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Had a fun day in the city, forgetting the troubles of life (okay not that dramatic). But it was a bad start because someone put me in a bad mood == It's been a long time since I've been to the city (or at least that's how I feel), a few months maybe?

Finally got to wander around the new daiso which was quite the troll shop because once there was a sign where it was going to open saying "opening in august" or something and I know those things are always late so I went in late August/ early September and it wasn't even open == And I haven't had a chance to go see it until today. Spent quite a bit of time there being amused by the simplest of things lol


I found this really cute. It's some sort of rabbit/panda body washing glove thing. I say rabbit/panda because the eyes look like a panda and the ears (especially in the picture on the bottom right of the package) make it look like a bunny. Plus on the package it says in japanese "usapanda" which I take as meaning rabbit panda since I assume "usa" comes from "usagi" (rabbit) and "panda" from panda lol.

After that, we just wasted time walking around aimlessly. At the very end I was trying to find a cake for my dad's birthday which is/was today. My mum told me to buy one for him but my dad told me not to cause he said he "didn't want mum eating too much cake" so I was like "whaaat am I supposed to buy cake or not" T_T

In the end I decided to buy one as after all it is his birthday and normally my parents don't ever buy cakes for their own birthdays cause they don't really care (and so normally I just bake them one as it's the least I can do). So yes! Been many many maaaaany years since we actually bought a cake for my parents. For some reason, trying to find a place that sells cake in the city is so hard. But maybe it's just me. Since I'm noob.

Finally found a decent cake which I was happy to settle for but noooo a certain someone was like "what but that looks so big". And thanks to that person (sarcasm) we wasted another half hour trying to find a better one but nooo such a thing didn't exist. So grrr ended up going back and got the cake that I wanted. Next time I have to be not so easily persuaded and stick to what I know/think is right ==

So I got home and found out mum went grocery shopping without me :( Now I can't have takoyaki this week D; I also found a massive pile of dishes in the sink that I had to wash and I was wondering what on earth my family must have been eating in my absence to warrant such a large number of dirty dishes. According to my mum, she was "so bored that she had nothing else to do but eat" :S And then we had dinner and I bummed around the house and after my sister came back from dancing we had the cake yay!


Okay wow adding pictures on blogspot has certainly changed. It's a lot easier to move it now. Anyway moving on. So yes your typical asian cake with cream and fruit on top. I haven't had a cake like that for my own birthday since I was a little kid that couldn't eat cake and my mum would pick off the fruit and wash off the cream and give it to me to eat. Ah the old days.

Yeah and thanks to the certain someone mentioned previously, I was worried my family would be like "what why did you buy this, this is way too much cake it's too big" but thankfully they didn't say anything except my sister who said "oooh did you buy this from my maths teacher's favourite cake shop?" It's funny because I thought that we wouldn't be able to finish that cake but I think we polished off about three quarters? And it was 10pm too (a time no one really eats anything).

So we always seem to be short on candles and we most definitely didn't have enough candles for my dad's age lol. So we just put enough candles to make up the digits separately and into two groups if that makes sense. My mum said it was pretty cause we could still see the fruit or something.


And here is my mum's nice slice. Mine was retardedly cut since we had to get rid of the nuts which are all around on the cream of the cake. Oh and I told my dad to wish that the world wouldn't end as his birthday wish so maybe that's why the world didn't end today (just kidding lol). And after we finished eating it wasn't quite 10:15pm yet so my mum said "okay world, you can end now cause we've had our cake" lol.

I swear people said the world was ending at 10:15 or 10:11 our time but my sister said it was going to end at 11:50pm o_o So when she went off to the shower slightly after 10 she was saying "oh no, when the world ends I'm going to die in the shower" xD (she was going by the time that I said it would end).

Argh why is it nearly midnight already. Must finish this soon. Can't remember what else I wanted to say except in my junk folder I got an email from Dr. Bathgate. In it, she wrote about what happened on "back to baulko" day even though I know what happened cause I was there. But then, she assumed I didn't go they didn't record my atar.

And then the email goes on to say that I should give them my atar because it's good for data and future reference and we can stay anonymous (they won't tell people who got what) but still == I wish they would stop asking. I understand it's for a good cause but :/ And now I'm wondering how dodgy it is when they say things like how they said to our grade that the median of the grade before us was 98. Like because maybe out of 200 students they only got 100 or 150 or whatever results given to them so you can't really accurately say that the median was 98... So that'll probably happen to next year's grade... getting dodgy statistics because they don't have everyone's atar recorded but oh well.

I have to stop rambling. Yay work tomorrow and Arielle's party. Oh and almost forgot, here's a random picture of us just burning away the candles. For the lols. Nah my dad felt like burning them until the very end instead of throwing them away.


And ugh my body has been dying on me recently. It's getting worse :/ Must be because of what has been happening in the last few days/ weeks/ whatever. I don't know what to do because it hurts and if I put a bandaid on it I think my fingers are only going to get worse. But if I don't it hurts too much. It's a vicious cycle.

Today I had no intention of waking up before or on 9 because I couldn't have cared less about atars after yesterday. Was planning a nice sleep in, and to wake up with just enough time to get to school. But no. Dad came into my room at 8:20 or so and demanded my uac number or whatever (I assumed he wanted to go check it himself) and in my half-asleep state I mumbled "what the hell, it's only 8:20 it's not even going to be online yet until 9 or whatever."

Then I got to fall back asleep but unfortunately I happened to wake up (but didn't get up) at 8:50 and I just decided to check my atar and get it over and done with. I wasn't bothered to get up and check it on the computer so I looked at it on my ipod touch which resides on my bedside table thingy. Got exactly what the atar calculator said I would (who says they aren't accurate) and so it was no surprise and I couldn't think of anything else but "meh" when I saw it. Tried to fall asleep again after that but dad oh so nicely (sarcasm) came in again at 9 to demand me to tell him my uac number and I just couldn't be stuffed with this whole ordeal again and just told him what I got.

And then he didn't believe me (he probably thought I was pulling some random number out of my ass or something) and was like "how do you even know?" and then I kindly told him I checked on my ipod... And he proceeded to call mum and tell her what I got even though the day before my mum told me it wasn't necessary to tell her (see she already knew it would be disappointing).

And shortly after I bothered to get up it was time for school. I didn't even want to go anymore because I knew it would just be about people talking about uni and courses etc. but I wanted to go see my friends and I also had to pick up my yearbook.

At first everything was good because I got to talk to some people about random things and I also saw Mrs. Ogara who told me she was really happy that I got band 6 for Japanese and that in reality I came second in the exam (I thought Eshiyu would since he was second in class). She said I did really well and that she was surprised that Eshiyu fell quite a bit behind Joyce in both the continuers and extension exams (and I was too since they were pretty much tied for everything in class). But it was no surprise he still came second overall since he did really well in the internals.

So yeah that chat was nice because it's good to feel that she thinks I did well. But then she asked the question which all the other teachers I encountered shortly after also asked me: "Did you get into the course you wanted to do?"

I'm sure the teachers don't mean any harm by asking that question (at least I hope not) but it started getting annoying because my answer is "no" and I didn't want to deal with the whole "oh, are you happy with what you got?" and blah blah ordeal that came afterwards.

Like even if you try to take comfort in the fact that they don't know what you got, they ask things like "did you get over x?" And if you say yes they're all "oh that's great! Don't be so hard on yourself, you did well!" And it's ironic that throughout the whole year they're all "oh we don't even get to know your atars and you don't even have to tell us" and yet today I had -fun- (sarcasm) having Mrs. Hawken block Rosemary, Arielle and I in our tracks while holding her clipboard (with what I assume is the grade roll call on it) asking us what we got.

And all I could manage was "uh, I don't want to tell you" even though in my head I was thinking "what the hell, I thought this was our own business why do I have to share this with you." She proceeded to insist that it was for a good cause, to gather data or whatever as reference for future years and I just continued to insist that I wasn't going to tell her and I swear after that we had a two minute stare-off with what I think was a silent battle where she was telling me that I had to tell her and I was still saying no.

Well luckily Arielle got her attention by saying she was happy with her mark and I guess she recorded it down. Rosemary and I finally made our way out of there == And after that I saw Mr. Ursino (and dodged Dr. Bathgate) and we talked for a bit. He seemed happy that my craptastic extension mark got scaled to band 6 lol. Okay so he didn't say it but I bet he was thinking that since I said "yeah I did so badly in extension but it got scaled a lot because of everyone" and he said "see! I told you so!" Somehow I think I'm going to be one of those stories he tells his classes in future where he'll be like "this student of mine always got 70's and yet got scaled to band 6 so you kids shouldn't give up hope!"

After that it was good because I got to catch up with my group, talk about plans etc. Unfortunately there was a few more of the "are you happy with what you got?" from some teachers. I know they don't know what we got so I could have tried to lie and said "yes" but unfortunately my face expression goes retarded when I blatantly lie like that so I'm forced to go "no" which is seriously always followed by their "but you still did well!"

Argh and then Mr. Nesbitt came to the table our group was sitting at, asking us if we had our marks recorded on the clipboards yet and since there were several teachers collecting marks Tash and I lied and said "yes" and then laughed when he left since I didn't actually record mine down but he wouldn't know (since he assumed I put it on another clipboard).

Luckily after that I got to bum around parra for a bit with Rosemary, Tash and George and then Rosemary left to go do her 33 hours straight of shopping. Tash, George and I went to watch a movie and met Lauren and Cissy along the way who also ended up joining us :) We also had refreshing slushies hurray.

Unfortunately had to go home after that and after spending so much of my post-hsc life at home I just feel like going out all the time because I can't stand it at home anymore. I feel bored and there isn't enough to take my mind off things and my parents are probably trying to hide disappointment or something and they are all like "are you sure there isn't anything else you want to do in uni?"

Well I don't feel like there's any other options because I can't ever imagine myself doing something else such as maths, commerce-y stuff, sciences, law and whatever other blah out there I can't think of right now. I wish they'd stop trying to make me think of an alternative course to do because don't they say you should do what you love? I seriously can't imagine doing any of the above for a few years. Bleh. The only thing that wouldn't be bleh as an alternative would be doing japanese in uni but I'm sure they would disapprove and I'm not sure what I could do with a degree in that.

Ah well.

To be honest I don't think I'd be that upset if the world did end on the 21st (not that I think it will). And I'm not saying that in a pessimistic way, I just meant it in a "life has been okay up til now, I wouldn't really regret anything if it ended on the 21st" way.

Ugh and I'm really disliking uac and bos right now because I just think they are a big headache. Firstly, to log on to either site our "username" is a number and so is our password == That really sucks because I always have difficulty remembering numbers and every time I log on to those sites I need to press the "forgot your pin?" link to reset it... I've also had to reset my bank card pin three times becaues I kept forgetting my old one...

I also think that uac and bos are evil for deciding to give our results now instead of all the way in February or something. Because now some of us (like me) will have our "holidays" ruined because we will be thinking about what we will get or whether we can go where we want to go. If they did it in early February or something, at least we could be ignorant and in bliss for an extra two months but nooo we can find out in December and ponder our life and whatever.

There was probably more I had to say but I can't remember anymore. Oh wait I remembered. It's funny because I think my mind just completely forgot about hsc and atars and blah until this week. And then Keely told me stories about how some people were starting to get nightmares about their results and whatnot and then that night I had my very own nightmare about the hsc T_T Man I thought my exam and results related nightmares were over.

So according to that nightmare I got like 80 in everything (or something like that because the dream is hazy now). Then the next day I had a nightmare where I received 91.99 atar and in the dream and in real-life (I was like half-asleep or something) I was thinking "the hell? There's no such thing as a something point 99 atar). It was a nightmare because unfortunately 92 atar (rounding up since there's no such thing as 91.99) isn't enough to get me into where I want to go :/

Ah well, a few more hours to go.

Yay I get to go back to work tomorrow. Hopefully my boss doesn't ask how I went T_T

Staying at home is both boring and fun. Occasionally there are cool things to do (watching random videos, playing the wii again, playing with photoshop) but sometimes it just gets really boring, especially when there is no one else at home with me. It's weird, usually I'm one of the first people up in the morning (because of school) and now everyday I wake up and everyone's gone. The house is too quiet T_T

And what's with people always wanting to get married on 12/12/12 or 11/11/11 or whatever repeated dates we've had in the past. It's just a random day and I don't see how those numbers really make it that great or special == Like there's no meaning behind it and unless it's their anniversary or something I don't really see why you should get married on 12/12/12 or whatever just because there's three twelves.

And yay new naruto came out but this image makes me sad:

And yes to anyone else, it's just a picture of someone crying but it's why she's crying that's sad T_T And I'm hoping the long-winded war plot will come to a conclusion soon because I really want to see how everyone gets out of the mess (sorry Kishimoto, I just want to see the solution instead of more death щ(ಥДಥщ) ).

I should do something interesting with my time instead of just bumming around all day D;

I always seem to have bad luck. My trusty umbrella broke yesterday and I discovered that one of the zippers on my sandals broke so now I can't pull it up. It must've broken at Issy's house some time during her party because I remember it being fine before I got to her house but I don't remember if it was okay afterwards (I didn't zip up my shoes on the way home because I was too lazy). In the meantime, my dad attached a purple paperclip to my shoe as a replacement zip. I find it works better than the old zip o_o

Ugh... some UAC thing came in the mail today, just some letter about how to interpret our incoming ATAR or something. Reading it makes me feel sick because it's saying stuff like "if you get 70 in all your exams, you will most likely get 70 ATAR or even lower." Like what? Seriously? I really don't think that's how it works because that would mean I'm doomed. And how does that work? I mean, are they saying for those that want 99.95 they have to be practically perfect in everything? Because I know that that's not the case (right?).

And reading that scares me more because from the start I didn't believe I could get into the course I want to (and I still don't) and come December 20 that belief will probably come true. And then I start thinking "oh god I don't want to do my second choice for a whole year just so I can transfer into what I really want". Sigh what am I going to do. But then again, if I really want it, then I should be willing to jump through that extra year to make it. Any chance is good right? But that's assuming I can actually do well in my second choice so that I can transfer T_T

And now I don't know if my slight headache is from reading that stupid stuff UAC sent me or if it's because of taking demazin for my nose. My grandma has a bad nose, which she gave to my mum and lucky me, mum passed it on to me (sarcasm). So my nose has been running all day (probably due to all the wind outside) and in a desperate attempt to get some relief I took a tablet. Which I normally never do because that drowsy stuff always hits me pretty hard. I remember last year I was ill with something pretty bad (don't remember what it was) and I took some medicine that had side effects which make you drowsy. Well the result was that I kept drifting in and out of microsleep in double jap.

In the end, I ended up skipping double physics to go to the sick bay to have a nice sleep because it was either that, or go to class and possibly fall off the stool if I fell asleep :/ Which I have actually almost done several times (those times when physics is so boring you nearly fall asleep, until almost falling off wakes you up).

Even though I took the day tablet which is not supposed to have such a bad effect, I can't tell if right now I am sleepy and headache-y because of the side effects of it or if I'm genuinely sleepy and my body is tired. It's only 9:50 though, surely my body can't be that weak?

And today I swear I drank at least 10 cups of water which is a record for me because normally I seem to only drink 1 to 2 cups a day. The reason is because I accidentally used too many chilli flakes on my pizza and my tongue was burning so bad. And I guess I ate too much salty stuff today because I'm still drinking a lot of water even though the fiery effects of the pizza can no longer be felt.

And why do so many people hate summer? Everyone says stuff like "yay I get to go to (insert country here) and escape the summer heat!" Pfft I LOVE the summer heat. Better than winter. Ugh, winter. It's so uncomfortable and cold, and I could never study properly in the winter because I was just too cold to move and be bothered (even with the heater on). Ah summer, I'm so glad that it kicked off properly with super hot weather on December 1st. The summer we had in December '11 to February '12 was pathetic. It was rainy and cold on more days than it was in the winter. This summer better make up for that >:D

And it's sad that it feels like both November and December have gone... Only January and a bit of February left (sorry I don't know exactly when uni starts) to savour the freedom.

Finally finished cleaning my room today (it took so long because I've been doing it bit by bit). It feels weird sorting through papers of stuff we were once learning not too long ago. It's sad chucking out piles of sheets, not because I'll miss the work but because I spent so much time on it and yet now it's getting thrown out in a flash.



- tracy.

Had a fun day in the city, forgetting the troubles of life (okay not that dramatic). But it was a bad start because someone put me in a bad mood == It's been a long time since I've been to the city (or at least that's how I feel), a few months maybe?

Finally got to wander around the new daiso which was quite the troll shop because once there was a sign where it was going to open saying "opening in august" or something and I know those things are always late so I went in late August/ early September and it wasn't even open == And I haven't had a chance to go see it until today. Spent quite a bit of time there being amused by the simplest of things lol


I found this really cute. It's some sort of rabbit/panda body washing glove thing. I say rabbit/panda because the eyes look like a panda and the ears (especially in the picture on the bottom right of the package) make it look like a bunny. Plus on the package it says in japanese "usapanda" which I take as meaning rabbit panda since I assume "usa" comes from "usagi" (rabbit) and "panda" from panda lol.

After that, we just wasted time walking around aimlessly. At the very end I was trying to find a cake for my dad's birthday which is/was today. My mum told me to buy one for him but my dad told me not to cause he said he "didn't want mum eating too much cake" so I was like "whaaat am I supposed to buy cake or not" T_T

In the end I decided to buy one as after all it is his birthday and normally my parents don't ever buy cakes for their own birthdays cause they don't really care (and so normally I just bake them one as it's the least I can do). So yes! Been many many maaaaany years since we actually bought a cake for my parents. For some reason, trying to find a place that sells cake in the city is so hard. But maybe it's just me. Since I'm noob.

Finally found a decent cake which I was happy to settle for but noooo a certain someone was like "what but that looks so big". And thanks to that person (sarcasm) we wasted another half hour trying to find a better one but nooo such a thing didn't exist. So grrr ended up going back and got the cake that I wanted. Next time I have to be not so easily persuaded and stick to what I know/think is right ==

So I got home and found out mum went grocery shopping without me :( Now I can't have takoyaki this week D; I also found a massive pile of dishes in the sink that I had to wash and I was wondering what on earth my family must have been eating in my absence to warrant such a large number of dirty dishes. According to my mum, she was "so bored that she had nothing else to do but eat" :S And then we had dinner and I bummed around the house and after my sister came back from dancing we had the cake yay!


Okay wow adding pictures on blogspot has certainly changed. It's a lot easier to move it now. Anyway moving on. So yes your typical asian cake with cream and fruit on top. I haven't had a cake like that for my own birthday since I was a little kid that couldn't eat cake and my mum would pick off the fruit and wash off the cream and give it to me to eat. Ah the old days.

Yeah and thanks to the certain someone mentioned previously, I was worried my family would be like "what why did you buy this, this is way too much cake it's too big" but thankfully they didn't say anything except my sister who said "oooh did you buy this from my maths teacher's favourite cake shop?" It's funny because I thought that we wouldn't be able to finish that cake but I think we polished off about three quarters? And it was 10pm too (a time no one really eats anything).

So we always seem to be short on candles and we most definitely didn't have enough candles for my dad's age lol. So we just put enough candles to make up the digits separately and into two groups if that makes sense. My mum said it was pretty cause we could still see the fruit or something.


And here is my mum's nice slice. Mine was retardedly cut since we had to get rid of the nuts which are all around on the cream of the cake. Oh and I told my dad to wish that the world wouldn't end as his birthday wish so maybe that's why the world didn't end today (just kidding lol). And after we finished eating it wasn't quite 10:15pm yet so my mum said "okay world, you can end now cause we've had our cake" lol.

I swear people said the world was ending at 10:15 or 10:11 our time but my sister said it was going to end at 11:50pm o_o So when she went off to the shower slightly after 10 she was saying "oh no, when the world ends I'm going to die in the shower" xD (she was going by the time that I said it would end).

Argh why is it nearly midnight already. Must finish this soon. Can't remember what else I wanted to say except in my junk folder I got an email from Dr. Bathgate. In it, she wrote about what happened on "back to baulko" day even though I know what happened cause I was there. But then, she assumed I didn't go they didn't record my atar.

And then the email goes on to say that I should give them my atar because it's good for data and future reference and we can stay anonymous (they won't tell people who got what) but still == I wish they would stop asking. I understand it's for a good cause but :/ And now I'm wondering how dodgy it is when they say things like how they said to our grade that the median of the grade before us was 98. Like because maybe out of 200 students they only got 100 or 150 or whatever results given to them so you can't really accurately say that the median was 98... So that'll probably happen to next year's grade... getting dodgy statistics because they don't have everyone's atar recorded but oh well.

I have to stop rambling. Yay work tomorrow and Arielle's party. Oh and almost forgot, here's a random picture of us just burning away the candles. For the lols. Nah my dad felt like burning them until the very end instead of throwing them away.


And ugh my body has been dying on me recently. It's getting worse :/ Must be because of what has been happening in the last few days/ weeks/ whatever. I don't know what to do because it hurts and if I put a bandaid on it I think my fingers are only going to get worse. But if I don't it hurts too much. It's a vicious cycle.

Today I had no intention of waking up before or on 9 because I couldn't have cared less about atars after yesterday. Was planning a nice sleep in, and to wake up with just enough time to get to school. But no. Dad came into my room at 8:20 or so and demanded my uac number or whatever (I assumed he wanted to go check it himself) and in my half-asleep state I mumbled "what the hell, it's only 8:20 it's not even going to be online yet until 9 or whatever."

Then I got to fall back asleep but unfortunately I happened to wake up (but didn't get up) at 8:50 and I just decided to check my atar and get it over and done with. I wasn't bothered to get up and check it on the computer so I looked at it on my ipod touch which resides on my bedside table thingy. Got exactly what the atar calculator said I would (who says they aren't accurate) and so it was no surprise and I couldn't think of anything else but "meh" when I saw it. Tried to fall asleep again after that but dad oh so nicely (sarcasm) came in again at 9 to demand me to tell him my uac number and I just couldn't be stuffed with this whole ordeal again and just told him what I got.

And then he didn't believe me (he probably thought I was pulling some random number out of my ass or something) and was like "how do you even know?" and then I kindly told him I checked on my ipod... And he proceeded to call mum and tell her what I got even though the day before my mum told me it wasn't necessary to tell her (see she already knew it would be disappointing).

And shortly after I bothered to get up it was time for school. I didn't even want to go anymore because I knew it would just be about people talking about uni and courses etc. but I wanted to go see my friends and I also had to pick up my yearbook.

At first everything was good because I got to talk to some people about random things and I also saw Mrs. Ogara who told me she was really happy that I got band 6 for Japanese and that in reality I came second in the exam (I thought Eshiyu would since he was second in class). She said I did really well and that she was surprised that Eshiyu fell quite a bit behind Joyce in both the continuers and extension exams (and I was too since they were pretty much tied for everything in class). But it was no surprise he still came second overall since he did really well in the internals.

So yeah that chat was nice because it's good to feel that she thinks I did well. But then she asked the question which all the other teachers I encountered shortly after also asked me: "Did you get into the course you wanted to do?"

I'm sure the teachers don't mean any harm by asking that question (at least I hope not) but it started getting annoying because my answer is "no" and I didn't want to deal with the whole "oh, are you happy with what you got?" and blah blah ordeal that came afterwards.

Like even if you try to take comfort in the fact that they don't know what you got, they ask things like "did you get over x?" And if you say yes they're all "oh that's great! Don't be so hard on yourself, you did well!" And it's ironic that throughout the whole year they're all "oh we don't even get to know your atars and you don't even have to tell us" and yet today I had -fun- (sarcasm) having Mrs. Hawken block Rosemary, Arielle and I in our tracks while holding her clipboard (with what I assume is the grade roll call on it) asking us what we got.

And all I could manage was "uh, I don't want to tell you" even though in my head I was thinking "what the hell, I thought this was our own business why do I have to share this with you." She proceeded to insist that it was for a good cause, to gather data or whatever as reference for future years and I just continued to insist that I wasn't going to tell her and I swear after that we had a two minute stare-off with what I think was a silent battle where she was telling me that I had to tell her and I was still saying no.

Well luckily Arielle got her attention by saying she was happy with her mark and I guess she recorded it down. Rosemary and I finally made our way out of there == And after that I saw Mr. Ursino (and dodged Dr. Bathgate) and we talked for a bit. He seemed happy that my craptastic extension mark got scaled to band 6 lol. Okay so he didn't say it but I bet he was thinking that since I said "yeah I did so badly in extension but it got scaled a lot because of everyone" and he said "see! I told you so!" Somehow I think I'm going to be one of those stories he tells his classes in future where he'll be like "this student of mine always got 70's and yet got scaled to band 6 so you kids shouldn't give up hope!"

After that it was good because I got to catch up with my group, talk about plans etc. Unfortunately there was a few more of the "are you happy with what you got?" from some teachers. I know they don't know what we got so I could have tried to lie and said "yes" but unfortunately my face expression goes retarded when I blatantly lie like that so I'm forced to go "no" which is seriously always followed by their "but you still did well!"

Argh and then Mr. Nesbitt came to the table our group was sitting at, asking us if we had our marks recorded on the clipboards yet and since there were several teachers collecting marks Tash and I lied and said "yes" and then laughed when he left since I didn't actually record mine down but he wouldn't know (since he assumed I put it on another clipboard).

Luckily after that I got to bum around parra for a bit with Rosemary, Tash and George and then Rosemary left to go do her 33 hours straight of shopping. Tash, George and I went to watch a movie and met Lauren and Cissy along the way who also ended up joining us :) We also had refreshing slushies hurray.

Unfortunately had to go home after that and after spending so much of my post-hsc life at home I just feel like going out all the time because I can't stand it at home anymore. I feel bored and there isn't enough to take my mind off things and my parents are probably trying to hide disappointment or something and they are all like "are you sure there isn't anything else you want to do in uni?"

Well I don't feel like there's any other options because I can't ever imagine myself doing something else such as maths, commerce-y stuff, sciences, law and whatever other blah out there I can't think of right now. I wish they'd stop trying to make me think of an alternative course to do because don't they say you should do what you love? I seriously can't imagine doing any of the above for a few years. Bleh. The only thing that wouldn't be bleh as an alternative would be doing japanese in uni but I'm sure they would disapprove and I'm not sure what I could do with a degree in that.

Ah well.

To be honest I don't think I'd be that upset if the world did end on the 21st (not that I think it will). And I'm not saying that in a pessimistic way, I just meant it in a "life has been okay up til now, I wouldn't really regret anything if it ended on the 21st" way.

Ugh and I'm really disliking uac and bos right now because I just think they are a big headache. Firstly, to log on to either site our "username" is a number and so is our password == That really sucks because I always have difficulty remembering numbers and every time I log on to those sites I need to press the "forgot your pin?" link to reset it... I've also had to reset my bank card pin three times becaues I kept forgetting my old one...

I also think that uac and bos are evil for deciding to give our results now instead of all the way in February or something. Because now some of us (like me) will have our "holidays" ruined because we will be thinking about what we will get or whether we can go where we want to go. If they did it in early February or something, at least we could be ignorant and in bliss for an extra two months but nooo we can find out in December and ponder our life and whatever.

There was probably more I had to say but I can't remember anymore. Oh wait I remembered. It's funny because I think my mind just completely forgot about hsc and atars and blah until this week. And then Keely told me stories about how some people were starting to get nightmares about their results and whatnot and then that night I had my very own nightmare about the hsc T_T Man I thought my exam and results related nightmares were over.

So according to that nightmare I got like 80 in everything (or something like that because the dream is hazy now). Then the next day I had a nightmare where I received 91.99 atar and in the dream and in real-life (I was like half-asleep or something) I was thinking "the hell? There's no such thing as a something point 99 atar). It was a nightmare because unfortunately 92 atar (rounding up since there's no such thing as 91.99) isn't enough to get me into where I want to go :/

Ah well, a few more hours to go.

Yay I get to go back to work tomorrow. Hopefully my boss doesn't ask how I went T_T

Staying at home is both boring and fun. Occasionally there are cool things to do (watching random videos, playing the wii again, playing with photoshop) but sometimes it just gets really boring, especially when there is no one else at home with me. It's weird, usually I'm one of the first people up in the morning (because of school) and now everyday I wake up and everyone's gone. The house is too quiet T_T

And what's with people always wanting to get married on 12/12/12 or 11/11/11 or whatever repeated dates we've had in the past. It's just a random day and I don't see how those numbers really make it that great or special == Like there's no meaning behind it and unless it's their anniversary or something I don't really see why you should get married on 12/12/12 or whatever just because there's three twelves.

And yay new naruto came out but this image makes me sad:

And yes to anyone else, it's just a picture of someone crying but it's why she's crying that's sad T_T And I'm hoping the long-winded war plot will come to a conclusion soon because I really want to see how everyone gets out of the mess (sorry Kishimoto, I just want to see the solution instead of more death щ(ಥДಥщ) ).

I should do something interesting with my time instead of just bumming around all day D;

I always seem to have bad luck. My trusty umbrella broke yesterday and I discovered that one of the zippers on my sandals broke so now I can't pull it up. It must've broken at Issy's house some time during her party because I remember it being fine before I got to her house but I don't remember if it was okay afterwards (I didn't zip up my shoes on the way home because I was too lazy). In the meantime, my dad attached a purple paperclip to my shoe as a replacement zip. I find it works better than the old zip o_o

Ugh... some UAC thing came in the mail today, just some letter about how to interpret our incoming ATAR or something. Reading it makes me feel sick because it's saying stuff like "if you get 70 in all your exams, you will most likely get 70 ATAR or even lower." Like what? Seriously? I really don't think that's how it works because that would mean I'm doomed. And how does that work? I mean, are they saying for those that want 99.95 they have to be practically perfect in everything? Because I know that that's not the case (right?).

And reading that scares me more because from the start I didn't believe I could get into the course I want to (and I still don't) and come December 20 that belief will probably come true. And then I start thinking "oh god I don't want to do my second choice for a whole year just so I can transfer into what I really want". Sigh what am I going to do. But then again, if I really want it, then I should be willing to jump through that extra year to make it. Any chance is good right? But that's assuming I can actually do well in my second choice so that I can transfer T_T

And now I don't know if my slight headache is from reading that stupid stuff UAC sent me or if it's because of taking demazin for my nose. My grandma has a bad nose, which she gave to my mum and lucky me, mum passed it on to me (sarcasm). So my nose has been running all day (probably due to all the wind outside) and in a desperate attempt to get some relief I took a tablet. Which I normally never do because that drowsy stuff always hits me pretty hard. I remember last year I was ill with something pretty bad (don't remember what it was) and I took some medicine that had side effects which make you drowsy. Well the result was that I kept drifting in and out of microsleep in double jap.

In the end, I ended up skipping double physics to go to the sick bay to have a nice sleep because it was either that, or go to class and possibly fall off the stool if I fell asleep :/ Which I have actually almost done several times (those times when physics is so boring you nearly fall asleep, until almost falling off wakes you up).

Even though I took the day tablet which is not supposed to have such a bad effect, I can't tell if right now I am sleepy and headache-y because of the side effects of it or if I'm genuinely sleepy and my body is tired. It's only 9:50 though, surely my body can't be that weak?

And today I swear I drank at least 10 cups of water which is a record for me because normally I seem to only drink 1 to 2 cups a day. The reason is because I accidentally used too many chilli flakes on my pizza and my tongue was burning so bad. And I guess I ate too much salty stuff today because I'm still drinking a lot of water even though the fiery effects of the pizza can no longer be felt.

And why do so many people hate summer? Everyone says stuff like "yay I get to go to (insert country here) and escape the summer heat!" Pfft I LOVE the summer heat. Better than winter. Ugh, winter. It's so uncomfortable and cold, and I could never study properly in the winter because I was just too cold to move and be bothered (even with the heater on). Ah summer, I'm so glad that it kicked off properly with super hot weather on December 1st. The summer we had in December '11 to February '12 was pathetic. It was rainy and cold on more days than it was in the winter. This summer better make up for that >:D

And it's sad that it feels like both November and December have gone... Only January and a bit of February left (sorry I don't know exactly when uni starts) to savour the freedom.

Finally finished cleaning my room today (it took so long because I've been doing it bit by bit). It feels weird sorting through papers of stuff we were once learning not too long ago. It's sad chucking out piles of sheets, not because I'll miss the work but because I spent so much time on it and yet now it's getting thrown out in a flash.



- tracy.

 Mini Guide and Tips for Japan (and Korea) - 500th post! 
 June 29th - Sydney to Seoul 
 June 30th - Myeong-dong and Jung-gu 
 July 1st - Itaewon and Jung-gu (again) 
 July 2nd - Apgujeong Rodeo, Gangnam, Yongsan 
 July 3rd - Hongdae, D-Cube City and Yongsan 
 July 4th - last day in Korea. Dongdaemun Markets, Doota and back to our beloved Myeongdong 
 /post break/ What to buy from each Korean brand 
 July 5th - Leaving Seoul for Tokyo (Akihabara) 
 July 6th - Harajuku 
 July 7th - Ginza, Tokyo Station and Marunouchi 
 July 8th – Shinjuku 
 July 9th - Ikebukuro (Sunshine City) and Shinjuku 
 July 10th - Shibuya and Asakusa 
 July 11th - Shinjuku and Odaiba 
 July 12th - Akihabara and Roppongi/Minato 
 July 13th - Mt. Fuji and Kawaguchi 
 July 14th - Kawaguchiko and Harajuku 
 July 15th - Osaka and Tempozan 
 July 16th - Universal Studios Japan 
 July 17th - Namba (Dōtonbori), Shinsaibashi, Tennōji Park then all the way to Kyoto (Gion) 
 July 18th (last day in Osaka) - Osaka Castle, Spa World, Umeda 
 July 19th - Hiroshima and Miyajima 
 July 20th - Hiroshima --> Kyoto 
 July 21st - Arashiyama Area and North-west Kyoto (Ryōan-ji and Kinkaku-ji) 
 July 22nd - Kyoto -> Nara and Osaka (NARUTO EXHIBITION!!) 
 July 23rd - Kyoto back to Tokyo 
 July 24th - Yokohama (Minato Mirai 21)  
 July 25th and 26th (END) - Tokyo -> Seoul -> HOME 

✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)

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