夢と現実の間
Between dreams and reality
負ける気がしねぇ！！
Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
 : Loves pink, food, ice-cream.
Summer is my eternal love.
Waiting for:
chitchat:
recent update :
|
I don't even understand
written on Thursday, June 22, 2017 @ 9:26 PM ✈
What I really don't get is when people get kit kats and they can supposedly taste flavours which aren't there? Of course maybe they are being influenced by the picture but I can assure you the flavour isn't there (and sometimes I'm like, where did they pull that flavour from?)
It's just cheesecake flavour. The label nor the picture mentions lemon.
On the left, they said it's a creme brulee kit kat when the packaging is the exact same as the picture on the top. It's just PLAIN cheesecake, not creme brulee. On the right they hashtag matcha (which is correct) AND veggie kit kat? How is this a vegetable kit kat.
written on Monday, June 19, 2017 @ 11:43 PM ✈
Still haven't been feeling all that well lately. Still plenty of people that just can't be relied upon. But yesterday really helped me to remember that not everyone is like that. I'm so grateful to the friends that came, and I'm so undeserving of the wonderful gift they got me.
Also, even though I'm the host and should have everything under control (which I do, but it just takes me longer to get stuff done), I'm so grateful to two people in particular, who were always by my side helping me with so much, and without being asked at all. They really didn't need to, because they were the guests after all but I'm so grateful beyond words that I have such caring and wonderful friends like that who come along and "save" me.
And also for asking me if I was okay (not about the party, because they knew some bad things happened before) and if I wasn't, that they'd go really mess up the person that screwed me over. Although I don't need them to do that for me, I felt so grateful to hear those words because it reminded me that at least some people really do look out for me.
let me put it into perspective
written on Saturday, June 10, 2017 @ 11:20 PM ✈
So when I said I went through three laptops, a desktop AND two hard drives to clean out stuff it's easy enough for you to go "oh okay yeah whatever." But you really just have to understand the pain of going through every single individual item and figuring out where to move it or if it should be trashed. The problem is compounded by the fact I have so many backups as well, on many different devices. The worst part is sifting through all of them and working out which one is newest, which backups have certain files others don't etc.....
Anyway no one can really truly understand the pain so I can only leave this to give you a sort of idea:
And having to go through 104gb of stuff is only from one laptop. Hard drives are even worse because they have a bigger storage capacity.
nothing but the usual
written on Friday, June 2, 2017 @ 8:23 PM ✈
You know when there are times when someone asks you to be there for something or an event of sorts, and even if you really don't have the time you still make the time because you know that that's what a good friend does. Whether it be work or exams coming, whatever. If there is a way I find it and I will be there.
Oh but when the reverse happens? It's really not that hard to set aside a couple of hours, shift things around or what not. But no, you don't. I'm glad I have such a good friend like you (laughs). And you might think I'm being rude but I'm an understanding person. But this isn't about a work commitment or any sort of emergency, it just boils down to your sheer laziness in preparing things earlier so you say you can't make it. Whatever.
You know, I'm insanely jealous of the people who have their life moving in the right direction. I'm not saying they didn't earn it, because they did. But all I know and feel is lost.
When I first found out I was going to move overseas for a year, I was anxious beyond words. Even though I applied for it, when they accept you and it becomes real you just feel different. But then lately all I do is feel sick. I realised all I ever did was fight for things. Whether it was because I thought it was the right thing to do, or because someone told me to, that's what I did. And for what?
All it ever did was get me no where and leave me tired. For once I don't want to fight. I want to choose "flight." I don't care how stupid it is. But for once I'd like the "fresh start" that books always talk about. Even if it is temporary.
I hope the next year will be good to me.
health?
written on Thursday, June 1, 2017 @ 12:18 AM ✈
It's officially the first day of winter. Excuse me while I sob in this corner because I was already struggling badly through Autumn.
I don't know what happened (maybe a really bad nightmare? but honestly I can't remember) but yesterday at 3am I woke up COVERED in sweat. And I'm not talking in exaggeration, my clothes were honestly soaking and even the hair on the back of my head (where it covers the neck) was drenched in sweat. All I remember was feeling extremely uncomfortable and since I'm still half asleep, I didn't do the wise thing which is probably get a fresh change of clothes, but instead stumbled to the bathroom figuring that a "walk" would cool me down (since the air is so cold at night) and then went back to bed and fell asleep.
Still have no idea what happened. And no, electric blanket wasn't on or anything like that. This isn't the first time I've woken up covered in sweat either, but it's just never been of this severity. Hope it doesn't happen again.
So two and a half weeks ago I started having a really bad sore throat and I thought it was a cold developing since it usually starts like that. But it confused me, because I didn't get the usual symptoms of either a bad cough or runny nose and also didn't feel "tired and weak" which would be the normal. And then it went on for two weeks and the weirdest part was that it only hurts VERY bad with sharp pains on certain parts of the day, namely very early morning, at night and sometime during the day. And then the rest of the day it'll be fine.
Finally realised it was a throat infection of sorts which the doctor confirmed but there was a med student in the room (work experience?) and at the end he's just like to me: "Can't believe you had it for two weeks..."
But we all know what he really meant but didn't say, was "can't believe you had it for two weeks (and didn't see a doctor about it sooner)" lol.. That's just how I am.
|
I don't even understand
written on Thursday, June 22, 2017 @ 9:26 PM ✈
What I really don't get is when people get kit kats and they can supposedly taste flavours which aren't there? Of course maybe they are being influenced by the picture but I can assure you the flavour isn't there (and sometimes I'm like, where did they pull that flavour from?)
It's just cheesecake flavour. The label nor the picture mentions lemon.
On the left, they said it's a creme brulee kit kat when the packaging is the exact same as the picture on the top. It's just PLAIN cheesecake, not creme brulee. On the right they hashtag matcha (which is correct) AND veggie kit kat? How is this a vegetable kit kat.
written on Monday, June 19, 2017 @ 11:43 PM ✈
Still haven't been feeling all that well lately. Still plenty of people that just can't be relied upon. But yesterday really helped me to remember that not everyone is like that. I'm so grateful to the friends that came, and I'm so undeserving of the wonderful gift they got me.
Also, even though I'm the host and should have everything under control (which I do, but it just takes me longer to get stuff done), I'm so grateful to two people in particular, who were always by my side helping me with so much, and without being asked at all. They really didn't need to, because they were the guests after all but I'm so grateful beyond words that I have such caring and wonderful friends like that who come along and "save" me.
And also for asking me if I was okay (not about the party, because they knew some bad things happened before) and if I wasn't, that they'd go really mess up the person that screwed me over. Although I don't need them to do that for me, I felt so grateful to hear those words because it reminded me that at least some people really do look out for me.
let me put it into perspective
written on Saturday, June 10, 2017 @ 11:20 PM ✈
So when I said I went through three laptops, a desktop AND two hard drives to clean out stuff it's easy enough for you to go "oh okay yeah whatever." But you really just have to understand the pain of going through every single individual item and figuring out where to move it or if it should be trashed. The problem is compounded by the fact I have so many backups as well, on many different devices. The worst part is sifting through all of them and working out which one is newest, which backups have certain files others don't etc.....
Anyway no one can really truly understand the pain so I can only leave this to give you a sort of idea:
And having to go through 104gb of stuff is only from one laptop. Hard drives are even worse because they have a bigger storage capacity.
nothing but the usual
written on Friday, June 2, 2017 @ 8:23 PM ✈
You know when there are times when someone asks you to be there for something or an event of sorts, and even if you really don't have the time you still make the time because you know that that's what a good friend does. Whether it be work or exams coming, whatever. If there is a way I find it and I will be there.
Oh but when the reverse happens? It's really not that hard to set aside a couple of hours, shift things around or what not. But no, you don't. I'm glad I have such a good friend like you (laughs). And you might think I'm being rude but I'm an understanding person. But this isn't about a work commitment or any sort of emergency, it just boils down to your sheer laziness in preparing things earlier so you say you can't make it. Whatever.
You know, I'm insanely jealous of the people who have their life moving in the right direction. I'm not saying they didn't earn it, because they did. But all I know and feel is lost.
When I first found out I was going to move overseas for a year, I was anxious beyond words. Even though I applied for it, when they accept you and it becomes real you just feel different. But then lately all I do is feel sick. I realised all I ever did was fight for things. Whether it was because I thought it was the right thing to do, or because someone told me to, that's what I did. And for what?
All it ever did was get me no where and leave me tired. For once I don't want to fight. I want to choose "flight." I don't care how stupid it is. But for once I'd like the "fresh start" that books always talk about. Even if it is temporary.
I hope the next year will be good to me.
health?
written on Thursday, June 1, 2017 @ 12:18 AM ✈
It's officially the first day of winter. Excuse me while I sob in this corner because I was already struggling badly through Autumn.
I don't know what happened (maybe a really bad nightmare? but honestly I can't remember) but yesterday at 3am I woke up COVERED in sweat. And I'm not talking in exaggeration, my clothes were honestly soaking and even the hair on the back of my head (where it covers the neck) was drenched in sweat. All I remember was feeling extremely uncomfortable and since I'm still half asleep, I didn't do the wise thing which is probably get a fresh change of clothes, but instead stumbled to the bathroom figuring that a "walk" would cool me down (since the air is so cold at night) and then went back to bed and fell asleep.
Still have no idea what happened. And no, electric blanket wasn't on or anything like that. This isn't the first time I've woken up covered in sweat either, but it's just never been of this severity. Hope it doesn't happen again.
So two and a half weeks ago I started having a really bad sore throat and I thought it was a cold developing since it usually starts like that. But it confused me, because I didn't get the usual symptoms of either a bad cough or runny nose and also didn't feel "tired and weak" which would be the normal. And then it went on for two weeks and the weirdest part was that it only hurts VERY bad with sharp pains on certain parts of the day, namely very early morning, at night and sometime during the day. And then the rest of the day it'll be fine.
Finally realised it was a throat infection of sorts which the doctor confirmed but there was a med student in the room (work experience?) and at the end he's just like to me: "Can't believe you had it for two weeks..."
But we all know what he really meant but didn't say, was "can't believe you had it for two weeks (and didn't see a doctor about it sooner)" lol.. That's just how I am.
|
Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
|
Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
|
my sunshine
links exchanged opened! just tag me but link me first
|
