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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
 : Loves pink, food, ice-cream.
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anxiety?
written on Friday, March 14, 2014 @ 11:01 PM ✈
やっぱり ダメ なんだ/ yappari dame nan da = It's really no good after all
Umm first off, what the actual hell?? For some reason I have 20+ emails in my junk box that are in japanese saying "such and such" free! What.
It must be because it's Friday and thus the end of the week but somehow I feel really drained? The pain on my tongue persists and I still can't eat very much, which is probably contributing to my fatigue since I'm eating less than usual. I came home and mum said my face was really yellow (even though I'm asian) and she insisted I go see the doctor :/
I think I figured out why I always go with the "no medicine, just live with it" method every time I'm sick or something is wrong with me. It's because every time something DOES happen, usually the doctor can't do much and my dad gives me the "you're only in pain/sick because you don't sleep enough, and you don't eat the proper foods."
And yep that's exactly the lecture I got today (╥﹏╥) Even though it's true, as a person it still sucks to hear these sorts of things. That's probably why I do nothing when something's wrong cause I guess I kind of deserve it :/ But yeah doctor said I could do nothing and gave me this printout info sheet and on it, it says that the pain usually subsides after 3 to 4 days. Uh, this is my 5th day and it hasn't gotten any better, if anything it's worse x_x I'm glad my mum was genuinely worried about me though? And also even though my sister is sick right now she doesn't get the lectures I do （ಠ_ಠ）
Btw my body must really reject uni or something because last year at the start of uni my eczema flared up like crazy again, probably caused by anxiety? And now that we've returned to uni again I have my tongue problem. I don't know.
Now for some better news! Uhh for my 38 page report due in week 4 that we have to do after work experience I am halfway through ^^ I hope I can keep this up. Btw I got this email today:
And that was probably confusing since I didn't post this up earlier but it's to do with this (lol ignore our weird fridge magnet):
To be honest I didn't even know usyd gave out awards, that's how oblivious I am. Also I laugh because my grades weren't even good. If anyone is actually interested, I'll put it down here and please don't be mean about my grades okay :(
Yes, I fell down in second semester but it was because it was all science and my whole body was crying about that. Also VETS can die in a hole because that was one hell of a subject and we're still doing it this semester *kill me* Anyway please take note of BIOL1001 from first semester, it was the result that came out last for that semester and I honestly cried on the inside because of the 84 since that was ONE OFF FROM A HIGH DISTINCTION UGH. Not one actual mark of an exam I know but one "point" thing. So close yet so far (ಥ＿ಥ） Honestly in this situation I would have liked an 80 instead of 84 so I could sigh in defeat.
You can totally tell I hated bio in second semester (crappy topics, worse lecturers) since I droped a whole 10.0 yuck. Anyway yeah, first semester was 3 distinction, 1 HD and then everything dropped a level in second semester to 3 credits 1 distinction LOL. And all the credits were 1 off from distinction FML. So the only reason I could still be nominated for that thing is cause first semester was good enough to pull my average up :/
Btw when I told my dad about the $1000 he told me to shout my friends food haha so ask me if you dare xD
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anxiety?
written on Friday, March 14, 2014 @ 11:01 PM ✈
やっぱり ダメ なんだ/ yappari dame nan da = It's really no good after all
Umm first off, what the actual hell?? For some reason I have 20+ emails in my junk box that are in japanese saying "such and such" free! What.
It must be because it's Friday and thus the end of the week but somehow I feel really drained? The pain on my tongue persists and I still can't eat very much, which is probably contributing to my fatigue since I'm eating less than usual. I came home and mum said my face was really yellow (even though I'm asian) and she insisted I go see the doctor :/
I think I figured out why I always go with the "no medicine, just live with it" method every time I'm sick or something is wrong with me. It's because every time something DOES happen, usually the doctor can't do much and my dad gives me the "you're only in pain/sick because you don't sleep enough, and you don't eat the proper foods."
And yep that's exactly the lecture I got today (╥﹏╥) Even though it's true, as a person it still sucks to hear these sorts of things. That's probably why I do nothing when something's wrong cause I guess I kind of deserve it :/ But yeah doctor said I could do nothing and gave me this printout info sheet and on it, it says that the pain usually subsides after 3 to 4 days. Uh, this is my 5th day and it hasn't gotten any better, if anything it's worse x_x I'm glad my mum was genuinely worried about me though? And also even though my sister is sick right now she doesn't get the lectures I do （ಠ_ಠ）
Btw my body must really reject uni or something because last year at the start of uni my eczema flared up like crazy again, probably caused by anxiety? And now that we've returned to uni again I have my tongue problem. I don't know.
Now for some better news! Uhh for my 38 page report due in week 4 that we have to do after work experience I am halfway through ^^ I hope I can keep this up. Btw I got this email today:
And that was probably confusing since I didn't post this up earlier but it's to do with this (lol ignore our weird fridge magnet):
To be honest I didn't even know usyd gave out awards, that's how oblivious I am. Also I laugh because my grades weren't even good. If anyone is actually interested, I'll put it down here and please don't be mean about my grades okay :(
Yes, I fell down in second semester but it was because it was all science and my whole body was crying about that. Also VETS can die in a hole because that was one hell of a subject and we're still doing it this semester *kill me* Anyway please take note of BIOL1001 from first semester, it was the result that came out last for that semester and I honestly cried on the inside because of the 84 since that was ONE OFF FROM A HIGH DISTINCTION UGH. Not one actual mark of an exam I know but one "point" thing. So close yet so far (ಥ＿ಥ） Honestly in this situation I would have liked an 80 instead of 84 so I could sigh in defeat.
You can totally tell I hated bio in second semester (crappy topics, worse lecturers) since I droped a whole 10.0 yuck. Anyway yeah, first semester was 3 distinction, 1 HD and then everything dropped a level in second semester to 3 credits 1 distinction LOL. And all the credits were 1 off from distinction FML. So the only reason I could still be nominated for that thing is cause first semester was good enough to pull my average up :/
Btw when I told my dad about the $1000 he told me to shout my friends food haha so ask me if you dare xD
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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my sunshine
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