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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.

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written on Sunday, May 18, 2014 @ 9:56 PM ✈

Ugh so I had that dream again. I always get them every now and then, each time the exact happenings are a little different but it's essentially the same thing going on. And every time I have that dream I just feel an extreme sense of relief, surprise and happiness but then I wake up and am just utterly disorientated and distressed...

 So that happened as usual except when I woke up I was even more puzzled than usual because I just couldn't remember what exactly happened. I think it was only until breakfast that it started to come back.

 So what went down in the dream? I was in our backyard and I saw him again, and I ran to him and I was just so glad to see him again and when I looked at him closely he wasn't sick anymore. He was healthy and all fine and I was so glad about it I just faced our house again and yelled "Mum! Mum! Come look he's fine now! He's okay!" 

 But even though he was physically fine I remember thinking to myself that he was being more "quiet" than usual, keeping to himself on one side of our backyard and not really seeking out interaction which was weird since normally he's really friendly and loves to come up to anyone. That's probably when the dream ended because I don't remember anymore.

 I don't know why but this time round the dream hit me more than it usually does. Words honestly cannot describe how hard it is to see your pet not only get old, but get sick too. I mean, when they used to run around energetically like there was no tomorrow and then one day they no longer come running when you call them because they're that old it's just too sad... 

 Can't believe I even forgot the time I spent about $1500 for surgery fees and yes, it was my money. Can't believe I even had that sort of money back in year 9 and 10 from working. But even though they cut it out once and he was fine for a bit it just came back... 

 And there's really nothing sadder than not being able to do anything. Thinking back on it now, he really must have gone through a lot of pain and I'm just angry at myself. Peter, I'm really sorry. Honestly, you and Lucy taught me so much. Thank you.


Peter, wherever you are now boy, I hope you are doing well.
(Peter is the white one)
Thank you for the 8 years we spent together.

And if you thought this post was stupid.... well sorry.

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