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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
 : Loves pink, food, ice-cream.
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unnecessary rant to myself (don't read)
written on Thursday, December 20, 2012 @ 10:47 PM ✈
Today I had no intention of waking up before or on 9 because I couldn't have cared less about atars after yesterday. Was planning a nice sleep in, and to wake up with just enough time to get to school. But no. Dad came into my room at 8:20 or so and demanded my uac number or whatever (I assumed he wanted to go check it himself) and in my half-asleep state I mumbled "what the hell, it's only 8:20 it's not even going to be online yet until 9 or whatever."
Then I got to fall back asleep but unfortunately I happened to wake up (but didn't get up) at 8:50 and I just decided to check my atar and get it over and done with. I wasn't bothered to get up and check it on the computer so I looked at it on my ipod touch which resides on my bedside table thingy. Got exactly what the atar calculator said I would (who says they aren't accurate) and so it was no surprise and I couldn't think of anything else but "meh" when I saw it. Tried to fall asleep again after that but dad oh so nicely (sarcasm) came in again at 9 to demand me to tell him my uac number and I just couldn't be stuffed with this whole ordeal again and just told him what I got.
And then he didn't believe me (he probably thought I was pulling some random number out of my ass or something) and was like "how do you even know?" and then I kindly told him I checked on my ipod... And he proceeded to call mum and tell her what I got even though the day before my mum told me it wasn't necessary to tell her (see she already knew it would be disappointing).
And shortly after I bothered to get up it was time for school. I didn't even want to go anymore because I knew it would just be about people talking about uni and courses etc. but I wanted to go see my friends and I also had to pick up my yearbook.
At first everything was good because I got to talk to some people about random things and I also saw Mrs. Ogara who told me she was really happy that I got band 6 for Japanese and that in reality I came second in the exam (I thought Eshiyu would since he was second in class). She said I did really well and that she was surprised that Eshiyu fell quite a bit behind Joyce in both the continuers and extension exams (and I was too since they were pretty much tied for everything in class). But it was no surprise he still came second overall since he did really well in the internals.
So yeah that chat was nice because it's good to feel that she thinks I did well. But then she asked the question which all the other teachers I encountered shortly after also asked me: "Did you get into the course you wanted to do?"
I'm sure the teachers don't mean any harm by asking that question (at least I hope not) but it started getting annoying because my answer is "no" and I didn't want to deal with the whole "oh, are you happy with what you got?" and blah blah ordeal that came afterwards.
Like even if you try to take comfort in the fact that they don't know what you got, they ask things like "did you get over x?" And if you say yes they're all "oh that's great! Don't be so hard on yourself, you did well!" And it's ironic that throughout the whole year they're all "oh we don't even get to know your atars and you don't even have to tell us" and yet today I had -fun- (sarcasm) having Mrs. Hawken block Rosemary, Arielle and I in our tracks while holding her clipboard (with what I assume is the grade roll call on it) asking us what we got.
And all I could manage was "uh, I don't want to tell you" even though in my head I was thinking "what the hell, I thought this was our own business why do I have to share this with you." She proceeded to insist that it was for a good cause, to gather data or whatever as reference for future years and I just continued to insist that I wasn't going to tell her and I swear after that we had a two minute stare-off with what I think was a silent battle where she was telling me that I had to tell her and I was still saying no.
Well luckily Arielle got her attention by saying she was happy with her mark and I guess she recorded it down. Rosemary and I finally made our way out of there == And after that I saw Mr. Ursino (and dodged Dr. Bathgate) and we talked for a bit. He seemed happy that my craptastic extension mark got scaled to band 6 lol. Okay so he didn't say it but I bet he was thinking that since I said "yeah I did so badly in extension but it got scaled a lot because of everyone" and he said "see! I told you so!" Somehow I think I'm going to be one of those stories he tells his classes in future where he'll be like "this student of mine always got 70's and yet got scaled to band 6 so you kids shouldn't give up hope!"
After that it was good because I got to catch up with my group, talk about plans etc. Unfortunately there was a few more of the "are you happy with what you got?" from some teachers. I know they don't know what we got so I could have tried to lie and said "yes" but unfortunately my face expression goes retarded when I blatantly lie like that so I'm forced to go "no" which is seriously always followed by their "but you still did well!"
Argh and then Mr. Nesbitt came to the table our group was sitting at, asking us if we had our marks recorded on the clipboards yet and since there were several teachers collecting marks Tash and I lied and said "yes" and then laughed when he left since I didn't actually record mine down but he wouldn't know (since he assumed I put it on another clipboard).
Luckily after that I got to bum around parra for a bit with Rosemary, Tash and George and then Rosemary left to go do her 33 hours straight of shopping. Tash, George and I went to watch a movie and met Lauren and Cissy along the way who also ended up joining us :) We also had refreshing slushies hurray.
Unfortunately had to go home after that and after spending so much of my post-hsc life at home I just feel like going out all the time because I can't stand it at home anymore. I feel bored and there isn't enough to take my mind off things and my parents are probably trying to hide disappointment or something and they are all like "are you sure there isn't anything else you want to do in uni?"
Well I don't feel like there's any other options because I can't ever imagine myself doing something else such as maths, commerce-y stuff, sciences, law and whatever other blah out there I can't think of right now. I wish they'd stop trying to make me think of an alternative course to do because don't they say you should do what you love? I seriously can't imagine doing any of the above for a few years. Bleh. The only thing that wouldn't be bleh as an alternative would be doing japanese in uni but I'm sure they would disapprove and I'm not sure what I could do with a degree in that.
Ah well.
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unnecessary rant to myself (don't read)
written on Thursday, December 20, 2012 @ 10:47 PM ✈
Today I had no intention of waking up before or on 9 because I couldn't have cared less about atars after yesterday. Was planning a nice sleep in, and to wake up with just enough time to get to school. But no. Dad came into my room at 8:20 or so and demanded my uac number or whatever (I assumed he wanted to go check it himself) and in my half-asleep state I mumbled "what the hell, it's only 8:20 it's not even going to be online yet until 9 or whatever."
Then I got to fall back asleep but unfortunately I happened to wake up (but didn't get up) at 8:50 and I just decided to check my atar and get it over and done with. I wasn't bothered to get up and check it on the computer so I looked at it on my ipod touch which resides on my bedside table thingy. Got exactly what the atar calculator said I would (who says they aren't accurate) and so it was no surprise and I couldn't think of anything else but "meh" when I saw it. Tried to fall asleep again after that but dad oh so nicely (sarcasm) came in again at 9 to demand me to tell him my uac number and I just couldn't be stuffed with this whole ordeal again and just told him what I got.
And then he didn't believe me (he probably thought I was pulling some random number out of my ass or something) and was like "how do you even know?" and then I kindly told him I checked on my ipod... And he proceeded to call mum and tell her what I got even though the day before my mum told me it wasn't necessary to tell her (see she already knew it would be disappointing).
And shortly after I bothered to get up it was time for school. I didn't even want to go anymore because I knew it would just be about people talking about uni and courses etc. but I wanted to go see my friends and I also had to pick up my yearbook.
At first everything was good because I got to talk to some people about random things and I also saw Mrs. Ogara who told me she was really happy that I got band 6 for Japanese and that in reality I came second in the exam (I thought Eshiyu would since he was second in class). She said I did really well and that she was surprised that Eshiyu fell quite a bit behind Joyce in both the continuers and extension exams (and I was too since they were pretty much tied for everything in class). But it was no surprise he still came second overall since he did really well in the internals.
So yeah that chat was nice because it's good to feel that she thinks I did well. But then she asked the question which all the other teachers I encountered shortly after also asked me: "Did you get into the course you wanted to do?"
I'm sure the teachers don't mean any harm by asking that question (at least I hope not) but it started getting annoying because my answer is "no" and I didn't want to deal with the whole "oh, are you happy with what you got?" and blah blah ordeal that came afterwards.
Like even if you try to take comfort in the fact that they don't know what you got, they ask things like "did you get over x?" And if you say yes they're all "oh that's great! Don't be so hard on yourself, you did well!" And it's ironic that throughout the whole year they're all "oh we don't even get to know your atars and you don't even have to tell us" and yet today I had -fun- (sarcasm) having Mrs. Hawken block Rosemary, Arielle and I in our tracks while holding her clipboard (with what I assume is the grade roll call on it) asking us what we got.
And all I could manage was "uh, I don't want to tell you" even though in my head I was thinking "what the hell, I thought this was our own business why do I have to share this with you." She proceeded to insist that it was for a good cause, to gather data or whatever as reference for future years and I just continued to insist that I wasn't going to tell her and I swear after that we had a two minute stare-off with what I think was a silent battle where she was telling me that I had to tell her and I was still saying no.
Well luckily Arielle got her attention by saying she was happy with her mark and I guess she recorded it down. Rosemary and I finally made our way out of there == And after that I saw Mr. Ursino (and dodged Dr. Bathgate) and we talked for a bit. He seemed happy that my craptastic extension mark got scaled to band 6 lol. Okay so he didn't say it but I bet he was thinking that since I said "yeah I did so badly in extension but it got scaled a lot because of everyone" and he said "see! I told you so!" Somehow I think I'm going to be one of those stories he tells his classes in future where he'll be like "this student of mine always got 70's and yet got scaled to band 6 so you kids shouldn't give up hope!"
After that it was good because I got to catch up with my group, talk about plans etc. Unfortunately there was a few more of the "are you happy with what you got?" from some teachers. I know they don't know what we got so I could have tried to lie and said "yes" but unfortunately my face expression goes retarded when I blatantly lie like that so I'm forced to go "no" which is seriously always followed by their "but you still did well!"
Argh and then Mr. Nesbitt came to the table our group was sitting at, asking us if we had our marks recorded on the clipboards yet and since there were several teachers collecting marks Tash and I lied and said "yes" and then laughed when he left since I didn't actually record mine down but he wouldn't know (since he assumed I put it on another clipboard).
Luckily after that I got to bum around parra for a bit with Rosemary, Tash and George and then Rosemary left to go do her 33 hours straight of shopping. Tash, George and I went to watch a movie and met Lauren and Cissy along the way who also ended up joining us :) We also had refreshing slushies hurray.
Unfortunately had to go home after that and after spending so much of my post-hsc life at home I just feel like going out all the time because I can't stand it at home anymore. I feel bored and there isn't enough to take my mind off things and my parents are probably trying to hide disappointment or something and they are all like "are you sure there isn't anything else you want to do in uni?"
Well I don't feel like there's any other options because I can't ever imagine myself doing something else such as maths, commerce-y stuff, sciences, law and whatever other blah out there I can't think of right now. I wish they'd stop trying to make me think of an alternative course to do because don't they say you should do what you love? I seriously can't imagine doing any of the above for a few years. Bleh. The only thing that wouldn't be bleh as an alternative would be doing japanese in uni but I'm sure they would disapprove and I'm not sure what I could do with a degree in that.
Ah well.
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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my sunshine
links exchanged opened! just tag me but link me first
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