to write her own and wow, when I looked at mine it was full of old achievements and was so outdated because I never rewrote it after I got my job in 2010 OTL Buuuuut I've started working again since last Saturday! My boss needed more people so he's called me back haha. I don't know about you guys but I thought I'd get tired of working when I go back, because after a while it just becomes something you "do" and kind of becomes less "exciting" after a while? I don't know how to put it. But never underestimate how satisfying working is! Ah that's right, it seems my boss' son (who calls himself DJ) isn't going to be working there anymore that's why my boss is looking for some more people. I actually quite like my boss' son cause he just has that kind and warm personality and he's always the one to say hi to me when he comes in through the door. He also got 99 point something UAI, did commerce/law and apart from that I have no idea what he actually does for a living (his day job) because I never asked lol (yep that's why they call me unsociable). I'm guessing he graduated a few years back but not sure when exactly. So today I went in to work as from now on I'll be taking over his class on Tuesday afternoons. Today I didn't do too much but just watched how he conducts his classes and you could tell the kids were kind of bummed this was their last lesson with him D; The lesson was quite fun and reminded me of that time in year 11 and 12 where I spent lunch times at baulko tutoring maths to Marcella (a girl who was 2 years younger than us) except the only difference is there are more kids in this class lol. Kind of glad I get to teach maths since that means it will help me to remember it instead of just throwing away everything we learnt even if it is only year 8 and 9 maths lol. I don't know, even though I don't need maths anymore it's too sad throwing it away. At the end of the class DJ told me I'd be fine looking after his class from now on and that I'll be great. Nooo can't believe I won't see him around at work anymore T_T Btw I love how the kids call me "miss" even though I told them my name haha. And how when I came in through the door one kid asked me "miss, what year are you in?" They probably didn't believe it when I said I was in uni OTL but it's not like a year 12 student would be allowed to teach them. Best part of today was when one of the kids said "miss, I like your hair" :')
written on Saturday, February 22, 2014 @ 11:54 PM ✈
Oh my god today it just really hit me that there is only one week left before I become sad for two reasons. The first, only one more week until horrible uni starts T_T I'm so not ready to part with my nice sleep ins and the lack of need to actually do any work. Secondly, I'm sad THAT SUMMER IS ENDING. Oh my god every other season is just inferior and they all feel like winter no joke so I can't believe I have to wait another 9 months until my beloved summer :'( When summer and daylight savings is gone I just get so sad. Ever since my placement at the alpaca farm where we had no internet (yep that's right) I've gotten back into watching Naruto. Can you believe I haven't watched it since 2010? Neither can I. I know because when I started watching again from where I left off, the clips in the openings of the episodes were from the Naruto movie released in 2010. Can't believe I haven't watched in so long. But since then I've taken to just reading the manga as it's ahead of the anime (obviously) and takes less time to go through so when I watch "old" eps it's sad but the truth is it loses a bit of impact since I know what will happen D: Another reason I've started watching it again is because I'm actually running out of games/routes to play and must now wait for some more updates OTL Don't know if I ever mentioned this but doing the kind of course I do means we get really interesting emails sometimes. I'll just show you:
written on Tuesday, February 18, 2014 @ 10:31 PM ✈
Oops I forgot to translate the parts in the clip. I won't upload it again because blogger is anti-videos and uploads it twice even though I only put it up once? So refer to previous post if you want to see it again cause I'll just post the screencaps here ^^
Okay time to write about a new game! I'll try to keep it short so please read it? (⌒-⌒; )
Anyway once again I shall talk about how I wished I was fluent in Japanese then I'd be able to play these games much faster and it would be interesting to see how the characters sound "originally." You can always tell if I'm really excited or anticipate a game if I download it in Japanese just to play the free prologue (and I can only understand about 70% at my level OTL). I don't usually buy any routes as I just wait for the english to come out so I can understand (ಥ＿ಥ）
In any case yes I downloaded this in Japanese and I played a bit because I was kind of excited for this one! I have to say I'm liking how they are rolling out some games with slightly darker themes (like KOR which I never talked about). So this game is called スイートルームで悪戯なキス (suito ru-mu de itazurana kisu) which translates literally to "mischievous kiss in the suite room" but the name given to the English game is "Kissed by the Baddest Bidder" which er, sounds quite lame. Who on earth gives the English games the name seriously o_o Also this game came out last year October 9th in Japanese but only came out last week exactly (February 10) in English so another reason why I wish I could play in Japanese T_T
Also they must have a thing for naming games with "kiss" (キス kisu) in the title cause there was My Forged Wedding which was 誓いのキス (chikai no kisu - kiss of vows), this game and also Kiss of Revenge or KOR 復讐のキス (fukushuu no kisu). Anyway for those that don't wish to continue reading (thanks for getting this far?) here's the clip of the game though bad quality because blogger just doesn't like uploading videos for some reason sorry. Also I apologise for the video appearing twice, it's only there once when I type the post so I can't fix it, please ignore:
Soooooo I'll try to be quick and basically the game starts with MC (I'll just say "you" from now on) who works at Hotel Très Spades which is Japan's first hotel and casino and if that wasn't interesting enough I really love the art for it:
Day view and night view. Damn I'd love to work for a place like that! Anyway they've really put more effort into this game I think as they've drawn in more characters (usually minor characters don't get a sprite), the workers have lovely uniforms (sorry forgot to take screenshot), and they draw in props like the masks and phones. I find it interesting that the hotel workers like MC actually live in a dorm within the hotel. MC's room:
Game starts off with this scary scene:
Oh my god everyone is so creepy D; But okay basically the prologue is you work as a maid (cleaning and tidying rooms, checking in guests, etc) at Hotel Très Spades which is owned by Ichinomiya Group and today they are holding a special event called the IVC (forgot what it stood for but I'm guessing International VIP Conference or something) where lots of celebrities and rich people and stuff are gathering at the hotel.
And then while you are in the lobby welcoming the guests you get bumped around and get pushed into this guy who couldn't care less and leaves you on the group LOL. And for the first time in the history of voltage (otome game maker) they now draw characters' backs LOL:
Btw I was playing this at midnight in bed as I always do and I was just trying so hard not to freaking laugh. Okay yeah then you basically meet the other important characters in and around the IVC (ceebs going into detail, it's not too important). But the MAIN point of the game is that MC accidentally breaks a super expensive statue of Venus and then when these mysterious bad men find out, MC is put up for auction. Yep, that's right. And that's why we started with this scene:
And just as you are about to be sold off for 5 million to this super sleazy guy you met earlier, an unknown bidder puts up 20 million for you. You are then taken away in your cage to your buyer who turns out to be the group of guys who are the main characters for this story (you meet them all in the prologue prior to breaking the statue):
誰に買われる？dare ni kawareru? Who do you want to be bought by?
And since together they bought you for 20 million, they give you the choice of who you want to be bought by and thus, the story of your chosen character's route starts. So why did I look forward to this game? I guess because the "sold at auction" concept was interesting as that's completely immoral in real life so I wanted to see what would happen to MC. Btw the IVC party where the rich and famous are invited to the hotel is just a cover up for the auction which is secretly held underground where literally anything can be sold. The motto is "if there is a buyer, it will be sold." Things like political secrets, donors (people giving up organs!!), stolen/rare artworks can be sold there however a human being sold is a first (MC). All people attending the auction wear a mask though for obvious reasons and when they come out, they take them off so you don't know who was at the IVC (the actual party) and who went to the auction.
Oh and remember how I once complained that sometimes I don't like the MC's of some games as they seem weak and if it was me I'd probably say a lot more? Well MC is actually quite gutsy in this one as she still manages to say some things back to these people who bought her whereas if you were in this situation, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't say or do much other than obey them because this situation is actually pretty scary (if you don't find being sold at auction and being bought by strangers who are completely dangerous scary than you're weird).
Anyway character introductions next time! If anyone wants to play this game, I'll give you my transfer code so you can play for free~ Hope you enjoyed my not-so-brief summary-ish D;
いいか、お前は俺が買った。お前をどうしょうが、俺の自由だ 。
It's fine, I bought you. What you do, is something I get to decide.
Even the auctioneer who hardly appears gets a sprite! Cool outfit btw.
Oh my god am I??? Does playing this kind of gamemake me a masochist??? Σ（ﾟдﾟlll）
Nice mask you got there. Btw it totally hides your identity and I totally don't know who you are just like how no one knew who Usagi was in Sailor Moon even though the hairstyle made it obvious she WAS Sailor Moon?
written on Saturday, February 15, 2014 @ 10:44 PM ✈
First time watching Bondi Vet in a long time. Somehow I get the feeling not a lot of people like the show or think it's too different from real life or something but I quite like it. Tonight's episode featured a prematurely born alpaca who was really weak and wouldn't even get up and I was kind of inwardly laughing when another alpaca was spitting because it was getting blood taken out of it for a transfusion. Hehe after spending 10 days at the llama and alpaca farm I'm totally familiar with the whole spitting thing xD Hmm there was also a labrador who "injured" her spinal disc and was paralysed in her back legs. Then there was also Patricia the possum who had third degree burns on her ears, paws and tail due to the bushfires at Blue Mountains (you guys recall that right?). God those burns looked painful and not to mention her whiskers got burnt off too T_T One part I do like about the show is how concerned all the owners get over their pets, it seriously touches me how much they care about them and how worried they get when their animals are unwell. I mean, there are just so many people out their who couldn't care less so yeah. And honestly I think vets are amazing people because treating animals is not an easy task, especially since unlike doctors, an animal can't tell you what's wrong so the vet has to work it all out (not saying a doctor's job is easy though). Vets also have to know all sorts of things about a wide range of animals whereas doctors just need to worry about people... I don't know if I ever mentioned this but I've always known I've wanted to be a vet since year 4. So when in year 12 people were still saying they weren't sure what they wanted to do in uni, I've always wondered, wasn't that scary? Like my sister who is in year 12 right now but if you ask what she wants to do next year she still says she doesn't know. Since I've always known what I wanted to do, when I imagine myself in her position it seems a little scary? I don't know, I just wonder what it's like having no idea. But alas, I'm sure you guys already knew but I was too dumb to get into vet (lol). I guess I was kind of disappointed since that's all I ever wanted to be but the truth is I've been troubled ever since I started uni. The question I've been asking since then was "do I still want to be a vet?" And the answer is, I don't know. And that thought is kind of scary, not knowing. So I don't know how people aren't afraid when people ask you what you want to do and your answer is "I don't know." The course I'm doing now is still animal related, but at the end of it I can't practise as a vet. And that's not too bad because maybe after all, I didn't want to be a vet. In truth, I just wanted to do something related to animals and perhaps my younger self just thought of vet and nothing else. I guess I kind of changed my mind when I realised that being a vet is super hard. In reality, vets have one of the lowest paying jobs, highest suicide rates (yeah sorry), and a lot of people out there aren't willing enough to pay for treatments so you have to put down a lot of animals. I know my parents are totally going "I told you so" but they aren't doing it in a mean way. I hope you don't think I'm giving up just because the pay is potentially crap, or that it's "too hard" as I have really always known these things and really I'm fine with it even now, as long as I get to do something I love. Oh btw it totally doesn't help that the year after I entered uni, usyd decides to make the vet course one year longer because they're changing it from bachelor to a doctor of veterinary medicine. Not cool usyd, not cool. But you know what I like? I liked that one lecturer we had who said this to the people in our course: "A vet's job is to fix an animal when it's sick, but it's your job to make sure vets are out of a job (ie. keep the animal healthy)." And you know what? I really liked how he put it. So now I don't really know which way to swing, because being on the other side keeping them healthy sounds good too. I guess for now I'll stay in mine but like I said, as long as it's animal related I'm happy. Oh by the way I won't deny that there aren't any vets out there who just see it as a "job" and probably don't care about the animal as much as others. Here's a parting thought though - what sucks is when people hear the treatment/surgery cost and they think it's utterly ridiculous? Sometimes saving a life is actually quite expensive in terms of the operation, medicine, and time and to be honest, it's not like a vet is trying to overcharge you thousands and scam you so yeah I wish people would stop being so mean about this.
written on Thursday, February 13, 2014 @ 10:17 PM ✈
So
for some random reason I decided to go on the JLPT website late
yesterday night (around 11:50) because something inside me was telling
me that there was something to see (weird I know). And lo and behold,
turns out the results were already out == I already knew that
certificates for those who passed only get sent out in March but they
sent out emails saying results could be obtained online from late
February onwards. And
yet turns out the results are available online from January 30 to March
sometime. And I was like EXCUSE ME?!?!?! It means I could have found
out my results before going away for farm but noooo no one told me
>:( Well
anyway better late than never. Checked it yesterday and all I saw was
all the 30's out of 60 and me panicking about whether I passed or not
until I saw 118/180 and I was desperately trying to remember what the
pass mark is until I saw the best words you could ever see - PASSED. HELL
YES. Words can not describe how happy and relieved I was. Admittedly I
didn't study as much as I wanted to throughout the year due to uni but
I'm glad I still managed to pass and didn't disappoint my teacher or my
parents. Only sad thing is that now my journey with Japanese ends here,
and I bet my knowledge in it will deteriorate like crazy :(
Though
dad was like why not just do the next level up? And I just laughed like
crazy because that's not doable. N2 is pretty much native speaker level
and people who have lived in Japan for a few years still have trouble
passing so if I attempted it, it would probably take me a few years of
studying OTL Anyway,
to all those that wished me a "congrats", thank you so much it honestly
made me really happy. Oh btw I couldn't get to sleep last night because
I was too happy after getting my results. And since it was midnight
already I couldn't even tell my parents since they were asleep so I left
a piece of paper on my mum's bag saying "I PASSED MY JAPANESE TEST,
TELL DAD TOO" hoping she'd see it in the morning lol. Do you guys ever
write notes and leave it somewhere, hoping a person will see it? I seem
to do it a lot. Oh also I told my teacher that it was thanks to her that I could pass but she said:
"Tracyは本当に努力家（どりょくか＝がんばりや）ですね。
私はほんの少しだけおてつだいしただけですよ。
トレイシーががんばったから合格したんですよ！！" which
translates to something like "you're a hardworker and all I did was help
you a little. It was because you worked hard that you were able to pass!!"
Sounds infinitely better in Japanese btw. But ugh when she says stuff like that
I can't help but be like ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡
Also
I played so many routes today, the main story, epilogue and sequel. I still
have so much to play and so excited adfjkadsfljsadklfs. Also Valentine's Day
tomorrow which is awesome because I shall "celebrate" by playing the
valentine's day sub stories that came out for the games kekeke.
For
anyone that's interested, here's my JLPT results (click to see bigger):
95/180
is the pass mark and don't be like "only 38/60??" because please
remember that these aren't marks, but some retarded scale was used for it where
the more people who got a question right, the less it was worth and vice versa
OTL
Also
I think you had to get 20/60 at least in each section or it was an automatic
fail so yeah. Super surprised I did almost exactly evenly in all the sections??
I thought listening was going to be my strongest point based on my performance in
practice papers but I know I completely died in the actual test if you recall
my recount.
written on Wednesday, February 12, 2014 @ 11:08 PM ✈
FREAKING NARUTO IS SO INTENSE RIGHT NOW I wish they could hurry and put up the next few chapters T_T Ugh both Naruto and Sasuke pretty much actually dying and the bad guys just keep popping up in the war it just seems too depressing for the other characters!! I only got to read last week's chapter yesterday when I got back and got to read this week's today, but now it's a long wait until next week for the next one :( Also I didn't achieve much catching up on internet today due to meeting up with my boss and going out for dinner with family. Where did all the hours go anyway? I got up at 9 as well... Also I had a very bad headache at about 11am, probably because my body was used to the "sleep at 10, get up at 5:30am" farm routine and rejected what I did last night which was sleep at 12:30 and get up at 9. Last night I had the most tiring fight trying to stay awake to finish my internet reading :/ Never underestimate how hard it is to try and stay awake. Hopefully tonight I will succeed in staying up longer as I haven't even touched any of the new app updates yesterday or today and I have 3 new game routes to play. SO EXCITED. Except something tells me I'm going to fall asleep after a measly 2 chapters out of 15 for the one route OTL For some reason I don't really play apps during the day as I use that time for computer, and then I play the apps during bed time. But at this rate I might have to dedicate some day time to playing them as I might not finish before uni otherwise D; Also spent a good 1 hour today catching up on everyone's blogs so if you have extra views, they're from me ^^
♪ So I miss you (I think of you) and I need you (every day) ♪
written on Tuesday, February 11, 2014 @ 10:45 PM ✈
That sad moment when you go on the computer after not having internet for 10 days and you have no idea which websites you used to spend your time on. Yep that's me. In other news, so many game updates and I don't know where to begin!!! Will I finish them before uni? Also it's sad that I'm getting sleepy at 10 thanks to sleeping early because of farm.
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
my sunshine
links exchanged opened! just tag me but link me first
: Loves pink, food, ice-cream.
