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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
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written on Saturday, August 30, 2014 @ 11:51 PM ✈
Oh yeah I have to say my favourite part of the chapter was when Naruto picked up Kaguya's severed arm containing black zetsu and yelled "A BRAT WHO CAN'T EVEN LEAVE HIS MOTHER'S SIDE WON'T EVER UNDERSTAND A THING ABOUT!!!!" as he threw the arm towards the chibaku tensei was totally badass hehe you go Naruto. Errr since I got called into work yesterday when I woke up today I thought it was Sunday but actually it was Saturday and I had to go to work... Mum always bursts into my room and scares the hell out of me saying "WHY ARE YOU NOT UP YET, YOU'LL BE LATE!!!" if I'm even off my wake up time by a minute. She makes me panic when there's no need. Always super exhausted on Saturdays because six hours spent using my voice trying to talk over the top of chatty kids. Went out for dinner and we had pho. I swear I have never managed to finish a whole bowl because I'm always too busy eating the toppings (meat, vegetables, bean sprouts) so by the time I get to the noodles I'm already full. My boss' son is getting married next year! o.O Also my boss got taken to the hospital last night :/ So scary since he was perfectly fine when I left work yesterday. He said he had a stroke or a burst vessel (he didn't seem sure himself) and when I saw him today he had a bandage on his hand which I assume is where the IV went in? I hope he's okay/gets better. 0 comment[s] | back to top忍び
written on Friday, August 29, 2014 @ 1:40 PM ✈
OH MY GOD OH MY GOD NARUTO 690 FINALLY CAME OUT. They've changed the release date from Wednesdays to Fridays :'( SPOILERS BUT THE WAR IS OVER, KAGUYA IS SEALED, THANKS KAKASHI, NARUTO AND SASUKE (and *cough* Sakura I guess...). With four months of the year to go, let's hope Kishi doesn't cut it off just yet because there's heaps of explaining to do like everyone's future and another sad goodbye with Naruto's dad D: LOL at the moment when they realise they were trapped in another dimension but there's an answer for everything 0 comment[s] | back to topdumb things
written on Tuesday, August 26, 2014 @ 10:53 PM ✈
So dad has plans to go back home (Hainan) and when mum is saying this to the two people staying over at our house they ask if she is going too, but she says she's happy to stay at home on her own. I point out that I'll be home in December too and what does my (annoying ass) sister say? In a mightier-than-thou tone: "then use your money and go overseas then." HAH! That's freaking RICH coming from you, the stupid one who insists on working crazy ass hours (when you should be doing HSC) to save up for your stupid "car fund" which you won't even touch to fund your OWN trip and instead, demand $5000 from us for your stupid USA trip. To top it all off, you're still a major brat everyday even when nobody owes you anything and it's not a RIGHT for you to go on a trip, it's a luxury so be freaking grateful instead of always insulting. And then I make ONE complaint about something else and my parents blow up in my face and say "quit complaining so much." YEAH NICE my stupid sister walks around saying whatever the hell she wants which is 99.9% rude about something about someone but hey, nobody ever tells her off. And yes, I will come back to this again. I've washed the dishes two or more days in a row tonnes of times and nobody even cares. My sister does it once in half a year or more and everybody (I mean my parents) JUST HAS TO look at me like it's some sort of crime for her to do it twice in a row. WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM. Just why do I ever even bother opening my mouth. 0 comment[s] | back to top自分を見て
written on Saturday, August 23, 2014 @ 12:01 AM ✈
Self reflection is such a scary thing sometimes. Even though I've already been here many times. The mind wanders, the heart hurts. I keep falling in it, when I really don't want to but I don't have the capacity to stop. I know I said I might not post for a while but I just feel like putting my thoughts down. Tell me, if you could go back in time, where would you go? People say they wouldn't change anything but I believe everyone would love to fix or to relive something if they could. Four years ago, there was this person who saw me for what I was. Everyone has things they don't like to share but with this person I felt like I could say anything. They knew me, I knew them, or so I'd like to think. For me, it was always time > money and I'll always be touched at how they always found the time for me, even though I knew that they were giving up playing their game to talk to me. One of the things I'll remember is that whenever they said "I'll be back in 5 minutes" or 15, or 20, they really did show up at exactly that time. It's the small things that count. When I really think about it, you were the first person that truly made me feel that my existence meant something. You listened to me, you asked me how things were, you really did know all the right things to say. You said that I made your life happier. You said I was a good person, that I'm not selfish. That was the first time I had ever heard that and it really broke me down because I had only ever heard otherwise. You stood up for me when everyone else wouldn't have even bothered and I was already too used to having to fight my own battles. You really were too kind. On so many levels you saved me, and showed me so many different sides to life. I did something wrong, but you still said that I was big hearted. I wanted you to get really angry with me, but you didn't and you cared when you shouldn't have. But now, years on I have no idea where you are, what you're doing or if you're well. You once said you were a sentimental kind of person, that I would always have a place inside you. I wonder, is that still true? I never told you, but I'll always have a place for you, even if I'm just a distant memory to you now and you really helped me and saying "thank you" will really never be enough. 0 comment[s] | back to tophiatus
written on Friday, August 22, 2014 @ 11:07 AM ✈
The question I ask when I got up today is "why did I even wake up?" Today is not a day worth living. Sick of everyone not even listening to a thing I say, they go and do whatever the hell they want and I have to reschedule thanks to all you assholes. You think I just have time to burn like that. You're all just the same, telling me you have time but you push everything to the last second and expect me to be awake to "sort things out." Piss off. Why do people even exist, you're all just the same breed of liars. I think I'm going to go on hiatus for a while, lately it seems like I really can't be bothered writing anything and it's never anything worthwhile either. Might come back every now and then to say something if I've got something good. Hopefully this doesn't turn into forever (lol) and it also seems like I can't be bothered reading other people's blogs properly which is just :/ Sorry 0 comment[s] | back to topanother end
written on Thursday, August 21, 2014 @ 10:20 PM ✈
Somehow I have this incredible feeling of emptiness right now, I don't know why. Not going to uni tomorrow but for some reason tomorrow feels like it will be a very dreary day. I guess it feels kind of lonely. Also suits ended again and I'm just :'( Going to be a long wait for the next half of the season. It always ends the same way, with someone else finding out and damn, the drama and tension is just wow. 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Sunday, August 17, 2014 @ 11:10 AM ✈
I don't appreciate the fact that I was woken up at 10 by a phone call from dad saying I had to rearrange this booking I made last week for someone. What's the problem? It's because I specifically asked them before I made the booking what date it was, and said it 3 times to confirm I had it right since I didn't want to screw up. AND THEN they tell me the date is wrong and that I had to try and move the booking except NOBODY bothered to tell me that yes, I had put in the dates as requested correctly and that the mistake was from the person who asked me to make the booking. So here I am sitting feeling like I screwed up majorly, especially since the booking can't be moved and had to be cancelled and nobody is telling me "hey, it's not your fault, you got the dates right they just gave you the wrong dates." YEAH THANKS. This is exactly why I don't like helping people. 0 comment[s] | back to top本当に冗談じゃない
written on Friday, August 15, 2014 @ 10:18 PM ✈
Today was not such a great idea and it would have been better to have slept in :/ Vomited 3 times. Seasickness is really not a joke. 0 comment[s] | back to topCONFLICTED
written on Thursday, August 14, 2014 @ 11:26 PM ✈
fuarrrrr I just gave up my unlimited sleep in with mystery wake up time (ie. get up whenever I want) to get up at 7:30 to go whale watching T____T Ugh so conflicted, it's like my only day off for the next couple of weeks (next friday I have ugh tutorials) and I have to get up early and I need my sleep *cries* And I'm extremely tired because once again I've been getting six hours sleep at most each day and today I pretty much was out all day and only got to watch suits when I got back at 11 (it's now 11:30). SPOILERS Ugh suits is so good at drama and building up tension and they really mess with my feels, I feel so beaten up emotionally. Only one more episode to go before a long break :( Man, when you thought Donna getting fired was bad, Louis leaving is just as bad (you wouldn't think so but it is!!!). The saddest part was the very end when as he leaves with his belongings he says "please take care of my home" (referring to the firm). I literally spent the last half of the episode going "oh my god" and "holy freaking hell" the whole time because it was so genius and my feels were just being messed around with I can't. One of my favourite parts was: Mike: "So which lawyer do you think Woodall called?" Louis: "Well, if he was smart he'd call Daniel Hardman. The best person to defend a criminal, is a criminal." 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on @ 2:43 PM ✈
the number one thing I love is coming home early and no one else is home. I just don't have the energy to deal with people. Ugh the silence is just awesome but too bad in an hour and a half people will come home.. 0 comment[s] | back to topuni never stops trolling us
written on Friday, August 8, 2014 @ 11:50 PM ✈
Friday is always the day when I am just barely awake. Today was no different and consisted of me getting up at the usual, to get to bosch for 9am class (bloody bosch). Did I ever mention we have 9am starts at bosch 4 days a week? Yep that's right. Anyway to top it off it was a cold, grey drizzly morning and I honestly found it very difficult to keep awake and would have loved to keep sleeping at home and not go to uni. But guess what happened? Our timetable clearly states that for 95% of the semester, we have 3 hours worth of lectures on Fridays (there are a couple of odd weeks off for some lectures). Yet at least a good 50% of our cohort showed up today and it turns out we only had one hour worth of lectures because our lecturer completely FAILED to mention that the two hour lecture wasn't going to be on. GRRRRRRRRR you have one job, seriously!!!!! Do people seriously not have the decency to tell us whether we have class or not, because we follow our timetable and nothing else so if you're not going to have a class SAY SO!!! Yeah so all my friends that showed up and I were completely bummed and I was pretty pissed going all that way just for one hour. It takes me a good 2.5 hours just to get to uni and back so if I had known I would have skipped. Hmph, totally boycotting uni on Fridays now because who knows if he'll pull that again. This totally happened last semester as well, when we showed up at 9am and it turned out that there was no lecture that random day but at least it wasn't a waste since we still had other lectures afterwards. Anyway a couple of weeks ago I was looking through the good old days of msn chat logs and it turns out that in year 11 (and obviously year 12 too) I used to be on msn talking at 11:42pm...... Which meant I went to bed at like midnight earliest, and got up at 6:30 everyday to get to school (oh the days of ~8:45 starts). How on earth was I awake??? Oh the young have such energy and stamina... Though I do remember always having a hard time staying awake in legal and english. The classes I was ALWAYS awake for would have to have been maths and japanese LOL But yeah this week I have been averaging 5-6 hours of sleep a night (don't ask) and I'm honestly just dead. 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Tuesday, August 5, 2014 @ 10:17 PM ✈
The things we have to talk about for our dissection project... An excerpt taken from our fb group message. "we will remove skin and other irrelavent organs for easy viewing first incision stomach to remove organs we will section the caudal section of dog and focus on sagittal side" "ok and what are we doing about the tail we're removing the skin right? but do we keep muscles intact or remove some?" "I think we'll have to remove skin and fur" "Keep muscle intact!" "if the skin goes so does the fur hahah" "ok so we want to show the muscles on the entire tail? even to the tip?" "to be honest im hoping we get a preserved specimen because we might be able to see nerves also.. are we going to remove the limbs?" "what would be the advantage? I think our poor specimen will look like a furry turtle if we chop all its limbs off I feel messed up" "with the removal of the hindlimbs, i think we'll get a more holistic view of the pelvic muscles or remove one leg and keep one?" "We are discussing the complete annhiliation of an innocent animal like we are decapitating it in the name of science" "it was doomed the moment his owners ditched him" "yeh remove just one leg!" "excellent" "that made me sound evil i swear im not evil" 0 comment[s] | back to topobligatory first week of semester post
written on Friday, August 1, 2014 @ 11:09 PM ✈
Well I'm dead tired and it's only been a week... no idea how to survive for 13 weeks (I always feel like this). My feels about this semester are the same as last year's semester 2, too much science and no more stats to cut through 4 subjects of boringness. The subjects are also all retardedly named: AGEC1006 ANSC2004 ANSC3104 AVBS2001 THEY ALL START WITH A. EVERY TIME I GO TO A LECTURE AND THE FIRST SLIDE IS THE UNIT CODE I'M ALREADY LOST because I have no idea which subject is which WHY. It also doesn't help that there are two ANSC subjects, one is a continuation of last semester's "animal structure and function" and the other is animal conservation biology. Ugh I can never differentiate the two. Then there's AVBS but instead of the nice easy going AVBS1002 of last year, this time it's referred to more commonly as IVP - introductory veterinary pathogenesis. If you want to get bombarded with plain looking slides which get flipped too quickly and have too much info on them, this is your class. Oh and you get to see lots of gross pictures throughout the lectures x_x Lastly AGEC is... AGRICULTURAL ECONOMICS. I hated economics in high school (hence never did it, except when we did commerce) and I hated agriculture last year, so guess what? This subject is obviously going to be my downfall (along with IVP). To top it off, lecturer is soooo boring it's not funny. Monotone, quiet, doesn't even put her slides on fullscreen so we end up staring at it within the microsoft powerpoint window. I don't understand why all agriculture lecturers are boring. So many assignments/assignment drafts already due in like week 3, so many units requiring group work that I've already forgotten which group is for which. On the first day of uni we already got handed a list of readings that we had to do this week for conservation biology, and we get more every week. And yes, we do "actually have to read them" since they are examinable in the finals. That means we now have the whole lot in our course: lectures, practicals, assignments (goes without saying), tutorials, AND now readings. If I ever hear a non-science student complain about readings I'll punch them in the face (only half-joking...). 0 comment[s] | back to top |