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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
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At a complete loss
written on Thursday, October 30, 2014 @ 5:58 PM ✈
![]() The last page of this week's chapter. It hurts so much on the inside right now because Naruto has never been this hurt, this has to be THE saddest picture ever. I think I'm still in shock because we all knew they were injured but this wasn't shown until the last page. And it turns out that picture I put up a while back that said "it ends in 5 weeks" is entirely true, Naruto is officially ending on November 10 (in Japan, so we get it a few days after that). My heart is so heavy right now... Right from the beginning I had always wished that the 2014 end rumours weren't true. What am I going to do after this??? Argh, I've followed Naruto ever since that time in year 7 (yes, I joined in late) when I saw the Naruto poster in our Japanese classroom and I figured "eh, if I'm going to be learning Japanese let's see what this is all about." Feels like I'm losing something since I'd like to say the stories and morals taught me quite a bit and we won't have that anymore. The last Naruto movie (ever) is coming out December 6th and I never even got to fulfil my dream of watching a Naruto movie in a cinema in Japan sigh (╥﹏╥) I would have accomplished it last year seeing as I DID go to Japan in December but last year was the first year during the ten years of Naruto where a movie was not released. Ah, I'm so lost right now I want to live in denial. Probs going to cry when November 10's chapter comes and all is said and done :/ 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on @ 12:16 AM ✈
That weird sense of emptiness is hitting me again as tomorrow is the last day of uni. Maybe it's because it felt like today was actually the last day of uni? Lots of people get lazy and don't come in even though we have a prac tomorrow so because I don't get to see everyone perhaps it feels like uni is already over this year. I'd like to say "whew, I survived another year" but exams haven't even come and gone yet so I can't. Thought I'd be happy to be done with uni but I realised even though I complain a lot about it, it really is an escape for me. My happiest days are when I'm at home alone or just not at home at all so uni was really a good reason to get out. I already feel tired when I think about exams because I have no motivation to study... I just can't live with semester 2. One of the things I really can't stand = when other students complain their holidays aren't enough. Let's say we have the whole of December, January and February off. That's 31 + 31 + 28 = exactly 90 days. Well I have placement for 45 days. 45/90 = exactly half of the holidays. Don't tell me you don't have enough time because I only get half of what you do. We also get to enjoy writing up 4 reports (each having a length of 20 to 40 pages). Life as a science student isn't that easy. 0 comment[s] | back to topTomorrow, my nightmare begins
written on Monday, October 27, 2014 @ 10:28 PM ✈
Wow I haven't posted in two weeks. As if normal everyday life wasn't bad enough already, tomorrow is the last day of my sister's HSC. Throughout this whole period, guess what? No visitors whatsoever. Funny how life works out. And yet in a few week's time when it will be my exam time we can expect at least a person a day to come. Heh. Three weeks or so ago I was looking up the HSC timetable to prove to my friends when it started (they said it was a different date). They then asked me why I even care and I pointed out the fact that I can't even watch TV during this time since it's a "possible disturbance" for my sister's studying. Just NO. She's cooped up in her room all day and I know for a fact half the time it's not even studying related but no, who even cares. Let's not mention all the times she goes to the "library" (oh trust me, the car odometer says otherwise). Back when I was doing HSC our house was being renovated. That's right, everyday without a doubt I'd be woken up at 6am by people hammering on our roof. Just imagine that for a bit. And it would continue all day and I remember how annoying it was to try and memorise English through that. Then one of my friends asked me if I was the black sheep. You know, up until now I've never really thought about it. But after hearing that, I guess I am. Glad there's a label for me. Okay so what's really bad tomorrow is that for the last bit of October and the whole of November my sister is now absolutely free (until her all-expenses paid month trip in America - don't even get me started). You might say, so what's wrong with that? Nothing, except that she always puts herself in annoying and bad situations. My parents ask for when she will be back, she gives a time but no, never fails to either get back at least 3 hours after it or to not even come home at all. My parents are natural worriers and so they stay up late into the night until she comes back which is no doubt no good for their health. And because I'm worried about my parents I stay up too even though they tell me to go to sleep. The next month will be nothing short of hell, that's for sure. And ooh yay exams too *sarcasm* 0 comment[s] | back to topこんな事を冗談しないで!!
written on Monday, October 13, 2014 @ 11:51 PM ✈
The cover page of last week's chapter of Naruto. Is this real??? 5 more weeks and my beloved Naruto will be over??? Kishi you better not be pulling one over us this is so sad, don't do this just before my exams what will I do with all my time then!!! T_______T Crying so hard on the inside.
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written on Wednesday, October 8, 2014 @ 11:50 PM ✈
When I read through my diary that I used to write so much in when I was little I realise just how much I really liked animals. I got my diary around the year 2000, and I used to write about how I was allergic to dog fur, how owning a puppy would be impossible since no one would be around to be able to feed it 4 times a day, things like that. Then there was this time I wanted chicks lol. And finally, I wrote about how rabbits would be perfect as they only need to be fed twice a day and didn't require walking. And I won't go into a long winded story but when I finally got to meet you guys it felt like I waited ages for it. Honestly never though my parents would let me have a pet. I was so surprised, but I already had names ready. I won't forget that day in April 2003, when at dinner dad said if we finished our food we could have a surprise. I was way too excited and so I couldn't finish my dinner and felt disappoint because then I wouldn't get to see the surprise. But dad took us outside and that's when I saw the hutch. That was the day I got to meet Lucy and Peter. Lucy will always be special. Even if it sounds dumb, she was the smartest thing ever. Back then, Peter really didn't like people so Lucy would be the one I could play with. Every time I came home from school, she'd be the one right at the gate to greet me. She was the one who would come running from the other side of the yard to us if we called, and she of course taught Peter to do it too. She was the one who knew to poop in one spot even though we never designated one. She made Peter do it too. We used a big piece of gyprock to fence off the area behind our garage as there were holes in the fence which they could use to escape to the neighbour's backyard. Yet almost everyday I would find Lucy on the other side and I would have no idea how because that thing was at least 1.5m tall. Obviously she would jump over it but how? I think I was the only one who got to see this, but one time when I went to chase her out of there I saw her jump up onto the milk crate which keeps the gyprock up, grab ONTO the brick wall of the garage, and then jump over the gyprock. Still, I have no idea how she got over it in the first place as there is no milk crate on the other side for extra height... Even though Lucy brought so much to my life, that day when the dog got to her I couldn't even do anything (no, she wasn't injured externally). She acted strangely for days afterwards, always hiding under this bush in our backyard when usually she loved hanging with people. I knew something was wrong but my parents wouldn't let me do anything about it. And then, that day 10 years ago from today. Lucy, even though I only got to know you for a short one and a half years, it meant a lot. That day, I made a promise. Even though the path I'm on right now is a little different to what I promised, I hope it's still okay. Thanks for being there for me when I was a kid. 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Monday, October 6, 2014 @ 9:46 PM ✈
crying so hard on the inside because tomorrow it's back to uni and we won't be done until 2 whole more months. Also this week is full of late finishes, with 3 out of 4 days having pracs eww just no I didn't even get to finish my game and I also have two assignments due this week, and one next Monday sigh 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Thursday, October 2, 2014 @ 8:02 PM ✈
Hmph my sister is just the most self-righteous thing ever, takes the car out all the time and I ask her to run ONE errand for my parents. I already knew she'd fail that one simple task and yep, comes back and says she "forgot." Can't depend on her to save my life. I'll go run it tomorrow. Just pisses me off she never does a SINGLE THING for this household, all she does are the little stupid things that benefit her only. And then she walks around like she is the prettiest thing this world has ever seen and today I went into the bathroom that nobody uses but her and guess what? Toilet is unflushed. This isn't even the first time. It's freaking disgusting. How dumb are you that you don't even know how to press one simple button when you're done. Ugh, I just hope visitors never end up seeing what I had to because I cannot be checking that toilet 24/7 0 comment[s] | back to top |