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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.

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I remember when it was three weeks or so ago I was doing my usual procrastination routine and I stumbled across an article about the iphones that were coming out. No matter what they say about the c in 5c standing for "classy" or "colours" I think it will always mean "cheaper" in people's minds. Though I have to admit the colours are pretty cool.

Well the other day I realised I didn't actually know what the new phones looked like so I googled iphone 5s and instead articles with titles like "New iPhones less durable than iPhone 5" and "The 'S' is for scanner on iPhone 5s or scammer?" which made me laugh.

In other news I'm like the only kid who hasn't updated to ios 7. Everyone I see at uni and on the train has already updated but meh I'm not so quick to jump onto the bandwagon.

On a random note, I haven't watched naruto for at least 3 years (or more) because around then I spent so much time writing notes or whatever so I couldn't be bothered watching the new episode every week and since then I fell more and more behind. I still follow the plot because I read the manga and that takes a lot less time. So yeah, I was listening to old naruto openings this morning and it's so nostalgic T_T

Does anyone have trypophobia? God when I googled that the images scared me like hell.

Do you know what's completely annoying? When I wash the dishes everyday for weeks on end because my sister crams the week before her yearlies and is apparently "too busy" to wash them. It takes half an hour max and it is a good break because no one studies effectively for hours on end without a break. And she studies in her room with the door shut and to be honest, no one can be sure she's actually doing work in there.

And then when I ask if she'll do them my parents are like "no leave her alone she's studying." Honestly WTF because when I'm studying for my finals you still come up to me and you're like "do the dishes" and she's not even doing HSC yet, it's year 11 though to be honest even back in year 11 and HSC of course I still did the dishes.

And then there are the days when in the holidays my sister washes for two days in a row and then mum seriously always turns to me and is like "what why is your sister washing again" like I've committed some atrocity. Look, sometimes she has to wash twice in a row because she went out and I had to do a double. And yet any time I pull a double, triple or weekly no one gives a damn.

There's a lot more but these things really annoy me because where is the fairness?

I'm so glad that it's now officially midsemester break. Farm was fun, but I'm tired as expected. Right now I'm sitting here and I feel extremely unfulfilled. I have all this spare time for just today but I don't even want to use it. I guess I'm too tired to enjoy it properly I really just want to go to bed.

It would be great if I could have a whole week of actual break but nope, I shall be spending it doing notes and revision. Fun. 

There are still things annoying me. Like my skin. It's just a really bad cycle where when it's bad, it makes you fret and then the stress of it just makes it worse and then the cycle just keeps going round and round.

get home at 6:30 and I just want to sleep. But I can't because for some reason I have a lot to do again tonight. For once I actually want to get to bed early so I won't be so tired getting up at 5:50 tomorrow but it's another case of "this won't be possible." :/

I had such a terrible day today. I won't go into it properly because then this post will just be annoying. But the gist of it is our postponed test which was supposed to be today is still not working properly so I don't know what I'm supposed to do. There was also those annoying src people attacking me at uni yet again for the second week AND my friends and  I couldn't even get home in peace because they were just chucking papers in my face. Yeah.

To say I'm pissed and angry doesn't even cover it. I guess it just built up everyday. Oh and the super annoying wind today was just the worst. Should have brought glasses because all this debris was getting into my eyes and the skin on my face is just continually getting worse (may or may not be related to the weird weather we're having, I don't know).

You know, I think I'm glad we have to go to the farm tomorrow. It would be a lie to say it's not tiring since we're out and about and not just sitting around plus it's a long day. But I think we all find it fun and that makes it worth it. Plus stupid main campus has been a bad place for me this week thanks to those stupid src people. So even though they are not on main campus tomorrow, I'll still be happy out at the farm away from the main campus since they have slightly ruined that for me.

Haven't been feeling great since I got back from botanic gardens for bio prac because for some reason my face is just really itchy == It's probably from weird pollen or whatever I don't know but this is why I don't like plants aside from the fact that they are so boring.

Hmm so I didn't get home until about 5:30 but then we had to go to my mum's aunt's house for dinner with relatives and family friends and then I didn't actually get back home properly until about 8:15 and then I spent an hour watching simpsons and futurama... I have forgotten how hilarious and good those shows are, there's so many hidden jokes and references so you have to listen properly. Ah Wednesdays are a little emptier without suits and naruto has gone into a brief flashback mode...

Feeling disorientated and my mind is too active and buzzing around a lot because I've been doing work non-stop over the weekends, Monday and Tuesday but now I have nothing to do except wait for the release of avbs test tomorrow and more tests which are after the mid-semester break. So after being so busy for a while it's a little weird to have nothing to do...

Wanted to leave for bed at 10:30 but this application is taking a long time to fill out so I predict I will be tired again tomorrow.

Let it be known that I do my best work at 12...

Oh who am I kidding I don't know why but I just can't function ever since I came home at 6, had dinner and tried to do some work. Ugh I accomplished so much more yesterday why didn't I just finish it and why did I foolishly leave some of it to do today thinking it would be better not to do it in just one sitting.

Also the weather is being annoying lately. And my skin is being rather angry this year and I have no idea why.

Okay I think my body and mind is going downhill again but that's kind of what you'd expect after two nights spent staying up til 1:30 doing work and getting up at 6:30 and having a packed day at uni. Yesterday in bio prac one of the people in our group stayed up really late doing bio report and her psychology assignment and I think she was snacking on lollies throughout the day and within that three hour period of bio prac I witnessed her go from sugar high, to being all jittery and shaky in the hands and then the eventual crash. It was interesting o_o

Guys, I have something I need to confess. Lately I've realised I have a serious problem. I'm so addicted to the internet :/ Actually I've always been like this since I was little but I guess you could say it's gotten worse. This week that just went by I hardly did anything else online and I was completely heartbroken since the game I've been waiting forever for came out and I couldn't play (more on this later).

So, as I wrote in the earlier post, the avbs test tomorrow got postponed. This means I've given tonight as a break and I'll start purely working on those assignments/tests all through the weekend until Wednesday.

The problem is that my mind just became super excited at the thought of catching up on these games, shows, episodes, videos, blog reading etc that I think I just broke. It's not actually possible to fit all that I want to catch up on in the little amount of time I had left today :( It's so sad  I even have a list of like 60 videos on my phone just waiting to be watched and I haven't even touched that list.

Damn I screwed up my body so much my mind has been in this painful sort of numbness ever since I got home. Guess it doesn't help that I'm still sitting here lol. I'll probably even be up until 2 again in bed playing my game :/ It's okay I have Friday and the weekends to recover, so long as I get the work done. 

ARGH suits finished. So many feels. That show is probably why I have a headache today. Watched two episodes since even though they come out on Wednesdays, I couldn't even watch last week's one until today because it didn't come out until Monday and by then I was busy with assignments == That show gives me way too many feels - you go from laughing at their jokes, to frustration, a kind of sadness(?) and so on in a matter of seconds. It goes by so fast you really have to pay attention.

Ah there were so many funny parts I really have to write them here. Maybe tomorrow. And naruto! I kind of feel bad that every time you think you have one over your enemies they trump you again :/ Isn't it quite disheartening that every time you think it's about to end it doesn't? I'm talking about a fight not the series lol.

In any case this makes me so excited and jittery omg:



Weird that they're pink cause my old one was green with the silhouette on it. Don't comment on how much I spent on them because they better last me for a while :S

Haha this was posted on our cohort's fb page (for our degree) as a combatant for post-vets test depression:

Stay put guys, I think this is going to be a long one (sorry). 

Ah my thoughts are so scattered. First of all let's start off by saying that cramming pretty much all of VETS last night was not a good idea. The whole time I was feeling really sick and there were numerous times I just wanted to give up because I just became so overwhelmed and I just kind of got frustrated over the whole routine of studying and tests *sigh*

And then the test was today and multiple choice was alright... Except the first question which was on the basics but you know how sometimes you neglect the basics cause you think you know it all? So I was left going "oh god oh god question one and I'm already stuck." The worst part was short answers though because it's never "short" as the name suggests == It was a choice between two questions and neither were good... In the end I think I blabbed about unrelated things so if I get 50% in that section I'll be happy.

I guess the problem also lies in the fact that we hardly do any writing in the tests we have throughout the semester. We really only do that in the finals since we pretty much always get quizzes and whatever which are multiple choice. 

Soooooo this week was bad since chem assignment sunday, bio report wednesday, vets test today. Originally we were going to have an avbs test tomorrow which I was prepared to do since I wanted to get it out of the way. It's a one hour online test and you have between 7pm Friday to 7pm Saturday to do it.

BUT look what happened thanks to people complaining:




I noticed this yesterday :/ I'm seriously not that happy about it. You might think oh hey you get extra time but I didn't quite realise this earlier but next week is quite bad as well. This is worse since it must be done between 7AM Monday and 7AM Tuesday which means you pretty much only have Monday night to do it...

And this means next week's schedule is now this:

Monday: do avbs test 
Tuesday: chem tutorial quiz
Wednesday: bio lab summary due + travel to city Botanical Gardens(?) for bio prac

It might not sound like much but it's annoying. I wonder if I can still go to my lecture on Wednesday and still make it to the gardens on time? Yeah now I must juggle doing avbs and study for chem on Monday night. Brilliant. Oh well I'll just try to get all those things done over the weekend + listen to some lectures. It's okay stay calm!

And then midsemester break but after that still have more chem quizzes, bio lab summaries, write up all bio reports to hand in book, bio quiz and animal handling showcase T_T

No energy.

I seriously just can't anymore :/ That feeling I used to get back in high school where I just want to give up and quit and not attempt any more of an exam or assignments is back and I feel like caving in. 

I'm sinking in my work... 

What is with this weather seriously. It makes me depressed. How can we go from that lovely summery week to this disgusting gloom I don't understand and half a month of spring has gone by already. Okay what I really don't get is how this winter there were only like 3 days of rain and now when it's not winter anymore we're experiencing grey skies and super heavy rain! It's night and it's raining and this did not happen in winter x_x Uni is probably going to be gross tomorrow.

So I find the difference too unnerving. Last semester, I spent a whole week fixing up my report. This semester? I've spent like two days but I haven't even changed it much. I read it and I find it acceptable but I know it won't get me anything high, probably around 60-70% if I'm lucky because I know it's lacking a lot but yet I can't bring myself to do much. I don't know, probably because this topic is more specific so it's hard to find research to back your statements unlike last time when we were doing a report on photosynthesis and there was heaps of material.

Sigh what to do. Not to mention I still haven't really studied for that test on Thursday. I'm so doomed and yet I sit here so calmly. I've probably accepted my fate already :/ Or I'll just freak out the hour before the test. Oh well. 

I'll probably go to bed early today and stay up late doing my report tomorrow if I need to. It's better tomorrow rather than today cause if I don't get enough sleep tonight I'll die with 7 hours of uni tomorrow. Whereas if I get less sleep tomorrow, the day after I have 4 hours (one lecture, one prac) so I'm sure I'll survive. Though it's already 11:30 now so it's not that early...

aww man more people came over. And kids. KIDS. I'm sorry but I can't stand kids being annoying and running around our house slamming doors when I'm trying to do my work. Ugh.

There's something I can't be bothered posting about right now because it'll take too long but I definitely want to when I'm done with this awful week. But for now, let's just put this here: 

okay what on earth why did the melbourne daiso opening have all this cool free stuff going on whereas over here no one cares. So sick of melbourne hogging everything it's not fair and when I go down there nothing is even on what the hell man. Not cool.

Anyway this coming week is so disgusting. Just no. 

The week before the one that just passed was the bad chem quiz (which I did very poorly in thank you very much) and probably the bio quiz. There was also the bio lab summary (5%? 10%?) which was due that week and it took me ages. I did half on the weekends and then completely procrastinated the other half til the night before. Good job. The draft report for bio was probably due the week before.

So yes.

THEN after that I started freaking out since I thought both chem assignment + bio final report was due in the week that just went by. It's not fun juggling. But luckily, we all got it wrong and bio actually gave us THREE weeks to do our report instead of two. So surprised since two weeks is normal between draft and final. But yeah we were so happy since another week to work on it is great.

BUT now comes the gross part sigh. This is my week:

Sunday (tomorrow): chem assignment due (10%). Luckily my friend and I managed to finish half of it during our three hour break on Thursday and I finished it that night though will still need to check it. This leaves me time for...
WEDNESDAY: 4 page final bio report due (15%). Let's just say in the almost-three weeks since the draft was due I haven't looked at it again. My draft was utter crap and I only wrote it to have something so they could give me the marks since they don't read it and just check if your format is right. Like last semester, I intend to rewrite the whole thing from scratch for the final except the results since it's not like you can change the raw results. However, unlike last semester I doubt I'll like my end result this time around. I'm sorry but last semester's report set a high standard for me since I was so surprised I managed to write something like that and get 90% :/ I'm sorry, I'm kind of proud of that one.

So plan is to spend all of Sunday and Monday (not going to uni) and FINISH bio report and treat it like it's due Tuesday. This way I won't be up late again on Tuesday night doing it for Wednesday == Now back to the schedule...

Thursday: gross VETS (cell bio) mid semester exam (15%). Yeah I hate it when at the beginning of semester they tell you that you have an exam on september 19 and then never mention it again because my whole cohort was just happily going through the semester then BAM smack in the face it's a week until the exam and we only just saw it coming. Ouch man. I'm looking forward to cramming 8 weeks worth of material into half a week *sarcasm*
Friday: AVBS exam (5%). Yeah don't look down on that 5% I still need to get as many marks as I can and there's so much material to look over before I can even hope to pass that ==

So yes what a gross week. Please don't underestimate it :( 

Ah and then somewhere in the near future is 2 more chem quizzes, another bio quiz, two more bio lab summaries and group project for the animal handling show case (I think that's in 2 weeks and we haven't even done anything lol we so screwed).

wahhh so many things happened and I got lazy about writing it down here. Luckily in the last few hours I've gotten into a better mood cause I think there were some things I was not happy about before but now I've forgotten ^^

But I would like to start off with some things that I really dislike. First, I don't like it when people turn up to our house unannounced because most of the time if I'm not going to school or going out that day, then I'll be in my pj's since I'm too lazy to change. Do you know how sad it is to have to slink away and quickly change when people are coming up the doorsteps? I just want to be in the house in peace and not have people over ==

Another thing I really hate is when people come over when I'm trying to study. I get even more silently mad when it's right before exam period because they are seriously loud and have no regard for the fact that they are a major disturbance!! Usually I have to turn up my music to try and block them out cause I find music is slightly less distracting T_T

Ah it's that time of year again when mooncakes are everywhere. Someone brought some over today but it's the dreaded 冰皮 (ice skin?) kind which I really dislike because they just taste like bleh and all that "it's healthier" rubbish annoys me because who cares, if it doesn't taste good then no thanks. Why do they mess with tradition > <"

On a random note, listening to something that was originally in korean being translated into japanese is weird lol. I can't understand their japanese. I guess it really matters what you listen to it in first like how japanese anime with english dubs sounds so gross *shudder*

Uhhhhh we just found one of my new unused puffers all the way in the cupboard corner. It expired in 2011 lol. Which is both good and bad because it means I didn't need it but bad since if I do need it it's expired now.
 

oops forgot to blog and now it's really late. It also just randomly started to rain moderately heavily all of a sudden hmm.

Also I got the black screen of death :( Oh you know what sucks? Having to wear my pj's and not shirt and shorts to sleep because the weather has gone cold again ==

Today was Friday the 13th but nothing happened

whew I thought I was alright since I was really awake on the train this morning and even during chem (I seriously hate chem) and I was doing fine in cell bio for once. But as soon as the break time hit that's when it went downhill... My friend and I spent a good 2 hours in fisher on the computers doing our chem assignment and I don't know, there's something about those computers because I feel so ugh after using them and my eyesight even goes retarded when I look far away which doesn't happen at home if I have to sit in front of the computer for two hours...

Then I was super tired in the 2 hour lecture and also the bio lecture after that. Peak hour trains suck but we were lucky and got a seat after one stop. But then I came home and I have been doing my chem assignment ever since then because I have a super dodgy question where it seriously could be either of two answers and I'm like "oh god what do I do." 

Yeah and thanks to doing chem for so much of today I gave myself a headache. I've been getting a lot of those lately x_x Ah off to bed at 12 again. Yay tomorrow's a day off! But I have errands and work to do.

Ah I have a stomach ache now because I had the wonderful idea of drinking iced coffee at 9pm lol. But hey it was delicious and no, I doubt it will keep me up at all I mean last semester I had coffee and then fell asleep in agen straight after. Boring agen bleh. On a random note, today I just realised that the way my dad makes his coffee is identical to the way vietnamese iced coffee is made except he just has his hot lol.

Okay so I realised I'm trapped in this vicious cycle. I really should go to bed earlier but nope, here I am still sleeping at a mystery time usually somewhere between 11:30 to 12:30. Then I get up at 6:30 and I spend the whole day regretting that (especially this week for some reason I just feel so tired) and I don't get home until 6 pm or so. I only start doing work at around 8 because of dinner, chores, shower and all that blah. Do work until like 10-11, find some things on the internet and I'm like "ooh!" Then it's bed time ==

That probably didn't make much sense but I guess my point is since I get home late it just feels like there isn't enough time in the day. Ah the assignments just keep coming and the motivation to tackle them just keeps dropping. Holidays please come already I don't want to do work anymore. It's really disheartening when you're like "yay I finished one! Oh but look there's one coming in a week and it's due in 3 weeks" x_x

Yessss just need to survive tomorrow and then Friday is no uni! So hyped for that but I'll be spending the whole day doing my assignments sigh. I'm not as fortunate as arts/commerce/whatever students who pretty much always have Fridays off. I get this week and next week's Friday off since no farm as there are more groups than there are pracs/activities so you get two weeks off in a chunk ie. break break farm or farm break break but no break farm break cause that's just how it is. Yes. But after these two Fridays there's one more prac then week after it's bio quiz back at main campus yuck.

Why am I always the one getting targeted by the SRC campaigners on my walk to/from uni. It sucks T_T

Also I have this stupid thing on the side of my foot and need to keep this bandage on it all day everyday for a week for it to go away but for some reason it hurts so much when I put on my shoes and imagine all the walking I have to do on 9 to 5 days. It is so painful that I'm practically limping and look weird and as soon as you take it off it doesn't hurt anymore but if I do that then it will take twice as long to get rid of it sigh.

I think the fact that I couldn't really get up today and my dad had to call me to get up shows that I should really get more sleep. Ah woke up and was seriously disorientated and took a while for my brain to click "oh it's Tuesday I need to get to uni." Maybe that's what happens when you don't go on Monday.

Then I was quite tired for the rest of the day. It doesn't help that Tuesday is the longest day with 7 hours. Thursday has the same hours (9 to 5) but isn't as long due to a 3 hour break. Ah I should have gone to bed earlier but I had things to do and now it's approaching 12. I've had a terrible headache since 11 which sucks.

To my future self, please don't do pre-lab quizzes after 11pm because your brain is fried and you get 3/5 like you did today. Or maybe it's because the quiz was about plants and I hate plants. Like seriously. I freaking hate plants. Sounds harsh but since I haven't been writing about what we've been doing in uni lately I guess it wouldn't make as much sense. 

But yeah just goes to show that I'm slacking off since this is week 7 and now my 5/5 streak every week is ruined T_T Last semester I think that happened in week 11 or something. In any case from now on I better not get anything else wrong or then I would have done even worse than last semester. 

Getting a little depressed because my body is going through another crisis and stupid eczema is popping up again. This means I'll have to spend potentially weeks bandaging myself up until it goes away. *sigh* When I look at my old scars I think about how many times my body has had to fight all this and all the trouble it caused. It's a pity because even if you think it is "gone" it seriously can pop right back up any time it's crazy. The battle is never over.

Ah sometimes you (by you I mean me) really forget how lucky you were to have it gone and then you only remember when it comes back :/ I mean, it wasn't too long ago when I had to spend hours every night applying topical steroids and bandaging myself up. Or those times when my stupid asleep self would scratch like everything in the middle of the night and I would literally wake up and there'd be blood everywhere on my sheets. So gross I know. They had to be washed so frequently. Not to mention the pain I woke up in ugh when I couldn't even stretch out my joints due to all the broken skin and the worst part was that you couldn't stop it since I was doing it in my sleep.

Sorry if that sounds all down and whatnot but I guess I wrote it since because it's been creeping back I was suddenly reminded of those years of my life. Ah hopefully if I keep at it I can get rid of this before it all comes back x_x

Aww man no early sleep today. I'm probably going to get into bed at 12 which means 6.5 hours of sleep or so :/

Just powered through 7 hours worth of lectures and it's no joke when I say that it is extremely mentally draining. 

I forgot to go get my shorts from when I left them out drying outside and I'm sitting here in pj pants and it's too warm.

Haha I was out of the house last night so I didn't catch the updates on the election results but we all knew who was going to win...

In any case I come back and then there's all these complaints about our PM all over fb, tumblr and twitter lol it amuses me very much.

Especially when I tell my dad about them but he doesn't care and he's just like "I hate labour ==" lol

Oohhh I don't know why but I don't feel so good right now. Didn't do anything special but I feel dizzy and headache-y :(

Please go away

wah today felt like a long day. But before I start, the album I was anticipating for a long time finally arrived a few days ago and I found it amusing that not only was it shrink wrapped (which is typical), it was also wrapped in bubble wrap and even put in an envelope that was bubble wrap padded. Extreme much xD

Anyway I woke up in the worst condition ever. I don't know why but I had the worst headache and stomach ache but no, I'm not sick. The worst part is that I had it the whole day and still have it now :/ I wonder what happened.

First time since the semester started where I didn't have to wake up at about 5:50 to go to the farm. This is because today we had a one hour bio quiz at uni at 1. Could have slept in til 8, got up to study and go to uni with ample time but nope, got up at 6:30 just to go visit Rosemary at work in the city since she has pestered me for weeks. I seriously hope she understood how much it cost me time and energy wise to do that seriously x_x Also, her manager is scary as hell.

When I'm up super late and my parents tell me off to go to bed I understand that they are looking out for my well being but sometimes I really have stuff I need to do. So yeah I was up until 2 last night still trying to do bio... I'm so glad today my parents didn't even tell me off about going to bed that late and doing the whole "you should do things earlier" and stuff because they know I know and so yeah, thanks for being understanding! They just accept that sometimes I need to do these things :)

That means I only got 4.5 hours of sleep or so and yeah unfortunately I just crash on Fridays. Couldn't even sleep on the train on the way to the city because I was just "too awake" but seriously as soon as I got home after the quiz I just felt SO TIRED like I couldn't even function anymore. This is basically what happened:

me: *walking up the stairs in this super retarded way that I guess can only be described as what looks like when drunk people walk*

"ugh better go take a nap because I can't do anything like this"

*goes to nap*

*awake for 30 minutes*

"why do I even bother" ==

Yeah napping never works for me I just can't fall asleep @_@ The faculty of bio is crazy. Do the quiz at 2, get the results back at 4:12. Didn't do that great but at least I'm still above average :/ I'm so bad when it comes to tests. This morning I was quickly reading up on the pracs we did since those could be tested too and I was going through it briefly since I remembered most of it already (since we needed to write about it for the report) except the dissection prac. 

So I read all of it until the rat dissection which is the last animal and then my sister says it's time to go the station (today I went at the same time as her to save my dad from making two trips). So I decided to leave my book since I didn't want to bring it with me and I was pretty sure I remembered enough about the rat stuff.

Well then I go in to do the quiz, look at the paper and lo and behold, there's a question on the rat. *sigh* Of all animals you picked that one. This happens all the time. Needless to say I got the question wrong orz

Hmm probably had more to say but don't remember. You know, I just can't do any work on Fridays. I leave that as my day off as usually when it's farm day I'm out from 6:50 to 5 and I'm so tired I just can't do anything right so I just watch mindless stuff. Well today I'm also tired despite only going to uni for one hour because Friday is the end of the week and I think the lack of sleep just catches up.

Sleep in on Saturday so my energy levels are up and then do work, that's my plan :) Buuuuuut going out tomorrow for Cibby's birthday thing and have to vote :/ Still have lots of work to do but I feel like baking something this weekend. It's just kind of relaxing even though I get frustrated when it doesn't come out right lol. I wonder what fraction of people enjoy baking/cooking because of the process, and how many people enjoy it only for the end product. I definitely find the making part more enjoyable.

Can't believe it's suddenly so warm even though spring just began. In past years, I remember I still needed the electric blanket until a few weeks into spring but already there's no need. Right now I'm only wearing shorts and a shirt! Then again maybe it's because the weather report told me it would be 22 today and I thought that was cold and so I wore a cardigan, jeans and boots but it was actually quite sunny and everyone else was wearing "summery clothes" :(

Damn I'm drowning

Why is there so much bloody content

Wow I can't keep up with my work anymore. Finish one thing, get dumped with three more. Losing track of everything and also my motivation is getting less and less :/

It's too hard coming home late and not having much time to do it and then I cut into my sleep, feel tired and repeat the cycle.

Argh want to watch the new suits so bad, I've had it on my comp since last night but looks like I'll have to put it off til tomorrow thanks to bio. Nooooo

Oops going to bed at like 12 because I've kind of forgotten just how long my japanese homework takes which means it took me until even later to finish my bio lab summary :/

It's really sad because for some reason it seems like I've forgotten a lot of my japanese. It must just be an off day. Or an off week. Hopefully I'll be alright next time. Like even the most simplest of things came up on my sheets and I'm like "wait what's that" and I'd check the dictionary and be like "wow how could you forget this x_x".

I don't remember what else I was supposed to say here but yay no uni tomorrow! And not really uni on Friday either except the one hour quiz but that doesn't really count. So this week I only had 3 days of uni! This will never happen again T_T 

Well maybe once more. I'll have a 3 day week on the weeks that we have a bio quiz because then there are no labs and I only have one lecture and bio prac on Wednesdays so when there are no pracs, it's not worth it for me to go there just for one lecture. So yeah this will only happen once more this semester because there are only two bio quizzes :/

eww so not looking forward to uni tomorrow because 9 to 5 and only one hour of break. It's only been less than half of the semester and I am already sick of my Tuesdays == How do I get through them seriously. 

Also gross chem prac tomorrow. I really dislike chem pracs and tomorrow's looks exceptionally lengthy which is great because I'll never get home and finish my assignment T_T

You know how my old chem lab partner and I were notorious for never being able to finish early? Well last week's prac was titration and I hate it and I thought I'd never be able to finish early but once you get into it I guess it's alright. Although it's an individual prac you kind of still communicate with your partner to check you guys are going well and we finished at 4:15! Almost an hour early!

BUT NO. Our stupid demonstrator dragged the discussion out UNTIL 5. I don't even know why because every other group in our room doing titration left at 4:30 I SWEAR. Okay I'll stop the caps but I seriously want to type all the rest in it but that's rude. Ugh yes everyone left and for no good reason we were still sitting around listening to her drone on and I finished my stupid discussion in my book at 4:20 seriously. I just wanted her to sign it so I could get out of there but no, she seriously dragged out what could've taken 5 minutes into 40 minutes and I don't even know how.

And in that whole time my partner and I just complained about it lol. I was agitated because the one time I finished early and nope can't even leave. And I really needed to get home that day because I had my bio report due the next day == I swear the demonstrator was doing everything she could to stretch our practical to 5 and there was literally no one left in any of the other lab rooms == So pissed. Why do I never get the good demonstrators who are quick and let us out early. Why.

Oh well. Even though it's a long prac tomorrow I will persevere and do my best to hope I can come home at least slightly early because I have another bio lab summary due on Wednesday :/

Today marks the first day of spring! Actually I don't even like spring because of hay fever and all that but hey, it's better than winter and it's a step closer to summer! Oh boy I'm super excited for summer. It's weird because I expected it to still be winter-cold at the beginning of spring and to gradually get hotter but nope, two days ago it was warm enough to just wear a t-shirt in the evening at home. That made me so happy because spring hadn't even set in yet and it was already getting warmer :D

I actually can't believe how fast time has gone I guess. I mean, I thought there was still another month of winter to go so I was surprised it was actually spring that was coming. You can already notice that people at uni are wearing less layers even though I think the temperature change has only been a couple of degrees - nothing much just yet. Whenever there were days when there were humid winds (I don't know how to describe it) it would remind me of summer weather and I would get sad remembering that summer is ages away.

Man I get really sad in winter don't I T_T Ah man you know the week before last it was super windy and just generally annoying to be outside. Even when we were at the farm it was super cloudy and always looked like it was about to rain. Then as soon as the weekends came and I had to stay indoors all the time to finish my bio report? Sun and warm weather everywhere == This always happens. I remember winter back when I was at baulko sucked since it was always rainy and cold when we were at school and good weather on the weekends.

Ah I haven't done my "assignment" or studied for my bio quiz all weekend :/ Oops.

And goodness masterchef. Once again, another year where the person I preferred out of the last two doesn't win. I think out of the five seasons this has happened 3 or 4 times. Not happy because as usual, I don't like the person who won for a reason. That reason is what other people have said - she cries a lot (okay that's a bit mean but still) and she always cracks under the pressure. It's okay if it's a couple of times just not when it happens like every 2 weeks ==

Ugh but masterchef seriously makes me go (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ When will it be a season where the person I like wins? And I swear the judging this season was really the worst. Many times it was always the opposite of common sense and there were numerous times where it was the dish that had one "minor" mistake gets their owner booted out compared to the dish that was bad in all its elements overall. What the hell seriously.

Didn't really like this season as you can see but I also hated the start where it was the whole "boys vs. girls" concept because that really took the attention away from the cooking and more about the "ooooh you going to finish in time? Well mine's better" blah blah crap which was super annoying. Even if they weren't trying to be mean I hated that kind of rivalry instead of the normal who's a better cook thing. I don't know. Also the opening sucked because usually it's of the contestants cooking and this time it was everyone just having a dinner party what the hell （￣□￣；）

Lastly the scoring for the final was super predictable. If you're the unlucky contestant whose scores get read out first? Sorry but you're out. I mean it wouldn't work if they read your scores last and went "oh sorry but you don't have enough points to beat x and y so you're out." It's always "oh you got xx out of yy giving you a total of blah blah so you're the winner!" 

Lame. Well now that it's all over I now have an extra hour per day to do homework. Fun :/

I remember when it was three weeks or so ago I was doing my usual procrastination routine and I stumbled across an article about the iphones that were coming out. No matter what they say about the c in 5c standing for "classy" or "colours" I think it will always mean "cheaper" in people's minds. Though I have to admit the colours are pretty cool.

Well the other day I realised I didn't actually know what the new phones looked like so I googled iphone 5s and instead articles with titles like "New iPhones less durable than iPhone 5" and "The 'S' is for scanner on iPhone 5s or scammer?" which made me laugh.

In other news I'm like the only kid who hasn't updated to ios 7. Everyone I see at uni and on the train has already updated but meh I'm not so quick to jump onto the bandwagon.

On a random note, I haven't watched naruto for at least 3 years (or more) because around then I spent so much time writing notes or whatever so I couldn't be bothered watching the new episode every week and since then I fell more and more behind. I still follow the plot because I read the manga and that takes a lot less time. So yeah, I was listening to old naruto openings this morning and it's so nostalgic T_T

Does anyone have trypophobia? God when I googled that the images scared me like hell.

Do you know what's completely annoying? When I wash the dishes everyday for weeks on end because my sister crams the week before her yearlies and is apparently "too busy" to wash them. It takes half an hour max and it is a good break because no one studies effectively for hours on end without a break. And she studies in her room with the door shut and to be honest, no one can be sure she's actually doing work in there.

And then when I ask if she'll do them my parents are like "no leave her alone she's studying." Honestly WTF because when I'm studying for my finals you still come up to me and you're like "do the dishes" and she's not even doing HSC yet, it's year 11 though to be honest even back in year 11 and HSC of course I still did the dishes.

And then there are the days when in the holidays my sister washes for two days in a row and then mum seriously always turns to me and is like "what why is your sister washing again" like I've committed some atrocity. Look, sometimes she has to wash twice in a row because she went out and I had to do a double. And yet any time I pull a double, triple or weekly no one gives a damn.

There's a lot more but these things really annoy me because where is the fairness?

I'm so glad that it's now officially midsemester break. Farm was fun, but I'm tired as expected. Right now I'm sitting here and I feel extremely unfulfilled. I have all this spare time for just today but I don't even want to use it. I guess I'm too tired to enjoy it properly I really just want to go to bed.

It would be great if I could have a whole week of actual break but nope, I shall be spending it doing notes and revision. Fun. 

There are still things annoying me. Like my skin. It's just a really bad cycle where when it's bad, it makes you fret and then the stress of it just makes it worse and then the cycle just keeps going round and round.

get home at 6:30 and I just want to sleep. But I can't because for some reason I have a lot to do again tonight. For once I actually want to get to bed early so I won't be so tired getting up at 5:50 tomorrow but it's another case of "this won't be possible." :/

I had such a terrible day today. I won't go into it properly because then this post will just be annoying. But the gist of it is our postponed test which was supposed to be today is still not working properly so I don't know what I'm supposed to do. There was also those annoying src people attacking me at uni yet again for the second week AND my friends and  I couldn't even get home in peace because they were just chucking papers in my face. Yeah.

To say I'm pissed and angry doesn't even cover it. I guess it just built up everyday. Oh and the super annoying wind today was just the worst. Should have brought glasses because all this debris was getting into my eyes and the skin on my face is just continually getting worse (may or may not be related to the weird weather we're having, I don't know).

You know, I think I'm glad we have to go to the farm tomorrow. It would be a lie to say it's not tiring since we're out and about and not just sitting around plus it's a long day. But I think we all find it fun and that makes it worth it. Plus stupid main campus has been a bad place for me this week thanks to those stupid src people. So even though they are not on main campus tomorrow, I'll still be happy out at the farm away from the main campus since they have slightly ruined that for me.

Haven't been feeling great since I got back from botanic gardens for bio prac because for some reason my face is just really itchy == It's probably from weird pollen or whatever I don't know but this is why I don't like plants aside from the fact that they are so boring.

Hmm so I didn't get home until about 5:30 but then we had to go to my mum's aunt's house for dinner with relatives and family friends and then I didn't actually get back home properly until about 8:15 and then I spent an hour watching simpsons and futurama... I have forgotten how hilarious and good those shows are, there's so many hidden jokes and references so you have to listen properly. Ah Wednesdays are a little emptier without suits and naruto has gone into a brief flashback mode...

Feeling disorientated and my mind is too active and buzzing around a lot because I've been doing work non-stop over the weekends, Monday and Tuesday but now I have nothing to do except wait for the release of avbs test tomorrow and more tests which are after the mid-semester break. So after being so busy for a while it's a little weird to have nothing to do...

Wanted to leave for bed at 10:30 but this application is taking a long time to fill out so I predict I will be tired again tomorrow.

Let it be known that I do my best work at 12...

Oh who am I kidding I don't know why but I just can't function ever since I came home at 6, had dinner and tried to do some work. Ugh I accomplished so much more yesterday why didn't I just finish it and why did I foolishly leave some of it to do today thinking it would be better not to do it in just one sitting.

Also the weather is being annoying lately. And my skin is being rather angry this year and I have no idea why.

Okay I think my body and mind is going downhill again but that's kind of what you'd expect after two nights spent staying up til 1:30 doing work and getting up at 6:30 and having a packed day at uni. Yesterday in bio prac one of the people in our group stayed up really late doing bio report and her psychology assignment and I think she was snacking on lollies throughout the day and within that three hour period of bio prac I witnessed her go from sugar high, to being all jittery and shaky in the hands and then the eventual crash. It was interesting o_o

Guys, I have something I need to confess. Lately I've realised I have a serious problem. I'm so addicted to the internet :/ Actually I've always been like this since I was little but I guess you could say it's gotten worse. This week that just went by I hardly did anything else online and I was completely heartbroken since the game I've been waiting forever for came out and I couldn't play (more on this later).

So, as I wrote in the earlier post, the avbs test tomorrow got postponed. This means I've given tonight as a break and I'll start purely working on those assignments/tests all through the weekend until Wednesday.

The problem is that my mind just became super excited at the thought of catching up on these games, shows, episodes, videos, blog reading etc that I think I just broke. It's not actually possible to fit all that I want to catch up on in the little amount of time I had left today :( It's so sad  I even have a list of like 60 videos on my phone just waiting to be watched and I haven't even touched that list.

Damn I screwed up my body so much my mind has been in this painful sort of numbness ever since I got home. Guess it doesn't help that I'm still sitting here lol. I'll probably even be up until 2 again in bed playing my game :/ It's okay I have Friday and the weekends to recover, so long as I get the work done. 

ARGH suits finished. So many feels. That show is probably why I have a headache today. Watched two episodes since even though they come out on Wednesdays, I couldn't even watch last week's one until today because it didn't come out until Monday and by then I was busy with assignments == That show gives me way too many feels - you go from laughing at their jokes, to frustration, a kind of sadness(?) and so on in a matter of seconds. It goes by so fast you really have to pay attention.

Ah there were so many funny parts I really have to write them here. Maybe tomorrow. And naruto! I kind of feel bad that every time you think you have one over your enemies they trump you again :/ Isn't it quite disheartening that every time you think it's about to end it doesn't? I'm talking about a fight not the series lol.

In any case this makes me so excited and jittery omg:



Weird that they're pink cause my old one was green with the silhouette on it. Don't comment on how much I spent on them because they better last me for a while :S

Haha this was posted on our cohort's fb page (for our degree) as a combatant for post-vets test depression:

Stay put guys, I think this is going to be a long one (sorry). 

Ah my thoughts are so scattered. First of all let's start off by saying that cramming pretty much all of VETS last night was not a good idea. The whole time I was feeling really sick and there were numerous times I just wanted to give up because I just became so overwhelmed and I just kind of got frustrated over the whole routine of studying and tests *sigh*

And then the test was today and multiple choice was alright... Except the first question which was on the basics but you know how sometimes you neglect the basics cause you think you know it all? So I was left going "oh god oh god question one and I'm already stuck." The worst part was short answers though because it's never "short" as the name suggests == It was a choice between two questions and neither were good... In the end I think I blabbed about unrelated things so if I get 50% in that section I'll be happy.

I guess the problem also lies in the fact that we hardly do any writing in the tests we have throughout the semester. We really only do that in the finals since we pretty much always get quizzes and whatever which are multiple choice. 

Soooooo this week was bad since chem assignment sunday, bio report wednesday, vets test today. Originally we were going to have an avbs test tomorrow which I was prepared to do since I wanted to get it out of the way. It's a one hour online test and you have between 7pm Friday to 7pm Saturday to do it.

BUT look what happened thanks to people complaining:




I noticed this yesterday :/ I'm seriously not that happy about it. You might think oh hey you get extra time but I didn't quite realise this earlier but next week is quite bad as well. This is worse since it must be done between 7AM Monday and 7AM Tuesday which means you pretty much only have Monday night to do it...

And this means next week's schedule is now this:

Monday: do avbs test 
Tuesday: chem tutorial quiz
Wednesday: bio lab summary due + travel to city Botanical Gardens(?) for bio prac

It might not sound like much but it's annoying. I wonder if I can still go to my lecture on Wednesday and still make it to the gardens on time? Yeah now I must juggle doing avbs and study for chem on Monday night. Brilliant. Oh well I'll just try to get all those things done over the weekend + listen to some lectures. It's okay stay calm!

And then midsemester break but after that still have more chem quizzes, bio lab summaries, write up all bio reports to hand in book, bio quiz and animal handling showcase T_T

No energy.

I seriously just can't anymore :/ That feeling I used to get back in high school where I just want to give up and quit and not attempt any more of an exam or assignments is back and I feel like caving in. 

I'm sinking in my work... 

What is with this weather seriously. It makes me depressed. How can we go from that lovely summery week to this disgusting gloom I don't understand and half a month of spring has gone by already. Okay what I really don't get is how this winter there were only like 3 days of rain and now when it's not winter anymore we're experiencing grey skies and super heavy rain! It's night and it's raining and this did not happen in winter x_x Uni is probably going to be gross tomorrow.

So I find the difference too unnerving. Last semester, I spent a whole week fixing up my report. This semester? I've spent like two days but I haven't even changed it much. I read it and I find it acceptable but I know it won't get me anything high, probably around 60-70% if I'm lucky because I know it's lacking a lot but yet I can't bring myself to do much. I don't know, probably because this topic is more specific so it's hard to find research to back your statements unlike last time when we were doing a report on photosynthesis and there was heaps of material.

Sigh what to do. Not to mention I still haven't really studied for that test on Thursday. I'm so doomed and yet I sit here so calmly. I've probably accepted my fate already :/ Or I'll just freak out the hour before the test. Oh well. 

I'll probably go to bed early today and stay up late doing my report tomorrow if I need to. It's better tomorrow rather than today cause if I don't get enough sleep tonight I'll die with 7 hours of uni tomorrow. Whereas if I get less sleep tomorrow, the day after I have 4 hours (one lecture, one prac) so I'm sure I'll survive. Though it's already 11:30 now so it's not that early...

aww man more people came over. And kids. KIDS. I'm sorry but I can't stand kids being annoying and running around our house slamming doors when I'm trying to do my work. Ugh.

There's something I can't be bothered posting about right now because it'll take too long but I definitely want to when I'm done with this awful week. But for now, let's just put this here: 

okay what on earth why did the melbourne daiso opening have all this cool free stuff going on whereas over here no one cares. So sick of melbourne hogging everything it's not fair and when I go down there nothing is even on what the hell man. Not cool.

Anyway this coming week is so disgusting. Just no. 

The week before the one that just passed was the bad chem quiz (which I did very poorly in thank you very much) and probably the bio quiz. There was also the bio lab summary (5%? 10%?) which was due that week and it took me ages. I did half on the weekends and then completely procrastinated the other half til the night before. Good job. The draft report for bio was probably due the week before.

So yes.

THEN after that I started freaking out since I thought both chem assignment + bio final report was due in the week that just went by. It's not fun juggling. But luckily, we all got it wrong and bio actually gave us THREE weeks to do our report instead of two. So surprised since two weeks is normal between draft and final. But yeah we were so happy since another week to work on it is great.

BUT now comes the gross part sigh. This is my week:

Sunday (tomorrow): chem assignment due (10%). Luckily my friend and I managed to finish half of it during our three hour break on Thursday and I finished it that night though will still need to check it. This leaves me time for...
WEDNESDAY: 4 page final bio report due (15%). Let's just say in the almost-three weeks since the draft was due I haven't looked at it again. My draft was utter crap and I only wrote it to have something so they could give me the marks since they don't read it and just check if your format is right. Like last semester, I intend to rewrite the whole thing from scratch for the final except the results since it's not like you can change the raw results. However, unlike last semester I doubt I'll like my end result this time around. I'm sorry but last semester's report set a high standard for me since I was so surprised I managed to write something like that and get 90% :/ I'm sorry, I'm kind of proud of that one.

So plan is to spend all of Sunday and Monday (not going to uni) and FINISH bio report and treat it like it's due Tuesday. This way I won't be up late again on Tuesday night doing it for Wednesday == Now back to the schedule...

Thursday: gross VETS (cell bio) mid semester exam (15%). Yeah I hate it when at the beginning of semester they tell you that you have an exam on september 19 and then never mention it again because my whole cohort was just happily going through the semester then BAM smack in the face it's a week until the exam and we only just saw it coming. Ouch man. I'm looking forward to cramming 8 weeks worth of material into half a week *sarcasm*
Friday: AVBS exam (5%). Yeah don't look down on that 5% I still need to get as many marks as I can and there's so much material to look over before I can even hope to pass that ==

So yes what a gross week. Please don't underestimate it :( 

Ah and then somewhere in the near future is 2 more chem quizzes, another bio quiz, two more bio lab summaries and group project for the animal handling show case (I think that's in 2 weeks and we haven't even done anything lol we so screwed).

wahhh so many things happened and I got lazy about writing it down here. Luckily in the last few hours I've gotten into a better mood cause I think there were some things I was not happy about before but now I've forgotten ^^

But I would like to start off with some things that I really dislike. First, I don't like it when people turn up to our house unannounced because most of the time if I'm not going to school or going out that day, then I'll be in my pj's since I'm too lazy to change. Do you know how sad it is to have to slink away and quickly change when people are coming up the doorsteps? I just want to be in the house in peace and not have people over ==

Another thing I really hate is when people come over when I'm trying to study. I get even more silently mad when it's right before exam period because they are seriously loud and have no regard for the fact that they are a major disturbance!! Usually I have to turn up my music to try and block them out cause I find music is slightly less distracting T_T

Ah it's that time of year again when mooncakes are everywhere. Someone brought some over today but it's the dreaded 冰皮 (ice skin?) kind which I really dislike because they just taste like bleh and all that "it's healthier" rubbish annoys me because who cares, if it doesn't taste good then no thanks. Why do they mess with tradition > <"

On a random note, listening to something that was originally in korean being translated into japanese is weird lol. I can't understand their japanese. I guess it really matters what you listen to it in first like how japanese anime with english dubs sounds so gross *shudder*

Uhhhhh we just found one of my new unused puffers all the way in the cupboard corner. It expired in 2011 lol. Which is both good and bad because it means I didn't need it but bad since if I do need it it's expired now.
 

oops forgot to blog and now it's really late. It also just randomly started to rain moderately heavily all of a sudden hmm.

Also I got the black screen of death :( Oh you know what sucks? Having to wear my pj's and not shirt and shorts to sleep because the weather has gone cold again ==

Today was Friday the 13th but nothing happened

whew I thought I was alright since I was really awake on the train this morning and even during chem (I seriously hate chem) and I was doing fine in cell bio for once. But as soon as the break time hit that's when it went downhill... My friend and I spent a good 2 hours in fisher on the computers doing our chem assignment and I don't know, there's something about those computers because I feel so ugh after using them and my eyesight even goes retarded when I look far away which doesn't happen at home if I have to sit in front of the computer for two hours...

Then I was super tired in the 2 hour lecture and also the bio lecture after that. Peak hour trains suck but we were lucky and got a seat after one stop. But then I came home and I have been doing my chem assignment ever since then because I have a super dodgy question where it seriously could be either of two answers and I'm like "oh god what do I do." 

Yeah and thanks to doing chem for so much of today I gave myself a headache. I've been getting a lot of those lately x_x Ah off to bed at 12 again. Yay tomorrow's a day off! But I have errands and work to do.

Ah I have a stomach ache now because I had the wonderful idea of drinking iced coffee at 9pm lol. But hey it was delicious and no, I doubt it will keep me up at all I mean last semester I had coffee and then fell asleep in agen straight after. Boring agen bleh. On a random note, today I just realised that the way my dad makes his coffee is identical to the way vietnamese iced coffee is made except he just has his hot lol.

Okay so I realised I'm trapped in this vicious cycle. I really should go to bed earlier but nope, here I am still sleeping at a mystery time usually somewhere between 11:30 to 12:30. Then I get up at 6:30 and I spend the whole day regretting that (especially this week for some reason I just feel so tired) and I don't get home until 6 pm or so. I only start doing work at around 8 because of dinner, chores, shower and all that blah. Do work until like 10-11, find some things on the internet and I'm like "ooh!" Then it's bed time ==

That probably didn't make much sense but I guess my point is since I get home late it just feels like there isn't enough time in the day. Ah the assignments just keep coming and the motivation to tackle them just keeps dropping. Holidays please come already I don't want to do work anymore. It's really disheartening when you're like "yay I finished one! Oh but look there's one coming in a week and it's due in 3 weeks" x_x

Yessss just need to survive tomorrow and then Friday is no uni! So hyped for that but I'll be spending the whole day doing my assignments sigh. I'm not as fortunate as arts/commerce/whatever students who pretty much always have Fridays off. I get this week and next week's Friday off since no farm as there are more groups than there are pracs/activities so you get two weeks off in a chunk ie. break break farm or farm break break but no break farm break cause that's just how it is. Yes. But after these two Fridays there's one more prac then week after it's bio quiz back at main campus yuck.

Why am I always the one getting targeted by the SRC campaigners on my walk to/from uni. It sucks T_T

Also I have this stupid thing on the side of my foot and need to keep this bandage on it all day everyday for a week for it to go away but for some reason it hurts so much when I put on my shoes and imagine all the walking I have to do on 9 to 5 days. It is so painful that I'm practically limping and look weird and as soon as you take it off it doesn't hurt anymore but if I do that then it will take twice as long to get rid of it sigh.

I think the fact that I couldn't really get up today and my dad had to call me to get up shows that I should really get more sleep. Ah woke up and was seriously disorientated and took a while for my brain to click "oh it's Tuesday I need to get to uni." Maybe that's what happens when you don't go on Monday.

Then I was quite tired for the rest of the day. It doesn't help that Tuesday is the longest day with 7 hours. Thursday has the same hours (9 to 5) but isn't as long due to a 3 hour break. Ah I should have gone to bed earlier but I had things to do and now it's approaching 12. I've had a terrible headache since 11 which sucks.

To my future self, please don't do pre-lab quizzes after 11pm because your brain is fried and you get 3/5 like you did today. Or maybe it's because the quiz was about plants and I hate plants. Like seriously. I freaking hate plants. Sounds harsh but since I haven't been writing about what we've been doing in uni lately I guess it wouldn't make as much sense. 

But yeah just goes to show that I'm slacking off since this is week 7 and now my 5/5 streak every week is ruined T_T Last semester I think that happened in week 11 or something. In any case from now on I better not get anything else wrong or then I would have done even worse than last semester. 

Getting a little depressed because my body is going through another crisis and stupid eczema is popping up again. This means I'll have to spend potentially weeks bandaging myself up until it goes away. *sigh* When I look at my old scars I think about how many times my body has had to fight all this and all the trouble it caused. It's a pity because even if you think it is "gone" it seriously can pop right back up any time it's crazy. The battle is never over.

Ah sometimes you (by you I mean me) really forget how lucky you were to have it gone and then you only remember when it comes back :/ I mean, it wasn't too long ago when I had to spend hours every night applying topical steroids and bandaging myself up. Or those times when my stupid asleep self would scratch like everything in the middle of the night and I would literally wake up and there'd be blood everywhere on my sheets. So gross I know. They had to be washed so frequently. Not to mention the pain I woke up in ugh when I couldn't even stretch out my joints due to all the broken skin and the worst part was that you couldn't stop it since I was doing it in my sleep.

Sorry if that sounds all down and whatnot but I guess I wrote it since because it's been creeping back I was suddenly reminded of those years of my life. Ah hopefully if I keep at it I can get rid of this before it all comes back x_x

Aww man no early sleep today. I'm probably going to get into bed at 12 which means 6.5 hours of sleep or so :/

Just powered through 7 hours worth of lectures and it's no joke when I say that it is extremely mentally draining. 

I forgot to go get my shorts from when I left them out drying outside and I'm sitting here in pj pants and it's too warm.

Haha I was out of the house last night so I didn't catch the updates on the election results but we all knew who was going to win...

In any case I come back and then there's all these complaints about our PM all over fb, tumblr and twitter lol it amuses me very much.

Especially when I tell my dad about them but he doesn't care and he's just like "I hate labour ==" lol

Oohhh I don't know why but I don't feel so good right now. Didn't do anything special but I feel dizzy and headache-y :(

Please go away

wah today felt like a long day. But before I start, the album I was anticipating for a long time finally arrived a few days ago and I found it amusing that not only was it shrink wrapped (which is typical), it was also wrapped in bubble wrap and even put in an envelope that was bubble wrap padded. Extreme much xD

Anyway I woke up in the worst condition ever. I don't know why but I had the worst headache and stomach ache but no, I'm not sick. The worst part is that I had it the whole day and still have it now :/ I wonder what happened.

First time since the semester started where I didn't have to wake up at about 5:50 to go to the farm. This is because today we had a one hour bio quiz at uni at 1. Could have slept in til 8, got up to study and go to uni with ample time but nope, got up at 6:30 just to go visit Rosemary at work in the city since she has pestered me for weeks. I seriously hope she understood how much it cost me time and energy wise to do that seriously x_x Also, her manager is scary as hell.

When I'm up super late and my parents tell me off to go to bed I understand that they are looking out for my well being but sometimes I really have stuff I need to do. So yeah I was up until 2 last night still trying to do bio... I'm so glad today my parents didn't even tell me off about going to bed that late and doing the whole "you should do things earlier" and stuff because they know I know and so yeah, thanks for being understanding! They just accept that sometimes I need to do these things :)

That means I only got 4.5 hours of sleep or so and yeah unfortunately I just crash on Fridays. Couldn't even sleep on the train on the way to the city because I was just "too awake" but seriously as soon as I got home after the quiz I just felt SO TIRED like I couldn't even function anymore. This is basically what happened:

me: *walking up the stairs in this super retarded way that I guess can only be described as what looks like when drunk people walk*

"ugh better go take a nap because I can't do anything like this"

*goes to nap*

*awake for 30 minutes*

"why do I even bother" ==

Yeah napping never works for me I just can't fall asleep @_@ The faculty of bio is crazy. Do the quiz at 2, get the results back at 4:12. Didn't do that great but at least I'm still above average :/ I'm so bad when it comes to tests. This morning I was quickly reading up on the pracs we did since those could be tested too and I was going through it briefly since I remembered most of it already (since we needed to write about it for the report) except the dissection prac. 

So I read all of it until the rat dissection which is the last animal and then my sister says it's time to go the station (today I went at the same time as her to save my dad from making two trips). So I decided to leave my book since I didn't want to bring it with me and I was pretty sure I remembered enough about the rat stuff.

Well then I go in to do the quiz, look at the paper and lo and behold, there's a question on the rat. *sigh* Of all animals you picked that one. This happens all the time. Needless to say I got the question wrong orz

Hmm probably had more to say but don't remember. You know, I just can't do any work on Fridays. I leave that as my day off as usually when it's farm day I'm out from 6:50 to 5 and I'm so tired I just can't do anything right so I just watch mindless stuff. Well today I'm also tired despite only going to uni for one hour because Friday is the end of the week and I think the lack of sleep just catches up.

Sleep in on Saturday so my energy levels are up and then do work, that's my plan :) Buuuuuut going out tomorrow for Cibby's birthday thing and have to vote :/ Still have lots of work to do but I feel like baking something this weekend. It's just kind of relaxing even though I get frustrated when it doesn't come out right lol. I wonder what fraction of people enjoy baking/cooking because of the process, and how many people enjoy it only for the end product. I definitely find the making part more enjoyable.

Can't believe it's suddenly so warm even though spring just began. In past years, I remember I still needed the electric blanket until a few weeks into spring but already there's no need. Right now I'm only wearing shorts and a shirt! Then again maybe it's because the weather report told me it would be 22 today and I thought that was cold and so I wore a cardigan, jeans and boots but it was actually quite sunny and everyone else was wearing "summery clothes" :(

Damn I'm drowning

Why is there so much bloody content

Wow I can't keep up with my work anymore. Finish one thing, get dumped with three more. Losing track of everything and also my motivation is getting less and less :/

It's too hard coming home late and not having much time to do it and then I cut into my sleep, feel tired and repeat the cycle.

Argh want to watch the new suits so bad, I've had it on my comp since last night but looks like I'll have to put it off til tomorrow thanks to bio. Nooooo

Oops going to bed at like 12 because I've kind of forgotten just how long my japanese homework takes which means it took me until even later to finish my bio lab summary :/

It's really sad because for some reason it seems like I've forgotten a lot of my japanese. It must just be an off day. Or an off week. Hopefully I'll be alright next time. Like even the most simplest of things came up on my sheets and I'm like "wait what's that" and I'd check the dictionary and be like "wow how could you forget this x_x".

I don't remember what else I was supposed to say here but yay no uni tomorrow! And not really uni on Friday either except the one hour quiz but that doesn't really count. So this week I only had 3 days of uni! This will never happen again T_T 

Well maybe once more. I'll have a 3 day week on the weeks that we have a bio quiz because then there are no labs and I only have one lecture and bio prac on Wednesdays so when there are no pracs, it's not worth it for me to go there just for one lecture. So yeah this will only happen once more this semester because there are only two bio quizzes :/

eww so not looking forward to uni tomorrow because 9 to 5 and only one hour of break. It's only been less than half of the semester and I am already sick of my Tuesdays == How do I get through them seriously. 

Also gross chem prac tomorrow. I really dislike chem pracs and tomorrow's looks exceptionally lengthy which is great because I'll never get home and finish my assignment T_T

You know how my old chem lab partner and I were notorious for never being able to finish early? Well last week's prac was titration and I hate it and I thought I'd never be able to finish early but once you get into it I guess it's alright. Although it's an individual prac you kind of still communicate with your partner to check you guys are going well and we finished at 4:15! Almost an hour early!

BUT NO. Our stupid demonstrator dragged the discussion out UNTIL 5. I don't even know why because every other group in our room doing titration left at 4:30 I SWEAR. Okay I'll stop the caps but I seriously want to type all the rest in it but that's rude. Ugh yes everyone left and for no good reason we were still sitting around listening to her drone on and I finished my stupid discussion in my book at 4:20 seriously. I just wanted her to sign it so I could get out of there but no, she seriously dragged out what could've taken 5 minutes into 40 minutes and I don't even know how.

And in that whole time my partner and I just complained about it lol. I was agitated because the one time I finished early and nope can't even leave. And I really needed to get home that day because I had my bio report due the next day == I swear the demonstrator was doing everything she could to stretch our practical to 5 and there was literally no one left in any of the other lab rooms == So pissed. Why do I never get the good demonstrators who are quick and let us out early. Why.

Oh well. Even though it's a long prac tomorrow I will persevere and do my best to hope I can come home at least slightly early because I have another bio lab summary due on Wednesday :/

Today marks the first day of spring! Actually I don't even like spring because of hay fever and all that but hey, it's better than winter and it's a step closer to summer! Oh boy I'm super excited for summer. It's weird because I expected it to still be winter-cold at the beginning of spring and to gradually get hotter but nope, two days ago it was warm enough to just wear a t-shirt in the evening at home. That made me so happy because spring hadn't even set in yet and it was already getting warmer :D

I actually can't believe how fast time has gone I guess. I mean, I thought there was still another month of winter to go so I was surprised it was actually spring that was coming. You can already notice that people at uni are wearing less layers even though I think the temperature change has only been a couple of degrees - nothing much just yet. Whenever there were days when there were humid winds (I don't know how to describe it) it would remind me of summer weather and I would get sad remembering that summer is ages away.

Man I get really sad in winter don't I T_T Ah man you know the week before last it was super windy and just generally annoying to be outside. Even when we were at the farm it was super cloudy and always looked like it was about to rain. Then as soon as the weekends came and I had to stay indoors all the time to finish my bio report? Sun and warm weather everywhere == This always happens. I remember winter back when I was at baulko sucked since it was always rainy and cold when we were at school and good weather on the weekends.

Ah I haven't done my "assignment" or studied for my bio quiz all weekend :/ Oops.

And goodness masterchef. Once again, another year where the person I preferred out of the last two doesn't win. I think out of the five seasons this has happened 3 or 4 times. Not happy because as usual, I don't like the person who won for a reason. That reason is what other people have said - she cries a lot (okay that's a bit mean but still) and she always cracks under the pressure. It's okay if it's a couple of times just not when it happens like every 2 weeks ==

Ugh but masterchef seriously makes me go (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ When will it be a season where the person I like wins? And I swear the judging this season was really the worst. Many times it was always the opposite of common sense and there were numerous times where it was the dish that had one "minor" mistake gets their owner booted out compared to the dish that was bad in all its elements overall. What the hell seriously.

Didn't really like this season as you can see but I also hated the start where it was the whole "boys vs. girls" concept because that really took the attention away from the cooking and more about the "ooooh you going to finish in time? Well mine's better" blah blah crap which was super annoying. Even if they weren't trying to be mean I hated that kind of rivalry instead of the normal who's a better cook thing. I don't know. Also the opening sucked because usually it's of the contestants cooking and this time it was everyone just having a dinner party what the hell （￣□￣；）

Lastly the scoring for the final was super predictable. If you're the unlucky contestant whose scores get read out first? Sorry but you're out. I mean it wouldn't work if they read your scores last and went "oh sorry but you don't have enough points to beat x and y so you're out." It's always "oh you got xx out of yy giving you a total of blah blah so you're the winner!" 

Lame. Well now that it's all over I now have an extra hour per day to do homework. Fun :/

 Mini Guide and Tips for Japan (and Korea) - 500th post! 
 June 29th - Sydney to Seoul 
 June 30th - Myeong-dong and Jung-gu 
 July 1st - Itaewon and Jung-gu (again) 
 July 2nd - Apgujeong Rodeo, Gangnam, Yongsan 
 July 3rd - Hongdae, D-Cube City and Yongsan 
 July 4th - last day in Korea. Dongdaemun Markets, Doota and back to our beloved Myeongdong 
 /post break/ What to buy from each Korean brand 
 July 5th - Leaving Seoul for Tokyo (Akihabara) 
 July 6th - Harajuku 
 July 7th - Ginza, Tokyo Station and Marunouchi 
 July 8th – Shinjuku 
 July 9th - Ikebukuro (Sunshine City) and Shinjuku 
 July 10th - Shibuya and Asakusa 
 July 11th - Shinjuku and Odaiba 
 July 12th - Akihabara and Roppongi/Minato 
 July 13th - Mt. Fuji and Kawaguchi 
 July 14th - Kawaguchiko and Harajuku 
 July 15th - Osaka and Tempozan 
 July 16th - Universal Studios Japan 
 July 17th - Namba (Dōtonbori), Shinsaibashi, Tennōji Park then all the way to Kyoto (Gion) 
 July 18th (last day in Osaka) - Osaka Castle, Spa World, Umeda 
 July 19th - Hiroshima and Miyajima 
 July 20th - Hiroshima --> Kyoto 
 July 21st - Arashiyama Area and North-west Kyoto (Ryōan-ji and Kinkaku-ji) 
 July 22nd - Kyoto -> Nara and Osaka (NARUTO EXHIBITION!!) 
 July 23rd - Kyoto back to Tokyo 
 July 24th - Yokohama (Minato Mirai 21)  
 July 25th and 26th (END) - Tokyo -> Seoul -> HOME 

✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)

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