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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
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written on Saturday, January 31, 2015 @ 7:39 PM ✈
So it's now the last day of January already... I just want everything to go numb because I don't want to realise anything :/ A couple of days ago I turned the ripe old age of 20.... I don't know if I can really say that I've lived well up until now since there were many things I wanted to forget and things that I regret. But I hope from here on out I can live a bit more wisely. So the end of January basically marks the end of two things for me. To me, it feels like Summer is already over because *sigh* only February is left and that month is the shortest, not to mention how cold the weather has been recently. Just ick, summer is so disappointing these days. Bring back 40+ WA weather please :( These past few days I've been crawling into a cold cold bed to go to sleep, totally reminding me of winter. I miss those days where it's so hot that I sleep in starfish position with a bit of blanket only for my stomach. Second thing is that from here on out no more holidays. January was all I got as the next week will be farm, coming back just in time for work on Saturday then straight onto cat placement on Sunday for the next 2 weeks. Yup. (I guess you can say I have one last week of February for holidays if you want). I'm actually really looking forward to the farm since I'm going back to where I went last time and it was so good so hopefully it's the same! To be truthful, not looking forward to cat placement as much since it's in Newtown which means fighting gross city train traffic ha..ha... So placement couldn't have come at a better time because I'm growing quite tired of being at home while my sister is around. I think our existences are just incompatible. Her life philosophy is pretty much do whatever the hell she wants but can't even help out with simple basic household chores. I just find it kind of disrespectful to not even have the kind of morals where you would want to actually help out your parents especially after they come home from work tired... instead she just makes life difficult for everyone.
Oh by the way it turns out she is going to usyd lidcombe campus. When my dad told me, my reaction was "oh thank god." He said: "What? Is there something wrong with you?" So I didn't realise that it was such a crime to wish for a peaceful life without conflict but whatever I don't give a damn anymore ¯\(°_°)/¯
Well something I'm really NOT looking forward to is writing 3 reports (each 40 pages long) for uni by week 4 (´-_-｀)
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written on Monday, January 26, 2015 @ 11:49 PM ✈
So it was Australia Day today. More than anything it just reminds me that the very next day I turn a year older :/ The fireworks were nice, they actually changed it up this year (my dad won't believe me when I say that some years it's the same). The weather was so crappy that they had to move the time from 9 to 8pm for fireworks. The weather is so gross, grey and rainy when we should be in the middle of summer. It's going to be like this tomorrow too for my birthday ugh > > I really don't mind rain usually but when it's in summer I don't like it since summer > anything else and besides we get enough rain in winter as it is. Still remember that time when in the span of one week there were 3 times I came home with soaking wet shoes, socks and feet from having to walk around uni on rainy days (umbrella doesn't help). 0 comment[s] | back to topa realisation I didn't want
written on Tuesday, January 20, 2015 @ 11:20 PM ✈
So only just yesterday did I realise that we are more than halfway through summer (it doesn't help that February is such a short month either, now does it). Not ready for Autumn and the doom that is Winter. Oh Summer, why are you so short it makes me so sad. You pass so fast and Winter passes so slowly that it feels like it lasts 6 months. I'm not ready to give up this shirt and shorts weather, I really can't deal with the frozen fingers of winter and having to bundle up so much I feel like a marshmallow. PS. one more week until my birthday, I really don't want to be old and 20 and ugh. 0 comment[s] | back to topa movie I actually looked forward to
written on Saturday, January 17, 2015 @ 11:47 PM ✈
As expected, The Last: Naruto the Movie was the best. Not much to say other than THE FEELS. Also I'm sorry to all Hinata fans out there but Kushina (Naruto's mother) will always have a special place in my heart so I like her scarf better ㅋㅋㅋ 0 comment[s] | back to tophow I justify my money spending in
written on Friday, January 16, 2015 @ 11:54 PM ✈
December: Eh, it's almost/was Christmas January: Eh, it's almost/was my birthday the special two months of the year. 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Sunday, January 11, 2015 @ 10:48 PM ✈
So I came home at 10pm and it is now almost 10:50. Went to the other bathroom and knocked on the door. Turns out no one was in there. Why does it matter? The fan AND HEAT was on. For a good 50 minutes (but probably more). Sister comes back for a day and all the wasting is happening already. It's not even THAT HARD to do the RIGHT THING. I hate dealing with this. 0 comment[s] | back to toppeace over
written on Saturday, January 10, 2015 @ 12:52 AM ✈
So I was meant to write this "yesterday" but before I knew it, it's almost 1am now. Well anyway what I wanted to say was... yesterday was my last day of being able to live in a peaceful house. What I mean is, my sister is coming home............. today. Both of us were gone from December 1 (I went to placement, she got to go to US for a month+ > >) and I came back on the 15th. Since then, I've had a lovely 3 and a half weeks being able to for once, live in a house where she isn't creating some pointless argument with my parents. I don't think anyone really understands and you all probably think I'm petty and that I'm supposed to be "pro-family" and all but I just can't. You just don't understand how stressful and thick the atmosphere here gets sometimes and how much I want to escape it and there is just literally no peace when she always puts down my parents for some stupid reason. Not to mention the double standards that are placed on me. So I'm sighing now wondering where all that lovely time went. It was a good run, I got to pretend I was a single child for a bit lol. RIP to the peaceful life. Today it all begins again. 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Tuesday, January 6, 2015 @ 3:24 PM ✈
HAHAHA this is late but this will never fail to cheer me up. I still remember when I first saw this in the manga. Biggest WTF moment - just look at everybody's facial expression. For those that ceebs, skip to 1:00 and watch from there it's good I promise! Naruto's not impressed.
(Old video get deleted) 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Sunday, January 4, 2015 @ 11:32 PM ✈
So yesterday my dad forced me to sleep in my sister's bed. Yep, sounds weird and believe me, I protested hard because I love my bed but he was being all deadly serious and scary about it so you just can't fight it. His reasoning is that perhaps I need a new mattress and since we sleep "almost a third of the day away" we need to have a good mattress. I've had my bed for a long time and I love it to death and wouldn't trade it for the world. Unfortunately, my parents think I'm just trying to be frugal and not buy things in general and they constantly have to reassure me that we are "not that poor" and should be buying these things :/ Well anyway my bed is a single bed (I swear I'm the only one this age that still "only" has a single) and my sister's is a queen sized bed every since she moved into the new room. As some of you may or may not know, she's currently in the US so that's why my dad got me to sleep in that room last night. So anyway that sleep was THE MOST uncomfortable one I've ever had. I already knew her mattress was way too soft even before yesterday since I've sat on it before and I literally just sink like no tomorrow. So yeah, it was so hard to fall asleep because: 1. The bed was way too soft 2. It was so hot because my sister is retarded and has two thick ass blankets even in Summer so it took me ages to fall asleep even with minimal blanket actually covering me (stomach) 3. The bed is way too big for me. Ended up sleeping on one side only and hardly rolled (this is way anything beyond a single is just unnecessary for me) To top it off I had a dream I lost 4 demerit points even though I didn't even do anything wrong T_T My car was parked on the side of the road and I was charging my phone but I still got in trouble by the police for supposedly "touching my phone while driving" even though I was parked OTL 0 comment[s] | back to top |