夢と現実の間
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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
 : Loves pink, food, ice-cream.
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boil
written on Thursday, November 28, 2013 @ 11:52 PM ✈
Ugh I've been feeling poorly the whole day ever since I got back. Maybe it's party due to walking home in the sun? And my stomach also hurts a lot again and dad insisted I take this chinese herbal medicine for it when usually I don't take anything and wait for it to subside.
I've also had a massive headache all day and my mind just feels "murky." Also it was the last lesson today (╥﹏╥) I feel kind of empty knowing I don't really have anything after this exam. And now when I revise my stuff and look at the sheets, it reminds me of all the fun lessons D; She even gave me a present at the end and I was THIS close to actually being like this -- >｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡ Ugh she's one of the nicest people in the world, hands down. Today's story was about a year 9 girl at baulko doing accelerated Japanese but she usually skips classes... She'd turn up in the morning and then just always disappear in afternoons (this is for any subject) and so yeah she's kind of worried about that. Apparently you can escape the system? Because teachers don't tend to mark the roll in the afternoon or it just doesn't count (which I have always suspected). This is the last story I'll ever hear :'(
Apparently grill'd was giving out free stuff today which I didn't know about but honestly, too ceebs. Kind of over the free stuff thing because right now I have too much other stuff on my mind.
I feel like I'm living in a constant state of anxiety now T_T I think today I came to terms with what would happen if I fail. I guess I'll just take it again later and study harder. It's not uncommon for people to fail this because the questions are really unpredictable. If I could do it all over again, I would have spent more time on it and bought textbooks and all that. There are even websites and forums dedicated to people who seem really serious about this and I just feel like nothing in comparison :/
I've been doing some thinking and I think I know why I'm not at ease. It's because ever since year 8, Japanese was something I was confident it. Of course, that doesn't mean I expected 100% but I always thought that the tests for it would be much easier compared to other subjects for me. And yes I did get a few wrong each time but that's a part of learning.
So maybe now after all that time where Japanese was kind of my "thing", it's just a little disheartening when I get so many wrong now :/ Who cares about getting 95/180, honestly I think I might even fail a section by not getting 19/60 and that's a definite fail and that's even more embarrassing.
What's worse is that my reading used to be my strongest point since all you had to do was read the passage and answer in english, but now I'm lucky if I can get 60% right. These days it seems I either don't understand the whole passage, or the multiple choice answers (all in Japanese) always has 2 I'm not sure about and I always pick the wrong one. Since listening is my strongest now (ironically), I guess I'll focus on trying to get more marks there but I still need to pass the other sections sigh.
Also, kanji makes me cry. I have such a love hate relationship with it. I guess it boils down to the fact that, even if you know what a character means, it means something completely different when paired with something else. Even though I've tried revising there's still so much I don't know. I found out there were apps for this today and testing myself is kind of depressing :/
Oh did I mention the absolute worst part of this? Unlike HSC, NO DICTIONARIES. I'm sorry but I have to admit that my dictionary was my best friend for japanese because there will always be one word you don't understand so at least you can look it up. Obviously since JLPT is testing proficiency, we can't do that. It's just impossible to know everything so it's going to be hard.
Two more days... I really don't know what I can accomplish in that.
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boil
written on Thursday, November 28, 2013 @ 11:52 PM ✈
Ugh I've been feeling poorly the whole day ever since I got back. Maybe it's party due to walking home in the sun? And my stomach also hurts a lot again and dad insisted I take this chinese herbal medicine for it when usually I don't take anything and wait for it to subside.
I've also had a massive headache all day and my mind just feels "murky." Also it was the last lesson today (╥﹏╥) I feel kind of empty knowing I don't really have anything after this exam. And now when I revise my stuff and look at the sheets, it reminds me of all the fun lessons D; She even gave me a present at the end and I was THIS close to actually being like this -- >｡ﾟ( ﾟஇ﹏இﾟ)ﾟ｡ Ugh she's one of the nicest people in the world, hands down. Today's story was about a year 9 girl at baulko doing accelerated Japanese but she usually skips classes... She'd turn up in the morning and then just always disappear in afternoons (this is for any subject) and so yeah she's kind of worried about that. Apparently you can escape the system? Because teachers don't tend to mark the roll in the afternoon or it just doesn't count (which I have always suspected). This is the last story I'll ever hear :'(
Apparently grill'd was giving out free stuff today which I didn't know about but honestly, too ceebs. Kind of over the free stuff thing because right now I have too much other stuff on my mind.
I feel like I'm living in a constant state of anxiety now T_T I think today I came to terms with what would happen if I fail. I guess I'll just take it again later and study harder. It's not uncommon for people to fail this because the questions are really unpredictable. If I could do it all over again, I would have spent more time on it and bought textbooks and all that. There are even websites and forums dedicated to people who seem really serious about this and I just feel like nothing in comparison :/
I've been doing some thinking and I think I know why I'm not at ease. It's because ever since year 8, Japanese was something I was confident it. Of course, that doesn't mean I expected 100% but I always thought that the tests for it would be much easier compared to other subjects for me. And yes I did get a few wrong each time but that's a part of learning.
So maybe now after all that time where Japanese was kind of my "thing", it's just a little disheartening when I get so many wrong now :/ Who cares about getting 95/180, honestly I think I might even fail a section by not getting 19/60 and that's a definite fail and that's even more embarrassing.
What's worse is that my reading used to be my strongest point since all you had to do was read the passage and answer in english, but now I'm lucky if I can get 60% right. These days it seems I either don't understand the whole passage, or the multiple choice answers (all in Japanese) always has 2 I'm not sure about and I always pick the wrong one. Since listening is my strongest now (ironically), I guess I'll focus on trying to get more marks there but I still need to pass the other sections sigh.
Also, kanji makes me cry. I have such a love hate relationship with it. I guess it boils down to the fact that, even if you know what a character means, it means something completely different when paired with something else. Even though I've tried revising there's still so much I don't know. I found out there were apps for this today and testing myself is kind of depressing :/
Oh did I mention the absolute worst part of this? Unlike HSC, NO DICTIONARIES. I'm sorry but I have to admit that my dictionary was my best friend for japanese because there will always be one word you don't understand so at least you can look it up. Obviously since JLPT is testing proficiency, we can't do that. It's just impossible to know everything so it's going to be hard.
Two more days... I really don't know what I can accomplish in that.
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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