夢と現実の間
Between dreams and reality
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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
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dream power
written on Friday, June 13, 2014 @ 10:30 PM ✈
First off, THANK YOU SO MUCH HAPPY APPLE for the wall stickers (ू˃̣̣̣̣̣̣︿˂̣̣̣̣̣̣
ू) Was honestly in shock when I woke up at 9am (yes I know it's late) to the mailman banging on our door and by the time I ran out I just found a tube on our porch and I was thinking that it couldn't possibly be mine since I hadn't ordered anything online in a while but when I opened it I was so touched by your thoughtfulness and your generosity especially because the last couple of days haven't been great (；´Д｀) So it really cheered me up!
Random note: almost forgot it was Friday the 13th today! Nothing ever really happens on it though haha.
So yesterday I did feel hungry really late at night but we ran out of bread which was the only thing I thought I could stomach so I had to look for something else. Found a can of peaches which looked decent but then I'm a can opener noob and all I managed to make was a couple of holes but couldn't get it to open (also I'm left handed so I can't turn it well?) so I just went to bed without eating anything OTL
I feel super guilty because it's only 10 o'clock but I honestly physically cannot study anymore tonight even though I know I'll be doomed if I stop. My head is actually pounding really hard (I guess this is what it would feel like if you were hungover but I wouldn't know) so I can't. I guess I did work the whole day though? But ahh I really cannot waste time like this!
I don't know if I mentioned this before, but I think I somewhat have the capacity to manipulate my dreams just a bit. I don't really have the power to dream about certain things like say "oh I want to dream about x tonight!" and then I have that dream -- no nothing like that. Back in late primary school all the way to middle of high school I use to get dreams every night but then there was this time I felt like I only had 3 the whole year. Nowadays I think I might get a couple a month.
Honestly I miss when I used to always have dreams because to me they were fun adventures. I even used to write them down and when I found my book recently I had no idea what I was talking about because I only wrote it in short detail so it made no sense to me now OTL. Anyway yes, whenever I get nightmares or really strange dreams I don't like, the dream me always has this weird sense that just stops and goes "wait, this doesn't seem real. Wake up!" So usually I'm saved from nightmares pretty quickly and I'm just brought back to reality. Ahaha, I remember this dream I had in semester one last year that I got a credit in biology and dream me said "NOOOOO" and forced me to wake up.
Sometimes when I fall into a really light sleep just before I'm meant to wake up, or if I nap on the train I have these really short dreams that seem pretty realistic but the me inside just somehow knows it's not reality? But I find it entertaining and I tell myself "oh, well let's just see what happens if I do x!" Hmm sounds a little weird so let's think of an example. Ah this isn't really an example, but sometimes if I really liked a dream and I wake up suddenly thinking it's wake up time and it turns out it isn't, when I go back to sleep I can fall back into the dream and carry on normally.
And there are other times when it's a dream I DO like, but I know it's a dream and then I get to control it? Don't ask me why but once we were having a party in my backyard and it started raining, so I was like "okay let's stop this then" and I just raised my hands towards the sky and made it stop. Or when someone is chasing me and I feel they're gaining on me, the dream me tells me to fly and then up I go! Ah~~~ my dreams are so weird.
So two days ago on that really bad day I had (dream did not cause it though), I had a dream about Peter and Johnson this time. This is the first time I've had dreams about them so often. But anyway for some reason there were a lot of people gathered at this large paddock and we just all put our animals together so they could have fun. There were dogs, cats, goats(??) and I put Peter and Johnson there and I was watching them happily. For some reason we were lighting candles in the grass of the paddock because we were celebrating someone's birthday but they acted like fireworks and spluttered a bit (didn't go to the sky though) and made typical fireworks noises and scared the animals. And then I just spent the rest of the dream being distressed because I couldn't find Peter and Johnson. I don't know why but these are the dreams I never seem to successfully tell myself to wake up from...
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dream power
written on Friday, June 13, 2014 @ 10:30 PM ✈
First off, THANK YOU SO MUCH HAPPY APPLE for the wall stickers (ू˃̣̣̣̣̣̣︿˂̣̣̣̣̣̣
ू) Was honestly in shock when I woke up at 9am (yes I know it's late) to the mailman banging on our door and by the time I ran out I just found a tube on our porch and I was thinking that it couldn't possibly be mine since I hadn't ordered anything online in a while but when I opened it I was so touched by your thoughtfulness and your generosity especially because the last couple of days haven't been great (；´Д｀) So it really cheered me up!
Random note: almost forgot it was Friday the 13th today! Nothing ever really happens on it though haha.
So yesterday I did feel hungry really late at night but we ran out of bread which was the only thing I thought I could stomach so I had to look for something else. Found a can of peaches which looked decent but then I'm a can opener noob and all I managed to make was a couple of holes but couldn't get it to open (also I'm left handed so I can't turn it well?) so I just went to bed without eating anything OTL
I feel super guilty because it's only 10 o'clock but I honestly physically cannot study anymore tonight even though I know I'll be doomed if I stop. My head is actually pounding really hard (I guess this is what it would feel like if you were hungover but I wouldn't know) so I can't. I guess I did work the whole day though? But ahh I really cannot waste time like this!
I don't know if I mentioned this before, but I think I somewhat have the capacity to manipulate my dreams just a bit. I don't really have the power to dream about certain things like say "oh I want to dream about x tonight!" and then I have that dream -- no nothing like that. Back in late primary school all the way to middle of high school I use to get dreams every night but then there was this time I felt like I only had 3 the whole year. Nowadays I think I might get a couple a month.
Honestly I miss when I used to always have dreams because to me they were fun adventures. I even used to write them down and when I found my book recently I had no idea what I was talking about because I only wrote it in short detail so it made no sense to me now OTL. Anyway yes, whenever I get nightmares or really strange dreams I don't like, the dream me always has this weird sense that just stops and goes "wait, this doesn't seem real. Wake up!" So usually I'm saved from nightmares pretty quickly and I'm just brought back to reality. Ahaha, I remember this dream I had in semester one last year that I got a credit in biology and dream me said "NOOOOO" and forced me to wake up.
Sometimes when I fall into a really light sleep just before I'm meant to wake up, or if I nap on the train I have these really short dreams that seem pretty realistic but the me inside just somehow knows it's not reality? But I find it entertaining and I tell myself "oh, well let's just see what happens if I do x!" Hmm sounds a little weird so let's think of an example. Ah this isn't really an example, but sometimes if I really liked a dream and I wake up suddenly thinking it's wake up time and it turns out it isn't, when I go back to sleep I can fall back into the dream and carry on normally.
And there are other times when it's a dream I DO like, but I know it's a dream and then I get to control it? Don't ask me why but once we were having a party in my backyard and it started raining, so I was like "okay let's stop this then" and I just raised my hands towards the sky and made it stop. Or when someone is chasing me and I feel they're gaining on me, the dream me tells me to fly and then up I go! Ah~~~ my dreams are so weird.
So two days ago on that really bad day I had (dream did not cause it though), I had a dream about Peter and Johnson this time. This is the first time I've had dreams about them so often. But anyway for some reason there were a lot of people gathered at this large paddock and we just all put our animals together so they could have fun. There were dogs, cats, goats(??) and I put Peter and Johnson there and I was watching them happily. For some reason we were lighting candles in the grass of the paddock because we were celebrating someone's birthday but they acted like fireworks and spluttered a bit (didn't go to the sky though) and made typical fireworks noises and scared the animals. And then I just spent the rest of the dream being distressed because I couldn't find Peter and Johnson. I don't know why but these are the dreams I never seem to successfully tell myself to wake up from...
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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my sunshine
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