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Hmmm almost 11 and I'm not as tired as last week. This is probably because I fell asleep on the car ride to the farm lol.

Ugh no sleep in tomorrow since I have to take my sister to uni for open day. The things I do for other people T_T Six days of "going" to uni this week is just too much.

I still stand by the fact that I feel uncomfortable in liquor stores.

omg too much is swirling around in my brain right now and I don't think I'll be able to concentrate on any uni work until the weekends.

Before we get into it, let me start off my saying that I'm so glad chem quiz and the report is over (well until the final one is due) and I seriously have a lot to catch up on! Internet wise that is. I already have this lengthy file of youtube videos I wanted to watch but couldn't so I saved the links. Yeah I'm a weird one since I binge-watch. Haha made that up so it sounds extremely retarded. (oh wait it seems to actually be a term o.O whut)

Oh and I finished my report at 2 in the morning or so, which gave me a solid 5.5 hours of sleep. What's extremely ironic is that I seem to function even better with less sleep. How retarded == I don't drift off in class and don't fall asleep on the train. Oh I also bought a coffee today from gloria jean's just in case but that has nothing to do with me being awake since after a coffee I could fall right asleep if I had a stupid agen lecture (thank god that's over). Never going back to gloria jean's unless I'm desperate because their coffee is so bitter and I don't know, just kind of bleh compared to other places even though I added 3 sugars. Ridiculous.

So! Argh I have so many freaking feels right now. The internet is a powerful place. Actually no, suits and naruto this week is just too epic. Or maybe it's just extra refreshing after doing so much work. Seriously, they both just make me go HOLY S***. Yeah sorry I seriously have no other words for it. Ugh they are just too genius. 

And here is my favourite part from the chapter of naruto that came out today (read from right to left):

Oops forgot to mention that I'm getting horrible flashbacks to the old days of english and essay writing. Ugh I will never forget those days and I would never want to go back.

But yes my report is so disjointed and gross and I need to do a lot more research. I'll probably rewrite the whole thing for the final like I did last time.

Today's special: mystery bedtime!

I have no idea when I'm going to bed because this report is not getting done plus I'm super unsatisfied with it. So tonight I don't have a bedtime. Yes I know I go to bed late anyway but I usually leave to go to bed before 12. But tonight who knows how much sleep I'll get, I say it's fair game that I finish any time between 1 to 4am.

Ah well. I'm super excited for tomorrow to come because I have a lot of sites to catch up on ah I'm a bad student. But when tomorrow comes my report will be done! Well it's only the draft but still 
> > And I'm going to take some time off and cook some things tomorrow yay :D That's not to say that I don't still have a heap of work to do but that can wait til the weekends ^^ Hey people need some time off every now and then.

Argh and in other news, today was a very frustrating day. But it would just be too long to type so let's just forget it.

Yuck. I don't know why but I'm here sitting at the dining room table (yes this is where I work) and there is a strong fish smell and it's making my head spin. I really hate fish smell gross. We didn't even have fish so I have no idea where it's coming from.

This week is quite gross. I've got a chem quiz tomorrow (did I already mention this?) and I haven't really studied so I'm taking tomorrow morning's lectures off so I can get some work done. By work I mean to read over some chem notes and hopefully make some more progress on my bio report. Then in the afternoon I'll go to uni, do the quiz and do the annoying weekly 3 hour chem prac.

But what really sucks is that tomorrow's prac is titration. Ugh I hate titration. It always means that we will definitely not be able to leave early because it always takes so long. On top of that, this is one of the rare pracs we have to do individually, and not with our lab partner. Wow chem you suck. I hate titration and I suck at it but on top of that you leave me to struggle alone unlike when we could work with our lab partner last semester to do titration. You've made an enemy out of me, chem. Be scared == And why did the strike cancel an "easy prac" and not stupid titration ==

I'm also sick of reading the word "fruit juice" over and over in my prac book because that's what we're using tomorrow. I think the word "juice" is starting to sound funny in my head now.

I seriously can't wait til Wednesday is over since that's when the bio report is due. I haven't made that much progress which means it'll be a long night tomorrow night (since I spent tonight studying for chem). Arghh I seriously hate assignments and reports. Oh well, come Wednesday I will have finished it one way or another. It probably doesn't help that I'm getting home late tomorrow because of the chem prac.

You know what else sucks? The one week I miss Tuesday morning (ie. tomorrow) they're doing a lecture on pocket pets! Rabbits and guinea pigs and stuff :( Lately all we were doing was sheep and cows and blah so noooo I'm sad I'm missing it. Of course I'll catch up online but it's not the same. Yeah taking tomorrow's morning off since those subjects don't have any assignments due yet so this is my way of "prioritising."

Ugh I don't know why but all the skin is peeling off my face in gross flakes and no I'm not sunburnt. I don't know what to do or how to fix it and when I put on stuff like QV cream it stings so bad. Please go away before tomorrow ==

I really dislike Sundays. I'm sitting here wasting time then I think about how much work I still have and how the deadline is soon then I panic then I do work but not much happens. Ah the cycle of procrastination.

Actually it's not really procrastination. It's just the fact that to write a report you have to read a tonne of journal articles before you can even get started. It completely sucks that there are practically no journal articles that have any significant relevance to the experiment we did == More on that another time.

You know what's ridiculous though? Our neighbours made us food again and they gave it to us yesterday. I haven't been able to try any yet since I get up so late on the weekends I don't even have breakfast I just have lunch and dinner and for some reason I'm always full so I don't want to eat it and feel bad for being too full.

So yeah I ask dad if there will still be one for me left to try tomorrow and he's like "probably not." Wow this is just ridiculous why do I always have to save some for everyone but when I want one it's a free for all. He even told me to leave a post-it note on one just to make sure there's one left saved for me. I find this whole notion just ridiculous.

Ughhh I just want to go to sleep. I don't want to do my report, and I most definitely don't want to study for the chemistry tutorial quiz. I would be lucky to get 3/10 and I probably won't even be sad.

Not in the right head space today.

Damn my eyelids are feeling super heavy. They've been like that since 7:30 or so. 

Ah every friday is seriously tiring. You wouldn't think going to the farm takes so much out of you but it really does. Maybe it has something to do with waking up at 5:45.

I remember last week I even went to bed at 10:30 or so and usually I do some reading of blogs I follow and whatnot just before I fall asleep but for once I actually fell asleep before I even finished. I have a feeling that will happen today too.

Despite a long hard day it was very interesting. Super windy. Awesome lunch time. Playing with cows (okay not exactly). Cow poo getting on everyone! And cow poo on my hair T_T

Ah why am I such a bad student. Haven't even really started on that report due on Wednesday and everyone else is done orz 

Going to be a bad weekend because so much stuff due next week ==

ah suits, why the flashback? It makes me miss Mike's badass grandma :(

I wonder what it would be like in that environment because I think you'd always have to be on your toes and your loyalty is seriously always tested.

Every episode leaves me thinking "omg what just happened."

I'm suddenly not feeling my best today. Still super annoyed about these constant strikes that just "cancel" my chem pracs but it's a lie because it's just postponed. This means that instead of having the last two weeks of semester free they just shove the pracs there so really we didn't escape it at all. I'd rather do it now instead of later.

But since there was no chem prac I finished bright and earlier at 1 today. Had three lectures then a tutorial and for once I didn't fall asleep or feel tired at all which is an improvement since Tuesday is usually my worst day. But then again I guess it's because I didn't have my prac. Highlight of the day was when my tutor cracked a joke about arts and everyone in our class laughed too. Bahahaha arts. I'm sorry but I think you need to hear my tone when I say "arts" because it's just not the same reading it.

Dissection prac tomorrow and I don't know why but I feel uneasy. It's not that I think I will be sick but it's because I don't think I will be able to do it correctly and since there's so many of us and not many demonstrators/helpers I think we'll be stuck in that room for quite some time because what you see on paper isn't quite the same as what you see when you're hacking away. 

And all the steps in our lab manual don't really help. I think it's easier when you see it. Also I love how I use to read things carefully before doing the pre lab quiz but now I'm just like "yeah I thinkkkkk this is correct whatever" and then I semi hold my breath as I click submit hoping for a 5/5 even though I know I don't really deserve it cause I didn't read it thoroughly but hey I guess it worked out alright so far. Why are pre lab quizzes more annoying than an actual test == All the wondering that happens in the split second between clicking "submit" and the results loading on the page.

Ahhh also not looking forward to the fact that after the dissection prac we have more write up to do and submit == I haven't even started the 4 page report draft due next week and it was given last week and everyone else has already started == I feel like I'm less motivated but I know I'll be screwed if I leave it til the weekends to do. It may "just" be a draft but still. 

Another thing I hate is the fact we have to draw what we see in tomorrow's dissection. God my drawings are atrocious and when I look at them they won't even look like the animal in front of me and will confuse me more. But no, can't even slack off because our books get marked at the end of the semester ==

So as usual it didn't quite work out :/

Managed to be awake until about 2:00 am but it wasn't very eventful since due to streaming lag for whatever reason (no our internet isn't slow, especially not at that hour since no one is awake) you only get bursts of like five seconds of audio and then silence and then audio and that just keeps repeating ==

And then I fell asleep and when I woke up it was 3:00 am which is exactly when it ended. Lol good job brain D:

In any case I then woke up at 11:30 today oops. So glad no one was at home by the time I woke up since they all went out because otherwise I'd never hear the end of how I just wasted the whole morning and how sleeping in that late is bad for you.

Damn strike on this week again == Just means our pracs get pushed back and I'd rather just get it over with already.

Did I also mention I dislike Saturdays? You know how sleeping too little or too much isn't good for you? Well Saturdays completely screw me over because my body clock shuts down and I don't end up waking until somewhere between 10 and 11. I know, that's bad. But even if I do set an alarm, my body refuses to get up and so I just end falling asleep again until that time comes.

So when I do eventually get up my brain is just completely frazzled and I swear I look even more sleep deprived == It's because all that sleep confuses my body since it's used to not getting much on the weekdays. So I don't start doing work until about 1 in the afternoon which is quite late :/ I work much better on Sundays because more sleep and my body is then "used to it" and plus the fact that my brain is going "oh crap the week is about to start again, better get my work done!"

In any case it's now 11:20 and I'm getting tired again...

I don't know how I'm going to stay awake until the broadcast which is 1am to 3am. Sigh there seriously once was a time where I could easily stay up until 3 but sadly that isn't me anymore. I wonder what happened? The last time I attempted that I think I fell asleep around the 1:40 mark ==

I can always watch it again later but it's not the same feeling as watching it "live". Damn time zones :/ Well I guess this isn't as bad as say if I was watching something American time because afternoon there would be like 5am here right? I suck at time zones so I don't know.

Uuuuuuuhhhhhh I think my brain is honestly melting away because it just keeps spinning and maybe that's what you get when you only sleep six hours and wake up at 5:50. But in the past there were several times I only got six hours of sleep but I don't recall feeling this bad :/

Disliking Fridays more and more because I seriously can't think when I get home so it's pointless trying to do work so to waste time until bed time I thought I'd watch some videos since that doesn't require much brain power but nope, I just feel more and more sleepy and I'm not really enjoying it. 

If videos don't make me feel better what will T_T It's just too early to go to bed that's why I'm still up but I'm just getting a bigger headache but noooo when weekends come if I don't do work then I just feel super guilty. This is why I don't like Friday ==

Today started off like a normal day.

But by the end of it there's just too much to do and worry about and basically the day became not so great.

I need a break.

A really long one T_T

A person's thoughtfulness and kindness can seriously make your day. 先生、本当にありがとうございました！

On the other hand, a person's sincere lack of care can really break your day. But whatever, I'm only going to remember the good part of today.

LOL I so regret leaving this to the last minute but hey let's be honest, it wasn't going to be any other way.

And besides, it's not like I was just wasting away time before, I seriously had other bits of work to do T_T

Oops, forgot to mention something. Did/does anyone else hate reading this well known and loved phrase?

Yuck I hate reports and essays and what have you.

Oh my god really hating uni so much there's just too much work, and to be honest CEEBS. Week two only just went past and you would think it would do so peacefully but NOPE bio is like "here take this nice report you can do! -throws-"

Wow thanks bio. The first one is always the shorter one, about 2 pages and then later the next one is worth a big 15% and  last time it was 7 pages, I don't know about this one. In any case I recall last time I spent a heap of time on that 15% one but the 2 page one I think I wrote two days before LOL. Yeah well I'm honestly tired so it doesn't look like I'll get much done tonight which means... 



This time though? I got 4.6666666667 out of 5 lol. Yep that's what it actually said. But since it's the first week they let you have multiple attempts so I did it again but I wasn't really paying attention and got 2/5. Even better right? So I did it for the third time and finally got 5 ==

In any case this is the week where there are no more "early" finishes and true hard work begins T_T First week no chem prac, but one hour of introduction for bio prac. Second week, one hour intro for chem prac + actual bio prac (3 hours). This week? Both are 3 hours and this will continue until end of term. Sigh.

So like I was saying earlier, when I get home I'm seriously just too tired to be doing my work even though I know tomorrow I'll regret leaving it to the last minute. Waking up early, coming home late and not to mention crappy sleep cycles really take their toll. 

It's also probably a bad thing that I'm more motivated to do my japanese homework than my actual assignments oh well.

Man I love these double standards. I can only think of these two right now but there's definitely a lot more.

First one is whenever I get sick, my parents are still like "here you still have these chores to do and oh here's some more tasks while you're at it." As many of you know I still like to go to school and whatnot when I'm sick so I'm still happy to do my chores/housework because everyone should do their share.

BUT when my sister gets sick? Oh wow my parents just step in and when I ask why she isn't doing them, they just say "oh she's sick so she can't do them" even though all she has is a blocked nose == And since I don't want my parents to cover her share that usually means I go do it instead.

Second is whenever we are given food from our neighbour/relatives/family friends or even when I bake/cook something and I take some my parents always always always say "oh don't forget to leave some for your sister." It's not like I'm even greedy I always leave some for others or ask if anyone wants any ==

And how do they all repay me? Well yesterday my parents bought some bread bun things which I assumed was for today's breakfast and yet when I get up I can't find it on the kitchen counter or in the fridge. So I ask my mum where it is and she tells me they ate it all. Honestly, wtf? There were at least 6 of them, I don't understand how that wasn't enough seeing as there's four of us and thanks guys, I didn't even get to eat any and you just ate it all.

These things really piss me off.

On another note, remember when I had that stupid runny nose? Well I refuse to admit that I was sick because whenever I'm sick I always cough and my body didn't feel weak at that time even though when I get sick you can most definitely feel it. 

Well it seems my dad and sister "caught" it even though like I said, it's not a sickness and I had it over a week ago so I don't really get it. Both of them have really runny noses, they keep sniffling and blowing their noses. It's actually semi-entertaining to see as it's normally mum and me with the busted nose so yeah. And this is what I meant when I wrote above how they were covering for her when she isn't even sick - it's just nose problems.

wahhhh so sleepy. Even yesterday I got home at 6:30 or so and was super tired and couldn't possibly do any work and somehow wasted time until 10:30 or so and then went to bed. That's a world first.

And even then I couldn't really sleep properly since I had to get up super early today for farm. Every three hours or so I would wake up and check the time because I was paranoid about sleeping in. In fact I think I had a dream that I slept in and missed my classes so my body must have been interrupting my sleep and making me get up to check the time because of that. And I had to wake up at 6 today but ever since 4am I kept waking up every half hour. Sigh.

It's been a long day, getting up at 6 and only getting home around 6:30. Farm was interesting because we saw a sheep give birth! That was the most randomest thing ever.

I'm utterly brain dead right now. So tired and yet somehow it's 11:50. Oops.

Man I'm tired. I feel like I hardly see my family because lately they've had to go to work super early at around 7 or so which means I have to get up early too and do the 20 minute walk to the station to catch a train to uni since they aren't here to drop me off.

Then I came home at around 7 today and my parents went to bed at 10 so it feels like I haven't seen much of them. Also my sister is away at ski camp or whatever for 3 days so here I am all by myself doing my homework and it's creeping towards 11:30. 

It's only week 2 and I feel like I have a lot of work to do == Completely dreading the stupid 3 hour bio prac tomorrow because I really miss my old bio prac group. I just want to go home and not do the prac. Today begins the ugly routine of having to do prelab quizzes again before pracs. I always do them the day before.

The thing is they are supposed to be easy if you read your manual but the answers aren't actually there, you have to "think" about it and I think it actually requires a bit of thinking back on old knowledge. These are things I do NOT like doing.

I used to try for these prelab quizzes cause I wanted to get every mark I could and yet today I ceebs so I briefly read it and the answers didn't look good but picked what I thought was best anyway. Clicked submit and turns out I still got 5/5 wow I was really surprised. Next time I'll try to do it when I'm not this tired because I don't think this feat can be repeated.

So today I was once again met with the sad realisation that it only takes one stupid bloody person to ruin what was once a perfectly good day. I hate you and you always do this. I freaking miss semester one.

But do you know what I am happy about? It seems like I sometimes do have a little control over my body because with uni back on today (it is Monday after all) I really did not want to put up with my stupid runny nose all day having to blow it in lectures and be annoying to other people and so today I woke up and it's as if my willpower sort of worked because it was semi-better than it was for the past 3 days. I only used 3 tissues while I was at uni! Huge improvement over the 50+ I used each of the past 3 days.

You know the saddest moment of yesterday wasn't even when I woke up and realised I still had bad nose problems but it was when I walked into daiso yesterday with my mum and for once they were playing a Japanese song I recognised! It was probably a cover or something because the voice sounded a little different but the lyrics was still the same. It's naruto shippuden opening 5 - 蛍の光　(hotaru no hikari lit. light of the fireflies) by Ikimono-gakari. For some reason they write it in hiragana or even katakana even though it has a kanji but oh well I just put kanji since I'm used to it. But yes the saddest moment was when I got in, recognised the song and then in 10 seconds it ended so I didn't get to enjoy it for long :(

Really loving Heston week on masterchef, I was really anticipating it since they announced it last week. Heston seems like one of the friendlier chefs and his creations are always fun and exciting and I always love how excited the contestants are when he's there :D I felt bad for him today since he had to cook 3 dishes in 90 minutes which I think is seriously hard even for chefs like him while the contestants only had to do one. I was completely satisfied that he won because after such a hard challenge losing would be so sad!

Wow only one week of uni has past and yet there's already a lot of work that's cut out for us == I mean, this is the weekend of week one of uni and I actually spent it doing work. When I think back to last semester I probably didn't do any serious work on weekends until like week 3 or so when we started getting assignments.

In any case other than doing work I just spent the better part of my evening TRYING to do the stupid supposed "pre-lab" sort of thing before tomorrow's "prac" or "tutorial."

Things that seriously piss me off is a subject that tells you to "look up" or "check" stuff online on blackboard when it is no where to be found. Good going there. Then they keep changing between using the word prac and tutorial so I have no idea what we're really doing. And their stupid pre-lab activity sucks on many levels because it isn't straight forward like those mini pre-lab quizzes we had before pracs last semester for biology or chem.

Nope, we have a lot of work so it's basically a mini assignment and they call that pre-lab -eyeroll- On top of that the so called "information" they give us to study so we can answer the questions is pretty much 20+ diagrams which explain nothing.

Whatever I'm not doing it because it's confusing as hell and it's their fault it's so badly done. I probably sound like a slacker but I'm grateful that for our degree we made a fb group and basically we discuss everything there and from the looks of it, everyone else is as confused as me and lots of people said they're not doing it because it makes no sense.

Besides, tomorrow is the first one so I'll just see how it goes and I'll do it properly next time. If they tell me off too bad. 

It doesn't help that I spent a considerable amount of time having to update some stupid things on my computer because their videos/pictures weren't viewable == Not a good start - right from the beginning I was basically like (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

Argh seriously whatever! 

I start at 11 tomorrow, does that mean I get a sleep in? Nope, nope and nope times inifinity!

Unfortunately no one will be at home so I'll have to walk to the station which takes a good 20 minutes. I also have to make breakfast and lunch for myself (half an hour) and maybe I'll attempt to understand the pre-lab again so I don't go in completely like a douche. It then takes about 1.5 hours to get to uni sigh

So yeah guess I'll still be waking up 7:30 or something tomorrow T_T I don't move very efficiently in the mornings, I seem to drag out tasks and make things take longer than what they really need...

What a dilemma. It's going to be warm after my walk to the station then cold on the train then warm after walking to uni. What do I wear? Everything's too thick or thin, nothing's just right.

Damn it's almost 11:30 and I wanted to go to bed at 11 for once. I bet I won't fall asleep until 12:30 or so (ㆀ˘･_･˘)

Wow can you believe this? Sleeping did exactly NOTHING. Woke up and my nose was in the exact same condition as yesterday sigh. It's been a really long day. I've taken everything and it doesn't stop running. My chest is out of energy from blowing my nose countless times and my skin is all dry and red and gross from using tissues.

I highly doubt I'm sick though because I'm not coughing which I always do when I get a cold AND on top of that this week I made sure to wear more than usual. I seriously did and I was overheating so many times because even though the morning is cold, after the walk to uni it warms up quite a bit and one of our lecture rooms is extremely stuffy. But yes it wasn't that I wasn't wearing enough and got sick.

Ahhh please get better before week two of uni comes T_T

Stupid nose. Stupid stupid nose. Always giving me grief ==

You can tell it's going to be a rough day with my nose from the sole fact that even before I officially "got up" today it was already running like crazy. And let me tell you for the whole day my nose has been running non stop and I don't want to say anything gross about it but I was pretty much always holding a tissue to my nose otherwise things would be pretty bad.

Sigh I wish I could just tape tissues to my nose as weird as that sounds. Ugh my nose is all red now and so is the skin that's just above my lip not to mention I'm completely out of energy and my chest(?) hurts so much because I've just been blowing my nose that much. And it doesn't even help because my nose is blocked and even after you blow it all it just runs again ==

How am  I even going to sleep I'm just going to have to physically get up repeatedly and blow my nose and wake up the whole house. Ugh but I don't know whether to take a demazin or not because I hate that stuff and didn't take it earlier because that stuff knocks me out cold no joke. That drowsiness hits me hard every time.

Hmmm almost 11 and I'm not as tired as last week. This is probably because I fell asleep on the car ride to the farm lol.

Ugh no sleep in tomorrow since I have to take my sister to uni for open day. The things I do for other people T_T Six days of "going" to uni this week is just too much.

I still stand by the fact that I feel uncomfortable in liquor stores.

omg too much is swirling around in my brain right now and I don't think I'll be able to concentrate on any uni work until the weekends.

Before we get into it, let me start off my saying that I'm so glad chem quiz and the report is over (well until the final one is due) and I seriously have a lot to catch up on! Internet wise that is. I already have this lengthy file of youtube videos I wanted to watch but couldn't so I saved the links. Yeah I'm a weird one since I binge-watch. Haha made that up so it sounds extremely retarded. (oh wait it seems to actually be a term o.O whut)

Oh and I finished my report at 2 in the morning or so, which gave me a solid 5.5 hours of sleep. What's extremely ironic is that I seem to function even better with less sleep. How retarded == I don't drift off in class and don't fall asleep on the train. Oh I also bought a coffee today from gloria jean's just in case but that has nothing to do with me being awake since after a coffee I could fall right asleep if I had a stupid agen lecture (thank god that's over). Never going back to gloria jean's unless I'm desperate because their coffee is so bitter and I don't know, just kind of bleh compared to other places even though I added 3 sugars. Ridiculous.

So! Argh I have so many freaking feels right now. The internet is a powerful place. Actually no, suits and naruto this week is just too epic. Or maybe it's just extra refreshing after doing so much work. Seriously, they both just make me go HOLY S***. Yeah sorry I seriously have no other words for it. Ugh they are just too genius. 

And here is my favourite part from the chapter of naruto that came out today (read from right to left):

Oops forgot to mention that I'm getting horrible flashbacks to the old days of english and essay writing. Ugh I will never forget those days and I would never want to go back.

But yes my report is so disjointed and gross and I need to do a lot more research. I'll probably rewrite the whole thing for the final like I did last time.

Today's special: mystery bedtime!

I have no idea when I'm going to bed because this report is not getting done plus I'm super unsatisfied with it. So tonight I don't have a bedtime. Yes I know I go to bed late anyway but I usually leave to go to bed before 12. But tonight who knows how much sleep I'll get, I say it's fair game that I finish any time between 1 to 4am.

Ah well. I'm super excited for tomorrow to come because I have a lot of sites to catch up on ah I'm a bad student. But when tomorrow comes my report will be done! Well it's only the draft but still 
> > And I'm going to take some time off and cook some things tomorrow yay :D That's not to say that I don't still have a heap of work to do but that can wait til the weekends ^^ Hey people need some time off every now and then.

Argh and in other news, today was a very frustrating day. But it would just be too long to type so let's just forget it.

Yuck. I don't know why but I'm here sitting at the dining room table (yes this is where I work) and there is a strong fish smell and it's making my head spin. I really hate fish smell gross. We didn't even have fish so I have no idea where it's coming from.

This week is quite gross. I've got a chem quiz tomorrow (did I already mention this?) and I haven't really studied so I'm taking tomorrow morning's lectures off so I can get some work done. By work I mean to read over some chem notes and hopefully make some more progress on my bio report. Then in the afternoon I'll go to uni, do the quiz and do the annoying weekly 3 hour chem prac.

But what really sucks is that tomorrow's prac is titration. Ugh I hate titration. It always means that we will definitely not be able to leave early because it always takes so long. On top of that, this is one of the rare pracs we have to do individually, and not with our lab partner. Wow chem you suck. I hate titration and I suck at it but on top of that you leave me to struggle alone unlike when we could work with our lab partner last semester to do titration. You've made an enemy out of me, chem. Be scared == And why did the strike cancel an "easy prac" and not stupid titration ==

I'm also sick of reading the word "fruit juice" over and over in my prac book because that's what we're using tomorrow. I think the word "juice" is starting to sound funny in my head now.

I seriously can't wait til Wednesday is over since that's when the bio report is due. I haven't made that much progress which means it'll be a long night tomorrow night (since I spent tonight studying for chem). Arghh I seriously hate assignments and reports. Oh well, come Wednesday I will have finished it one way or another. It probably doesn't help that I'm getting home late tomorrow because of the chem prac.

You know what else sucks? The one week I miss Tuesday morning (ie. tomorrow) they're doing a lecture on pocket pets! Rabbits and guinea pigs and stuff :( Lately all we were doing was sheep and cows and blah so noooo I'm sad I'm missing it. Of course I'll catch up online but it's not the same. Yeah taking tomorrow's morning off since those subjects don't have any assignments due yet so this is my way of "prioritising."

Ugh I don't know why but all the skin is peeling off my face in gross flakes and no I'm not sunburnt. I don't know what to do or how to fix it and when I put on stuff like QV cream it stings so bad. Please go away before tomorrow ==

I really dislike Sundays. I'm sitting here wasting time then I think about how much work I still have and how the deadline is soon then I panic then I do work but not much happens. Ah the cycle of procrastination.

Actually it's not really procrastination. It's just the fact that to write a report you have to read a tonne of journal articles before you can even get started. It completely sucks that there are practically no journal articles that have any significant relevance to the experiment we did == More on that another time.

You know what's ridiculous though? Our neighbours made us food again and they gave it to us yesterday. I haven't been able to try any yet since I get up so late on the weekends I don't even have breakfast I just have lunch and dinner and for some reason I'm always full so I don't want to eat it and feel bad for being too full.

So yeah I ask dad if there will still be one for me left to try tomorrow and he's like "probably not." Wow this is just ridiculous why do I always have to save some for everyone but when I want one it's a free for all. He even told me to leave a post-it note on one just to make sure there's one left saved for me. I find this whole notion just ridiculous.

Ughhh I just want to go to sleep. I don't want to do my report, and I most definitely don't want to study for the chemistry tutorial quiz. I would be lucky to get 3/10 and I probably won't even be sad.

Not in the right head space today.

Damn my eyelids are feeling super heavy. They've been like that since 7:30 or so. 

Ah every friday is seriously tiring. You wouldn't think going to the farm takes so much out of you but it really does. Maybe it has something to do with waking up at 5:45.

I remember last week I even went to bed at 10:30 or so and usually I do some reading of blogs I follow and whatnot just before I fall asleep but for once I actually fell asleep before I even finished. I have a feeling that will happen today too.

Despite a long hard day it was very interesting. Super windy. Awesome lunch time. Playing with cows (okay not exactly). Cow poo getting on everyone! And cow poo on my hair T_T

Ah why am I such a bad student. Haven't even really started on that report due on Wednesday and everyone else is done orz 

Going to be a bad weekend because so much stuff due next week ==

ah suits, why the flashback? It makes me miss Mike's badass grandma :(

I wonder what it would be like in that environment because I think you'd always have to be on your toes and your loyalty is seriously always tested.

Every episode leaves me thinking "omg what just happened."

I'm suddenly not feeling my best today. Still super annoyed about these constant strikes that just "cancel" my chem pracs but it's a lie because it's just postponed. This means that instead of having the last two weeks of semester free they just shove the pracs there so really we didn't escape it at all. I'd rather do it now instead of later.

But since there was no chem prac I finished bright and earlier at 1 today. Had three lectures then a tutorial and for once I didn't fall asleep or feel tired at all which is an improvement since Tuesday is usually my worst day. But then again I guess it's because I didn't have my prac. Highlight of the day was when my tutor cracked a joke about arts and everyone in our class laughed too. Bahahaha arts. I'm sorry but I think you need to hear my tone when I say "arts" because it's just not the same reading it.

Dissection prac tomorrow and I don't know why but I feel uneasy. It's not that I think I will be sick but it's because I don't think I will be able to do it correctly and since there's so many of us and not many demonstrators/helpers I think we'll be stuck in that room for quite some time because what you see on paper isn't quite the same as what you see when you're hacking away. 

And all the steps in our lab manual don't really help. I think it's easier when you see it. Also I love how I use to read things carefully before doing the pre lab quiz but now I'm just like "yeah I thinkkkkk this is correct whatever" and then I semi hold my breath as I click submit hoping for a 5/5 even though I know I don't really deserve it cause I didn't read it thoroughly but hey I guess it worked out alright so far. Why are pre lab quizzes more annoying than an actual test == All the wondering that happens in the split second between clicking "submit" and the results loading on the page.

Ahhh also not looking forward to the fact that after the dissection prac we have more write up to do and submit == I haven't even started the 4 page report draft due next week and it was given last week and everyone else has already started == I feel like I'm less motivated but I know I'll be screwed if I leave it til the weekends to do. It may "just" be a draft but still. 

Another thing I hate is the fact we have to draw what we see in tomorrow's dissection. God my drawings are atrocious and when I look at them they won't even look like the animal in front of me and will confuse me more. But no, can't even slack off because our books get marked at the end of the semester ==

So as usual it didn't quite work out :/

Managed to be awake until about 2:00 am but it wasn't very eventful since due to streaming lag for whatever reason (no our internet isn't slow, especially not at that hour since no one is awake) you only get bursts of like five seconds of audio and then silence and then audio and that just keeps repeating ==

And then I fell asleep and when I woke up it was 3:00 am which is exactly when it ended. Lol good job brain D:

In any case I then woke up at 11:30 today oops. So glad no one was at home by the time I woke up since they all went out because otherwise I'd never hear the end of how I just wasted the whole morning and how sleeping in that late is bad for you.

Damn strike on this week again == Just means our pracs get pushed back and I'd rather just get it over with already.

Did I also mention I dislike Saturdays? You know how sleeping too little or too much isn't good for you? Well Saturdays completely screw me over because my body clock shuts down and I don't end up waking until somewhere between 10 and 11. I know, that's bad. But even if I do set an alarm, my body refuses to get up and so I just end falling asleep again until that time comes.

So when I do eventually get up my brain is just completely frazzled and I swear I look even more sleep deprived == It's because all that sleep confuses my body since it's used to not getting much on the weekdays. So I don't start doing work until about 1 in the afternoon which is quite late :/ I work much better on Sundays because more sleep and my body is then "used to it" and plus the fact that my brain is going "oh crap the week is about to start again, better get my work done!"

In any case it's now 11:20 and I'm getting tired again...

I don't know how I'm going to stay awake until the broadcast which is 1am to 3am. Sigh there seriously once was a time where I could easily stay up until 3 but sadly that isn't me anymore. I wonder what happened? The last time I attempted that I think I fell asleep around the 1:40 mark ==

I can always watch it again later but it's not the same feeling as watching it "live". Damn time zones :/ Well I guess this isn't as bad as say if I was watching something American time because afternoon there would be like 5am here right? I suck at time zones so I don't know.

Uuuuuuuhhhhhh I think my brain is honestly melting away because it just keeps spinning and maybe that's what you get when you only sleep six hours and wake up at 5:50. But in the past there were several times I only got six hours of sleep but I don't recall feeling this bad :/

Disliking Fridays more and more because I seriously can't think when I get home so it's pointless trying to do work so to waste time until bed time I thought I'd watch some videos since that doesn't require much brain power but nope, I just feel more and more sleepy and I'm not really enjoying it. 

If videos don't make me feel better what will T_T It's just too early to go to bed that's why I'm still up but I'm just getting a bigger headache but noooo when weekends come if I don't do work then I just feel super guilty. This is why I don't like Friday ==

Today started off like a normal day.

But by the end of it there's just too much to do and worry about and basically the day became not so great.

I need a break.

A really long one T_T

A person's thoughtfulness and kindness can seriously make your day. 先生、本当にありがとうございました！

On the other hand, a person's sincere lack of care can really break your day. But whatever, I'm only going to remember the good part of today.

LOL I so regret leaving this to the last minute but hey let's be honest, it wasn't going to be any other way.

And besides, it's not like I was just wasting away time before, I seriously had other bits of work to do T_T

Oops, forgot to mention something. Did/does anyone else hate reading this well known and loved phrase?

Yuck I hate reports and essays and what have you.

Oh my god really hating uni so much there's just too much work, and to be honest CEEBS. Week two only just went past and you would think it would do so peacefully but NOPE bio is like "here take this nice report you can do! -throws-"

Wow thanks bio. The first one is always the shorter one, about 2 pages and then later the next one is worth a big 15% and  last time it was 7 pages, I don't know about this one. In any case I recall last time I spent a heap of time on that 15% one but the 2 page one I think I wrote two days before LOL. Yeah well I'm honestly tired so it doesn't look like I'll get much done tonight which means... 



This time though? I got 4.6666666667 out of 5 lol. Yep that's what it actually said. But since it's the first week they let you have multiple attempts so I did it again but I wasn't really paying attention and got 2/5. Even better right? So I did it for the third time and finally got 5 ==

In any case this is the week where there are no more "early" finishes and true hard work begins T_T First week no chem prac, but one hour of introduction for bio prac. Second week, one hour intro for chem prac + actual bio prac (3 hours). This week? Both are 3 hours and this will continue until end of term. Sigh.

So like I was saying earlier, when I get home I'm seriously just too tired to be doing my work even though I know tomorrow I'll regret leaving it to the last minute. Waking up early, coming home late and not to mention crappy sleep cycles really take their toll. 

It's also probably a bad thing that I'm more motivated to do my japanese homework than my actual assignments oh well.

Man I love these double standards. I can only think of these two right now but there's definitely a lot more.

First one is whenever I get sick, my parents are still like "here you still have these chores to do and oh here's some more tasks while you're at it." As many of you know I still like to go to school and whatnot when I'm sick so I'm still happy to do my chores/housework because everyone should do their share.

BUT when my sister gets sick? Oh wow my parents just step in and when I ask why she isn't doing them, they just say "oh she's sick so she can't do them" even though all she has is a blocked nose == And since I don't want my parents to cover her share that usually means I go do it instead.

Second is whenever we are given food from our neighbour/relatives/family friends or even when I bake/cook something and I take some my parents always always always say "oh don't forget to leave some for your sister." It's not like I'm even greedy I always leave some for others or ask if anyone wants any ==

And how do they all repay me? Well yesterday my parents bought some bread bun things which I assumed was for today's breakfast and yet when I get up I can't find it on the kitchen counter or in the fridge. So I ask my mum where it is and she tells me they ate it all. Honestly, wtf? There were at least 6 of them, I don't understand how that wasn't enough seeing as there's four of us and thanks guys, I didn't even get to eat any and you just ate it all.

These things really piss me off.

On another note, remember when I had that stupid runny nose? Well I refuse to admit that I was sick because whenever I'm sick I always cough and my body didn't feel weak at that time even though when I get sick you can most definitely feel it. 

Well it seems my dad and sister "caught" it even though like I said, it's not a sickness and I had it over a week ago so I don't really get it. Both of them have really runny noses, they keep sniffling and blowing their noses. It's actually semi-entertaining to see as it's normally mum and me with the busted nose so yeah. And this is what I meant when I wrote above how they were covering for her when she isn't even sick - it's just nose problems.

wahhhh so sleepy. Even yesterday I got home at 6:30 or so and was super tired and couldn't possibly do any work and somehow wasted time until 10:30 or so and then went to bed. That's a world first.

And even then I couldn't really sleep properly since I had to get up super early today for farm. Every three hours or so I would wake up and check the time because I was paranoid about sleeping in. In fact I think I had a dream that I slept in and missed my classes so my body must have been interrupting my sleep and making me get up to check the time because of that. And I had to wake up at 6 today but ever since 4am I kept waking up every half hour. Sigh.

It's been a long day, getting up at 6 and only getting home around 6:30. Farm was interesting because we saw a sheep give birth! That was the most randomest thing ever.

I'm utterly brain dead right now. So tired and yet somehow it's 11:50. Oops.

Man I'm tired. I feel like I hardly see my family because lately they've had to go to work super early at around 7 or so which means I have to get up early too and do the 20 minute walk to the station to catch a train to uni since they aren't here to drop me off.

Then I came home at around 7 today and my parents went to bed at 10 so it feels like I haven't seen much of them. Also my sister is away at ski camp or whatever for 3 days so here I am all by myself doing my homework and it's creeping towards 11:30. 

It's only week 2 and I feel like I have a lot of work to do == Completely dreading the stupid 3 hour bio prac tomorrow because I really miss my old bio prac group. I just want to go home and not do the prac. Today begins the ugly routine of having to do prelab quizzes again before pracs. I always do them the day before.

The thing is they are supposed to be easy if you read your manual but the answers aren't actually there, you have to "think" about it and I think it actually requires a bit of thinking back on old knowledge. These are things I do NOT like doing.

I used to try for these prelab quizzes cause I wanted to get every mark I could and yet today I ceebs so I briefly read it and the answers didn't look good but picked what I thought was best anyway. Clicked submit and turns out I still got 5/5 wow I was really surprised. Next time I'll try to do it when I'm not this tired because I don't think this feat can be repeated.

So today I was once again met with the sad realisation that it only takes one stupid bloody person to ruin what was once a perfectly good day. I hate you and you always do this. I freaking miss semester one.

But do you know what I am happy about? It seems like I sometimes do have a little control over my body because with uni back on today (it is Monday after all) I really did not want to put up with my stupid runny nose all day having to blow it in lectures and be annoying to other people and so today I woke up and it's as if my willpower sort of worked because it was semi-better than it was for the past 3 days. I only used 3 tissues while I was at uni! Huge improvement over the 50+ I used each of the past 3 days.

You know the saddest moment of yesterday wasn't even when I woke up and realised I still had bad nose problems but it was when I walked into daiso yesterday with my mum and for once they were playing a Japanese song I recognised! It was probably a cover or something because the voice sounded a little different but the lyrics was still the same. It's naruto shippuden opening 5 - 蛍の光　(hotaru no hikari lit. light of the fireflies) by Ikimono-gakari. For some reason they write it in hiragana or even katakana even though it has a kanji but oh well I just put kanji since I'm used to it. But yes the saddest moment was when I got in, recognised the song and then in 10 seconds it ended so I didn't get to enjoy it for long :(

Really loving Heston week on masterchef, I was really anticipating it since they announced it last week. Heston seems like one of the friendlier chefs and his creations are always fun and exciting and I always love how excited the contestants are when he's there :D I felt bad for him today since he had to cook 3 dishes in 90 minutes which I think is seriously hard even for chefs like him while the contestants only had to do one. I was completely satisfied that he won because after such a hard challenge losing would be so sad!

Wow only one week of uni has past and yet there's already a lot of work that's cut out for us == I mean, this is the weekend of week one of uni and I actually spent it doing work. When I think back to last semester I probably didn't do any serious work on weekends until like week 3 or so when we started getting assignments.

In any case other than doing work I just spent the better part of my evening TRYING to do the stupid supposed "pre-lab" sort of thing before tomorrow's "prac" or "tutorial."

Things that seriously piss me off is a subject that tells you to "look up" or "check" stuff online on blackboard when it is no where to be found. Good going there. Then they keep changing between using the word prac and tutorial so I have no idea what we're really doing. And their stupid pre-lab activity sucks on many levels because it isn't straight forward like those mini pre-lab quizzes we had before pracs last semester for biology or chem.

Nope, we have a lot of work so it's basically a mini assignment and they call that pre-lab -eyeroll- On top of that the so called "information" they give us to study so we can answer the questions is pretty much 20+ diagrams which explain nothing.

Whatever I'm not doing it because it's confusing as hell and it's their fault it's so badly done. I probably sound like a slacker but I'm grateful that for our degree we made a fb group and basically we discuss everything there and from the looks of it, everyone else is as confused as me and lots of people said they're not doing it because it makes no sense.

Besides, tomorrow is the first one so I'll just see how it goes and I'll do it properly next time. If they tell me off too bad. 

It doesn't help that I spent a considerable amount of time having to update some stupid things on my computer because their videos/pictures weren't viewable == Not a good start - right from the beginning I was basically like (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻

Argh seriously whatever! 

I start at 11 tomorrow, does that mean I get a sleep in? Nope, nope and nope times inifinity!

Unfortunately no one will be at home so I'll have to walk to the station which takes a good 20 minutes. I also have to make breakfast and lunch for myself (half an hour) and maybe I'll attempt to understand the pre-lab again so I don't go in completely like a douche. It then takes about 1.5 hours to get to uni sigh

So yeah guess I'll still be waking up 7:30 or something tomorrow T_T I don't move very efficiently in the mornings, I seem to drag out tasks and make things take longer than what they really need...

What a dilemma. It's going to be warm after my walk to the station then cold on the train then warm after walking to uni. What do I wear? Everything's too thick or thin, nothing's just right.

Damn it's almost 11:30 and I wanted to go to bed at 11 for once. I bet I won't fall asleep until 12:30 or so (ㆀ˘･_･˘)

Wow can you believe this? Sleeping did exactly NOTHING. Woke up and my nose was in the exact same condition as yesterday sigh. It's been a really long day. I've taken everything and it doesn't stop running. My chest is out of energy from blowing my nose countless times and my skin is all dry and red and gross from using tissues.

I highly doubt I'm sick though because I'm not coughing which I always do when I get a cold AND on top of that this week I made sure to wear more than usual. I seriously did and I was overheating so many times because even though the morning is cold, after the walk to uni it warms up quite a bit and one of our lecture rooms is extremely stuffy. But yes it wasn't that I wasn't wearing enough and got sick.

Ahhh please get better before week two of uni comes T_T

Stupid nose. Stupid stupid nose. Always giving me grief ==

You can tell it's going to be a rough day with my nose from the sole fact that even before I officially "got up" today it was already running like crazy. And let me tell you for the whole day my nose has been running non stop and I don't want to say anything gross about it but I was pretty much always holding a tissue to my nose otherwise things would be pretty bad.

Sigh I wish I could just tape tissues to my nose as weird as that sounds. Ugh my nose is all red now and so is the skin that's just above my lip not to mention I'm completely out of energy and my chest(?) hurts so much because I've just been blowing my nose that much. And it doesn't even help because my nose is blocked and even after you blow it all it just runs again ==

How am  I even going to sleep I'm just going to have to physically get up repeatedly and blow my nose and wake up the whole house. Ugh but I don't know whether to take a demazin or not because I hate that stuff and didn't take it earlier because that stuff knocks me out cold no joke. That drowsiness hits me hard every time.

 Mini Guide and Tips for Japan (and Korea) - 500th post! 
 June 29th - Sydney to Seoul 
 June 30th - Myeong-dong and Jung-gu 
 July 1st - Itaewon and Jung-gu (again) 
 July 2nd - Apgujeong Rodeo, Gangnam, Yongsan 
 July 3rd - Hongdae, D-Cube City and Yongsan 
 July 4th - last day in Korea. Dongdaemun Markets, Doota and back to our beloved Myeongdong 
 /post break/ What to buy from each Korean brand 
 July 5th - Leaving Seoul for Tokyo (Akihabara) 
 July 6th - Harajuku 
 July 7th - Ginza, Tokyo Station and Marunouchi 
 July 8th – Shinjuku 
 July 9th - Ikebukuro (Sunshine City) and Shinjuku 
 July 10th - Shibuya and Asakusa 
 July 11th - Shinjuku and Odaiba 
 July 12th - Akihabara and Roppongi/Minato 
 July 13th - Mt. Fuji and Kawaguchi 
 July 14th - Kawaguchiko and Harajuku 
 July 15th - Osaka and Tempozan 
 July 16th - Universal Studios Japan 
 July 17th - Namba (Dōtonbori), Shinsaibashi, Tennōji Park then all the way to Kyoto (Gion) 
 July 18th (last day in Osaka) - Osaka Castle, Spa World, Umeda 
 July 19th - Hiroshima and Miyajima 
 July 20th - Hiroshima --> Kyoto 
 July 21st - Arashiyama Area and North-west Kyoto (Ryōan-ji and Kinkaku-ji) 
 July 22nd - Kyoto -> Nara and Osaka (NARUTO EXHIBITION!!) 
 July 23rd - Kyoto back to Tokyo 
 July 24th - Yokohama (Minato Mirai 21)  
 July 25th and 26th (END) - Tokyo -> Seoul -> HOME 

✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)

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