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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
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STOP LYING !
written on Thursday, March 21, 2013 @ 11:50 PM ✈
Highlight of the day was the skin and blood test (obvious sarcasm). I got there at 11 as that was my schedule time and there was only about 5 others in my course waiting for their turn and the rest of the waiting room was full with other students who wanted check-ups or goodness knows what (seeing as it's none of our business we can't know those things right?). So I thought if there's only 5 people or so in front of me, I can get out in 20 minutes right?
But for some reason it took like 45 minutes until it was my turn (I don't know why it took so long for those 5 people since mine only took 5 minutes in total). God the whole time I was just freaking out and feeling sick because I just hate needles. It's not like I react like that on purpose, my stomach just goes all funny and my heart starts beating really fast for no reason while I'm waiting. So I finally got called and the lady chatted with me for a bit (asking if I had allergies, the usual stuff) and then she proceeded to do the skin test. That was one nasty looking needle == Before she did that though I told her I really hated needles and she asked me if it was just fear or if I actually faint. Haha sorry lady but I've never fainted.
Anyway she absolutely insisted I had to get it in my left arm when I asked for it in my right arm. Lady, you've gotten off the wrong foot with me. I protested but she continued to insist, saying it was "because it's easier to blah blah". I say blah blah there because I don't even remember what she actually said because it was some super half-assed reasoning. I don't even get why it matters, how is my right arm any different to my left? In any case unfortunately I had to do it in my left arm because it's just best not to argue with a doctor/nurse...
Sigh my poor previously un-punctured left arm :( She told me I could cry if I wanted to (this was because I told her I cried when I got it done when I was 5) but I didn't but gosh it seriously hurt ಥ＿ಥ The first second when it goes in you're like "oh it's not that bad" because you don't feel anything but from then onwards boy does it hurt! Ugh I will never forget that awful stinging sensation. In fact after it was done, when I recalled the feeling I felt sick :/
I went back to the waiting room because I had to go to someone else for the blood test. When I went in, I warned her that I'm really bad with needles. This lady was nice because I asked if I really absolutely had to get it in my left arm and she said I could get it in my right arm hurray. Unfortunately (cue sigh) she couldn't find a decent vein in my right arm orz And she was like "did you even drink any water today?" Lol oops caught. I didn't do it on purpose, I just normally don't drink a lot of water.
So yeah, my poor left arm got punctured twice with ugly needles in one day :( I always get things in my right arm so I can at least still do things since my left arm is my writing arm. Everyone says the blood test hurts less than the skin test and it so does not. They are about the same. God that prickle when it goes in -shudder- Thank you lady for trying to distract me during that part by asking me questions, unfortunately I couldn't really answer you well because my mind was too distracted trying to not think about the pain (but inevitably you do think about it). The worst part was when it came out!! Ugh I can't describe it, it just feels weird and hurts like something is being pulled out of you (fail, that is what's happening after all). I've heard people say "it hurts more when the needle comes out, rather than when they put it in." That was never the case for me until today ಥ＿ಥ
When she finished, the first lady (the one who did the skin test) came into the room and saw me and was like "Oh look! You survived!" And since the door was open I swear the whole waiting room heard and now I shall forever be known as the big wuss to those doctors/nurses and those students in the waiting room orz My reaction was to get out of there as soon as possible lol. Unfortunately I had difficulty making a swift exit since I couldn't use my left arm (it felt too fragile after that)
so I had to open the door with my right arm. The thing is, the door was
pretty "heavy" and my right arm literally has no strength plus it's my
habit to open it with my left so it took me a bit too long to open the door so everyone must have been like x_x what a weirdo.
Fuarrr so not looking forward to next week when it's the actual vaccination because the lady says that one will leave your arm feeling sore. WHYYY! No other vaccination has that complication! And don't you dare do that one in my left arm or I will hurt someone == If it has to be sore, it has to be my right arm. I don't get why at orientation they fully ranted about how we were not allowed to do the course if we refused to get vaccinated since it was a danger and yet tomorrow we're going to the farm but we're not even vaccinated yet? Like what? Good job people, good job.
Oh
and for the people that got the skin test before me, the site of the
injection became really swollen for everyone. It basically looks like a
mosquito bite but three times larger but it hurts (and for some it
bruises). But after I got mine, even when I waited for a bit of time,
nothing happened and my skin was perfectly fine except for bits of blood
at the injection site o_o What does that mean?! I'm also wondering what
happened to the blood that came out because I didn't wipe/wash it off
and it just gradually disappeared as the day went by but it didn't go
onto my books or clothes... I don't know about you guys, but after the
blood test I saw my blood in the vial and I just felt sick. Seeing all
that which just came out from me is not cool :/ I don't care if it's
other people's blood or if I like scrape my skin and some blood comes
out but I just can't deal with seeing that much of my own blood.
Saw baulko people at scitech today! Wait was that even right. How am I supposed to say it T_T Cause we don't go to baulko anymore but if I say "usyd people" that's stupid cause that would cover oh about, 50000 people. Do I saw baulko-usyd people?
Ugh stupid stupid agen survey assignment thing. There's four questions and yet it takes me so long because I hate survey questions. I totally ranted in the "what don't you like" section and have yet to write anything in the "what you like" section. They say we can write whatever and it'll be fine but I reckon that's a lie and somehow I feel like if I truthfully tell them what I don't like (in the form of constructive criticism of course) they will mark me down anyway. Who knows. And they tell you to refer to the "rubric" when answering the questions and you want to know what the rubric looks like?
 OH WOW so usefulllll /sarcasm.
And then there was this question too. Can I seriously just circle all the negative ones? I really don't like agen in the least. Like I don't even know what we're supposed to be learning because it's so all over the place and our lecturers just read the slides and that is seriously boring, you have to give me something on top of that.
In any case I didn't finish cause the questions are bleh and so I just checked when it was due again, because I know it's due tomorrow but I just don't know when. Found out it was due 11:59PM and you know what that means?
Finally getting the hang of genstat but seeing that ^ still makes me cry. I still stand by excel > genstat any day. One major pain is that saving anything on this is retarded. You can't save it as one nice simple file. You have to save the input, output, data and graphs as separate files or something ==
It occurs to me that I never addressed why I wrote that as the title. It's because today both of the ladies were like "it's okay, it only hurts like a mosquito bite." I can vouch that that is not true in the slightest. Mosquito bites are painless, I never feel them until I start scratching them and by then the mosquito is long gone (so since I can't feel them I never get to slap them before they bite me). So can doctors stop saying that! Everyone says that and it's NOT TRUE! My mum also said that needles hurt like an ant bite back when I was getting vaccinations for school when I was 5 and I cried because that was so not true and it hurt like hell T_T
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STOP LYING !
written on Thursday, March 21, 2013 @ 11:50 PM ✈
Highlight of the day was the skin and blood test (obvious sarcasm). I got there at 11 as that was my schedule time and there was only about 5 others in my course waiting for their turn and the rest of the waiting room was full with other students who wanted check-ups or goodness knows what (seeing as it's none of our business we can't know those things right?). So I thought if there's only 5 people or so in front of me, I can get out in 20 minutes right?
But for some reason it took like 45 minutes until it was my turn (I don't know why it took so long for those 5 people since mine only took 5 minutes in total). God the whole time I was just freaking out and feeling sick because I just hate needles. It's not like I react like that on purpose, my stomach just goes all funny and my heart starts beating really fast for no reason while I'm waiting. So I finally got called and the lady chatted with me for a bit (asking if I had allergies, the usual stuff) and then she proceeded to do the skin test. That was one nasty looking needle == Before she did that though I told her I really hated needles and she asked me if it was just fear or if I actually faint. Haha sorry lady but I've never fainted.
Anyway she absolutely insisted I had to get it in my left arm when I asked for it in my right arm. Lady, you've gotten off the wrong foot with me. I protested but she continued to insist, saying it was "because it's easier to blah blah". I say blah blah there because I don't even remember what she actually said because it was some super half-assed reasoning. I don't even get why it matters, how is my right arm any different to my left? In any case unfortunately I had to do it in my left arm because it's just best not to argue with a doctor/nurse...
Sigh my poor previously un-punctured left arm :( She told me I could cry if I wanted to (this was because I told her I cried when I got it done when I was 5) but I didn't but gosh it seriously hurt ಥ＿ಥ The first second when it goes in you're like "oh it's not that bad" because you don't feel anything but from then onwards boy does it hurt! Ugh I will never forget that awful stinging sensation. In fact after it was done, when I recalled the feeling I felt sick :/
I went back to the waiting room because I had to go to someone else for the blood test. When I went in, I warned her that I'm really bad with needles. This lady was nice because I asked if I really absolutely had to get it in my left arm and she said I could get it in my right arm hurray. Unfortunately (cue sigh) she couldn't find a decent vein in my right arm orz And she was like "did you even drink any water today?" Lol oops caught. I didn't do it on purpose, I just normally don't drink a lot of water.
So yeah, my poor left arm got punctured twice with ugly needles in one day :( I always get things in my right arm so I can at least still do things since my left arm is my writing arm. Everyone says the blood test hurts less than the skin test and it so does not. They are about the same. God that prickle when it goes in -shudder- Thank you lady for trying to distract me during that part by asking me questions, unfortunately I couldn't really answer you well because my mind was too distracted trying to not think about the pain (but inevitably you do think about it). The worst part was when it came out!! Ugh I can't describe it, it just feels weird and hurts like something is being pulled out of you (fail, that is what's happening after all). I've heard people say "it hurts more when the needle comes out, rather than when they put it in." That was never the case for me until today ಥ＿ಥ
When she finished, the first lady (the one who did the skin test) came into the room and saw me and was like "Oh look! You survived!" And since the door was open I swear the whole waiting room heard and now I shall forever be known as the big wuss to those doctors/nurses and those students in the waiting room orz My reaction was to get out of there as soon as possible lol. Unfortunately I had difficulty making a swift exit since I couldn't use my left arm (it felt too fragile after that)
so I had to open the door with my right arm. The thing is, the door was
pretty "heavy" and my right arm literally has no strength plus it's my
habit to open it with my left so it took me a bit too long to open the door so everyone must have been like x_x what a weirdo.
Fuarrr so not looking forward to next week when it's the actual vaccination because the lady says that one will leave your arm feeling sore. WHYYY! No other vaccination has that complication! And don't you dare do that one in my left arm or I will hurt someone == If it has to be sore, it has to be my right arm. I don't get why at orientation they fully ranted about how we were not allowed to do the course if we refused to get vaccinated since it was a danger and yet tomorrow we're going to the farm but we're not even vaccinated yet? Like what? Good job people, good job.
Oh
and for the people that got the skin test before me, the site of the
injection became really swollen for everyone. It basically looks like a
mosquito bite but three times larger but it hurts (and for some it
bruises). But after I got mine, even when I waited for a bit of time,
nothing happened and my skin was perfectly fine except for bits of blood
at the injection site o_o What does that mean?! I'm also wondering what
happened to the blood that came out because I didn't wipe/wash it off
and it just gradually disappeared as the day went by but it didn't go
onto my books or clothes... I don't know about you guys, but after the
blood test I saw my blood in the vial and I just felt sick. Seeing all
that which just came out from me is not cool :/ I don't care if it's
other people's blood or if I like scrape my skin and some blood comes
out but I just can't deal with seeing that much of my own blood.
Saw baulko people at scitech today! Wait was that even right. How am I supposed to say it T_T Cause we don't go to baulko anymore but if I say "usyd people" that's stupid cause that would cover oh about, 50000 people. Do I saw baulko-usyd people?
Ugh stupid stupid agen survey assignment thing. There's four questions and yet it takes me so long because I hate survey questions. I totally ranted in the "what don't you like" section and have yet to write anything in the "what you like" section. They say we can write whatever and it'll be fine but I reckon that's a lie and somehow I feel like if I truthfully tell them what I don't like (in the form of constructive criticism of course) they will mark me down anyway. Who knows. And they tell you to refer to the "rubric" when answering the questions and you want to know what the rubric looks like?
OH WOW so usefulllll /sarcasm.
And then there was this question too. Can I seriously just circle all the negative ones? I really don't like agen in the least. Like I don't even know what we're supposed to be learning because it's so all over the place and our lecturers just read the slides and that is seriously boring, you have to give me something on top of that.
In any case I didn't finish cause the questions are bleh and so I just checked when it was due again, because I know it's due tomorrow but I just don't know when. Found out it was due 11:59PM and you know what that means?
Finally getting the hang of genstat but seeing that ^ still makes me cry. I still stand by excel > genstat any day. One major pain is that saving anything on this is retarded. You can't save it as one nice simple file. You have to save the input, output, data and graphs as separate files or something ==
It occurs to me that I never addressed why I wrote that as the title. It's because today both of the ladies were like "it's okay, it only hurts like a mosquito bite." I can vouch that that is not true in the slightest. Mosquito bites are painless, I never feel them until I start scratching them and by then the mosquito is long gone (so since I can't feel them I never get to slap them before they bite me). So can doctors stop saying that! Everyone says that and it's NOT TRUE! My mum also said that needles hurt like an ant bite back when I was getting vaccinations for school when I was 5 and I cried because that was so not true and it hurt like hell T_T
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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my sunshine
links exchanged opened! just tag me but link me first
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OH WOW so usefulllll /sarcasm. 
