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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.

: Loves pink, food, ice-cream.

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recent update :
written on Wednesday, June 11, 2014 @ 11:13 PM ✈

To all those sending me messages, believe me when I say it means a lot. I make sure to remember your feelings when I get down.

Warning: unnecessary rambles (even more so than usual) coming up so please don't bother reading further.

 So it pretty much suddenly occurred to me yesterday what my problem is, and it's something I haven't had in a long time so it hit me in the face pretty hard. This is round two of the case of "lost appetite." I guess it pretty much started since last week Wednesday (I remember because I actually felt grossed out by the smell for once during dissection prac??) and I just always feel like something is going to come out of my mouth (vomit) but it never actually does. And so many different foods make me feel "sick" and I just feel no urge to eat anything at all and if you know how much I love food, this is so depressing. Even foods that I normally love I can't even stomach. I don't know what's wrong with me and I don't know how to fix it. Couldn't even have breakfast or lunch. 

 You know it's bad when mum comes home and tells me my face looks "yellow" (typical Chinese thing to say meaning you look sick) and that I have large black circles around my eyes.

 And to top it all off I just feel like if it was possible, I'd crumble completely right now. My body, my mind, my spirit, it all feels weak. And that someone who was in my life for so long wants nothing more than to say "goodbye" and actually has already left without so much as saying anything else. In the end, I wasn't even worth anymore words than that and now I can't even talk to them. So now all I can do is sit here thinking about all the memories and knowing that they're just worth nothing to anybody now and I don't know what to do.

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