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written on Tuesday, March 12, 2013 @ 11:30 PM ✈
This post is going to be really broken and filled with random thoughts. Just a heads up :)
First up, I heard snsd's "flower power" on the v channel just now and my thoughts are god please do not sing your song in japanese when it sounds like crap == Yeah if any SONEs happen to see that I'll be bashed but whatever, I'm just a hater of kpop (￣ー￣) Anyway I say that because I cannot consider that singing, yes I get that japanese is not their native language nor mine but it's so broken and there's no rhythm it doesn't sound good and that's not singing so please don't "sing" in another language if it doesn't sound good. At first I was like "what the hell are they even singing, it doesn't even sound korean" and only at the end of the song did I realise it was in japanese == I can't even guess what the song was about since I only heard random words and other times I was like "what the hell were they trying to say."
My body is dying on me. My nose has been running non-stop since yesterday though it got much worse today. I was blowing my nose like every other second during the bio prac sigh. And right now it's so blocked and I just can't smell anything and I don't think you can understand how annoying and frustrating this is T_T And why is this happening? I'm not sick and this normally happens in winter but it's barely autumn whyyyy. If I don't bring a tissue box with me tomorrow I think my nose will run all over the place.
Secondly my eyes are soooo tired. I don't know what it is but maybe it's the combo of staring at the powerpoint stuff in lectures, being on my phone during breaks (I'll get to that in a bit), only to come home and go on the computer to get my work and print it and do readings. I think the problem is that I don't give it a good rest in between BUT THERE'S NO TIME. My eyes are actually kind of red when I wake up these days it's sad. I wish that if I used technology (staring at screens) for like an hour, that my eyes would be in a decent amount of pain (eg. like the pain of shampoo getting into your eyes) so then I would be forced to get off and rest. If that makes sense. Because I think a lot of the time people don't realise their eyes are tired and that they should rest so that would be a good indicator.
Though I realise I need to rest it's just no time :/ It's only been a week and my body is dying, haven't been getting much sleep recently and somehow I don't think that's going to change any time soon T_T And how blind am I going to be at the end of uni if we're using technology this much everyday for 4-5 years? On another note I really hate printing out all the lecture notes and tutorial stuff since I use my laptop which isn't connected to the printer so I always have to save things to a usb, go to the other comp, turn it on and then print. Doesn't sound too bad but it's so annoying for someone as lazy as me. And actually I hate printing stuff since it's such a waste of time and paper, I miss the old days of high school when everything was given to us (ಥ＿ಥ)
I'm glad I take an earlier train in the morning since there was that whole tree branch falling over the cables or something down one line and broken cables/wires on another line. Although my train wasn't delayed (in fact it came to my station 3 mins early), it did end up stopping outside redfern (before the platform, so we couldn't get off) for 3 mins. That was okay since I was super early but if I caught the later train which normally gets me there just in time, I would have been late. Poor Carol though, her train got delayed and she missed her first lecture D;
When I got out of the station I noticed that it was really cloudy and was quite cold and it also started sprinkling. I didn't bother taking out my umbrella since it wasn't heavy rain and when it's sprinkling it's refreshing though I did start to regret my stupid rule of "no jeans and no boots until winter" since it was a little cold. But lo and behold about noon, bam sunshine full blast. It became quite hot and I was like "hell yes my rule still works, glad I didn't wear jeans cause I'd burn" :D Since it was cold in the morning, my friend bought hot chocolate but as soon as she went outside she was like "damn why'd I buy that, the sun's out now and this'll make me feel too hot ==" xD
A 5 hour block isn't that bad because it makes the day feel like it's gone by a lot faster than if I had a break in between. It also makes me super happy when I get to go home at 2 because I get back at around 2:50 though unfortunately no one could pick me up and I was too ceebs to walk home so I ran some errands for my parents and yeah. Only downside was that I was hungry as hell. Okay not really because like I said I lost my appetite but I knew I had to eat something. Ate just enough in my last lecture so my stomach wouldn't growl and disturb people T_T It's so sad that I have bio prac from 10 to 1 because it's strictly no eating there (lab). I feel so bad eating in a lecture room because they all tell you not to but everyone still does...
Seriously why are we doing phys stuff in chem? I think the other students will be a bit lost if they haven't done phys before. At this stage I'm glad I still understand the stuff so I'm just chilling in the lectures but I'm not looking forward to when the stuff will actually be new to me. Bio prac was okay but I'm not as enthusiastic about microscopes as others.
I don't get how I'm supposed to do my stats work before the tutorial tomorrow considering we haven't learnt the stuff yet in the lectures? Oh wells. Also NOOOOO vaccinations soon. I really hate uni because they have no regard for class clashes T_T Mine's during next week's bio prac and how exactly am I going to catch up on that T_T It's not exactly easy trying to find another time in the week where I have a three hour block that fits in with the other session of bio prac. WHYYYY
It's 10:30. I'm tired. I'm losing my touch. Normally I don't get tired until the 11:30 mark or so. Why is that when I get home I do some work and then bam it's 10pm and I'm not even finished. Why why why. Also, they said that if you have 5 hours of class (example) then you should study for 5 hours at home. How is that possible? If I get home at 5, you want me to study until 10? That's kind of hard, and plus you have to consider shower, eat, blah whatever so that's kind of a strict schedule.
You know what I hate, that stupid story I saw on fb about someone frying someone else's hampster because he was drunk. I actually saw it a few days ago in the newspaper or something but what I hate is how a lot of the comments consisted of "LOL" or something of that nature where they think it's funny or cool. God those people piss me off so much. I can't comprehend how that's funny in the slightest and how would you like to be put in such a position like that where you're just in so much pain and you can't do anything. Ugh I think too much.
Okay so normally I'm kind of against people being glued to forms of technology eg. phones, computers etc. when out in public or in class unless it's necessary (like for note taking or research). I don't exactly hate it but I just don't want to be someone who's always looking at my phone or whatever. But now I feel like I might seem like that kind of person to others because during breaks I look at my phone quite a bit because I text people so that we can catch up T_T On an unrelated note, wearing a backpack today was really comfy and it gives such a nostalgic feeling.
Now for the end. Last night my sister told me there was a mosquito around the house that she wasn't able to kill. Unfortunately that damn mosquito came searching for me as I went to sleep and I could hear the "bzzzzz bzzzzzzzz" by my ears as I was drifting off to sleep. I don't know about you but that sound creeps me out because I know I'm going to get bitten. So following the principles of "ignorance is bliss" I pull the blanket over my head in order to try and stop it from getting to me and tried to go to sleep. A minute later I feel a prickling feeling at my leg == I slapped it in case the mosquito was there then went to sleep...
Everything was fine until I got home today and while I was taking off my shoe I found two mosquito bites on my right leg. And during the day this spot on my foot was feeling itchy but since I was wearing closed toe lace-up shoes for the prac I couldn't get to it so I ignored it. I didn't look closely until after my shower and I found more mosquito bites (￣ー￣)
And for no good reason, here's a picture of them all that looks super creepy when put together:
In order, one on the underside of my lower right leg, right foot, left foot, two on my left shin in a diagonal line. Five in total, which is probably the most I've ever had in one go? Unfortunately since I didn't "strike while the iron was hot", which is to say I didn't know I had them until it was too late to put on tiger balm so they're going to be there for a few days sigh. SOOO ITCHY I just want to scratch off all my skin. All I can do is put on tiger balm to temporarily relieve the itchiness a bit but then I'll stink up the lecture rooms.
Mister mosquito, if you're still in the house, meet me in my bedroom around midnight since that's when I'll be going to sleep. I promise to kill you for what you did to me you greedy bastard!!!
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