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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
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written on Saturday, November 30, 2013 @ 11:59 PM ✈
Somehow I don't think I'll get a peaceful sleep tonight, I'll probably be too restless thinking about tomorrow's exam. I just had 3 cups of tea as well but I doubt that'll contribute to having a hard time sleeping (tea never keeps me up).
Also I found out that we have to get there at 1:50 and stay in the room but the exam doesn't even start until 2:30. Explaining surely can't take 40 minutes, I wish I could study in that time instead. In fact, there is a 40 minute break between section 1 and 2 and also between 2 and 3. I wish listening was up first since that's the one that requires the "least amount" of revision since you just respond to the stimulus.
Instead, vocabulary is up first and I won't even get those extra 40 minutes to study my word lists :( I'm going to try and make the most out of those 40 minute breaks but I guess I'll be the only weirdo studying while everyone else is just actually taking a break. Also, my teacher's other student is also doing JLPT N3 tomorrow! I don't know what she looks like, but it'll have to be someone in the same room as me lol. And she also does Japanese in uni so I think she would definitely pass.
While I'll be doing the test tomorrow, my parents will be off at some party and my teacher will be holding a big party for her two daughters' birthdays T_T Sorry for the annoying posts recently guys, I'll put up something better tomorrow after the exam.
written on Friday, November 29, 2013 @ 11:52 PM ✈
Feeling terrible again, woke up with one killer stomach ache that just refused to go away. Also, ever since I got on my computer in the afternoon, it's been pulling that "I'll be annoying and not connect to the internet thing" again. It never happens to any of the other computers just mine == It would be great if that happened while I was procrastinating but this time I wasn't and I seriously needed it to look up word lists.
Anyway, got up earlier today and the gloomy weather was gross. Well, this is how I spent my day in the order of events:
3 hours of kanji revision
3 hours of vocabulary revision
3 hours of grammar structure revision
1 hour of trying to cram in new kanji
2 hours reviewing the old practice test papers I did already
1 hour looking at different reading comprehension formats
I guess that explains why my head hurts a lot right now. It's also past midnight and I'm probably not going to bed any time soon. I honestly didn't do anything else today other than what I wrote up there, as well as little things like eat and shower.
While I'll be doing my test on Sunday my parents are going to go to some party and they're even bringing cake along for it T_T I want some. I still have to sort out loose ends of my trip but looks like I can't do that until Sunday night.
I feel a little bit better today after that studying but then I remember some tests were "do-able" and others not so much. Still don't know how it'll go. I don't know which paper it was but their reading passage had furigana on top of all the kanji (it tells you how to read it) and I was like "noooo why can't we have something like this in the actual test" but instead, I find it retarded because all the words I DO know, have furigana on them and the ones that don't are the ones I don't know. Does that mean I know the harder words ? That's ridiculous.
You guys should look at this --> http://www.jlptstudy.net/N3/ Click kanji on the side and that's the characters you need to know for N3 T_T It doesn't include the lower levels but I did go through them and I'm actually surprised I know all of the kanji for N4 and N5. It's because some were used in HSC, and others I just knew and remembered after seeing them heaps of times. Anyway, my point is I went through that N3 list in like an hour which means that I definitely wouldn't have been able to absorb anything but there's no time.
Of course you can draw on the "chinese meaning" but the problem is that in a section of the test, it asks you how the word is pronounced and unfortunately chinese can't help you with that :/ Also there's too many and the pronunciation is different depending on the case x_x After this exam and when I get back from the trip, I think I'm going to immerse myself into the SS visual novel series again to try and pick up new words. Honestly, the best way to study isn't really from a textbook but to read articles, play games, anime, manga and stuff because what is written there is more "natural." Too bad I haven't been doing that since no time :/
boil
written on Thursday, November 28, 2013 @ 11:52 PM ✈
Ugh I've been feeling poorly the whole day ever since I got back. Maybe it's party due to walking home in the sun? And my stomach also hurts a lot again and dad insisted I take this chinese herbal medicine for it when usually I don't take anything and wait for it to subside.
I've also had a massive headache all day and my mind just feels "murky." Also it was the last lesson today (╥﹏╥) I feel kind of empty knowing I don't really have anything after this exam. And now when I revise my stuff and look at the sheets, it reminds me of all the fun lessons D; She even gave me a present at the end and I was THIS close to actually being like this -- >｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡ Ugh she's one of the nicest people in the world, hands down. Today's story was about a year 9 girl at baulko doing accelerated Japanese but she usually skips classes... She'd turn up in the morning and then just always disappear in afternoons (this is for any subject) and so yeah she's kind of worried about that. Apparently you can escape the system? Because teachers don't tend to mark the roll in the afternoon or it just doesn't count (which I have always suspected). This is the last story I'll ever hear :'(
Apparently grill'd was giving out free stuff today which I didn't know about but honestly, too ceebs. Kind of over the free stuff thing because right now I have too much other stuff on my mind.
I feel like I'm living in a constant state of anxiety now T_T I think today I came to terms with what would happen if I fail. I guess I'll just take it again later and study harder. It's not uncommon for people to fail this because the questions are really unpredictable. If I could do it all over again, I would have spent more time on it and bought textbooks and all that. There are even websites and forums dedicated to people who seem really serious about this and I just feel like nothing in comparison :/
I've been doing some thinking and I think I know why I'm not at ease. It's because ever since year 8, Japanese was something I was confident it. Of course, that doesn't mean I expected 100% but I always thought that the tests for it would be much easier compared to other subjects for me. And yes I did get a few wrong each time but that's a part of learning.
So maybe now after all that time where Japanese was kind of my "thing", it's just a little disheartening when I get so many wrong now :/ Who cares about getting 95/180, honestly I think I might even fail a section by not getting 19/60 and that's a definite fail and that's even more embarrassing.
What's worse is that my reading used to be my strongest point since all you had to do was read the passage and answer in english, but now I'm lucky if I can get 60% right. These days it seems I either don't understand the whole passage, or the multiple choice answers (all in Japanese) always has 2 I'm not sure about and I always pick the wrong one. Since listening is my strongest now (ironically), I guess I'll focus on trying to get more marks there but I still need to pass the other sections sigh.
Also, kanji makes me cry. I have such a love hate relationship with it. I guess it boils down to the fact that, even if you know what a character means, it means something completely different when paired with something else. Even though I've tried revising there's still so much I don't know. I found out there were apps for this today and testing myself is kind of depressing :/
Oh did I mention the absolute worst part of this? Unlike HSC, NO DICTIONARIES. I'm sorry but I have to admit that my dictionary was my best friend for japanese because there will always be one word you don't understand so at least you can look it up. Obviously since JLPT is testing proficiency, we can't do that. It's just impossible to know everything so it's going to be hard.
Two more days... I really don't know what I can accomplish in that.
last
written on @ 12:17 AM ✈
Well,
I'm really not looking forward to today. I always feel a little
depressed when we get closer to the end of the year. But, it's because
today is my last tutoring lesson for JLPT (╥﹏╥) Honestly, I don't know
if I'll be able to pass or not and I wonder what I will be doing next
year if I do fail. Will I take more lessons, or just do the test again?
But
really I'm sad because I've had my tutor for about 2.5 years and she's
awesome and always tells me funny stories, gives me stuff and ahhh she's
just a such a nice person. You probably think I'm strange but it's kind
of the feeling like losing a friend? But I don't think I can call her a
friend, she's my "sensei" and the age difference makes it weird to be
friends o_o But I love hearing her stories about her two daughters and
when she sent me an email a couple of days ago about being worried about
me when I go to Japan I'm just like｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡
Ah
today is going to be so sad! Yesterday morning when I woke up I had the
worst stomach pains ever. Maybe it was because I was already regretting
today T_T Honestly, the jap kids at baulko are really lucky to have her
and I wish she was teaching there when I was doing HSC :(
In
fact, pretty much this time last year (okay I mean early November) I
remember Joyce, Areeya and I were all like D: cause we used to go to the
same jap tutoring place (different teachers) but it was really awesome
there, the atmosphere, everything! And it was kind of sad to leave
knowing we wouldn't be going back there as students.
Last
year I prepared little christmas presents for my teacher and her kids
but this time I have nothing :/ She still keeps the plush totoro
keychain I made her (ಥ＿ಥ）
let's all panic
written on Tuesday, November 26, 2013 @ 11:05 PM ✈
Welp, today seems to be my mental breakdown day. In all honesty, I wouldn't be surprised if I did fail JLPT sigh. I feel like I'm more worried about it than I was for uni finals and I think that's justifiable on several grounds. I mean, I haven't been able to dedicate as much time as I wanted to studying JLPT since it was a "side" thing and uni work always had to come first which meant whenever it was bomb us with assignments time then I had to set aside JLPT and same thing with exams.
This means I don't really remember the things I learnt well since I haven't been constantly using it like in HSC :/ And when I did japanese for HSC it was an actual subject on my timetable not like uni so I actually had to spent a certain amount of time on it. Ah, am I really going to pass? With uni exams I'm pretty sure I will pass, it's just that I want more than that but at least the worry of failing isn't there. But I have that worry with JLPT (╥﹏╥) I guess because if I fail, that means no certificate but more than that, what would my parents say? They'd be like "you took this on and couldn't even pass?" And more than that, I'd feel so bad for my tutor who taught me for so long and then it would be so disappointing if I just failed sigh (ಥ＿ಥ）
I realise you guys probably don't care... but I'm just writing this for myself. I realise I never really talked about the test properly so for those that are interested these are the levels with 1 being highest and 5 the lowest:
N1: The ability to understand Japanese used in a variety of circumstances
N2: The ability to understand Japanese used in everyday situations, and in a variety of circumstances to a certain degree
N3: The ability to understand Japanese used in everyday situations to a certain degree
N4: The ability to understand basic Japanese
N5: The ability to understand some basic Japanese
I'm doing N3 because apparently with HSC knowledge it's easy to pass N4 which wouldn't really be a challenge and since N4 is "easy" it's not really recognised as something special (according to my teacher). The problem is that N3 is a new level, there used to only be 4 and N3 was inserted between the old N3 and N2 since the gap was too big and people found it really hard to pass N2 from N3. This sucks for me because there are hardly any resources for my test since my level is "new".... think of it as like a syllabus rewrite except there is no syllabus （ಠ_ಠ）
Soooo why do I find this test hard? Honestly, I think HSC was a breeze compared to this, not even joking. First of all, everything was in english for HSC japanese except the actual reading passages and the CD for the listening section. JLPT on the other hand? Absolutely everything is in Japanese, even the questions. Honestly that part is alright as long as you know whether you're looking for the "right" option or the "wrong" one.
So how does one get a pass? For N3 you need to get 95/180. Sounds easy? BUT WAIT! There's 3 sections - vocabulary, reading + grammar, and listening. Each is worth 60 and you have to get at least 19/60 to pass that section. Fail one section? Fail the whole test! This is to make sure you're actually well rounded in the areas, not just good at reading but suck at listening for example. Still sounds easy? WELL HOLD ON! One question isn't worth one mark. Wait what?!
Yep. Each section doesn't even have 60 questions but they have an awful scaling system based on how the candidates answer questions. Yep. So if you get a question right and everyone else does too, then it's worth maybe 1. Get something right hardly anyone else does? Maybe you get 4 marks. But if you get it wrong then you just lost 4 :/ Sooooo basically even if you got 15/30 questions right, it's possible you can't reach the 19/60 pass mark.
Now that seriously worries me because if I can't do a question, I'm pretty sure that's going to cost me a lot since I know my basics. Also, I can't stress enough how different listening in JLPT is to HSC listening. In HSC, they replayed all listening passages twice and you had a suitable amount of time to jot down notes in the margin, then put your final answer on the lines. In JLPT, it's multiple choice but the answers are all in japanese. Not only that, there's really no time to even read the choices before the CD starts so as soon as it stops, you have to pick an answer really quickly otherwise they start to read the next question.
They also don't replay anything. I'm not even joking when I say that if your concentration lapses for even one second you miss something really crucial. On top of this, JLPT is really tricky in that each of the answer options features in the passage to trick you. For example, if the question was like "what will this girl buy at the supermarket?" and the answers were chips, water, sandwich, chocolate, then the passage would go something like this:
Girl: Hmm I'm hungry. I'm going to go buy some chips.
Guy: Oh? But I thought you were on a diet, shouldn't you get something like a sandwich?
Girl: Hmm you're right... I guess I'll go buy a sandwich then.
Guy: I'll go buy a water with you then.
Girl: Nah on second thoughts, I'm definitely getting chocolate.
Or something like that. I know it sounds lame in english but JLPT is full of distractions where if you pick the first option you hear, it's seriously usually going to be wrong because there's always more important information afterwards. So yeah, if you don't listen even for a second you're going to get confused.
There's also listening questions where you're not even given the answers to choose from! All they give you is "1, 2, 3, 4" and you colour in the correct bubble. The listening passage is played, and then the answer options are read out and you're supposed to pick from it without actually being able to see it. So you really can't let your mind wander at all. I hope that made sense.
Strangely enough, listening is the one I haven't practised as much because aside from my little collection of random files, I haven't listened to much lately and listening was the latest section I practised with my tutor (like only a few weeks ago). And yet it's the section I'm best at. I don't know why. Even when I don't know the answer, I have some sort of sixth sense that picks it out. Or even when I can't understand everything in the passage, I blindly guess the one option I did know/ hear and it happens to be right. It's weird. That doesn't mean I don't get some wrong every now and then though.
Kanji is also pretty tricky. I'm thankful we don't actually have to write any and just be able to recognise them which is better for me since I've read a lot of stuff so compared to writing, my recognition skills are better. But JLPT still makes it hard because unlike HSC where they have wildly different options in multiple choice, JLPT just has options where the radical is different or maybe even a few strokes. For example:
My recognition skills are good, but sometimes I can really be thrown off if they look way too similar. That's actually why I have trouble remembering how to write chinese, it's because some are very alike and I don't know how to explain this but my mind gets "hazy" and I can't remember definite strokes. But if you show me, I can tell you what it says.
Anyway, I guess the one good thing is that there is no writing (like composing a response to a letter given) and no speaking (my definite weak point). Ah well, guys please wish me luck come this Sunday (╥﹏╥)
written on Saturday, November 23, 2013 @ 11:59 PM ✈
Ugh can't believe my strange dreams came back. In last night's dream for some reason, I saw my two pet albino rabbits again and I had a panic attack in the dream thinking "oh my god when was the last time I played with you guys, fed you, looked after you" etc etc and then I woke up and was quite distressed then I remembered they're longer with us anymore...
It's weird because the usual me can sense if something is a dream and then I just change the dream into what I want to do in it. Like normally in the dream I'd be like "oh it's a dream eh let's explore then!" or if it's a nightmare, my dream self will be like "okay just wake up and this will be over" and that's what I'd do. Hmm.
time
written on Friday, November 22, 2013 @ 3:13 PM ✈
So one of my parents' friends called at 9 in the morning and awoke me from my sleep since no one was at home to answer == But then I just went back to bed and didn't wake up til 11 haha. Yep my body clock is dead now that exams and uni are over.
Man it's this time again. I don't know about you guys but every time exams end I feel sad which is crazy. Why? It's because I have "nothing to do." As in, I just feel so lost with all this time on my hands and you know, no matter how much I complain about going to uni and stuff, I actually like the routine of it and going "well this is just something I have to do." And now it's like that post HSC time where my sister still had to go to school, and parents still had to go to work so it was just me at home. On those days I didn't go out I felt really lonely and lost :/ But making lunch was fun! I made pizza, pasta, spring rolls and stuff.
Ah but don't get me wrong. I actually DO have things to do like plan the trip, and study for japanese :/ And when I say I feel lost having not much to do, my dad's like "well here's a bunch of chores for you then" but that's not what I mean dad D: Guys plan some stuff for the holidays please :( And I have a tonne of stuff I want to watch and play through (haven't played those apps in ages!) but I'm still overwhelmed with all this time.
Anyway, not sure if I wrote about this but our last exam (the multiple choice one) was funny because like I predicted, so many people left after 30 minutes and the vet kids which were doing an exam in the same room as us were all like "what why's everyone leaving o_o" LOL. And even the exam supervisor guy watching over us was like to the other examiner "hmm must be an easy exam o.O".
Yesterday I went to watch Catching Fire at IMAX with uni friends! I have to say the movie was soooo good and the whole cinema was booked out. But you know, the people who were meant to sit next to me never even showed up even though my friend who booked our seats told me someone else definitely bought those seats o_o What a waste. But I used it for leg stretching room!
Also this is only the second movie I've watched this year, I guess not many good ones came out. I'm not sure if it was because the movie was so good or because sitting down for so long made us go weird because when it ended and we had to leave I swear everyone's legs were like jelly and we couldn't walk properly. I haven't been to the IMAX in years, I've only been those times when the school makes you go to watch some documentary. So it was weird because the screen is so big and it's actually a little uncomfortable to be honest, it's like trying to read a book only 5cm from your eyes. I think I might stick to normal cinemas.
Aaaaand typical of those nights where I'm out a little late, stupid cityrail fails again. There was a fatality and long story short it took me way too long to get home :/
written on Thursday, November 21, 2013 @ 11:36 PM ✈
CATCHING FIRE WAS SO GOOD.
And my body is breaking down again and I feel super tired and yet I got home late and now it's nearly 12 which means I won't be sleeping for another hour at least. Well tomorrow I have no intention of getting up at a decent time, I'll just get up when my body tells me to which could be like 11 :/
coming soon
written on Wednesday, November 20, 2013 @ 12:05 AM ✈
Soooo it's 12 and I'm still here on the computer OTL I don't think I'll be sleeping until 2. Ah I can’t tell you how much today’s weather made me happy. FINALLY a day where it wasn't raining non-stop and even better, I could sit here while comfortably wearing shorts. I hope tomorrow is good too but since it's a day I'm going to uni, you can never tell (those days are the most unpredictable of all).
Even if most of the people in my degree only need a few correct questions to pass, I really wish they wouldn't keep going "tomorrow's going to be a breeze!" It seems a little disrespectful :/ Instead, I think we should be grateful? Because someone dug up some old past papers for this subject and contrary to everyone saying "it's just common sense" there's a lot of things that are new and you wouldn't know. Really, we're lucky that for some weird reason our test is 60 multiple choice because all the past papers were about 20-30 multiple choice with a tonne of short answers which you could definitely not bluff if you didn't know the answers.
For example the questions were like "What are the nutritional requirements of alpacas and how and when may they fluctuate? How can changes in weight be easily monitored?" (5 marks) Probably not the best example but if I didn't know the answer I don't think I could confidently fudge it.
In any case, it seems that instead of studying, most of my cohort has decided to spend time guessing our multiple choice questions from the semi-blank exam template we were given and posting it to our fb group page. I think it just confused me more o_o Also I don't think tomorrow is going to be a piece of cake, probably just easier than my other exams sure. But it's still 50% and I don't always do well in multiple choice since sometimes you go "yes this one!" then you read the next possible answer and get confused...
Oh well, at least I was able to decipher one of tomorrow's questions:
Weirdly, I'm kind of not looking forward to the end of the exams? Cause once again I kind of feel a little empty without something I need to "do" but that's not true since I still have to study, organise the trip properly and pack. And all other sorts of random little things :/
OH. Forgot to say that a whopping 15/60 questions tomorrow is about agronomy and plants. Yeah I'll probably only get half of those right if I'm lucky because I hate plants and those questions are too specific x_x Stupid plants.
written on Monday, November 18, 2013 @ 11:45 PM ✈
^ my face expression that moment I accidentally closed the window where I was
in the middle of the fight in the mmorpg and then I had to start again (╥﹏╥)
Anyway, today was another gross day. Seriously. Let me tell you that I was super lucky my aunt randomly decided to come by the house this morning and offered to take me to the station (no one else was home). But at that point it was still cloudy and gloomy but no rain so I wouldn't have minded walking. However, coming home from uni was a different story since both my parents were working late and I had to spent 20 minutes walking through heavy rain (╥﹏╥) I did wait it out for a bit but if I had waited for my parents to come get me then that would have been 2 hours of doing nothing :/ It's spring but it's rainy and my body was frozen to the core because rain on its own is fine but WITH WIND?! Wind makes everything worse. It destroys your umbrella and no matter how much you try, the slanted rain soaks through your jeans and yeah, everything from the knee down was soaked :( It doesn't help that it's a 15 minute walk to uni from redfern as well so obviously got soaked there and back.
I need to wear my gumboots next time OTL Anyway! I saw that on Happy Apple's post she wrote that she finished at 1:30 and only got home at 4. I have a similar story! Finished at 2, and got home at 4:30 D;
Man cell bio was gross. I don't know what to say except it could have been a lot harder but that doesn't mean I did well. Like out of the 3 short answers, two of them I just blabbed about things which were probably wrong since I forgot a lot of the names of the important things. I know I won't be able to fool them == And the last question, I actually KNEW stuff about, except it ended up being my shortest one what... Yeah I don't know. And multiple choice was standard. LOL. Tactic for the questions I didn't know? Pick the answer that's the longest. I'm serious. Most of them seemed right when you compared it with the shorter ones. It's like they can't hold back and start writing a lot for those answers because it's human nature to explain stuff? I don't know.
I can't do work after exam days :/ Which leaves me only tomorrow to study for wednesday. The exam is 2 hours and is 60 multiple choice. I think most people will leave after 30 minutes no joke because this is our "easiest" subject and most of the people in my cohort don't really care and are happy with a pass. However, is it bad that I want to do better than that? :( I mean, I need something better to pull up my incoming credit (or maybe even pass T_T) for cell bio. Like everyone else says they won't study because most people are sitting on 45%/50% right now and only need 5% of the exam to pass but I feel like it's such a waste if I don't do it properly.
So yeah, that's why lots of people were semi-celebrating after today's exam because cell bio was the hardest. I guess I'll probably leave after 45-60 minutes as well? Not because I'm pressured, it's just because multiple choice really only takes 30 secs a question. You guys have noticed that right? Unless it's maths or something. So yeah no point sitting there for 2 hours because if you don't know the answer then it doesn't really get any better if you ponder it too long :/
Oops, it's now 12 again and I wasn't doing work which means I really shouldn't allow myself to stay up. Also it's weird because for the first time in a while it's lonely at this time since everyone went to bed at 10:30. Yesterday my sister went to bed at 2:30 or something... after I went to bed o_o Too much work.
By the way, there was this time once when I could stay up until 2 or 3 everyday for like 2 weeks and recently I've been wondering how I could do that since I conk out at 12 but nope, now that exams are back it seems I can stay up easily til 2 again (even if I'm not studying). I'm sure after wednesday my body will do that usual "suddenly tired" thing and I'll have to go to bed "early" again.
the worst has yet to come
written on @ 12:36 AM ✈
Man my whole body hurts which goes to show I've been sitting here for too long :/ Tomorrow is the day of my doom, ugly cell bio. By the way, condensing 37 pages of info into 10 pages (without deleting anything) is extremely painful.
Soooo I'm really confused as to why I'm just so "meh" this time. Was I like this for the first semester's finals too? I honestly can't remember. Even though there are so many things I don't know for tomorrow I'm kind of just sitting here going "oh well." And it was like that for bio too o_o I'm not saying tomorrow is going to be easy, the exam is totally going to kick my ass because that's just how cell bio exams are but it's like I just can't be bothered. Also it doesn't help that this is probably going to be my first credit ever x_x Because I need something ridiculous like 85% in this exam to get a distinction which isn't going to happen since my average is like 70% and that's also pretty much the cohort average too for the assessments/ exams we've done so far.
Man I just want this over with. Also it's embarrassing but I think my stomach is totally going to growl during tomorrow's exam x_x It's from 12 to 2 which is prime lunch time and since I have to leave the house at 10:30 then that's a long wait until 2.
Hmm I think I know why I hate cell bio and subjects like this. It's because there's just too much pointless memorising in my opinion. I mean, maths is logic so if they say "x" you think of "y" but cell bio doesn't make me "think" of anything. If you don't memorise, then you don't know anything. It doesn't help that tomorrow's exam is worth 65% sigh.
Also, I know I wasn't supposed to play any games until afterwards but too bad! Anyway usually I love my character because she's sarcastic, jokes and makes puns but today in one of the quests they were waiting until nightfall to infiltrate this place and what did my character and the others do? They set up a campfire (－‸ლ)
^ That's supposed to be a facepalm emote lol. But seriously I understand that we have no control over the storyline part and what the character does there but I'm like "whyyyyy you do that?! It's common knowledge not to set up a fire otherwise people will see you !" x_x And yep, sure enough we got attacked and had a lot of annoying monsters to fight D:
written on Saturday, November 16, 2013 @ 11:56 PM ✈
It's 12 and it looks like I'll be up for a long time since I'm no where near finished. If I get into trouble I'll just be like "well dad's still up" :D
Body is dying already. Wrist hurts from using the computer so much, back hurts, eyes are so screwed, skin still as troublesome as ever. What else is new?
written on @ 5:12 PM ✈
FML SERIOUSLY this weekend of all weekends I really don't want to go anywhere or be disturbed because CELL BIO is not something we can joke about. In fact one hour ago someone tried to invite us out to dinner but thankfully mum declied heh.
But NO that's not the end of the story because we now have guests over == And in the usual fashion it is loud and noisy and great there goes my concentration and study. Ugh and it's also right before dinner too.
Why why why does this always happen during exam time it makes me so annoyed. Can't people just leave me in peace?
halfway through but...
written on @ 12:19 AM ✈
Not liking the weather. For all of you who don't like summer because it's "too hot", I don't think there's such a thing anymore :/ Perhaps you remember the few days where it reached mid 30's but for me, I honestly think for the last 2 or 3 years we had a pretty "cold" summer. Like most days were high 20's and maybe a few over 30 and some around 40 but not many. I think this year is going to be another disappointing year == I mean the in the past week, it probably rained 4 times and it's even doing it right now. Had to walk to the station to get to uni today and it was nice and sunny but then after my exam and coming back, super gross wind and cold. Yuck yuck yuck. Keep in mind it's already the end of spring and if it's like this then yeah, another disappointing summer... I miss those few days of uni we had where I felt like I was burning to a crisp T_T Ahh summertime.
I wanted to write about my exam but let's do that another time. I'm probably never going to bed tonight because as soon as I came home I just wasted all my time because there's no way I'd be able to study for cell bio today (it's too demanding). Which means to compensate, I must study cell bio and pretty much do nothing else except sleep, eat, shower over the weekends :/ Cramming in two days is SO not going to work but what can I do... So yeah, can't really sleep since I know this is the last bit of fun I can have to waste time until end of cell bio at least sigh :(
Also I'm having so many feels right now because I saw more MFW wedding CGs (╥﹏╥) AND I found out that in the 2+ years or so I have been away from playing that mmorpg, some of the characters (designed after the developers) had an in game wedding cause the people in real life got married. That's so "awwwwwwwwwww" worthy ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡Man it's like I have a thing with weddings but I really don't guys. (Also never been to one before)
You know, since I've never been to another country besides China (and Thailand when I was super little), I never had to deal with things like differences in voltage. Like our things work fine in China because it's around the same. But we're 240 and Japan is 110 :/ And of course I did my research and it said that we just need to bring one of those plug things, since we normally have 3 pins but they only have 2 straight pins. And then dad freaked me out and was like "no you need a transformer."
I need to trust myself more x_x Because nope, technology has progressed! And things like phone chargers, laptops and such have their own sort of transformer thingy where it takes 110-240V and 50-60Hz. I just thought that was amazing but maybe not you guys OTL I mean, I would expect it for Apple since well, it's Apple but my laptop is at least 4 years old now? So I was surprised it had it because I didn't know when this came about. Even our hairdryer has it LOL. But then dad was like why are you even taking your laptop, you need to travel light.
This is true but my laptop is my life.... It has all my research for the trip, how to get to places, and is my way of searching and checking things. Of course I'll print it out but what will you do if an unexpected situation comes up? Dad says to use my phone but personally I don't like looking at such a small screen for so long. Internet cafe is alright too but I just save a lot of files on my comp. Then he said to just bring a hard drive but I don't know. Honestly, I'm not carrying my laptop around I'll probably just use it at night at the hotel or something. And then my dad was like "why don't you just get a tablet, it's convenient." And I'm like O_O because we don't own one and I'm not getting one just for this trip. Honestly what would we do with it afterwards this house has too much technology as it is and I don't want to encourage my sister any further.
Some side notes: I'm so poor now OTL I just got my passport today too and that's close to $300 gone sigh. Funny how today of all days no one was home so dad went to collect it for me since I got home late and obviously it's under my name so they were like to him "who are you, do you have ID" and he obviously doesn't have my ID with him but they gave it to him anyway. Australia LOL someone could have just stolen my passport like that¯\(°_°)/¯
Also I have so much "virtual" rubbish. Files are everywhere on my laptop and if you ask me to find something more than one month old it'll probably take a long while. Also my whole desktop is covered in document icons and such. Seriously. My laptop is also running out of space and that red bar screams "help! Clean up!" but I have difficulty deleting old work because sometimes it entertains me to see the stuff I used to know/ write :/
yep, it's that time again
written on Thursday, November 14, 2013 @ 11:38 PM ✈
I don't know why but my heart really hurts right now. Or maybe it's just that area of my chest but I don't know. Hopefully it goes away soon.
Having my japanese lesson today makes me feel all easy-going and carefree even though bio is tomorrow. I'll probably do the freak out routine tomorrow. Whose great idea was it to have our exam at 3pm ?! I'm never going to get home and then I'll only have two days to study for cell bio x_x
Maybe I'm just "calm" because I've kind of given up. Honestly I'm just so tired of reading my bio notes over and over, it's actually getting annoying. I'm such a bad student but doesn't anyone else get sick of doing all this stuff?
In fact, you know you live a sad life when you know more about plants than animals x_x I guess it's because we learnt about plants for the later half so I probably remember it better. It's also a little easier I guess and honestly, I'm annoyed with how bio just jumps around pointlessly and there was really no link between lessons. One minute you're learning about environment, the next it's solutes and urine, osmolarity, then it's the circulatory system blah blah blah. Ugh but tomorrow's still going to be hard because that's just what bio is like. I better pass ==
written on @ 1:09 AM ✈
Oh my god fml I don't know why I'm still up at 1:15 but I keep hearing scary noises from the window T_T Oh my god.
Oh yeah THAT'S RIGHT it's because for SOME REASON one of my bank accounts just DISAPPEARED. Damn I really don't think I'm going to sleep peacefully tonight but I can't call them until morning so let's hope for the best...
I missed it (╥﹏╥)
written on Tuesday, November 12, 2013 @ 11:51 PM ✈
I was doing well with studying during the day but that just died as soon as it hit 8:30 OTL I just spent all my time since then going through tweets in Japanese (long story but I'm looking for something don't ask) and there are days when I can read Japanese, and days I can't. What I mean is going through blocks of text that is not in your first language for a long time really hurts my head (╥﹏╥) And there are "good days" and " bad days" where sometimes you're like "huh what's that" even though it's something so basic and you should know :/ Ah I don't know how to explain this anymore but I guess my point is sometimes my Japanese reading ability really sucks x_x
So I got a little lazy by the end of it and used crappy old google translate (man I thought it was getting better but it's really not) and it doesn't help that for some reason a Japanese word always translates to "squishy" o_o So the sentence would be like "I like to cook food and go to the park squishy." I just made that sentence up but you get the idea. Man it was confusing but apparently the word "リプ" (ri-pu) translates to squishy on google translate but I'm pretty sure it's short for "リプライ" (ripurai) which means reply. And there's an example of katakana which is used to "copy" the sounds of english words :D
Well anyway yesterday was 11/11...... And I missed making a wish at 11:11 (╥﹏╥) If I had wished at 11:11 then maybe I could have done better in my chem exam which was at 2 :( I did manage to catch 11:11pm but I had wanted AM as well... I can't believe it was two years ago when it was 11:11 11/11/11. I wonder what I wished for then? I remember I was in maths class at the back with Cissy and I was like "Quick! QUICK! MAKE A WISH!!!" And Cissy was like "calm down lol."
Soooooo the chem exam was "alright" as in it was pretty much like the past papers in terms of difficulty. Though it might be another one of those times where it's "you think you did okay but when you get it back you really didn't." Ugh they also put in questions we did from the tutorial sheets but I neglected to revise those and now I know I got those wrong cause I checked ugh x_x
Also I read Dandelion's post and I can't believe you guys get given the organic reaction maps?! :O We don't get them and it was annoying having to remember them cause I really hate organic chemistry ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡ Ugh bio on Friday and even though it's "only" worth 38% I remember last semester we got completely demolished because the short answers were gross and asked the most specific useless things which we studied but didn't know all this super extreme depth to. It's like they knew our weak points and picked detailed questions on that :/ Like what you thought they would ask, they didn't. I have no idea what they'll do this time (probably the same again).
And then cell bio on Monday which is worth a whopping 65%. I'm actually going to die in that because there's like multiple choice and 2 short answers, AND 2 "extended response" type things and it's 2 hours x_x Not to mention the content is bloody hard to memorise because it's just so difficult and there's a lot. Sigh sigh sigh.
Btw after my exam yesterday I went to go get a free slushie from 7/11 and apparently they have this flavour which is lemon meringue but it's "rare" and not in many stores. For some reason we actually had it even though I've hardly ever seen a flavour besides cola and raspberry at our store ¯\(°_°)/¯ Except it came out all liquidy but I learnt from last time! Ugh cola was out so I had to get the dreaded raspberry and then I put the liquid lemon meringue in the middle and piled more raspberry on top. The coldness of the raspberry freezes the lemon meringue back to the right consistency by the time you get to it ! ^^ Learnt that trick from last time when I accidentally put more cola on my liquid passionfruit and it froze over hehe. Try it sometime ~
ps. the lemon meringue flavour tastes like tropical to me
come back down to earth
written on Sunday, November 10, 2013 @ 11:46 PM ✈
Okay, if I be realistic I'm pretty sure I can only get a 70 overall in both bio and cell bio. There's no way I'm going to do well enough in chem to pull myself up so I can only hope that I did well enough in first semester to maintain a distinction average x_x
If there's one thing you can count on to always happen, it's to get exam related nightmares before/ during exam period. Does that happen to you guys? Mine started last night. Dreamt that they didn't even give me exam paper to write my answers on, and when I got the paper all the questions were physics questions (it was a chem exam) and I understood nothing. On top of that there were all these extra hard chem questions which we didn't learn about and also questions on my weak points (like stupid organic chemistry). I think in the dream I was thinking "well I'm screwed T_T".
A random part of today's simpsons episode:
Mr. Burns in the comic book store: "How much for the whole store?"
Comic book guy: "The speed of light expressed in dollars."
Mr. Burns: *to Smithers* "Ugh just give him faraday's constant."
Haha and then you see him writing the numbers down on the cheque xD (Btw faraday's constant isn't even close to the speed of light).
EDIT: Oh hell, I just remembered tomorrow's chem final is worth 60% and no amount of study can help me get a decent mark because it's chem. Oh god oh god so screwed.
always exam time
written on Saturday, November 9, 2013 @ 10:18 PM ✈
Oh how lovely, we now even have visitors in our house and it's noisy as which makes studying sooooo great right now. Do they not realise it is possible to communicate without practically screaming across the room == Honestly why does this always happen? EVERY time it's exam period it seems like everyone we know comes flocking to our house. Is there some stupid neon sign on our roof that says "oh hey guys, I'm having exams and kind of need to study BUT HEY COME ON OVER" because I would like to shoot it down thanks.
Cell bio makes me cry. I miss the days of maths and japanese where you were rewarded for practising things, not just pointless memorising like in cell bio and bio. Those two subjects make even less sense to me than chemistry does, which says something. I just spent the whole day going through 33 lectures worth of cell bio notes, each at least 20 pages and I am seriously dead right now. So I decided to take a short half hour break because right now it's impossible to study with noisy people in our house. I know I'm going to regret taking this break when chem exam on Monday comes because I bet I'll be stumped on the first question and go "ugh why did I take a break instead of study."
Oh wells. For no reason in particular, I opened up the old mmorpg I used to play. For those of you that know me, I'm sure you know which game it is ;) But oh my god seriously I haven't touched this since late 2011 at the latest so it's been so long. If you didn't know, mmorpg's tend to update weekly so if you don't come back for a few months you can get seriously behind because quests, layout, things in general just change and you waste like 20 minutes trying to understand the game again.
And that happened to me T_T You know when you don't do something for a while and you wonder if it was ever that good to begin with? Maybe that's just me. But wow I discovered why I used to like this game and isn't it great how I now want to play it instead of doing exams? Yep I'm screwed. Nah it's okay I'll stop and I'll pick it up again after exams except after exams is JLPT and japan so I won't get to play until I'm back late December (╥﹏╥)
I am seriously SO excited for the long holidays to start because I have a tonne I want to do and I'm pretty sure I can guarantee that I won't be bored. My list includes catching up on various games (possibly replaying some), watch old/new anime, watch a tonne of videos, play the mmorpg I haven't touched in so long and maybe try to do all the quests I missed in 2 years (LOL I'M CRAZY). Yep, all those things can be done from the comfort of my home. Don't judge or be mean, those are the things that make me happy (ಥ＿ಥ）
In other news, let me share some retardedness from cell bio lectures:
I couldn't even concentrate on all that rubbish on the screen because I couldn't stop thinking about how those weird things look like lemons (CP1), apples (GATA1), carrots (Sp1/TEF2), bananas (OCTA) and even a watermelon (NF1). Am I the only one?
And oh my god I saw this a week or so ago on tumblr:
Yamato's wedding route came out on the JP version !!!! ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡ Which means it's going to be a long time before it comes out in English. With my luck, probably after uni starts again
> > But oh my god even the pictures give me so many feels because even though the other games are already up to their wedding routes, it's because this game started with a "fake wedding" so when it's the real wedding time, I don't know, it's so much more meaningful? I don't know if you understand me...
Saeki's one came out too but ceebs pictures because Yamato's my bias lol. Damn everything good comes out when it's exam time x_x
written on @ 11:06 AM ✈
Ugh and after yesterday's scenario guess what happens today? Yep my parents just suddenly decided we should go out to yum cha with friends. No just no.
This is exactly why I hate weekends. I love weekdays where I'm at home alone in peace with no annoying visitors. I'm not going anywhere today, screw people and their spur of the moment plans. If you think studying for finals isn't serious then you can all piss off ==
Not in a good mood right now. This was probably compounded by the fact that I did not sleep well last night because someone's door kept shutting and opening randomly even though everyone was asleep.
So I have no idea what I'm going to make for lunch. I haven't eaten breakfast either which I know is bad but I'm just not hungry. Normally I love making my own lunch because it means I can try something new, or make something I like to eat but not today.
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written on Saturday, November 30, 2013 @ 11:59 PM ✈
Somehow I don't think I'll get a peaceful sleep tonight, I'll probably be too restless thinking about tomorrow's exam. I just had 3 cups of tea as well but I doubt that'll contribute to having a hard time sleeping (tea never keeps me up).
Also I found out that we have to get there at 1:50 and stay in the room but the exam doesn't even start until 2:30. Explaining surely can't take 40 minutes, I wish I could study in that time instead. In fact, there is a 40 minute break between section 1 and 2 and also between 2 and 3. I wish listening was up first since that's the one that requires the "least amount" of revision since you just respond to the stimulus.
Instead, vocabulary is up first and I won't even get those extra 40 minutes to study my word lists :( I'm going to try and make the most out of those 40 minute breaks but I guess I'll be the only weirdo studying while everyone else is just actually taking a break. Also, my teacher's other student is also doing JLPT N3 tomorrow! I don't know what she looks like, but it'll have to be someone in the same room as me lol. And she also does Japanese in uni so I think she would definitely pass.
While I'll be doing the test tomorrow, my parents will be off at some party and my teacher will be holding a big party for her two daughters' birthdays T_T Sorry for the annoying posts recently guys, I'll put up something better tomorrow after the exam.
written on Friday, November 29, 2013 @ 11:52 PM ✈
Feeling terrible again, woke up with one killer stomach ache that just refused to go away. Also, ever since I got on my computer in the afternoon, it's been pulling that "I'll be annoying and not connect to the internet thing" again. It never happens to any of the other computers just mine == It would be great if that happened while I was procrastinating but this time I wasn't and I seriously needed it to look up word lists.
Anyway, got up earlier today and the gloomy weather was gross. Well, this is how I spent my day in the order of events:
3 hours of kanji revision
3 hours of vocabulary revision
3 hours of grammar structure revision
1 hour of trying to cram in new kanji
2 hours reviewing the old practice test papers I did already
1 hour looking at different reading comprehension formats
I guess that explains why my head hurts a lot right now. It's also past midnight and I'm probably not going to bed any time soon. I honestly didn't do anything else today other than what I wrote up there, as well as little things like eat and shower.
While I'll be doing my test on Sunday my parents are going to go to some party and they're even bringing cake along for it T_T I want some. I still have to sort out loose ends of my trip but looks like I can't do that until Sunday night.
I feel a little bit better today after that studying but then I remember some tests were "do-able" and others not so much. Still don't know how it'll go. I don't know which paper it was but their reading passage had furigana on top of all the kanji (it tells you how to read it) and I was like "noooo why can't we have something like this in the actual test" but instead, I find it retarded because all the words I DO know, have furigana on them and the ones that don't are the ones I don't know. Does that mean I know the harder words ? That's ridiculous.
You guys should look at this --> http://www.jlptstudy.net/N3/ Click kanji on the side and that's the characters you need to know for N3 T_T It doesn't include the lower levels but I did go through them and I'm actually surprised I know all of the kanji for N4 and N5. It's because some were used in HSC, and others I just knew and remembered after seeing them heaps of times. Anyway, my point is I went through that N3 list in like an hour which means that I definitely wouldn't have been able to absorb anything but there's no time.
Of course you can draw on the "chinese meaning" but the problem is that in a section of the test, it asks you how the word is pronounced and unfortunately chinese can't help you with that :/ Also there's too many and the pronunciation is different depending on the case x_x After this exam and when I get back from the trip, I think I'm going to immerse myself into the SS visual novel series again to try and pick up new words. Honestly, the best way to study isn't really from a textbook but to read articles, play games, anime, manga and stuff because what is written there is more "natural." Too bad I haven't been doing that since no time :/
boil
written on Thursday, November 28, 2013 @ 11:52 PM ✈
Ugh I've been feeling poorly the whole day ever since I got back. Maybe it's party due to walking home in the sun? And my stomach also hurts a lot again and dad insisted I take this chinese herbal medicine for it when usually I don't take anything and wait for it to subside.
I've also had a massive headache all day and my mind just feels "murky." Also it was the last lesson today (╥﹏╥) I feel kind of empty knowing I don't really have anything after this exam. And now when I revise my stuff and look at the sheets, it reminds me of all the fun lessons D; She even gave me a present at the end and I was THIS close to actually being like this -- >｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡ Ugh she's one of the nicest people in the world, hands down. Today's story was about a year 9 girl at baulko doing accelerated Japanese but she usually skips classes... She'd turn up in the morning and then just always disappear in afternoons (this is for any subject) and so yeah she's kind of worried about that. Apparently you can escape the system? Because teachers don't tend to mark the roll in the afternoon or it just doesn't count (which I have always suspected). This is the last story I'll ever hear :'(
Apparently grill'd was giving out free stuff today which I didn't know about but honestly, too ceebs. Kind of over the free stuff thing because right now I have too much other stuff on my mind.
I feel like I'm living in a constant state of anxiety now T_T I think today I came to terms with what would happen if I fail. I guess I'll just take it again later and study harder. It's not uncommon for people to fail this because the questions are really unpredictable. If I could do it all over again, I would have spent more time on it and bought textbooks and all that. There are even websites and forums dedicated to people who seem really serious about this and I just feel like nothing in comparison :/
I've been doing some thinking and I think I know why I'm not at ease. It's because ever since year 8, Japanese was something I was confident it. Of course, that doesn't mean I expected 100% but I always thought that the tests for it would be much easier compared to other subjects for me. And yes I did get a few wrong each time but that's a part of learning.
So maybe now after all that time where Japanese was kind of my "thing", it's just a little disheartening when I get so many wrong now :/ Who cares about getting 95/180, honestly I think I might even fail a section by not getting 19/60 and that's a definite fail and that's even more embarrassing.
What's worse is that my reading used to be my strongest point since all you had to do was read the passage and answer in english, but now I'm lucky if I can get 60% right. These days it seems I either don't understand the whole passage, or the multiple choice answers (all in Japanese) always has 2 I'm not sure about and I always pick the wrong one. Since listening is my strongest now (ironically), I guess I'll focus on trying to get more marks there but I still need to pass the other sections sigh.
Also, kanji makes me cry. I have such a love hate relationship with it. I guess it boils down to the fact that, even if you know what a character means, it means something completely different when paired with something else. Even though I've tried revising there's still so much I don't know. I found out there were apps for this today and testing myself is kind of depressing :/
Oh did I mention the absolute worst part of this? Unlike HSC, NO DICTIONARIES. I'm sorry but I have to admit that my dictionary was my best friend for japanese because there will always be one word you don't understand so at least you can look it up. Obviously since JLPT is testing proficiency, we can't do that. It's just impossible to know everything so it's going to be hard.
Two more days... I really don't know what I can accomplish in that.
last
written on @ 12:17 AM ✈
Well,
I'm really not looking forward to today. I always feel a little
depressed when we get closer to the end of the year. But, it's because
today is my last tutoring lesson for JLPT (╥﹏╥) Honestly, I don't know
if I'll be able to pass or not and I wonder what I will be doing next
year if I do fail. Will I take more lessons, or just do the test again?
But
really I'm sad because I've had my tutor for about 2.5 years and she's
awesome and always tells me funny stories, gives me stuff and ahhh she's
just a such a nice person. You probably think I'm strange but it's kind
of the feeling like losing a friend? But I don't think I can call her a
friend, she's my "sensei" and the age difference makes it weird to be
friends o_o But I love hearing her stories about her two daughters and
when she sent me an email a couple of days ago about being worried about
me when I go to Japan I'm just like｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡
Ah
today is going to be so sad! Yesterday morning when I woke up I had the
worst stomach pains ever. Maybe it was because I was already regretting
today T_T Honestly, the jap kids at baulko are really lucky to have her
and I wish she was teaching there when I was doing HSC :(
In
fact, pretty much this time last year (okay I mean early November) I
remember Joyce, Areeya and I were all like D: cause we used to go to the
same jap tutoring place (different teachers) but it was really awesome
there, the atmosphere, everything! And it was kind of sad to leave
knowing we wouldn't be going back there as students.
Last
year I prepared little christmas presents for my teacher and her kids
but this time I have nothing :/ She still keeps the plush totoro
keychain I made her (ಥ＿ಥ）
let's all panic
written on Tuesday, November 26, 2013 @ 11:05 PM ✈
Welp, today seems to be my mental breakdown day. In all honesty, I wouldn't be surprised if I did fail JLPT sigh. I feel like I'm more worried about it than I was for uni finals and I think that's justifiable on several grounds. I mean, I haven't been able to dedicate as much time as I wanted to studying JLPT since it was a "side" thing and uni work always had to come first which meant whenever it was bomb us with assignments time then I had to set aside JLPT and same thing with exams.
This means I don't really remember the things I learnt well since I haven't been constantly using it like in HSC :/ And when I did japanese for HSC it was an actual subject on my timetable not like uni so I actually had to spent a certain amount of time on it. Ah, am I really going to pass? With uni exams I'm pretty sure I will pass, it's just that I want more than that but at least the worry of failing isn't there. But I have that worry with JLPT (╥﹏╥) I guess because if I fail, that means no certificate but more than that, what would my parents say? They'd be like "you took this on and couldn't even pass?" And more than that, I'd feel so bad for my tutor who taught me for so long and then it would be so disappointing if I just failed sigh (ಥ＿ಥ）
I realise you guys probably don't care... but I'm just writing this for myself. I realise I never really talked about the test properly so for those that are interested these are the levels with 1 being highest and 5 the lowest:
N1: The ability to understand Japanese used in a variety of circumstances
N2: The ability to understand Japanese used in everyday situations, and in a variety of circumstances to a certain degree
N3: The ability to understand Japanese used in everyday situations to a certain degree
N4: The ability to understand basic Japanese
N5: The ability to understand some basic Japanese
I'm doing N3 because apparently with HSC knowledge it's easy to pass N4 which wouldn't really be a challenge and since N4 is "easy" it's not really recognised as something special (according to my teacher). The problem is that N3 is a new level, there used to only be 4 and N3 was inserted between the old N3 and N2 since the gap was too big and people found it really hard to pass N2 from N3. This sucks for me because there are hardly any resources for my test since my level is "new".... think of it as like a syllabus rewrite except there is no syllabus （ಠ_ಠ）
Soooo why do I find this test hard? Honestly, I think HSC was a breeze compared to this, not even joking. First of all, everything was in english for HSC japanese except the actual reading passages and the CD for the listening section. JLPT on the other hand? Absolutely everything is in Japanese, even the questions. Honestly that part is alright as long as you know whether you're looking for the "right" option or the "wrong" one.
So how does one get a pass? For N3 you need to get 95/180. Sounds easy? BUT WAIT! There's 3 sections - vocabulary, reading + grammar, and listening. Each is worth 60 and you have to get at least 19/60 to pass that section. Fail one section? Fail the whole test! This is to make sure you're actually well rounded in the areas, not just good at reading but suck at listening for example. Still sounds easy? WELL HOLD ON! One question isn't worth one mark. Wait what?!
Yep. Each section doesn't even have 60 questions but they have an awful scaling system based on how the candidates answer questions. Yep. So if you get a question right and everyone else does too, then it's worth maybe 1. Get something right hardly anyone else does? Maybe you get 4 marks. But if you get it wrong then you just lost 4 :/ Sooooo basically even if you got 15/30 questions right, it's possible you can't reach the 19/60 pass mark.
Now that seriously worries me because if I can't do a question, I'm pretty sure that's going to cost me a lot since I know my basics. Also, I can't stress enough how different listening in JLPT is to HSC listening. In HSC, they replayed all listening passages twice and you had a suitable amount of time to jot down notes in the margin, then put your final answer on the lines. In JLPT, it's multiple choice but the answers are all in japanese. Not only that, there's really no time to even read the choices before the CD starts so as soon as it stops, you have to pick an answer really quickly otherwise they start to read the next question.
They also don't replay anything. I'm not even joking when I say that if your concentration lapses for even one second you miss something really crucial. On top of this, JLPT is really tricky in that each of the answer options features in the passage to trick you. For example, if the question was like "what will this girl buy at the supermarket?" and the answers were chips, water, sandwich, chocolate, then the passage would go something like this:
Girl: Hmm I'm hungry. I'm going to go buy some chips.
Guy: Oh? But I thought you were on a diet, shouldn't you get something like a sandwich?
Girl: Hmm you're right... I guess I'll go buy a sandwich then.
Guy: I'll go buy a water with you then.
Girl: Nah on second thoughts, I'm definitely getting chocolate.
Or something like that. I know it sounds lame in english but JLPT is full of distractions where if you pick the first option you hear, it's seriously usually going to be wrong because there's always more important information afterwards. So yeah, if you don't listen even for a second you're going to get confused.
There's also listening questions where you're not even given the answers to choose from! All they give you is "1, 2, 3, 4" and you colour in the correct bubble. The listening passage is played, and then the answer options are read out and you're supposed to pick from it without actually being able to see it. So you really can't let your mind wander at all. I hope that made sense.
Strangely enough, listening is the one I haven't practised as much because aside from my little collection of random files, I haven't listened to much lately and listening was the latest section I practised with my tutor (like only a few weeks ago). And yet it's the section I'm best at. I don't know why. Even when I don't know the answer, I have some sort of sixth sense that picks it out. Or even when I can't understand everything in the passage, I blindly guess the one option I did know/ hear and it happens to be right. It's weird. That doesn't mean I don't get some wrong every now and then though.
Kanji is also pretty tricky. I'm thankful we don't actually have to write any and just be able to recognise them which is better for me since I've read a lot of stuff so compared to writing, my recognition skills are better. But JLPT still makes it hard because unlike HSC where they have wildly different options in multiple choice, JLPT just has options where the radical is different or maybe even a few strokes. For example:
My recognition skills are good, but sometimes I can really be thrown off if they look way too similar. That's actually why I have trouble remembering how to write chinese, it's because some are very alike and I don't know how to explain this but my mind gets "hazy" and I can't remember definite strokes. But if you show me, I can tell you what it says.
Anyway, I guess the one good thing is that there is no writing (like composing a response to a letter given) and no speaking (my definite weak point). Ah well, guys please wish me luck come this Sunday (╥﹏╥)
written on Saturday, November 23, 2013 @ 11:59 PM ✈
Ugh can't believe my strange dreams came back. In last night's dream for some reason, I saw my two pet albino rabbits again and I had a panic attack in the dream thinking "oh my god when was the last time I played with you guys, fed you, looked after you" etc etc and then I woke up and was quite distressed then I remembered they're longer with us anymore...
It's weird because the usual me can sense if something is a dream and then I just change the dream into what I want to do in it. Like normally in the dream I'd be like "oh it's a dream eh let's explore then!" or if it's a nightmare, my dream self will be like "okay just wake up and this will be over" and that's what I'd do. Hmm.
time
written on Friday, November 22, 2013 @ 3:13 PM ✈
So one of my parents' friends called at 9 in the morning and awoke me from my sleep since no one was at home to answer == But then I just went back to bed and didn't wake up til 11 haha. Yep my body clock is dead now that exams and uni are over.
Man it's this time again. I don't know about you guys but every time exams end I feel sad which is crazy. Why? It's because I have "nothing to do." As in, I just feel so lost with all this time on my hands and you know, no matter how much I complain about going to uni and stuff, I actually like the routine of it and going "well this is just something I have to do." And now it's like that post HSC time where my sister still had to go to school, and parents still had to go to work so it was just me at home. On those days I didn't go out I felt really lonely and lost :/ But making lunch was fun! I made pizza, pasta, spring rolls and stuff.
Ah but don't get me wrong. I actually DO have things to do like plan the trip, and study for japanese :/ And when I say I feel lost having not much to do, my dad's like "well here's a bunch of chores for you then" but that's not what I mean dad D: Guys plan some stuff for the holidays please :( And I have a tonne of stuff I want to watch and play through (haven't played those apps in ages!) but I'm still overwhelmed with all this time.
Anyway, not sure if I wrote about this but our last exam (the multiple choice one) was funny because like I predicted, so many people left after 30 minutes and the vet kids which were doing an exam in the same room as us were all like "what why's everyone leaving o_o" LOL. And even the exam supervisor guy watching over us was like to the other examiner "hmm must be an easy exam o.O".
Yesterday I went to watch Catching Fire at IMAX with uni friends! I have to say the movie was soooo good and the whole cinema was booked out. But you know, the people who were meant to sit next to me never even showed up even though my friend who booked our seats told me someone else definitely bought those seats o_o What a waste. But I used it for leg stretching room!
Also this is only the second movie I've watched this year, I guess not many good ones came out. I'm not sure if it was because the movie was so good or because sitting down for so long made us go weird because when it ended and we had to leave I swear everyone's legs were like jelly and we couldn't walk properly. I haven't been to the IMAX in years, I've only been those times when the school makes you go to watch some documentary. So it was weird because the screen is so big and it's actually a little uncomfortable to be honest, it's like trying to read a book only 5cm from your eyes. I think I might stick to normal cinemas.
Aaaaand typical of those nights where I'm out a little late, stupid cityrail fails again. There was a fatality and long story short it took me way too long to get home :/
written on Thursday, November 21, 2013 @ 11:36 PM ✈
CATCHING FIRE WAS SO GOOD.
And my body is breaking down again and I feel super tired and yet I got home late and now it's nearly 12 which means I won't be sleeping for another hour at least. Well tomorrow I have no intention of getting up at a decent time, I'll just get up when my body tells me to which could be like 11 :/
coming soon
written on Wednesday, November 20, 2013 @ 12:05 AM ✈
Soooo it's 12 and I'm still here on the computer OTL I don't think I'll be sleeping until 2. Ah I can’t tell you how much today’s weather made me happy. FINALLY a day where it wasn't raining non-stop and even better, I could sit here while comfortably wearing shorts. I hope tomorrow is good too but since it's a day I'm going to uni, you can never tell (those days are the most unpredictable of all).
Even if most of the people in my degree only need a few correct questions to pass, I really wish they wouldn't keep going "tomorrow's going to be a breeze!" It seems a little disrespectful :/ Instead, I think we should be grateful? Because someone dug up some old past papers for this subject and contrary to everyone saying "it's just common sense" there's a lot of things that are new and you wouldn't know. Really, we're lucky that for some weird reason our test is 60 multiple choice because all the past papers were about 20-30 multiple choice with a tonne of short answers which you could definitely not bluff if you didn't know the answers.
For example the questions were like "What are the nutritional requirements of alpacas and how and when may they fluctuate? How can changes in weight be easily monitored?" (5 marks) Probably not the best example but if I didn't know the answer I don't think I could confidently fudge it.
In any case, it seems that instead of studying, most of my cohort has decided to spend time guessing our multiple choice questions from the semi-blank exam template we were given and posting it to our fb group page. I think it just confused me more o_o Also I don't think tomorrow is going to be a piece of cake, probably just easier than my other exams sure. But it's still 50% and I don't always do well in multiple choice since sometimes you go "yes this one!" then you read the next possible answer and get confused...
Oh well, at least I was able to decipher one of tomorrow's questions:
Weirdly, I'm kind of not looking forward to the end of the exams? Cause once again I kind of feel a little empty without something I need to "do" but that's not true since I still have to study, organise the trip properly and pack. And all other sorts of random little things :/
OH. Forgot to say that a whopping 15/60 questions tomorrow is about agronomy and plants. Yeah I'll probably only get half of those right if I'm lucky because I hate plants and those questions are too specific x_x Stupid plants.
written on Monday, November 18, 2013 @ 11:45 PM ✈
^ my face expression that moment I accidentally closed the window where I was
in the middle of the fight in the mmorpg and then I had to start again (╥﹏╥)
Anyway, today was another gross day. Seriously. Let me tell you that I was super lucky my aunt randomly decided to come by the house this morning and offered to take me to the station (no one else was home). But at that point it was still cloudy and gloomy but no rain so I wouldn't have minded walking. However, coming home from uni was a different story since both my parents were working late and I had to spent 20 minutes walking through heavy rain (╥﹏╥) I did wait it out for a bit but if I had waited for my parents to come get me then that would have been 2 hours of doing nothing :/ It's spring but it's rainy and my body was frozen to the core because rain on its own is fine but WITH WIND?! Wind makes everything worse. It destroys your umbrella and no matter how much you try, the slanted rain soaks through your jeans and yeah, everything from the knee down was soaked :( It doesn't help that it's a 15 minute walk to uni from redfern as well so obviously got soaked there and back.
I need to wear my gumboots next time OTL Anyway! I saw that on Happy Apple's post she wrote that she finished at 1:30 and only got home at 4. I have a similar story! Finished at 2, and got home at 4:30 D;
Man cell bio was gross. I don't know what to say except it could have been a lot harder but that doesn't mean I did well. Like out of the 3 short answers, two of them I just blabbed about things which were probably wrong since I forgot a lot of the names of the important things. I know I won't be able to fool them == And the last question, I actually KNEW stuff about, except it ended up being my shortest one what... Yeah I don't know. And multiple choice was standard. LOL. Tactic for the questions I didn't know? Pick the answer that's the longest. I'm serious. Most of them seemed right when you compared it with the shorter ones. It's like they can't hold back and start writing a lot for those answers because it's human nature to explain stuff? I don't know.
I can't do work after exam days :/ Which leaves me only tomorrow to study for wednesday. The exam is 2 hours and is 60 multiple choice. I think most people will leave after 30 minutes no joke because this is our "easiest" subject and most of the people in my cohort don't really care and are happy with a pass. However, is it bad that I want to do better than that? :( I mean, I need something better to pull up my incoming credit (or maybe even pass T_T) for cell bio. Like everyone else says they won't study because most people are sitting on 45%/50% right now and only need 5% of the exam to pass but I feel like it's such a waste if I don't do it properly.
So yeah, that's why lots of people were semi-celebrating after today's exam because cell bio was the hardest. I guess I'll probably leave after 45-60 minutes as well? Not because I'm pressured, it's just because multiple choice really only takes 30 secs a question. You guys have noticed that right? Unless it's maths or something. So yeah no point sitting there for 2 hours because if you don't know the answer then it doesn't really get any better if you ponder it too long :/
Oops, it's now 12 again and I wasn't doing work which means I really shouldn't allow myself to stay up. Also it's weird because for the first time in a while it's lonely at this time since everyone went to bed at 10:30. Yesterday my sister went to bed at 2:30 or something... after I went to bed o_o Too much work.
By the way, there was this time once when I could stay up until 2 or 3 everyday for like 2 weeks and recently I've been wondering how I could do that since I conk out at 12 but nope, now that exams are back it seems I can stay up easily til 2 again (even if I'm not studying). I'm sure after wednesday my body will do that usual "suddenly tired" thing and I'll have to go to bed "early" again.
the worst has yet to come
written on @ 12:36 AM ✈
Man my whole body hurts which goes to show I've been sitting here for too long :/ Tomorrow is the day of my doom, ugly cell bio. By the way, condensing 37 pages of info into 10 pages (without deleting anything) is extremely painful.
Soooo I'm really confused as to why I'm just so "meh" this time. Was I like this for the first semester's finals too? I honestly can't remember. Even though there are so many things I don't know for tomorrow I'm kind of just sitting here going "oh well." And it was like that for bio too o_o I'm not saying tomorrow is going to be easy, the exam is totally going to kick my ass because that's just how cell bio exams are but it's like I just can't be bothered. Also it doesn't help that this is probably going to be my first credit ever x_x Because I need something ridiculous like 85% in this exam to get a distinction which isn't going to happen since my average is like 70% and that's also pretty much the cohort average too for the assessments/ exams we've done so far.
Man I just want this over with. Also it's embarrassing but I think my stomach is totally going to growl during tomorrow's exam x_x It's from 12 to 2 which is prime lunch time and since I have to leave the house at 10:30 then that's a long wait until 2.
Hmm I think I know why I hate cell bio and subjects like this. It's because there's just too much pointless memorising in my opinion. I mean, maths is logic so if they say "x" you think of "y" but cell bio doesn't make me "think" of anything. If you don't memorise, then you don't know anything. It doesn't help that tomorrow's exam is worth 65% sigh.
Also, I know I wasn't supposed to play any games until afterwards but too bad! Anyway usually I love my character because she's sarcastic, jokes and makes puns but today in one of the quests they were waiting until nightfall to infiltrate this place and what did my character and the others do? They set up a campfire (－‸ლ)
^ That's supposed to be a facepalm emote lol. But seriously I understand that we have no control over the storyline part and what the character does there but I'm like "whyyyyy you do that?! It's common knowledge not to set up a fire otherwise people will see you !" x_x And yep, sure enough we got attacked and had a lot of annoying monsters to fight D:
written on Saturday, November 16, 2013 @ 11:56 PM ✈
It's 12 and it looks like I'll be up for a long time since I'm no where near finished. If I get into trouble I'll just be like "well dad's still up" :D
Body is dying already. Wrist hurts from using the computer so much, back hurts, eyes are so screwed, skin still as troublesome as ever. What else is new?
written on @ 5:12 PM ✈
FML SERIOUSLY this weekend of all weekends I really don't want to go anywhere or be disturbed because CELL BIO is not something we can joke about. In fact one hour ago someone tried to invite us out to dinner but thankfully mum declied heh.
But NO that's not the end of the story because we now have guests over == And in the usual fashion it is loud and noisy and great there goes my concentration and study. Ugh and it's also right before dinner too.
Why why why does this always happen during exam time it makes me so annoyed. Can't people just leave me in peace?
halfway through but...
written on @ 12:19 AM ✈
Not liking the weather. For all of you who don't like summer because it's "too hot", I don't think there's such a thing anymore :/ Perhaps you remember the few days where it reached mid 30's but for me, I honestly think for the last 2 or 3 years we had a pretty "cold" summer. Like most days were high 20's and maybe a few over 30 and some around 40 but not many. I think this year is going to be another disappointing year == I mean the in the past week, it probably rained 4 times and it's even doing it right now. Had to walk to the station to get to uni today and it was nice and sunny but then after my exam and coming back, super gross wind and cold. Yuck yuck yuck. Keep in mind it's already the end of spring and if it's like this then yeah, another disappointing summer... I miss those few days of uni we had where I felt like I was burning to a crisp T_T Ahh summertime.
I wanted to write about my exam but let's do that another time. I'm probably never going to bed tonight because as soon as I came home I just wasted all my time because there's no way I'd be able to study for cell bio today (it's too demanding). Which means to compensate, I must study cell bio and pretty much do nothing else except sleep, eat, shower over the weekends :/ Cramming in two days is SO not going to work but what can I do... So yeah, can't really sleep since I know this is the last bit of fun I can have to waste time until end of cell bio at least sigh :(
Also I'm having so many feels right now because I saw more MFW wedding CGs (╥﹏╥) AND I found out that in the 2+ years or so I have been away from playing that mmorpg, some of the characters (designed after the developers) had an in game wedding cause the people in real life got married. That's so "awwwwwwwwwww" worthy ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡Man it's like I have a thing with weddings but I really don't guys. (Also never been to one before)
You know, since I've never been to another country besides China (and Thailand when I was super little), I never had to deal with things like differences in voltage. Like our things work fine in China because it's around the same. But we're 240 and Japan is 110 :/ And of course I did my research and it said that we just need to bring one of those plug things, since we normally have 3 pins but they only have 2 straight pins. And then dad freaked me out and was like "no you need a transformer."
I need to trust myself more x_x Because nope, technology has progressed! And things like phone chargers, laptops and such have their own sort of transformer thingy where it takes 110-240V and 50-60Hz. I just thought that was amazing but maybe not you guys OTL I mean, I would expect it for Apple since well, it's Apple but my laptop is at least 4 years old now? So I was surprised it had it because I didn't know when this came about. Even our hairdryer has it LOL. But then dad was like why are you even taking your laptop, you need to travel light.
This is true but my laptop is my life.... It has all my research for the trip, how to get to places, and is my way of searching and checking things. Of course I'll print it out but what will you do if an unexpected situation comes up? Dad says to use my phone but personally I don't like looking at such a small screen for so long. Internet cafe is alright too but I just save a lot of files on my comp. Then he said to just bring a hard drive but I don't know. Honestly, I'm not carrying my laptop around I'll probably just use it at night at the hotel or something. And then my dad was like "why don't you just get a tablet, it's convenient." And I'm like O_O because we don't own one and I'm not getting one just for this trip. Honestly what would we do with it afterwards this house has too much technology as it is and I don't want to encourage my sister any further.
Some side notes: I'm so poor now OTL I just got my passport today too and that's close to $300 gone sigh. Funny how today of all days no one was home so dad went to collect it for me since I got home late and obviously it's under my name so they were like to him "who are you, do you have ID" and he obviously doesn't have my ID with him but they gave it to him anyway. Australia LOL someone could have just stolen my passport like that¯\(°_°)/¯
Also I have so much "virtual" rubbish. Files are everywhere on my laptop and if you ask me to find something more than one month old it'll probably take a long while. Also my whole desktop is covered in document icons and such. Seriously. My laptop is also running out of space and that red bar screams "help! Clean up!" but I have difficulty deleting old work because sometimes it entertains me to see the stuff I used to know/ write :/
yep, it's that time again
written on Thursday, November 14, 2013 @ 11:38 PM ✈
I don't know why but my heart really hurts right now. Or maybe it's just that area of my chest but I don't know. Hopefully it goes away soon.
Having my japanese lesson today makes me feel all easy-going and carefree even though bio is tomorrow. I'll probably do the freak out routine tomorrow. Whose great idea was it to have our exam at 3pm ?! I'm never going to get home and then I'll only have two days to study for cell bio x_x
Maybe I'm just "calm" because I've kind of given up. Honestly I'm just so tired of reading my bio notes over and over, it's actually getting annoying. I'm such a bad student but doesn't anyone else get sick of doing all this stuff?
In fact, you know you live a sad life when you know more about plants than animals x_x I guess it's because we learnt about plants for the later half so I probably remember it better. It's also a little easier I guess and honestly, I'm annoyed with how bio just jumps around pointlessly and there was really no link between lessons. One minute you're learning about environment, the next it's solutes and urine, osmolarity, then it's the circulatory system blah blah blah. Ugh but tomorrow's still going to be hard because that's just what bio is like. I better pass ==
written on @ 1:09 AM ✈
Oh my god fml I don't know why I'm still up at 1:15 but I keep hearing scary noises from the window T_T Oh my god.
Oh yeah THAT'S RIGHT it's because for SOME REASON one of my bank accounts just DISAPPEARED. Damn I really don't think I'm going to sleep peacefully tonight but I can't call them until morning so let's hope for the best...
I missed it (╥﹏╥)
written on Tuesday, November 12, 2013 @ 11:51 PM ✈
I was doing well with studying during the day but that just died as soon as it hit 8:30 OTL I just spent all my time since then going through tweets in Japanese (long story but I'm looking for something don't ask) and there are days when I can read Japanese, and days I can't. What I mean is going through blocks of text that is not in your first language for a long time really hurts my head (╥﹏╥) And there are "good days" and " bad days" where sometimes you're like "huh what's that" even though it's something so basic and you should know :/ Ah I don't know how to explain this anymore but I guess my point is sometimes my Japanese reading ability really sucks x_x
So I got a little lazy by the end of it and used crappy old google translate (man I thought it was getting better but it's really not) and it doesn't help that for some reason a Japanese word always translates to "squishy" o_o So the sentence would be like "I like to cook food and go to the park squishy." I just made that sentence up but you get the idea. Man it was confusing but apparently the word "リプ" (ri-pu) translates to squishy on google translate but I'm pretty sure it's short for "リプライ" (ripurai) which means reply. And there's an example of katakana which is used to "copy" the sounds of english words :D
Well anyway yesterday was 11/11...... And I missed making a wish at 11:11 (╥﹏╥) If I had wished at 11:11 then maybe I could have done better in my chem exam which was at 2 :( I did manage to catch 11:11pm but I had wanted AM as well... I can't believe it was two years ago when it was 11:11 11/11/11. I wonder what I wished for then? I remember I was in maths class at the back with Cissy and I was like "Quick! QUICK! MAKE A WISH!!!" And Cissy was like "calm down lol."
Soooooo the chem exam was "alright" as in it was pretty much like the past papers in terms of difficulty. Though it might be another one of those times where it's "you think you did okay but when you get it back you really didn't." Ugh they also put in questions we did from the tutorial sheets but I neglected to revise those and now I know I got those wrong cause I checked ugh x_x
Also I read Dandelion's post and I can't believe you guys get given the organic reaction maps?! :O We don't get them and it was annoying having to remember them cause I really hate organic chemistry ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡ Ugh bio on Friday and even though it's "only" worth 38% I remember last semester we got completely demolished because the short answers were gross and asked the most specific useless things which we studied but didn't know all this super extreme depth to. It's like they knew our weak points and picked detailed questions on that :/ Like what you thought they would ask, they didn't. I have no idea what they'll do this time (probably the same again).
And then cell bio on Monday which is worth a whopping 65%. I'm actually going to die in that because there's like multiple choice and 2 short answers, AND 2 "extended response" type things and it's 2 hours x_x Not to mention the content is bloody hard to memorise because it's just so difficult and there's a lot. Sigh sigh sigh.
Btw after my exam yesterday I went to go get a free slushie from 7/11 and apparently they have this flavour which is lemon meringue but it's "rare" and not in many stores. For some reason we actually had it even though I've hardly ever seen a flavour besides cola and raspberry at our store ¯\(°_°)/¯ Except it came out all liquidy but I learnt from last time! Ugh cola was out so I had to get the dreaded raspberry and then I put the liquid lemon meringue in the middle and piled more raspberry on top. The coldness of the raspberry freezes the lemon meringue back to the right consistency by the time you get to it ! ^^ Learnt that trick from last time when I accidentally put more cola on my liquid passionfruit and it froze over hehe. Try it sometime ~
ps. the lemon meringue flavour tastes like tropical to me
come back down to earth
written on Sunday, November 10, 2013 @ 11:46 PM ✈
Okay, if I be realistic I'm pretty sure I can only get a 70 overall in both bio and cell bio. There's no way I'm going to do well enough in chem to pull myself up so I can only hope that I did well enough in first semester to maintain a distinction average x_x
If there's one thing you can count on to always happen, it's to get exam related nightmares before/ during exam period. Does that happen to you guys? Mine started last night. Dreamt that they didn't even give me exam paper to write my answers on, and when I got the paper all the questions were physics questions (it was a chem exam) and I understood nothing. On top of that there were all these extra hard chem questions which we didn't learn about and also questions on my weak points (like stupid organic chemistry). I think in the dream I was thinking "well I'm screwed T_T".
A random part of today's simpsons episode:
Mr. Burns in the comic book store: "How much for the whole store?"
Comic book guy: "The speed of light expressed in dollars."
Mr. Burns: *to Smithers* "Ugh just give him faraday's constant."
Haha and then you see him writing the numbers down on the cheque xD (Btw faraday's constant isn't even close to the speed of light).
EDIT: Oh hell, I just remembered tomorrow's chem final is worth 60% and no amount of study can help me get a decent mark because it's chem. Oh god oh god so screwed.
always exam time
written on Saturday, November 9, 2013 @ 10:18 PM ✈
Oh how lovely, we now even have visitors in our house and it's noisy as which makes studying sooooo great right now. Do they not realise it is possible to communicate without practically screaming across the room == Honestly why does this always happen? EVERY time it's exam period it seems like everyone we know comes flocking to our house. Is there some stupid neon sign on our roof that says "oh hey guys, I'm having exams and kind of need to study BUT HEY COME ON OVER" because I would like to shoot it down thanks.
Cell bio makes me cry. I miss the days of maths and japanese where you were rewarded for practising things, not just pointless memorising like in cell bio and bio. Those two subjects make even less sense to me than chemistry does, which says something. I just spent the whole day going through 33 lectures worth of cell bio notes, each at least 20 pages and I am seriously dead right now. So I decided to take a short half hour break because right now it's impossible to study with noisy people in our house. I know I'm going to regret taking this break when chem exam on Monday comes because I bet I'll be stumped on the first question and go "ugh why did I take a break instead of study."
Oh wells. For no reason in particular, I opened up the old mmorpg I used to play. For those of you that know me, I'm sure you know which game it is ;) But oh my god seriously I haven't touched this since late 2011 at the latest so it's been so long. If you didn't know, mmorpg's tend to update weekly so if you don't come back for a few months you can get seriously behind because quests, layout, things in general just change and you waste like 20 minutes trying to understand the game again.
And that happened to me T_T You know when you don't do something for a while and you wonder if it was ever that good to begin with? Maybe that's just me. But wow I discovered why I used to like this game and isn't it great how I now want to play it instead of doing exams? Yep I'm screwed. Nah it's okay I'll stop and I'll pick it up again after exams except after exams is JLPT and japan so I won't get to play until I'm back late December (╥﹏╥)
I am seriously SO excited for the long holidays to start because I have a tonne I want to do and I'm pretty sure I can guarantee that I won't be bored. My list includes catching up on various games (possibly replaying some), watch old/new anime, watch a tonne of videos, play the mmorpg I haven't touched in so long and maybe try to do all the quests I missed in 2 years (LOL I'M CRAZY). Yep, all those things can be done from the comfort of my home. Don't judge or be mean, those are the things that make me happy (ಥ＿ಥ）
In other news, let me share some retardedness from cell bio lectures:
I couldn't even concentrate on all that rubbish on the screen because I couldn't stop thinking about how those weird things look like lemons (CP1), apples (GATA1), carrots (Sp1/TEF2), bananas (OCTA) and even a watermelon (NF1). Am I the only one?
And oh my god I saw this a week or so ago on tumblr:
Yamato's wedding route came out on the JP version !!!! ｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡ Which means it's going to be a long time before it comes out in English. With my luck, probably after uni starts again
> > But oh my god even the pictures give me so many feels because even though the other games are already up to their wedding routes, it's because this game started with a "fake wedding" so when it's the real wedding time, I don't know, it's so much more meaningful? I don't know if you understand me...
Saeki's one came out too but ceebs pictures because Yamato's my bias lol. Damn everything good comes out when it's exam time x_x
written on @ 11:06 AM ✈
Ugh and after yesterday's scenario guess what happens today? Yep my parents just suddenly decided we should go out to yum cha with friends. No just no.
This is exactly why I hate weekends. I love weekdays where I'm at home alone in peace with no annoying visitors. I'm not going anywhere today, screw people and their spur of the moment plans. If you think studying for finals isn't serious then you can all piss off ==
Not in a good mood right now. This was probably compounded by the fact that I did not sleep well last night because someone's door kept shutting and opening randomly even though everyone was asleep.
So I have no idea what I'm going to make for lunch. I haven't eaten breakfast either which I know is bad but I'm just not hungry. Normally I love making my own lunch because it means I can try something new, or make something I like to eat but not today.
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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