夢と現実の間
Between dreams and reality
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Tracy desu yo, pessimist and world’s worst procrastinator. Uni student with still a lot of things to learn. Interests include otome games, Naruto and Japanese.
 : Loves pink, food, ice-cream.
Summer is my eternal love.
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let the panic settle in
written on Sunday, September 14, 2014 @ 10:15 PM ✈
No matter how panicked I was for semester 1 finals (and I have no idea how I got through that), I feel like right now is 10 times worse. I really dislike semester 2, no more stats to cut through the thick fat that is the pain of doing 4 science subjects and nothing else. I did so badly last semester 2 and to be honest I think this time will be the same. Probably all 70's if I'm lucky. I put it down to being too burned out from semester 1, and I'm not even joking.
Did I mention I have two 8am exams? Seriously GG, I'm not even functioning at 8am (normally falling asleep on a train) and that means I have to get up at lovely 5:30am. Seriously wish I could be an elephant, remembering things from 40 years ago easily and only needing 5 hours of sleep a day. Must be great.
Reasons I'm worried for tomorrow's conservation exam:
1. I'm not awake at 8am
2. It's a 2 hour exam worth 45%. Reading time is 15 minutes. Goodbye everything I remembered.
3. THE READINGS. Ugh, 20% of the exam is on our readings and I don't even know how you can test that because he's SPECIFIC and it's not like we can remember every single step of the methods and results and we're just measly second years! We don't always understand all the technical stuff that scientists write about in their methods so how are we meant to do this??
4. Because he's specific, it means I'm already screwed because I barely remember concepts as it is and I can't do what everyone says, which is to "bluff" because I sit there not writing anything knowing they will immediately suss out that I'm fluffing and laugh for 10 hours while marking my paper. He also said that even if you have correct things written, anything wrong means negative marks ==
5. No multiple choice. ALL "short" answers (who are they kidding, they're essays) and when you don't know anything YOU'RE SCREWED.
Ugh, and Naruto Shippuden Revolution comes out on Tuesday and while everybody else can play, here I am having to practice self restraint and wait two weeks to play. I'm dying on the inside everyday. At least last time when I received my game it was the day before cell bio exam so the day after I could play but I'm already dreading the wait til midsem break.
On a different note, I don't even want to remember these things anymore, I want to forget all about you because you've already done that to me. But no matter how much I struggle to do that, my mind is still stupidly showing me dreams about things long gone. And when I wake up, all I'm left with is that familiar sense of loss that I spent all this time trying to forget. If it's going to be like this then I'd rather not dream at all.
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let the panic settle in
written on Sunday, September 14, 2014 @ 10:15 PM ✈
No matter how panicked I was for semester 1 finals (and I have no idea how I got through that), I feel like right now is 10 times worse. I really dislike semester 2, no more stats to cut through the thick fat that is the pain of doing 4 science subjects and nothing else. I did so badly last semester 2 and to be honest I think this time will be the same. Probably all 70's if I'm lucky. I put it down to being too burned out from semester 1, and I'm not even joking.
Did I mention I have two 8am exams? Seriously GG, I'm not even functioning at 8am (normally falling asleep on a train) and that means I have to get up at lovely 5:30am. Seriously wish I could be an elephant, remembering things from 40 years ago easily and only needing 5 hours of sleep a day. Must be great.
Reasons I'm worried for tomorrow's conservation exam:
1. I'm not awake at 8am
2. It's a 2 hour exam worth 45%. Reading time is 15 minutes. Goodbye everything I remembered.
3. THE READINGS. Ugh, 20% of the exam is on our readings and I don't even know how you can test that because he's SPECIFIC and it's not like we can remember every single step of the methods and results and we're just measly second years! We don't always understand all the technical stuff that scientists write about in their methods so how are we meant to do this??
4. Because he's specific, it means I'm already screwed because I barely remember concepts as it is and I can't do what everyone says, which is to "bluff" because I sit there not writing anything knowing they will immediately suss out that I'm fluffing and laugh for 10 hours while marking my paper. He also said that even if you have correct things written, anything wrong means negative marks ==
5. No multiple choice. ALL "short" answers (who are they kidding, they're essays) and when you don't know anything YOU'RE SCREWED.
Ugh, and Naruto Shippuden Revolution comes out on Tuesday and while everybody else can play, here I am having to practice self restraint and wait two weeks to play. I'm dying on the inside everyday. At least last time when I received my game it was the day before cell bio exam so the day after I could play but I'm already dreading the wait til midsem break.
On a different note, I don't even want to remember these things anymore, I want to forget all about you because you've already done that to me. But no matter how much I struggle to do that, my mind is still stupidly showing me dreams about things long gone. And when I wake up, all I'm left with is that familiar sense of loss that I spent all this time trying to forget. If it's going to be like this then I'd rather not dream at all.
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Japan and Korea 2015 Masterlist
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Summer TO-DO List
((to be updated as I think of more things while I procrastinate))
✮ Foster kittens
✮ Clean out closet
✮ Make LOTS of ice-cream
✮ Bake + Cook (and use the molds and kits I bought from Japan)
✮ Study Japanese (JLPT N2 level)
✮ Learn basic Korean sentence structures
✮ Play Dousei Kareshi (~50 hours right there, what with my slow Japanese reading speed)
✮ Finishing playing Naruto Shippuden Ultimate Ninja Storm Revolution
✮ Buy Naruto -The Last- Movie DVD and then rewatch it
✮ Start applying for things……..
✮ Invite people over to drink the endless amounts of tea I have
✮ Make things with the alcohol and liquor stash I have (lol)
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my sunshine
links exchanged opened! just tag me but link me first
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