夢と現実の間
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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
 : Loves pink, food, ice-cream.
Summer is my eternal love.
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written on Thursday, June 12, 2014 @ 10:17 PM ✈
Even though it's only been a short while I already think I can laugh at the irony of it all. I think now I can laugh at how you just threw me away without so much as saying anything. I think I can laugh about that stupid story you told me about some girl you met at KFC who you had a "connection" with.
I guess it's a little scary to be on my own for the first time in so long but we were born this way right? So even though I was down I'm going to get back up. If I continue living like this being a brat then I'm just going to become more stupid. I'll just have to try to keep walking forward and see where this road goes.
If I were able to wish for one thing though, it's not to throw away objects related to you but to delete my memories (oh how I wish). Because apparently they don't mean anything to you so there's no point in me having them either. Funny how I'm too dumb to remember the important stuff (for exams and such) but I remember so many of our useless memories.
It's funny because even if I felt sad before nothing even comes out anymore and I think I'm already finding things funny in hindsight at how insignificant it all became. Am I seriously a masochist? I'll admit I still have moments where I get swallowed by the past and my mind just spirals but I have to discipline myself mentally or there's no going forward for me. LOL read on the internet that you should slap yourself in the face whenever that happens and yep, I actually tried it (damn am I actually a masochist??) and then it happened again but before I could raise my hand to slap myself I already flinched, funniest moment of today I guess.
Anyway suits could not have come back at a better time, thanks Shirls for telling me! Yeah, I suck at remembering when shows come back. The only thing I'm always up to date on is NARUTO!
EDIT: Oh lord the episode was so good, funny at the beginning and serious at the end and all in all I was happy I watched it, it really helped to lift me up a little.
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written on Thursday, June 12, 2014 @ 10:17 PM ✈
Even though it's only been a short while I already think I can laugh at the irony of it all. I think now I can laugh at how you just threw me away without so much as saying anything. I think I can laugh about that stupid story you told me about some girl you met at KFC who you had a "connection" with.
I guess it's a little scary to be on my own for the first time in so long but we were born this way right? So even though I was down I'm going to get back up. If I continue living like this being a brat then I'm just going to become more stupid. I'll just have to try to keep walking forward and see where this road goes.
If I were able to wish for one thing though, it's not to throw away objects related to you but to delete my memories (oh how I wish). Because apparently they don't mean anything to you so there's no point in me having them either. Funny how I'm too dumb to remember the important stuff (for exams and such) but I remember so many of our useless memories.
It's funny because even if I felt sad before nothing even comes out anymore and I think I'm already finding things funny in hindsight at how insignificant it all became. Am I seriously a masochist? I'll admit I still have moments where I get swallowed by the past and my mind just spirals but I have to discipline myself mentally or there's no going forward for me. LOL read on the internet that you should slap yourself in the face whenever that happens and yep, I actually tried it (damn am I actually a masochist??) and then it happened again but before I could raise my hand to slap myself I already flinched, funniest moment of today I guess.
Anyway suits could not have come back at a better time, thanks Shirls for telling me! Yeah, I suck at remembering when shows come back. The only thing I'm always up to date on is NARUTO!
EDIT: Oh lord the episode was so good, funny at the beginning and serious at the end and all in all I was happy I watched it, it really helped to lift me up a little.
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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