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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
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reflection
written on Wednesday, December 31, 2014 @ 11:56 PM ✈
So it's the end of 2014 and I think it's pretty safe to say it hasn't really been a good year for me. Amongst other things I got overwhelmed by despair more times than I could count, along with the dark thoughts that come with it. On top of that, I felt so sick of always trying so hard to follow what people tell me to do only for them to either not care or go back on what they say (why even bother anymore?). And last of all, I lost someone who I thought was important to me. And to that person, what I have to say is - I did all the things you told me to do, but you didn't care anyway. When I tried to point that out all you ever did was bring up all my faults. Even though a lot of time passed, I guess I can say it still hurt. Stupidly, I put in effort hoping you would still be around. Since then I've reflected and I finally realise that to you, I was just never that important. People always tell me things have to be two-way and I realised that no matter what I try to do it's pointless when you don't even care. The truth is you're just not that person anymore. All I ever did was waste time hoping to see the old you again. But now I honestly realise that it's pointless so instead, I'm going to carry on with my life with the memory of your old self deep inside my mind. I guess the highlights of the year would have to be placement. After the long periods of time where I questioned myself and lost myself again and again, I think placement was always a relief for me. Anyway this year I hope to "live" a little for myself instead of pointlessly working so hard to live up to what people want only for them to let me down when I need a little help. I only hope the coming year is better than the last. 0 comment[s] | back to topachieved nothing
written on Tuesday, December 30, 2014 @ 11:37 PM ✈
Having a mini breakdown inside my mind because in 20 minutes it'll be the 31st of December and I swear every year December time (Christmas all the way up to New Years) makes me super sad on the inside especially this year because I just realised I achieved very little, if not nothing this entire year. 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Sunday, December 28, 2014 @ 11:59 PM ✈
Mockingjay came out right at the end of the exams. I didn't have a chance to see it since straight after exams I went to the farm for a week, came home for 2 days (in which I had to go to work and repack) before flying out for WA.
So anyway by the time I did come back, everyone had already seen it so I had nobody to go with. What did I do? Watched it by myself on Boxing Day LOL. Told my parents I was heading out to watch a movie, they asked who with and I just gave them a look and said "by myself ¯\(°_°)/¯." My mum was like "oh! I used to do that." I wonder what the story behind that is o.O
Anyway I was honestly fine with it and there was actually a decent amount of people in the cinema. Didn't expect there to be SO many people watching a movie on Boxing Day, the ticket line was insane. A lot of people wanting to watch Big Hero 6 I guess.
The thing I could have done without though is an old classmate from primary school (who also went to baulko with us) spotting me and then asking me what I was there to watch and with who. I truthfully answered and he totally gave me a judging look. Which I could have done without. He probably thought I was really pitiful watching a movie on my own and when I tried to explain why he kept cutting in and barely let me finish. Well whatever people can think what they want, it's too much of a hassle to even care anymore （￣□￣；） 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Saturday, December 27, 2014 @ 10:19 PM ✈
Spent the whole evening with a jacket on because it was actually THAT cold. You know it's a sad summer when that happens. 0 comment[s] | back to topwritten on Friday, December 26, 2014 @ 11:13 PM ✈
So a new Naruto episode came out even though it was Christmas hurray. They finally did this episode and I am reliving things all over again:
 0 comment[s] | back to topMerry Christmas everyone
written on Thursday, December 25, 2014 @ 12:00 AM ✈
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written on Tuesday, December 16, 2014 @ 11:23 PM ✈
Arrived home at 12:30am today, I don't think I can say too much about the placement yet. All of us heard about what happened in Sydney yesterday while we were still in WA yesterday morning packing up and getting ready to travel back. I don't really know what to think about it, it just seems like something you always hear about on the news happening elsewhere and never would you imagine it happening so close. My thoughts go out to all the victims and their friends and families. 0 comment[s] | back to top |